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Ego is very difficult thing to be handled of. I have always thought that I was super aware and know the ways of EGO. But until up recently, I started to become more aware of how it is an harder enemy than I thought of. He's sneaky. When I got this, ..., When this goal, ..., When enlightenment, ..., When that, ... When bla bla, Because of the system, because of I don't have, ...., I already know that, ..., It never turns out to be, ... ETC ETC It is like a huge bulk of bullshit piled up. RESISTING to take real action. With this journal, I am hoping to set this up as a reminder towards how I lie myself. Plus I will note down the challenges and actions that I took towards my self-employment journey.

Lol. You're looking at it

I tried to living a life without any identity. This becomes so painful after literally taking non of any actions. Watching the life unfolds. But within my experience I have found this silly. The logical statement of push-pull and resistance sounds logical. But in practice, that I find is deeper than that. Or I couldn't find out a way of that even in the first place, who knows. These all tricky. > Wanna hear a real action that could produce massive results? Catchy, who wouldn't

It is still EGO operates on the surface with the enlightened people. Every word and every human thought is simply a lie. Nothing is absolutely enlightened. It is that everyone have this or another lie of game that is on play with them. I am just here for this post to calm my mind a bit. Nothing more. It feels better for me when I write things down. Recently, I have been optimizing my life with questioning at ease.

I was going to include that part also but I decided not. I am aware that still my EGO operates

What do you think? Does Muhammad intentionally lead his people to knowing the fact that was not the truth but wanted to make their lives better by a lie?

Orange-ish?

@Eric H Have you ever considered so seriously that you have one life to live as "ERIC" If you are certain about death, why are you concerned about securing your way to death? Why insecurities? Isn't it more logical to instead spend your time wisely and be "ERIC" in this life time? There will be never an "ERIC" to live once again

Are there any value in selling items n general? Consider the following scenarios 1: I have a shop and i buy some items then sell them. I double the buy price l. I do not really care about whether the item has any value or to the customer at all. I only care about the money i will earn at the end of the day. 2: Consider someone that sells an used item. S,he no longer needs this item. Since it is used, and usually used item seller knows every malfunctioning or flaw of the item s,he sells. That might be a car, house or whatever. It is useful to consider an example that is not in a highly traded item, for ex it might be a used piano. Because cars and houses has large market, there are a lot experts on just for those topics. Consider that i am selling my used piano. I know its every broken parts and etc. still what i only interested in is selling it as quick as possible. I do not really interested about whether the buyer will really benefit from this or not. But can I really avoid this by saying it is the buyers responsibility? Arent somehow we are deceiving ourselves here a bit on those common scenarios happening in life? What value does there really add value to those items in scenario 1 with holding that item in the storage until someone buys it? Another point of view is to look under the perspective of supply/demand. So what in fact adds or makes potential buyers to buy those items is the unavailability of those items in market with lower prices as sold by whole sellers. The risk of storing those items is what i can hardly make sense of what adds value to this selling an item to double price scenario. The seller or scammer as i noted in first scenario, takes the risk of unable to sell those items that he buy, kind of he becomes another layer of cog in the machine. So the potential speed of whole-seller makes whole-seller to sell large quantities of items in lower price but that speed comes with a downside of unable to reach/deal each potential customer one by one, individually. This has to be realized by another mechanism as I called yet another cog layer. But as in the beginning i find this nothing more different than a layer of scamming scheme going on. Whats your thoughts on this?

This is probably the forth time I encounter that in this week. The problem is I avoid that because I couldn't find an answer to that. I am not really sure how would I bring any value to life?

This is a good way to investigate this situation. I think that is why I have opened this thread. Now, lets we all agree that seller has to increase the price in order to cover up its business needs. Now where does it end? Where to draw the line? Double? Triple? or rather add up 10 dollars to whatever the label is? How would we say that it is worth what he's doing and the triple amount is the worth he deserves. Lets define standards of a living. Now is there any absolute way to define this? My standards would be a simple house with a car and yours might be a villa with pools and a Lamborghini. Now lets say I get where I want with 10 cents and you get there by adding up 100 dollars and tripling the amount of your sells to maintain your "standard way of living"

You misunderstood the whole story going here.

I have a new model to look to the world. It is not 4 dimensional time and space. Rather sits in now. Consider this: The set of thoughts what makes the illusion of time seems real. With this new model you can use all loa work to reclaim your creative power back. It is hard to explain it in words. Graphical illustration is needed. But it is that thought is what makes your reality as real reality. And if you can succeed to seed in subconscious, there it can create. I think there that is where our awareness comes from. There is one instant of moment exists with psychical realm and that is right now. When your neurons get modified by information, you can store thoughts in your brain which exists only current physical realm, the brain what senses and makes you sense of past by thought. Leo was talking about a clay demonstration in one of his video. Think of reality as a clay and it gets modified at each delta infinite small time. So it is in constant change but there is no past or future. Just the change is here. There exists psychological therapiest to alter childhood to remove traumas and that works. The main idea is to remove the stored thought in memories. So was the event happened or not? For the observer of traumatic patient. When patient forget that event, his or her conscious reality shifts into another "dimension" or to a new reality.

By reading? Am i missing some point?

My view is that enlightenment is mostly understood wrong in this forums. You wont become a magician or god (in meaning of almighty, creates instant when he wishes etc) or whatever pure infinite absolute peace. I may be wrong with the last one, some claims it, but enlightenment is in my words, put basically a realization that all the years of belief of you, is not existing. Last sentence is enough, to make one to get the realization, further is brain masturbation but we all like it right, so here it goes: You have been deceiving yourself all along with goals, how succesfull or even the opposite how depressed you are etc. You even deceive yourself to become enlightened. Thats another trick. Put basically, mostly the word referred as ego is correct in this scope by others. Ego is what you have believed to be as you. The story you built in your post also falls into this. It what you believe is your thought and questioning system. Why do you even concern with that? You as character. You as your thoughts beliefs and goals. They are an illusion. Basic but the simplicity is what makes it hard to understand it. People on this forum wants to achieve that bliss state. It is not wrong. Noone wants opposite, we all want at basic level security comfort, to be happy etc. But enlightenment wont give you that, an enlightenment perceived in this manner wont give you that. Becasue there is none. So what to do? Id recommend putting yourself in some stoic mindset to create discomfort to your ego, and pursue spirituality and exercises on daily basis i.e. self inquiry, fasting also helps

@Aeris Karma was not the main subject tbh. It is a bad karma indeed. No doubt. @tsuki Or they dont know the market when it comes to buying above avg. This! Is the thing i wanted to point out in the beginning. What do you really think about this guys? I was also going to say that in touristic places that happens like 100% out of 100 times. If you are a tourist and want to buy something in the place you visit they charge you like 500% of the local place especially if you are visiting in middle east or east parts of europe. Thanks for this point. I will keep this in my mind for the next couple of thought encounters in the life. @Shiva dishonesty, right word.

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I really have no idea but whenever I get to home, especially my room, I don't want to do anything. When I am at outside, I always plan and even sometimes take action and bring out paper and pen, sit somewhere near, and do contemplation, writing et.c. plan things. The thing is my job is with computers, I write code and I need my desktop which is in my room. But It is dark and unmotivating to be there, since childhood. The end node is I have to somehow manage to work with my computer. How would I deal with this issue?

My job is software...

Thanks Ill do that

I have a lot of things in my room maybe thats why,

You mean I should make my room more presentable for my eyes?

Within my experience, I solved this by after having a complete observation over me with a wide spread of years, that I have played my instrument a lot without any reason or a goal. Its like you swim for no reason for hours or do something for totally no purpose or outcome at all. But the trick is when you think about resolving this, your mind always fail to do. I would say, If you ever found yourself lost playing your instrument for hours, instead of playing games or something such, it is indeed a strong indicator. maybe the top one.

Recently I've come up with a concept defined in mathematics, which is: vacuous truth: https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Vacuous_truth related (relation and empy relations): https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Finitary_relation https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Binary_relation#Particular_homogeneous_relations Was intensified to see definitions on empty sets, because what spirituality mostly defines emptiness state is very well related to that classical logic which was abandoned because of its absurdity

Cut the social relations which does more harm than good to me (funny, lead to having end up no any) Which made me realize that I was a approval-seeking badly. I started gaining self-discipline. This was like more than fifth time of me, I was going back and forth in between about "Why is it all matter afterall" mindset when It comes to being disciplined. But this time, It naturally revealed itself to me that I have to be doing something to sort of, how may I say, make time pass. To make time pass, meaningful why not? It doesn't have to be 100% perfect meaningful, if not, 1% meaning would be seriously enough for me here. (this linked with a who cares what others tell, think attitude sort of, ) Plus I got a very good read, book about on the subject so hoping this will give me a better understanding along with this. The powerful phase: "The meaning of life was all about to come up to a point, where I've seen that there's no meaning in anything* but who I am (whatever put, you understand from that question, whether spiritually or self-actualizing manner) or how I dream, see, feel about this life. *: in order for one to talk about anything, it must be a human concept, so it was not about any human idea, thought, cult, religion or whatever you put as an human invention, creation. Almost all concept relies on human's thoughts. Very few rare exceptions are there, which I'd say the branch study of spirituality. But I think It really doesn't be true to take a single rare exception from there and magnify it until it becomes a religion, cult or some practice. That does not mean anything at all either. Thus that is what 100% people do when they get to that point and get there again after thousand of trial and error but unable to more forward. Because of EGO: Fear, identity. Imply that, this scripture I've come up above is from a person who had worked thousands of hours on self-development. One is to have go through its evolution on many levels of self-development