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Strategy & Current Execution Steps Launch Purposefinder -- Tue 6th Nov ✅ Aligns my career more towards my life purpose Builds an email list to make marketing of future courses/books/apps easier Improves my app development skills and writing skills Build up Turboclicks Improves my sales skills (cold calling, networking) Improves my marketing skills (Google/Social Ads, creative marketing, systems, pipelines, proactive) Creates a team of developers/designers/managers that I can utilise to more effectively build out future apps aligned with my Life Purpose or to manage the programming side of the app. Creates a solid, reliable source of passive income Eventually improves my leadership and management ability, systems creation, etc. Find a relationship I have become comfortable with being alone, now the growth will come in finding a relationship Improve my social skills, dating skills, and sexual groundedness Will build up my experience to determine if a relationship will continue a large part of my life or not Habits & Addiction -- setting the groundwork Ruthless Execution & Effectiveness (minimal procrastination) Eliminate TV, YouTube, Netflix and excessive consumption of movies ? Clean up diet and more physical activity ✅ Meditation and yoga Contemplation work (start surrounding life-purpose) Specifically define life purpose Becoming more vulnerable -- podcast, videos, speaking emotionally, reading at poetry events

Poetry and connecting with the unconscious I have found that for me, an incredible tool for connecting with my subconscious mind, as well as my heart is through poetry. It is essentially a journaling exercise. But the nature of the artistry involved often removes my mind from the equation (which has a tendency to become overly analytical). I suggest writing poetry, or just freewriting, where you don't stop moving your fingers for more than a few seconds. The goal is to let your subconscious take over, let your intuition consume your mind. Then, your heart begins to shine through. Some of the benefits I've seen in my life: Thematic elements begin to connect different self-actualisation practices with music with poems, a cohesive web of insights that connect nicely back to words of my own making A deeper connection with my intuition and heart Alignment with my values of self-expression Moving from alcohol-dependent emotional expression and freedom to deep sober expression Communication with the deeper unconscious aspects of my psyche Greater fulfilment through creation Better emotional master -- anger, sadness, depression, excitement, love Deep insights into reality (it's a bit like contemplating, journaling -- just in a beautifully poetic manner) Improvements in my writing ability All my poems: https://medium.com/@jackedgson

A Guide for Highschool & University Students: Finding Your Life Path I've recently gone about writing a guide to start the journey of finding a life path, particularly for those looking at their next step in their high-school/college/university lives. This is something I essentially did myself, though in a far less formulaic manner. It was very much an unconscious process I "lucked" into. You've never been told the basic system to discover what you want to do in your life. Stop feeling lost and build certainty around what you will do next. https://www.purposefinder.io/guides/a-guide-for-highschool--university-students-finding-your-life-path

LSD 150ug Trip - Jung's Anima & Psychological Insight Below is a particularly useful link to psychoanalysis I did whilst on 150ug of LSD-25. I went into this with the intention of doing inner-work, though nothing specific to my Anima. However in hindsight I can see that the weeks of work I was doing in relation to my Anima subconsciously led me to this point. The most important part is not the insight. That's the easy part. What is harder is slowly integrating the insights into tangible actions that affect the quality of your life. This is the real work, and it has not happened for me overnight. It's taken years and I feel as though I've only just begun. I've graduated to 'Novice'.

@kieranperez You're like me man. I've been, and in many ways am still in the same space as you. What I realised is that I was living in some bullshit fantasy world. I lived up in my head as an intellectual, trying to grow myself mentally. I felt like shit for years because of this, still do a lot. It's a slow and tough journey. But what I know makes me feel good is just doing actions. You say you don't want to do the work, the business, the actions. But have you ever tried it? In my experience, you're building an identity for yourself around stage green and being enlightened to run away from doing the real work. But not only is doing the work the most fulfilling part (just get some small successes) but it's where you'll get the growth your looking for. You've been drifting for years, maybe based on your intelligence and overall level of development if your anything like me. How about try DOING for the next 3 years and see how that tastes! Based on the other conversation around trauma we were having, you're basically trying to come up with reasons why you're not or don't want to take action. The simple matter is. You can do something if you decide. Just do it, man! My recommendation is, you're like me, too intellectual and in your head and trying to solve problems in your psyche and body and soul and hoping to see that manifest in the world. Just manifest it in the world and watch the issues drop away!

Dude, you're not alone I feel like this same struggle almost defines a large part of who I am now. Definitely my cornerstone that I'm working on.

So some backstory: this was my third trip - was 150ug of LSD-25. This trip occurred early September, I have since had a "bad" trip and am taking a break from psychedelics for a while. But figured I hadn't seen much content relating to different aspects of Individuation (Shadow, Anima, Wise Old Man) which have been an important part of my personal development. Report So I went into this trip with the intention of doing some "Inner Work" on the substance. Rather than other reality/nondual experiences I've had before. Early on I was talking to a friend about someone, and it immediately clicked that I was projecting elements of myself onto them, my friend was saying something about the person (that they were weak-minded). I immediately burst out laughing realising how ironic it all was. I've had some bad experiences in relationships and with women over the years, which led to my Anima (inner woman) becoming pretty warped and messed up. I went through reactionary phases of MGTOW and anti-Feminism which I was still moving through when this trip took place. There were many different aspects of the trip that dealt with my Anima. I heard someone walking around the house at some point in shoes, I regressed to a childhood moment and it sounded exactly like my Mother coming home and wanting to be with someone but me not being mature enough to go out and talk or hug her because I was young. I knew I needed to hug her. I was with a dog at one point. Decided to go back inside, and closed it outside. Then I saw a notification on my phone about "Breaking story: Man abandons dog alone outside". At this point I realised that the dog represented my Anima and I had walked away from it and closed it off. I had literally left it completely alone in the cold. I went back outside and sat with the dog (Pearl). When I was sitting with Pearl she looked at me, and had a chain on to keep her from running off at night. I knew she wanted the chain off and I felt this was a symbolic act for releasing my inner femininty, unchaining the Anima. I took the chain off and the dog kissed (licked) me. (From another trip, but related) I was sitting on a lakeside, on some sand. And an older couple came down. I didn't think much of it, until the woman sat down by the water and the man said something to her and then began to walk off. The woman then began to start break down crying and dissolving in terrible pain as the man walking off down the beach, leaving her in pain. --- Turns out, the couple was really there, but I was hallucinating the breakdown part as I walked closer and she was fine. I got a few other insights into myself, self-love, compassion, and these related concepts from the trip. Lessons I got what psychological projection was, I had an aha-moment where I saw elements of myself I was projecting onto some friends. Clear as day, both negative and positive elements. All humans were a mirror of an aspect of myself. You project these positive elements as well, if you understand this is in yourself, you open yourself to self-love. Just knowing this isn't enough, you have to see it (and feel it) directly in your experience. Dealt with my anima, I released my inner feminine from the chain that bound her. I literally released a dog from a chain, and the dog represented my Anima (inner feminine) for the entirety of the trip. I experienced a friend becoming my mother and many other forms of the feminine. I didn't want to face how much my mother influenced my Anima, but she definitely does. I am always in her arms and she is always in mine, the yin and yang, an eternal dance of duality in which we are in taking on different forms/ At one point my friend put his arm around me, later on reality felt liked it had looped and I was in his role and put my arm around him (something I would never normally do sober). A bond that was beautiful and unbreakable. Something we had shared for all eternity in different roles and forms. I am doing this all for myself, the thing I love most about myself is how much I would go through for myself. I would literally live an entire life and feel all the pain of existence just to get the growth out of it. At one point, I was listening to some music, and I started hearing my future self giving a lecture on poetry and the nature of god and infinity and their interplay. The beauty of poetry is all of reality. I was older and speaking to myself from a picture of myself that I was looking at (the one I least like of myself). Which I started to find the absolute beauty in. "The great above, the original poet uses language as creation." The title of the lecture could have been something like: "God, Myself & Poetry." This really connected my to my heart and I could actually feel the pain and love in my heart physically. A line from a poem I had written many months back popped up into my head as I was looking at this photo of myself: "A deep well of tears never cried". This made me start crying quite cathartically. And I eventually stopped hating the way I looked in this photo and began to really love myself for what made me, me! I felt an instinct to act more socially conscious, to be more open, to defend others, to talk to people more freely Actions to integrate Acts of service for parents and family and others Write and share my poetry Share more intimate details of my life Hug and kiss my parents and family Find a relationship Cry more Say words like "love" more Speak (physically talk) more about emotions Discover deeper parts of yourself Be more courageous. Speak with girls more often. Replace fantasy with real world action. Fantasy keeps you safe by protecting you from the reality of the consequences of vulnerablity. Of feeling deep and true pain. Embrace it. Feel through moments of resistance. Like writing on birthday cards. And actually wrote with some heart rather than just empty words. Making strong decisions, assertiveness rather than being so unsure and ambivalent about making the "right" choice Hopefully this has been helpful for some people to show the different types of work you can do on Psychedelics. Rather than just "ego-death" and non-duality type experiences. This was 100% caused by the intention and as always, set and setting. Also: WARNING... I've had a very bad experience on LSD since this point, so please take care of yourself, I wouldn't recommend going through what I went through.

@Eyal Bor I've been through this. In my experience there are a number of factors at play here. The two key parts to look at are: Diet & Health Emotional & Psychosomatic (Awareness) Diet & Health You will need personal results to determine what most effectively works for you. I would start by eliminating wheat, dairy, all sugar (incl. Fruits, honey, refined, etc). for a minimum of 1 month. This will be difficult and you may need to build up to this gradually. Health wise, get Vitamin D3, C, and Zinc regularly. I recommend D3 from sun if possible. 20min - 1hr per day depending on region. Get sleep of 7 hours per day. Drink enough water to feel good. Now this will get you started on healing any physical issues that are caused by inflammation, sugar, intolerances, and overall poor health. Emotional & Awareness The health aspect is easy to deal with. It's the emotional and mental parts that are far sneakier. The hardest, seemingly least useful, yet really most important advice is to sit with the acne. Surrender and accept it. Now I know how difficult this is, it literally took me years to come to terms with this. And even now the odd pimple can sometimes cause an emotional reaction in me. But the key was for me to frame it differently in my mind. Remove limiting beliefs if you have them... Like you can't get a relationship, you're ugly, etc. since these actually aren't true at all. Now the fun part! Use the acne as a tool for emotional growth rather than running from it and trying to cure it. Unless you actually have shit health, then you need to fix that. But for the most part, I suggest you sit behind a mirror and let whatever comes up, just come up! Feel the deep emotions bubble to the surface. What if I told you that it's not the acne, but you're reaction to it that makes you feel bad. What if I said that you will almost certainly grow out of it and the emotionally difficult thing to do (for growth) is to just let it be for a year or two. Just accept it and love yourself because of the acne. Think about all the ways it's helped you grow stronger, become less shallow, explore health and personal development. Let it sit in your awareness, if you feel like shit from this. Don't fight that! Feel like shit fully... The most amazing thing is not letting it affect you emotionally, it can cause all sorts of emotional baggage down the track. Funnily enough, when you accept. It may begin to disappear, but you won't care anyway because you've accepted it. I would work on this emotional aspect in tandem with the physical elimination of sugar, improved sleep, water etc. When the acne heals, your emotions will transmute to feeling ugliness and scarring in your mouth or eyes or hair instead of your skin. Heal the root psycho-emotional problems and beign the process of solving the real deep issue for your entire life.

@kieranperez Yeah, I've always been inerested in Wilhelm Reich's work. It's definitely something I've been looking at. Got into the body-trauma work from Elliot Hulse. Interestingly, I've read a book called "LSD Psychotherapy" by Stan Grof, which I thought was amazing and inspired my journey in many ways. What interested me was the idea of the relived Birth Trauma, where the traumas playing out in our lives are deeply connected to the initial Birth Trauma. Which makes sense to me if you discount the idea of time being strictly linear. In that our birth-trauma affects our lives and our lives are also having feedback on our birth trauma. Many people would relive this birth trauma in an LSD trip and go through massive physical, psychological, and emotional healing from it. I think in many ways the body trauma and birth trauma are intimately connected. Unfortunately I haven't been able to go long with the Shamanic Breathing since i start to get super light headed and have yet to push through that feeling of discomfort. I have done other body-truama work before. I forget what it's called but it's essentially a muscular fatigue one that involves strong shaking. Would be interested in hearing your personal experience with it, feel free to message me anytime. Would love to talk to someone about all this

@kieranperez Completely agree! On top of this I would like to point out that I think the psychedelics can act as a powerful catalyst. And that with the right intention you can work on something alone a similar theme for a larger period. So for example... I've combined Psychedelics, Dream Work, Journalling and so much more to work on my Anima and Shadow Aspects. What I've found incredible is the synergistic effect this can create. For example: I had been doing a little bit of Anima exploration leading into the trip, which set my mind in the right headspace. However, following this, I've obviously been integrating the actions but additionally still exploring. And had an incredible dream relating to this, which I don't think I would have had without the trip. Anima Dream (sorry for the long read - TLDR down below) I had entered some large palace-like house, with maze-like winding corridors. At the very centre of the palace was a large open rectangular arena with ground level viewing corridors either side and an elevated one for the "VIPs" at the front. (In Jungian psychology this would be a Mandala that represents the Self). I was in the middle of the arena and being chased by two very large (giant-like) black women. They were trying to grab me, I thought at least to have sex with me and get my sperm (fear of being used/betrayed?). There was also one smaller white woman in the arena, I believe (maybe two?) and as I was running around to avoid the large black women the "king" (person running the event up the top) announced I was to be with one of the white girls to keep it pure or something like that. Eventually, I was running around and I think I may have sat down near one of the girls and started talking to her, she may have been Asian and didn't speak much English though. Eventually, the "king" announced they had gotten my sperm and the game was over. I thought it must have seeped out and been collected somehow. I feel like my mother was disappointed with me at some point around here for letting the girl down or hurting her feelings or something. I immediately left the arena, stepping just out of it into the corridor and almost instantly the open part I stepped through filled in with stone and the central arena was cut off. The whole area then began to flood, we knew inside the arena was completely flooded and outside in the corridors was flooded about 70%, so we still had enough air to breathe and knew we weren't going to die. Then the water went down and returned back to normal, the arena was now cleared. This was not the first time this had happened. I now felt I had to go find the girl (I had abandoned in the arena??). I then went off alone walking through the corridors and upstairs to different levels. Not long after I found a room and had a sense it might have been hers, I opened it and saw a woman there topless. I almost immediately recognised who it was. I went in to where the bed was anyway and waited. I was almost anticipating seeing her topless again and seeing if it would go somewhere sexual (passive eros?). She came out and saw me and immediately put on a shirt, I then asked her if she knew where the girl I was looking for was. She said she did and to go to the right a bit, upstairs and look in one of the rooms. I went to do that, and then she came out and guided me to her instead. I went upstairs another level and opened one of the doors and she was there. She was lying in bed, curled up, and facing the wall. Clearly, she was hurting. I went over to the bed, it was slightly larger than a single bed, and lied down next to her. I just had to be there with her. I don't remember the middle. But eventually I went back down to the arena with her, and we stood together. I don't remember what happened next. Anima Integration from Dream (TLDR) Running from the destructive anima Stopping and trying to face the anima Being betrayed/beaten, and blaming the anima (wrongly?) A flood event Having to seek the anima Meeting a form of the guiding feminine (who I immediately sexualise) Finding the anima Just being there for her / laying with her Bringing her back to the centre with me, in front of everyone (including mother) -- integration Holistic Psychedelic Work For sure I think that the best shadow work, self-work, anima-work, whatever type of inner-work your doing comes about in a Holistic way. Would be interested to see if @Leo Gura has had the same experience. Where you have to analyse and see the issues in a myriad of different ways (psychedelics, dreams, journaling, cbt, projection, criticism, etc.) to build up a good map of the true issue.

@seeking_brilliance @Frankie10I've spoken to dream characters before in a lucid state. I was trying to do some Anima work and asked this beautiful girl in the dream a question about it. She slowly started responding in a nursery rhyme that became creepier and creepier as she slowly transformed into a demon and started to scream at me. Woke up in a state of fear, and have also had dreams since then where I felt her presence and literally forced myself to become lucid and wake up because I was that terrified. I'm normally a fairly calm guy, but the darkness dreams can go into is unreal. Jung and Depth Psychology and the mythological/psychological analysis of Jordan Peterson have definitely helped me out in facing and better understanding these things. I've also spoken to my subconscious self (a literal doppelganger) before in a semi-lucid dream. It was an OBE in a dream. That was a strange one! For sure the #1 part of doing dream work is Remembering Dreams. This comes from intention for the most part, set the intention to remember dreams and then try and write them down each morning. I'm at the point where if I set the intention I will have 2 - 6 very vivid dreams with 70 - 80% recall. Which also normally take on a structure or archetype that I can use to help understand what my subconscious is trying to tell me.

@Elysian Yeah, it certainly wasn't a good feeling coming down from the trip. Definitely got my lesson. I would be hesitant to say I'll never go back to psychedelics, but I'm staying clear for a while and if I do go back it'll be with a much lower dose as per Leo's suggestion. I've had 200ug trips before that were amazing and so clear, I retained almost no insights from this one because it was just so fast acting and too strong. Felt very guilt around my actions, and definitely the scare it caused my family as well. Anyway, the journey is still beginning and I'm trying to grow with and through this experience.

@Mada_ Learn from my mistakes. I'm 18, worked my way up gradually on LSD and had some very deep insights into myself, my psychology and reality. Eventually got to a higher dose, 600ug in silent darkness, which I took on Thursday. I lost touch with reality to such a degree, that I essentially blacked out, trashed my place because the physical world no longer seemed to exist. Had an ego death experience, couldn't distinguish between myself and anyone or anything else. Time stopped existing. But I completely lost consciousness and walked downstairs, out of my flat and into a neighbours place. They called the cops, and I was taken to the hospital to be checked out. They let me out after an hour or so. Got back to my place, caused hundreds of dollars in damage to some of my personal property and spent the next 3 hours cleaning the place up. Nearly got evicted, had to have a good discussion with my landlord and the neighbour to calm everything down and take responsibility for my actions. You could say I got some deep insights into psychedelics and their seriousness from the last trip, though not the type of insights I was expecting. If you feel compelled to do it, and there is no talking you out of it. Learn from my mistake. Have a sober trip sitter if it's a high dose because even if you can handle the ego-death fine and go into it comfortably, when you've blacked out and lost touch with reality you can still do stupid things like walk around without realising it. In particular, I decided to lay off the psychedelics for a while. I realised there is so much more for me to do and the emotional state I was in after the trip having to deal with the consequences of my negligence was not worth the short few hours I spent going deep. I will certainly come back to these substances at some point, but for now. I'll stick with meditation, vipassana, life purpose, health, psychology and self-education. Feel free to let me know if you have any questions.