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If you can really get results with the business, then I would not bother with a job. But just by the wording of "fast business" it isn't really going to be a good route for success. This type of thinking and mindset will probably prevent you from getting those results. I am about the same age and similar situation. I have a running business that is paying the bills. Have a toss up with life purpose and that. My main issue is not having enough clarity with the life purpose. Something I need to dive into and work on. I want to get my finances handled though. I have been spending a lot of time on personal development, which has been excellent. My growth has been tremendous. I am working on building a better work ethic for myself and getting this business up to par to get me saving well and building up a good amount of cash. I feel that urgency to have my shit more handled at this age. I have taken a lot of time and stuff for granted here. That and just not being developed enough to get use out of it earlier. My progress now has been stellar though as I have navigated through it. One thing that would be more painful for me to do is to just get a job and move out. It would allow me to grow fairly rapidly I bet. That might be a good route for you. On the other hand my business requires a good amount of physical space. I have that here and my set up I have built for this is amazing. It is becoming really efficient and working well. I know if I moved out I would likely feel more confident with myself. I have come to the realization that I could work on myself to a level where I don't need pressure to be getting the results out of my business. If I keep constructing this I can build my income level high enough to give me a lot of options on what I want to do within the next year. I can see there is excuses with myself to not leave here. I am refining my aim and setting goals that are going to set me up well. I know if I build up a good amount of savings I could maintain being self employed once I move out too. I realize there is a lot of social pressure to move out too. I feel that as well. I can see there is a lot of benefits of being independent. I would keep them back a bit longer to secure not having to be a wage slave myself. I have a huge opportunity staying here to improve myself. I don't want to blow it. Hope my situation can maybe give you some ideas on what might work for you too.

Really crushing it with the routine. I am thinking about expanding it to four hours of work in the morning. Then in the evening doing lighter PC work. I seemed to be flying through the items that I was doing. I am working on breaking through this resistance of getting in deeper with my work. I think this is really going to help propel me well. I want to focus in on my finances as much as I can for awhile. I want to build a much more abundant mindset for myself too. I am over $27,000 listed now. I am really getting the ball rolling. I am shooting to get to $30,000 before the month ends. I am going to try to do over $10,000 listed a month into December for my goal. I noticed I am a bit sick it seems like, but I still manged to keep energy fairly high until about noon after working out. I am really starting to stick this sleeping habit really well. Even if I sleep in it is only a bit longer than my old alarm it seems. My 4:30 habit is not in effect, but still fairly early. I am going to keep making progress in the right direction. I seem to be growing the possibility to be an online business consultant more. I seem to have some potential clients. I feel like I need to be clear with this partner for this of where I am with it though. I really don't fully know what I want. I know that I want to reach a good level of financial security, then pursue a life purpose. I know that doing the consulting would be fairly fun. I would enjoy it and it would be a good skill to build up. I feel bad in the sense that I have done this twice with this person going back and forth with what I might do. I know I should not make a decision based on that. I think I should be honest with them and just explain where I am coming from. I might even just do some of these for free just because. I allow myself to effortlessly reach my listing goal of $50,000. Today I am thankful for: Good work Getting listings up Awaiting progress

More of what I mean is the being friends and moving into a dating relationship type dynamic. With my experience it has seemed highly ineffective. Seems better to go towards one end or the other from the start. Not that a friendship could not develop into something more. I feel like this is in good part why this has seemed to have blown up a bit. I am sure a good relationship could form out of friendship though too. I had a girl I initially was attracted too she was aware of that, but she had a boyfriend and let me know right away. I actually ended up hanging out with them and playing league of legends at their house lol. The friendship did not last, but they were pretty cool. We just lost touch over the years. I agree there is a lot of progress to be made with anything. Just something to consider to keep chipping away at. I would recommend practicing letting go. I can tell it is giving me a lot more power and peace of mind with my interactions with women lately. That and my overall life in general.

@Lyubov Go join some clubs in the meantime if you are really lonely. If someone stopped being friends with you over that I would not bother. I never had luck having the opposite sex as friend anyway, so that is probably a bad place to start. That relationship sounds like it would be really needy on both ends anyway. Work on getting to the root of the loneliness. Leo has a great video on it. Something I have been working on too. I have had similar dynamics with messaging friends and stuff. I have worked on releasing a lot of the baggage of trying to get approval from others. That and really getting more comfortable with it just being myself. I am in clubs and other social things. I don't really hang out with people in person often at all. Most of my friends are in another state. It's been a battle for me the last year or so and it has really sky rocketed my growth. I cut off all of my unhealthy relationships. Work on getting more abundance with friendships as well. Don't rely on the opposite sex for that as much in my opinion. Especially since it seems like you are wanting more than a friendship it is just a recipe for disaster. Women that keep you around like that and know you want them seem to be unhealthy in my experience. Plus the chances of it working out seem to be seldom. I did that a lot, when I was really needy and not confident. Do some work on yourself and come back to the women later. Once you overcome more of the neediness it gets super easy to get women in my experience. Seems to be once you don't care about being in a relationship at all then, they want to be in one with you.

Getting back on track. I am making some serious progress with listings. I am about to reach $27,000 listed and that is with me lowering the price on quite a bit of stuff that dragged down my value about $800. I am working on mass sorting all of the comic books right now. I have a thousand or so to go through. I have a process to check the prices fairly quick and I am going to do big bundles mostly by the series. I am going to start rounding up the last bit of random stuff that is worth listing. I do need to make sure my last big ticket items are up by the end of the month. This need to be a top priority. Sales seem to be picking up a bit. I am starting to desire moving out more. I think that it would help grow me a good bit. I imagine it would feel fucking awesome as well. I need to tackle a few things while I still live here. I want a stable income with reselling or another business. I need a good amount of savings to be able to handle fluctuations. I really need to work on my work ethic and get my stuff down to build this up for myself. I need to not be distracted by girls and other crap as much. I really want to focus in on this part of my life and really get it nailed down. I need to work through more limiting beliefs with money too. I am putting that as a priority to work on. I also need to work on building really good habits around this to get me to work harder and more consistently. I can see that I have made some big improvements though on myself. Actually, to think that I have really even listed and got this much stuff up in just a few months is pretty mind blowing. I was down on myself a bit about it, but to have put up $17,000 worth of items in a few months is a great feat for me. I am striving for even more than that. I need to work on being less harsh on myself with that. I still need to work on building vision for myself. I know that I want to do something that leaves a good impact on others. I think a lot about the self-help type stuff. I realize that I only really know so much about the world as it is. My development has changed my views and how I relate to the world pretty drastically in just the last few years. I am sure that will only continue to increase in intensity as I dive deeper into things like spirituality. I want to build a more independent future for myself. I want to master my emotions. I want to master money. I want to have amazing relationships. I want to evolve myself so much that I can make great change in others. I want to create an amazing life. I want to wake up every day excited about the work I am going to do. I want to have my life be full of passion and purpose. I want to be someone that makes a positive change in the world. I want to inspire others to be fucking awesome. I want to give people the opportunity to have a great life. I want to become a masterful speaker. I want to overcome laziness and fatigue. I want to break through my limiting beliefs. I want financial independence. I allow myself to effortlessly reach my listing goal of $50,000. Today I am thankful for: Awesome weather Great release session Making progress

Psychedelics could help you explore this issue. I seem to have over come it myself to a pretty good degree using LSD. I have found some of the stuff by Benjamin hicks helpful for getting rid of that. Working on things like building an abundance mind set and positive thinking help a lot. Work resolving trauma that you may have surrounding money. I have been robbed, cheated, etc quite a bit and working through that stuff helped me remove a lot of that issue too.

I would see if you can find some sort of a music store liquidating. I have seen the sound proofing foam and stuff pretty much for free. I am sure there might be more to it, but even that would help.

Did not wake up as early as I wanted, but I got a lot done getting the business in the right direction. This time allocation is great. I am starting to pick up some pretty good sales it seems like too now. I looked and I had actually seen that most sellers were having a good dip. I am still waking up near I was, but I really have to get to sleep earlier and fall asleep a bit faster to actually get up when I want. It seems really easy and fluid to get the stuff I want done at that time of the day. I don't nearly have as much resistance. I use to think of myself as more of a night worker, but this seems to be more effective. Made some great progress on the sedona method. I have not really been reading much else, so I feel like I have not been up to par with what I was at. I would like to read more a day than an hour. I probably should read a bit more on the weekend I think. I have been gaming quite a bit and I notice that isn't good in excess. I want to limit it a good bit. I also think it would be cool to find other fun things to do that get me out. I skipped going to a bar with the only local friend I have. I don't know I want to hike and stuff with him or bowl, but it seems like he isn't really doing that much. I could go bowling by myself I suppose. I am starting to feel confident enough to do approaches for women. I have the eye contact, smile, etc down. I notice I do feel a bit put off by really hot girls though. Something I could work on. I am working on getting to the level of doing an approach once, when I am at the lake working out or reading. This will be a good area for me to break through. I honestly feel kind of bad because I am not sure if I want a girlfriend. I guess that is part of my issue with dating too is too easily getting in a relationship. I need to have a good amount for the cut off. I still feel like I want to study relationships and stuff a bit more. I guess I am just working on attraction really right now. I almost feel like I want to do youtube again. I am having an issue with not sticking to something long enough right now. I realize I stopped mostly from resistance. I also do see the importance of building the financial stability with the reselling. I need to power through this. I could build the business into something that will require minimal effort to pay my bills and I can start pursuing a life purpose again. I know I have so much I want to learn and expand into. Enlightenment sounds intriguing. Dating sounds intriguing. Life purpose seems to be clawing at me too. I need to maintain focus on one thing at a time for sure. The sedona method right now is top priority in terms of practice. That has already made some huge progress within me. I allow myself to effortlessly reach my listing goal of $50,000. Today I am thankful for: Great energy Getting back on track with core work out Feeling really motivated

You might experience it more after a trip for a awhile. Other drugs and stimulants seem to make it worse for derealization in my experience. I would highly recommend quitting stuff like caffeine or smoking weed. I would recommend you work on grounding yourself more with things like mediation. It will really help take the edge off it. Working on building healthy habits will make a world of a difference with your daily being as well. Lsd might be able to help, but it sounds like it contributed to the issue in the first place. Of course if you might put yourself in some sort of danger of injuring yourself again I would not bother. Take some time to really study the substance before you make a choice.

I feel like I really need to buckle down and make some progress financially. No bullshit excuses. I am going to reach my goal and exceed it. I need to keep my sleeping schedule very well maintained. Going to keep aiming to even get up at 4:30 am more often so I can utilize my energy most efficiently. I took a bunch of cheap items and shit that was getting in the way to the dump. I might even go again once I work on my shed, but fro the most part I can usually toss a bit in the dumpster gradually. I need to make sure all my work areas are clean for optimal efficiency. I am thinking about hitting a relatively high amount of listings up, then working on pursuing life purpose again. Once I reach about $70,000 my income should start getting pretty consistent. I am going to try to do more whole sale and stuff that take up less time. Might even hire more to get rid of less work load on my end. This should give me a good runway for looking. I am not as much so after money. Of course I want the stability. Reselling seems to be good for that once I structure this business enough. There is some fears about changing to something else, which is reasonable. I need to keep exploring though. Same with maxing out my personal progress. I still need some work on building a vision for my life. I think I should start working on the LP course again instead of studying enlightenment maybe. I could probably work on enlightenment practices into my routine I suppose without much issue. It just seemed like with the sedona method for example I got results quite fast from doing it an hour a day. I allow myself to effortlessly reach my listing goal of $50,000. Today I am thankful for: Toast masters Waking up easily Lots of cleaning done

Getting some major momentum on my reselling business. Really starting to get through the cutter and make some space. Working on getting everything that I can up for sale. Going into this week I have a thousand or so comics to put up. Still need to do the few larger items that I have been needing to do. Getting very close to getting to the posters. It has been a pretty slow q4 so far. It sounded like there is a good possibility of the stimulus, so we will see. It seems like it is holding up enough though either way. I just need to get more on top of adding in the items. Just about to break 26k now, which is not too crazy. I have a lot of really good items pictured and ready to list though. I imagine just in those there is some thousands for sure. I am doing really good with my daily schedule. I did reselling work three times today in different segments and got through a lot of stuff. I know once I can apply this to posters I am going to have some major momentum going. Coming up with a more concise plan for the reselling. I am going to keep expanding this business for sure. I can see a good pathway for me to do it and reach a good amount of financial stability. I am going to keep up with heavily working on myself. I can see myself mastering all sorts of stuff. My growth seems to get faster each year. I know that I need to build more challenge for myself though if I really want to grow. I can see how staying here stagnates my growth a bit in terms of challenge. I am wondering how I can reach a point of growth without so much suffering. I have definitely got the suffering part down pretty good it seems like lol. I do see that I am making a lot of progress though. The ability to even be here has allowed me to have the time to actually pursue this stuff as heavily as I have. I feel like I need to grind to reach a good amount of stability to just leave. Leaving and struggling could make me work more for sure. I want to be able to push myself hard no matter if the circumstance is favorable or not though too. Still quite a bit of seconds thoughts with something like a girlfriend. I feel like there is so much value in my solitude right now. The thought of the sex and fun sounds good. Once I think about the time it could eat up I am not really sure. I mean if they were maybe into some similar stuff I could see it. I realize I have some major work to do with theory too. I have had a few long term relationships and a fair amount of experience with girls. Not in the way I am imagine some high quality books and teachers could show me though. I only experienced on my own. I need to work on creating a larger vision for my life. Lately I have been thinking a lot about being some sort of leader. In some way tying it into all of the things I am learning and the worldview I am establishing. Something I ponder quite a bit lately. I see a lot of value in all this work on myself, mastering speaking, and getting this reselling business right. Mind blowing to think how much has changed and happened in the last 5 years. I can imagine what I could really do in the next 5. I allow myself to effortlessly reach my listing go of $50,000. Today I am thankful for: Great workflow Awesome dinner Good day

Sadly you are not going to find any health food at any fast food join or really any restaurant for that matter. However, I managed to gradually just shift towards healthier options with my food. Maybe you start by removing the cheese or something. Or going somewhere with better options. Gradually working your way up to better and better options. I would say a critical skill to develop would be what actually is a healthy option. Many fine distinctions to be made. Also, healthier food is not going to get cheaper. I spend way more money eating the stuff I do now, but everything is organic and the best quality I can find. Of course making and preparing meals can save you some money though too. Buying in bulk at places like costco if you have it. Invest in some reusable glassware to take and you could do some healthy meal preps you could find on youtube. Would make a massive difference in your energy and mood. I mean it might sound obvious, but maybe consider trying to work somewhere with less stress. Sounds like this is a good chunk of the problem. Not to mention you would feel healthier in a better environment too.

I did a year off games and just game back recently. I am playing one day a week as a day to just blow off some steam. I have a very clean life style with media intake etc. I find it helps me and I am a bit excited to play on the day. I have some negative effects from it that others might not get. I get a good amount of balance of doing the whole next day with no electronics and meditation. One thing I notice is a lot of the games are just super violent anymore. I have not found a title that I would enjoy that is not it seems like. I have to admit it is a bit of a con to it. Leo had mentioned a good tip was to just spend time playing the best games. Not just filling your time with games, but playing high quality ones when they come out. That had a good effect on me for how I would look at them. I notice now there is not many good games out at all. I also might not have got the taste I am looking for though either. I do like survival exploring type games, so might give the Cyberpunk 2077 @Preety_India mentioned a try. I found it to be the same with music too. I cut out all of my music for a month and came back to do a full reset. I allowed myself to explore all sorts of stuff and found much more enjoyable and higher conscious stuff. With myself I notice a slight fear of getting too sucked into them though. I can't imagine I would blow my time like I use to though lol. My self control is really good though anymore. I could just stop playing them altogether if I wanted to. But I do have an authentic desire to play them and I probably need to add something fun into my life style. I rarely hangout with people in person anymore and I might take up stuff like solo hiking and stuff soon, but I am probably not going to do that every weekend. This might give you some thoughts on it too. Worth a listen for sure.

Testing getting up really early for two days in a row. I notice that there is certain hours in the morning it is easier to wake up and certain ones where I could fall back asleep easier. Even today and yesterday with a bit less sleep than normal it was actually easier to stay awake during this time period. Although, I will have to see how that goes. I actually feel like doing some reselling work and it is really early lol. Starting to listen to a mastermind call for resellers a bit too. I realize that I need to keep up with some information and motivation from this stuff. I have learned some incredible tips occasionally too. I have found things that have saved me thousands of dollars and made thousands of dollars looking at this type of stuff. Although, I really limit it a lot anymore because I need to actually do the work instead of listening to it. I feel quite energized today. I am going to see how this will hold up. I want to start working on refining this powerful routine even more. I know that I can get a lot more out of my day if I keep picking at it. So far I have meditated for 25 minutes, cooked breakfast, and browsed here a bit. Nothing crazy. I seem to have used a up a bit more time than I though. Although, I am adjusting and I cannot expect all of my time to be exactly how I want it. I want to work on listing 10-15 items a day myself and this will be super powerful. This will have a huge snowball effect on my income if I build this habit. Reading up on ego development theory and it is very intriguing. Since I have been doing the sedona method book I have not been doing any heavy reading and it feels great and inciting. I am actually getting close to finishing the sedona method book. It has been super helpful towards my emotional mastery. I bought a phhysical copy to book mark and highlight to keep redoing the practices. I can see this one being in my top books to reread of reference. I allow myself to effortlessly reach my goal of $50,000 of listed items. Today I am thankful for: Great breakfast Motivated Up early

Didn't get much done today. I had an allergic reaction today, but that is not much of an excuse. I really blew it a bit with the sleeping in. I have the will power to power through this. I was thinking about training myself to get up even earlier for more undisturbed hours. If I had time working on reselling in the morning and the evening I think it would help me get more of a rhythm down. I could work on cleaning testing in the morning, then picturing the items in the evening. This is going to take a bit more will power, but I am going to try it out. I have the time and I think by splitting my time up like this it will help me out out the max during each session. I did get a little done at least for today and it seems like sales are coming back a bit. I hope they can pick up a bit more though. To top it off I have a buyer for a $60 offer they sent and I cannot accept it. So I kind wonder if there is more of a technical issue suppressing sales. This actually happened last year too from a known issue on there lol. My meditation day went amazing actually. I got the most hours of meditation in this time by far. I was doing 25 minutes at a time, then stretching in between each session. I notice that my desire for playing games and such declines a lot in this state. I feel as if I don't want those things. Of course this resets as a I go into the week. At the same time I feel like my day with games helps set the mood to play though. I notice that I do have a good amount of thoughts about the games the next day in meditation though. It feels like I waste so much time, but at the same time I'm not some sort of machine that can only do work and meditate and the moment. It is tough to not have something to blow off some steam. I had facebook and other bullshit that would take that time before. Not to say that even browsing here is always good, but it does give me a lot of higher conscious perspectives and I have learned some life changing stuff just being here. I feel like I am wasting too much time and not really getting to work with my ebay business. I really need to wrap up these items that are holding me up asap. If I can get to the posters my income will change a lot. I need to get these items up now while Q4 is just starting. I am really hoping sales are good. They will likely be through the roof if the stimulus stuff happens, but I am not going to rely on it. I allow myself to effortlessly reach my listing goal of $50,000. Today I am thankful for: Laserdisc player working good Good run in Good weather coming back!

Going to do a day of no electronics tomorrow. I noticed I felt really good into the week coming off of the weekend from it last time. I am getting better, but it is a it harder. I notice it really broke off the urge to play games as much for a bit too. I am going to keep just playing them on Saturdays. I kind of feel like working on getting a girlfriend. seems to be a strange change for me. It sounds really enjoyable. I don't really have anyone I spend a lot of time in person with, so maybe that is the case. I feel less lonely though. I guess I feel like I could really treat someone well and have good adventures with them. I felt strongly towards that today. I think about possibly having kids one day a bit more lately too. Although, I feel as if I would avoid them to advance myself further and potentially enjoy this life more. I guess the idea of being so locked down kind of sucks. I think part of me is insecure about living with my mom and not having a lot of money. although, I feel as if I have some good prospects going for me. I am really building some good and have a lot of personal development behind me. I want to work eliminating the insecurities. I do want to advance my situation further too though. I really need to get more on top of my reselling business this week. I really need to get these items cleaned, tested, and pictured to get to posters asap. I need to allocate more hours and get through this. I am hoping sales explode because they have been quite slow right now. Either way I need the items up, so it does not really matter much. I should think more of doing the life purpose more full time. I feel like I need to grind out this business for longer though and get it more sustainable with less effort. Hard to consider though if I want to move out. Feels like I need to go all in on reselling. I allow myself to effortlessly achieve my goal of listing $50,000 worth of items. Today I am thankful for: Beach Good traffic Groceries

@AnthonyR Honestly, I would just work on moving on from it. Scaring them is just going to take up your time and energy. A big issue is going to be self-bias too. You can imagine once the person was repeating the story the narrative starting to build more and more into their favor. It might not even be as much as they want to lie, but they believe the story they are telling. You can finder cheaper body shops and such. You would be surprised with the year. I actually just found some bumpers for it on eBay. Few hindered bucks, set of tools, and some youtube videos would get you sorted. You might be able to pay your insurance a deductible though and get it repaired too. Depends on your policy.

@fridjonk Thank you! It doesn't always feel like that as it is easy to get stuck on whatever little thing I am working on. I appreciate the comment, because it isn't something I think about much. I take a lot of it for granted once I do something so much.

Toast masters is quite good for this. Especially if you will start leading larger groups. I found a pathway on there for leadership to be fairly helpful. Going in on this for 6 months would blow you away. Run you about $50 or so. It's likely all online where you are too, so not much of a time commitment. I can say even with leading one person I have seen benefits from this. Studying leadership styles would be really useful. You would might be surprised to find things in your style worth changing and improving. this would be excellent for training and leading employees. Try to be as compassionate and accommodating as you can. Don't let people walk all over you, but work to make sure everyone is happy with the environment and how things are going. Work on motivating people with values from the business. Not with money or anger.

Really working on taking this life more seriously. I am working on cutting out more of the bullshit and getting after it. I know right now I need to keep adding in a good amount more of time into reselling. I really want to crush it this 4th quarter. This is really going to push me forward in life. I have really be planning very well to help keep cutting costs and making this super efficient. I have been spending extra money to help make things much more efficient too. I found some cool stuff like 3in tape gun etc that will start shaving a lot of time off packing large items for shipment. Not into the posters yet. I am still working on going through all of my assorted items. This is going to slow me down for a little, but I think this is the right route. I want to go all in on the posters once I start going for them. so I think it makes more sense to get these items out of the way. I have a few of my best items I still need to get to. I have a lot of good items in rotation for listing though. I am really trying to cut off most of the bs below $50 of value. I think these posters are going to have a good payout for me. I really need to start breaking down more items and process as much as I can to get to this stuff. Once I get to the posters the listing is going to be really rapid compared to before. I am going to have a huge stream of items coming up. Making some big improvements in my toast masters groups. I am not on my computer now and using my green screen and lighting set up. I am not doing distractions and taking the meetings more seriously. I really want to up my game with the practice that I am putting into this. I should read the book mastery again sometime as a good refresher for this. I think that will help me a lot. I can see how valuable this skill is going to be. I do have the opportunity to start trying to expand out my reselling business more. I am just wondering what the right move will be between going for LP or build this to where it gets mostly automatic for financial Independence. I realize that I could potentially waste a lot of time. I can see on the other hand though if I really keep developing myself and working on mastery on the side it is not like I am not working towards the goal of doing the LP. Who knows if an idea hits me on the best route for this I will take it. I can see a ton of value in continuing heavy development on myself and working towards financial freedom though. I am going to see if I can do the LP course on my IP. I probably should restart it at this point. I have been dedicating 45 minutes while working out on the exercise bike to heavy note taking with Leo's videos and I could probably use this time to work on the course. Going to actually take tomorrow off. I can see I likely need a reset for the week. Going to aim to do my day off of all electronics with meditation again too. I think that I will play some video games tomorrow though and go to the beach. I think one day a week for games is good. I would enjoy to do some hiking or something again though. I feel like I could find more expressive ways to spend the day off. The drive is great for the beach right now though I will admit. I allow myself to effortless reach my listing goal of $50,000. Today I am thankful for: Good rest Resisting video games lol Good value on some items.

@Ananta Thanks! Same to you.

@Martin123 Glad I could share it. It's been a long journey for sure. @Ananta I did not personally see him do it. So for what it is worth that probably saved some scaring. It's pretty hard to really rebuild with him, but I think we could have a healthy relationship. If he does cause any issues I have released the attachment to the relationship and it would be easy to move on. It's been more of a closure on the issues for me to have even talked with him again.

I watched my dad strangle my mom and that recurs as one of my earliest memories. My dad threw my guinea pigs into the river because he hated the sound from them. Around the same time of the incident above. I was probably about 5 or so. I had actually suppressed this memory for many years. A lot of things from being hit and all sorts of emotional abuse for many years. I have had a lot of issues growing up with being caring for myself or others. I have had few relationships with people as a father figure and I would want to please them. They were very unhealthy people. I invited a lot of unhealthy and destructive people in my life. I can recall for example in 5th grade having the ability to easily talk to girls and I had a ton of girlfriends for example even at that age lol. I started developing severe anxiety, depression, OCD (started around 3rd grade), and depersonalization disorder as a result from many prolonged years of abuse. My siblings would abuse me as well. These days I function quite well. I have done a tremendous amount of work on myself over the last few years. I have actually built up to have a slight relationship with my father again after 7 years of not talking too. Still a lot of progress to go. I don't have anxiety or depression anymore. I am working really hard on overcoming OCD now. The depersonalization is almost completely gone. I am very happy a lot of the time it seems like too.

Berkey is pretty good from what I looked at. Would be a good step up on most of those cheaper filters. I have the large one and it is pretty good. I would rather have a reverse osmosis system, but this has worked for now. Bigger is better with these for sure.

Use the book for sure. You are going to be spending hours doing the practice. I have reached a high energy state a few times already and have a good chunk of the book left. I have not done any of the audios or anything, so I cannot compare. I have had real success with the book though. I invest about an hour a day on it though consistently.