Aaron p

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  1. Don't need to make any drastic decisions...start some creative stuff while working. Leo's LPC is good, with some very good points...death is a good motivator. Your about 30? You'll probably have health and energy till about 65 so you only have about 35 years left and in 65 years from now your Gona die, and that's it...forever. so might as well live to the fullest
  2. I've found the fear is harder to deal with if you haven't got lots of pussy and money first
  3. Have you ever been talking with someone who is clearly wrong...and you can see that they are wrong but they whole heartedly think they're right...and you can see that its not your ego trying to win, but an authentic observation that the person is simply objectively wrong or in some way delusional, or warped by their own mind... I have been noticing this more and more as I'm starting to see the corruption of humanity and the corrupt nature of knowledge...and how easily it warps and changes like a game of Chinese whispers played in a hurricane. But the real challenge is ballancing that with the knowledge that its basically guaranteed that i am deluding myself in some ways about life also. I know this because i remember being one of those people who were completely deluded and brainwashed before and if i couldve been that self-deceived before, how do i know that im not deceiving myself right now in just as much a powerful way....i remember how vehemently i rejected any opposing information, i would never EVER crack...and yet i was completely and utterly wrong and deluded. My problem lies here...i have grown in my awareness of the trappings of the mind, as a result i can see the delusions that other people are in, while i know that i probably have a plethora of self deception mechanisms myself, i know just from direct experience and can sense through simple awareness, the delusions of others...and these "others" can be quite damaging to myself and people who i care about. I know theoretically that even the belief that there are others than myself is already a self-deception at a very deep (or shallow) level...but in terms of where im at in life, how the fuck do i deal with people like this...also for people who have significantly developed their consciousness...how do you deal with gradually becoming more conscious and isolated in your correctness...its gotta feel like your the only sane person and all others are just monkeys twisting reality in an emotionally reactive way out of sheer ignorance?
  4. Any weakness will be turned advantageously into the greatest strength by one who is in adequate alignment with the source of all power
  5. . Damnit wrong one lol. This one:
  6. I love the last video where Leo sort of leaves his teacher frame in a meta style
  7. The blue in me loves Tate, lol. I can feel it, a need for strong masculine figures to raise their middle fingers to the face of political correctness. To re-establish the truth that lots and lots of feminism is extremely toxic. This is, of course, only part of the systematic outplay that must occur to allow the greater thing to happen, a gradual stabilisation of gender equality...as the pendulum swings to each pole slightly less each swing before finally resting somewhat in the fair..middle way
  8. its unfortunate that masculinity has been so heavily scrutinized that young incel types have to fall back on extremist masculine mentors and role models like señor Tate to do something to respond to societies rejection of a very real part of reality...healthy masculinity, certain versions of extremist feminism call any kind of masculinity "toxic masculinity", it'll get a backlash eventually.
  9. ^ Dude. Stop taking addictive drugs regularly. For real. Weed fucks your head up so much it's unbelievable. For young people this is amplified
  10. I think pace is very important. Not necessarily fast pace or slow pace, but the understanding that pace matters and that you should try to Intuit what pace best suits your situation. Also being able to distinguish between good pain and bad pain (like at the gym) is good for identifying if your pace of growth should remain the same, increase, or decrease. Too much growth too fast will lead to breakage or overexertion. But a lot of the time we can go faster than we imagine. Often time pain makes us grow faster for some reason. Possibly because it ignites the flame of desire for healing. Going too slow is a bigger problem than going too fast in my opinion...imagine sitting for 50 years doing vipassana and never having an awakening...when you could have just devoted 5-10 years becoming strong enough to get comfortable with 5meo and having more powerful awakenings you could ever achieve. But if, at any point, "faster growth" starts to replace "consistent growth" rethink your strategy. Consistency and rhythm are very powerful weapons
  11. @2ndComing second coming haha, nice 12th post
  12. You know, for a long time being raised Christian I struggled with the grace of God and how it worked with the idea of "being a good person" (otherwise known as good works). For a long time after I started to see that good works would get me very little with god in reality, i kind of gave up on moral living altogether and just lived like that. This was unintentional, but I sort of just let it continue and never really returned to why selflessness is better than selfish living... Why be good? Why be positive? Why live in a selfless fashion...? I was watching Leo's "Zen devil part 1" video and a big insight hit me and I realized that I need to contemplate it more, so here's my insight from about a decade of study from the Christian perspective and from the new-age nondual perspective...I feel like my fervent history in both practices gives me a unique vantage point on the matter...let me know your thoughts if you wish... ---------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Ultimately, you'll discover that enlightenment isint realistically attainable by simply moralizing or being a moral individual...and that moralizing can actually become very religiously dogmatic and a distraction to true self enquiry and realization. Subsequently the question arises..."Why be good at all?" The answer is: you don't have to be...but true transformational enlightenment will fill you with love for everyone and everything and (importantly) the way in which you can differentiate between ("do it because i know i should") [what could be called] "shallow selflessness" and "true selflessness"...is the source from which it flows, and that true selflessness flows automatically. Imagine an outdoor, brick wall that was built without cement, and was instead supported with wooden stands and support beams...because of the lack of cement available, the wall would easily fall over without the manual wooden supports, but after a while the wall will have been there for so long that the algae, ivy, rainfall and natural elements of the environment will have pressed down on, and grown around the bricks so much that the wall fuses together to the point where it can stand on its own and support itself automatically, and where the manual wooden stands are no longer required and can be removed without fear of the walls collapse. In this metaphorical picture... The walls stability, is Selflessness, The lack of cement, is Natural Immaturity, The wooden support beams, are the Manually Cultivated Habits/Outlets for Selflessness, …and the natural elements are Gods nature (which is also our true nature). It would be a major mistake to fail to recognize that, while true stable selflessness flows automatically from deep a transformation (being exposed to God), the *process* of transformation itself is most definitely not as automatic and often requires manual effort and strong support initially. Therefore it is not a bad thing to seek outlets for selflessness and to manually guide yourself to engage in those selfless habits [knowing the benefits that come with selflessness] because, before long, these habits, outlets and principals will begin to sustain and support themselves simply because it will literally start to feel amazing in contrast to the selfish alternative. Boiled right down, the insight is this: False Selflessness = Forcing yourself *into* selfless shapes. True Selflessness = Relaxing into alignment with, and flowing with the natural shape of your selfless nature that exists authentically and effortlessly within. The key supplementary insight here is recognizing that the thing that governs whether your selflessness is true or false, is the source from which it flows and rather than doing it because someone told you to...relaxing, flowing with and submitting to the selfless nature that *already* exists within...and seeing that some [or even a lot of] manual support and rearrangement of your values, actions and core principals and submitting to your selfless inner nature is different than forcing yourself into repetitive "good works"...that some manual guidance into selfless actions is healthy because it will eventually stimulate and cultivate a bliss and peace that will sustain the selfless way of life and eventually become more and more effortless. ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
  13. @Gabith I honestly don't know mate your situation will be unique and different to mine...but one thing I can tell you is, you can beat it if you have an attitude of unlimited determination, flexibility, intelligence and power. You can blitz the thing. Hit it at multiple angles at the same time. - psychiatrist - support groups (secular and religious) - addiction supports - start doing game and lifting weights. - master porn and jerking off addiction. Become someone with an unbeatable spirit that is infinitely self reflective, adaptable and powerful. Surround yourself with the right people. But ultimately you are the only one who can get yourself out of the hole.
  14. One of the preparatory concepts in Leo's LPC is the idea of giving it 100%. The idea that if you don't wage all out war on some addictions or issues then that 5% where you are relaxed will be the chink in your armour and the addiction will slip through. So I feel like you have to just wage all out war on porn and mastrubation or sex addiction if it's something you struggle with. Just start blocking all access routes to porn. Get in touch with support groups, heck...get in touch with 5-10 modern churchs and enquire into whether or not they have support groups for men with addictions to porn and sex etc. there's a couple of apps. Detoxify is good for the phone, blocks vpns as well. I need to test this more fully though. Brainbuddy is one haven't used it tho. Social support is good. Just block everything
  15. You could also take the approach of the damage that your hatred is doing to yourself...your character. Letting go of selfishness can actually be very self serving...because selfishness and anger affects your own personality and character...possibly imagine how the child version of yourself would react seeing who he may become
  16. Not good mate, not good. It's an extremely addictive drug. Your trying to use it to raise your baseline level of dopamine but when you inject a load of dopamine into your brain, you brain recognises that it has enough dopamine then it stops producing it on its own (because it has enough). Then when the ket wears off your brain is still not producing it as much, which means you experience a lesser level of dopamine (happiness, self esteem and peace) in normal life. The ketamine sets a new baseline level of dopamine then your brain says "hmm, we are used to this amazing spike of dopamine...everything else in comparison to it now feels inadequate." Observe this chart: These bars represent your dopamine levels. Green is high orange/reddy is lower. Taking an addictive drug on a reoccurring basis creates a new baseline of dopine level. Your brain gets used to the high and then it doesent feel like getting high any more it feels like getting normal, and every day life just feels worse. Not a good approach my friend ..also if you've been trying that approach for 2 years and you've still got the anger then it's clearly not working (I'd say making it worse likely). This is why Buddhists and people who reject pleasure experience the most pleasure...something only exists as contrasted against something else. You take a rich man and put him into a standard house he'll be depressed, you take a homeless man and put him into a regular house he'll be so happy he'll cry. Both are in the same situation but what they are used to is the differing factor. -------------- My advice to you would be don't take ketamine at all for a long time. And be aware of the difference between serious spiritual and self improvement uses of chemicals and unhealthy crutches and drug usage that may or may not turn into a dependancy. With addictive drugs like ket you only use it one off every now and again but don't go near it if you like it too much
  17. Lol you guys are wrong, only the most enlightened badass could rock such a beard. In all seriousness though, you have no idea the depth and accuracy of Leos teachings. It's like fucking... Shockingly accurate. Leo is the real deal. The power, holy shit.
  18. @Gabith ketamine. But only if you feel like your responsible and very in control when it comes to highly addictive substances. Ketamine is immensely powerful for therapy. The argument some have is that it just takes away your suffering for like 20 minutes to an hour (or for however long you redose) then you just come back, feel a little comedown and then boom your back to normal and nothing has changed. However! If you take the carefully weighed dose of ketamine, and do therapeutic work focuses on the things in your life that you believe to be casual to your suffering, i Intuit that it can be very powerful. It's not just about feeling better for an hour...you can go into the ketamine experience, process a lot of your trauma from a highetened level and from a place of great peace and acceptance and create all of those new neurological pathways then when you come back a lot of those pathways will still be there. I plan on doing this in coming months. I have a plan to record myself asking deep questions into the root of some of the areas in my life that cause me suffering (or should I say some of the ways I think about and interpret some of the areas in my life). Answer them and think deeply while in the heightened state and I expect profound results. If anyone has experienced ketamine they'll know that it's a very very profound chemical. But also unfortunately highly addictive so just be careful and be aware of the slippery multiplying effect of the addiction taking hold and the self bullshit where you tell yourself "oh this is for spirituality" when in reality your just wanting to get high. If you can legitimately avoid those traps, try my ketamine method. Record yourself asking some deep questions about the areas in your life that cause suffering and play them back while tripping on ketamine and answer them honestly with a true Investigatory spirit. And the best advice with addictive substances is: don't take it on a reoccurring basis.
  19. So after making some much needed foundational regular self improvement adjustments to my egoic life, im approaching the realm of psychedelics again and i feel much better and much more comfortable with the level of wisdom that I am bringing this time. I feel more mature, more stable, better. I understand why im taking the compounds (at least to a degree, but am still learning more comprehensively), i understand the safety components and certain other peripheral things to take care in when using psychedelics... Soon i'll be doing MDMA+DMT likely in one session and do 3 or 4 trips of DMT while on MDMA. Ive researched that its safe and also have previous experience doing this method...the MDMA really helps with casual DMT terror. Im also approaching it much more softly in that, if i dont feel that my energy is aligned before i hit the DMT pipe, i will relax and just do some MDMA therapeutic mindfulness practises...(however i know how effective molly is at making you ready so i have faith). Ultimately I am scared shitless of psychedelics because of how stupid my approach was in the past (bad pain, not good...growing pains), i want to allow some kind, gentle experience to reorient my reflexes against psychedelics and to allow myself to re-recognise their beautiful nature. In my pursuit of this more philosophical return to psychedelics, my attention has drifted to drugs of the 5-MeO class but that have reputations of being softer, gentler, and more feminine...MALT and MiPT. I have a question for people with experience with these compounds as well as regular 5meo...id love to hear your experience, and in particular how gentle they are possibly from most gentle to least gentle...seeing as regular 5meo seems to be very very heavy and sledgehammer-like. Ive also heard rumor's that MiPT has effects that closely resemble those of MDMA? This is of particular interest to me if this is the case... so could people maybe share their wisdom regarding the effects of these analogues and how gentle each of them are in comparison to 5-MeO-DMT? Peace and love <3 @Leo Gura
  20. theres also this paradox between complexity and simplicity being deeply interwoven together. submitting to the realisation that everything is very complex, strangely makes everything start to seem a lot more simple. "everything is complex" is a very simple insight...and the insight "everything is simple" can have some deeply complex dynamics within it. ultimately, everything is simply complex
  21. @tessus sure. Improving the knowledge that runs through your mind=good Becoming conscious of the actual structure of the mind [through which all knowledge flows] = better Because: knowledge only maketh proud, while love (consciousness of the reality of the structure of the mind itself) edifies/strengthens/fulfills. 1 Corinthians 8:1 It's a matter of reality... Looking at and changing the structure of the mind itself, rather than just changing the knowledge that flows through the mind. Also, complex truths sometimes require complex analogies
  22. @ShardMare the old knowledge Vs consciousness topic of contemplation. At the absolute level knowledge and consciousness are the same thing because everything is consciousness from direct experience. Everything is just experience and experience is just undefined, non-physical, magic (consciousness) But at the regular human level differentiating knowledge and consciousness is a step that needs to be investigated and [I feel] is best articulated in a thought picture. Imagine an underground pipe system with water flowing through the pipes. The pipes represent the mind, the water represents knowledge. Some people devote themselves to developing the quality of the water that flows through their pipes...some are less delusional that others (becoming an expert in accurately and articulately recalling every word of the Bible is very professional, but it's very professional in recalling something that turns out to be [in reality] very incorrect...an example of delusional water purification). But instead of becoming someone who is informed, some people recognise the better choice of becoming transformed. While purifying the water of knowledge is necessarily and highly advantageous, there is tremendous advantages with turning your attention to the structure and layout of the pipes themselves...how they connect to eachother. Someone who focuses on rearranging the structure of the pipe work itself is [in this metaphor] equivalent to someone who focuses on rearranging the structure of their mind (focusing on what they are as opposed to what they know). Being self aware, or "conscious" as opposed to informed with information (which is still very necessary in the plane of human growth, fulfilment and success). But becoming self aware, and aware of how your mind actually systematically works allows for streamlined flow of water. You can augment the structure of your self and mind in creative ways to give yourself big advantages. Conscious and wisdom are closely connected (both relating to direct experience) therefore it could be said that this topic could be called "knowledge Vs wisdom" and since philosophy is the love of wisdom...I >think< I'm correct in saying that philosophy is the art of being aware of your self, your mind and the reality of what you are...not just what you know. Some advantages are: - being "overall purpose" oriented. - understanding that doing the right thing is better than doing the thing right. - becoming a transformed individual faster. - transformed>informed - being aware of structural traps and pitfalls of the mind. - dynamic adaptability
  23. I heard a cool quote one time can't remember who said it but sounded good. "The waters that the psychotic drowns in are the same waters the mystic swims in."