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So some background, The past few months I was in the worst period mentally of my life. However I'm glad to say it gave me a lot of insight on how my brain works and gave me a look at the root of my problems. I am glad that I learned from it and if I'm honest, I got my peace back almost completely. I felt so powerless because I had lost my peace of mind and I was in a monkey mind literally 24/7 for the last few months. Couldn't stop thinking for even a second and if I tried to start meditating the feelings (bad) were so powerful they completely took over control and I felt like their energy was too strong for me. Now, I just went on a short holiday alone, and spent a lot of time in nature and also reflecting a bit (but more in a healthy way). Although I had my moments that I came back in a negative head space, I'd say 70% was mostly positive and it gave my back good energy and motivation. On the train back to my hometown, something really strange happened. I noticed, again, how my mind was wandering and focussing on uncertainties en negative things from my past. Then I decided to concentrate those feelings and let them stream through my body and let them "out", like as if they were leaving my body. Suddenly I felt this immense peaceful feeling in the center of my body and I couldn't stop smiling. Everything was suddenly so clear and so interesting. I don't know if I made myself believe that, but I know what I felt and it was something really soothing and calming. It was like a ball form that was forming and this ball contained just soothing and calming energy, and it was dissipating its energy through my body. And everything was "good" suddenly. It was as if I had taken some drugs. Although, since then I have had really destructive dreams. In my dreams, some colleagues (not really friends but I don't have anything against them) were getting executed (voluntarily!). I was the third one to he executed but after witnessing them getting executed while trying to tell them not to let them get executed, I decided I didn't wanna die and the dream ended. Then, the girlfriend of my brother is a veterinarian, and she killed a cat during operation by letting a fart (lol) Then, in my dream (this morning) I woke up at 08:30 due to alarm and fell back asleep. However, my dream continued that story and make me wake up and go down the stairs. Suddenly two people (don't know who they are) were outside of my house ringing the doorbell. I opened and they tried to enter. Didn't let them. They were getting aggressive and had to call police. Police didn't do shit and didnt see a problem. My dad came down and tried to make them to but the guy hit my dad's head hard. Then I kind of pushed them etc. Just some mess basically. Eventually they left. Fourth dream, right after the previous one, I was on vacation to this beautiful home. We entered the beach and sudden a tsunami came. Was swimming and two different seas joined with a tree in the middle separating the two oceans. I climbed in the tree held on to it not to drown. I don't know what happened in the end (if the tree snapped or not) It's strange because normally I don't have these destructive and aggressive dreams. Anyone who can sense something? Or just coincidence?

@Nahm Thank you for your time to write me, however I understand what you are saying, I am not on that level yet to be able to see the world like that! @Misagh Thanks for your feedback @LaraGreenbridge Oh wow, interesting!!

@LaraGreenbridge thank you a lot! Climbing up the tree could signify me trying to keep my head above the water (figuratively). As in try to get back to "normal"

@Everyday im Flemish (Belgian Dutch (it's the same))) asother tongue. If you wanna chat in Dutch hit me up (if it helps you)

What is your take on Astrology? Mostly the so-called personality traits based on your star sign / location of the moon / sun and planets on the day you were born? Any meaning to it? This would all be defining your "ego" though, I guess?

@Solace So intrigued by all of this. Would love to hear about your experiences entering these realms and how it is

@Bane Well it can be interesting. Might give an indication whether you and your partner are compatible

I don't think it's a fair reaction of your 'friend' at all. I would feel very bad to even consider asking a friend to watch over dogs for a week in my house. What does she expect? Looks like it's more her problem than yours to be honest. I'd be dissappointed with her reaction.

Awesome!! Is it necessary to have a Kindle or Is there a pdf?

Dear all, I have a question concerning my meditation practice. Basically, I am doing two different kinds. (I am not sure if they're actually different?) Focus on breath When I close my eyes, I first start to notice which thoughts pop up. Mostly they're always the same kind of thoughts. After that, I focus on my breath, and the thoughts start to fade. When I really start focusing deeply, I start to feel more energy in my body. Like a low-soothing kind of vibration. Then I start being aware of how empty my head-space becomes. Focus on body Other thing I do is that I focus on different parts of my body. When I do this, the vibrational energy I feel is much bigger. My heart starts racing, my breath becomes shorter. When I focus the energy on my hands, I feel my heart pumping in my hands, when I focus on my feet, I feel my feet being pumped with blood. etc. (for all parts, yes I get a bon*r when I focus on my d*ck). When I have a lot of cognitive work-load and overthinking, the amount of energy that releases in my body can be immense, almost too much to contain! My heart starts racing crazy fast, my breath becomes shorter and like my energy is just spuring everywhere. It depends on my mental-state at that point. When I am relaxed starting the meditation, it is okay. The energy feels good. When I have been worrying and over-thinking, the energy is much bigger and it actually scares me sometimes. Is this normal? Cheers

@MarkusSweden I am not joking, I am really serious. His mother found him on his bed with a towel around his neck. Just want to warn you about the consequences. You think it will be worth it? I mean. It's something very dangerous, and the benefits from doing it? Does it way up against the consequences? Just do what you wanna do, but I just be safe.

Not to demotivate you, but a guy from my highschool died doing that. Although it seems interesting, make sure you will have someone with you when you try to do it

So, i came across this "Breatharian" people. They basically claim they do not need food nor drink to survive. They use the "energy from the air" as food and claim that this is all you need to survive. Does anyone know about this? Is it fake? Experience?

You put too much importance on that little detail. The weight you put on it is so big that the thought keeps coming back because you connect such a big load of fear / ? to it. Trick is to stop giving importance to that scar / thought. Just accept yourself as you are. Look in the mirror, look at the scar and be confident. Accept yourself as who you are and that little scar is a part of you. Once you accept what is, and once you realize that thinking bad about that scar will only result in you feeling bad, but not resolve anything, the thought should fade away. Like Eckhart Tolle puts it, thoughts are like entities. They need energy to survive. Everytime you give energy to the thought, it grows bigger, and you keep it alive. Stop giving energy / focus to it, and it will die.

I went to a psychiatrist today. She came to tell me, after 30 mins of talking, that I suffer from "autism". I never ever imagined me to have that. Not sure what to do with this information... And I don't like the sound of it? Anyone any experience with it? This is a whole new level than I previously thought

@Nahm I remember you told me. It's the same as bipolar disorder right? I'm glad you found your way back, dear friend! Now it's up to me.

Thank you all for taking time to reply to me! However, I don't identify with the label. That's why I said that I am not sure what to do with it. It was just another label slammed at my head and I just couldn't really grasp the idea of it. But it did interest and confused me of course, since that's not what I thought I would've diagnosed with as a condition. Ill read your replies soon, busy studying now. Thanks again guys

So last few months were some of the worst months in my life when it comes to mental health. I was so deeply identified with my thoughts that came from a bad situation, that I could not see a way out. I had a feeling of constant stress, could feel physical pain in my heart, had shortage of breath. Could not really do anything, could barely clean my own room, had a hard time getting up, even showering was a hard task. I was so caught up in my thoughts, that I thought they would never go away. I tried to "debunk" them, tried to rationalize them. But when I finished doing that, they all came back and I just could not stop thinking about them. The same thoughts were always present, constantly, as hard as I tried "let them go". I tried writing about them, tried meditation, talked about them with my family, but they still hung onto me. That's when I realized I was doing it wrong all along. Instead of following the train of thought, jumping on the train and trying to get rid of the root by analyzing them and "debunking them", I just had to stop giving them any attention or focus. So, when these same thoughts pop up again, I look at them, and don't go into it. I am like a "silent watcher". The same thoughts still pop up occasionally, probably because I thought about them non-stop for the past 7 months. (and with non-stop I mean every single moment of the day, they were always present). Now, since I started being an observer, my headspace feels so "empty", that it is sooo easily filled up with anything else now. (I know it sounds kind of like a paradox) I am trying to focus but I get distracted by the slightest thing. (I have been diagnosed with ADD so that could be the reason), but it is worse than ever. Instead of giving attention to my headspace, there's so much room that came free now, that so many impulses are triggering it. I see a word and it makes me think of a story, I open youtube to play a song and I dream away of old stories. I see an interesting video and article and I want to know all about it. Like these are not "bad thoughts" anymore, but the triggers are so overwhelming that is hard to focus on what is in front of me right now (my thesis, my exams). Could it be that, because of the fact that there was no room for any other thoughts than these worries I had, they are all attacking me all at once? Does meditation help? I don't want to take medication like adderall / rilatin cause it makes me feel like a zombie

@WelcometoReality I went to a psychiatrist today.. After 30 mins of talking she said that I suffer from autism..? I never thought about that

@Serotoninluv Love that! Exactly! Doing that right now.

@YaNanNallari And yes, they indeed came from a bad feeling. @Privet Thank you! I will implement that strategy!

@YaNanNallari Alright , I understand! But Still not sure what you mean with that, because it sounds paradoxal to me. On one hand you say "don't judge identification", which I understand. But then you say, "you'll notice how it starts to get draining to hang onto them eventually." Do you mean that it starts to get draining to hang onto your thoughts? Yes, that's what I suffered from, and I am trying not to do that by not identifying with these specific thoughts. Hope it makes sense?

@nethernalbeing <3

@nethernalbeing Yeah. There's so much sensation now, Ill try. it's like my energy levels just reversed. I was soooo low on energy and now I am SPIKING. Thanks for the tips, fellow being