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Aaahhh!! Damn I forgot all about taking responsibility.. That changed alot for me in the past. Gonna start tommorrow by taking full responsibility for my addictions. Thanks Alex!

Hello, I've been having this problem lately. When im at work I listen to Leo's mp3 get hyped up thinking and planing that when I go back home im gonna meditade and do all kind of things, but when I get home I become this lazy slob. Can't do anything, my mind just wants to sit in front of the PC and watch stupid youtube videos, play games, just pass time by. Can't even find the energy to go to the gym. My question would be: What can I do about it? Should I just force myself to do these things and just to brute plow myself towards it. Will I get an ego-backlash? Would be realy great if you could share some tips.

Not a native English speaker so heres my best: Yesterday hit 50ug lsd. Felt the kick and then all kinds of interesting things occurred (as usual). Then I felt I need a smoke (been cig free for about 3 weeks now). I go outside, went to the local gas station and bought me a pack. Then I just went outside cause it had a beautiful view and a mini park nearby so I just stood there watching everything, the sky, the grass, the people that were driving through the gas station and I just looked where my mind will wonder off. Then I asked myself some questions like who am I, what am I, what is all this, how am I perceiving this right now. I think my mind somehow got all the answers for me. It was like I know everything, then I questioned myself how can I know this all? And them BOOM I felt like I'am god. Everything felt like it is just consciousness, but Im just a human perceiving everything through my own experience. Then I saw every bad thing that the ego created. EVERY. I just smiled for like 5mins and just repeatedly said to my self "that damn ego, that devil" and saw everything that was created by us was also somehow manipulated in a ego pleasing way. Also I saw the suffering of other people because of the ego. And then it clicked for me and I said - "Death is the most beautiful thing". You no longer suffer, you are free. Then I just went back home. Felt my ego coming back and just thought all evening how to get rid of it. But damn it's hard work and I feel the ego is resisting everything. All this was on a micro dose. I seem to be able to go this deep without any struggles on little doses. Also some time ago I had some interesting experiences on weed also (sounds funny tho). Felt infinite love one time and infinite intelligence the other. The next day of infinite intelligence insight I felt very very conscious but it faded away bit by bit in the day time which made me sad. But I was listening to one of the mp3 leo was talking about the insights that kinda fade away when you get it, said it was normal, so I was like "great it's how it works". Just wanted to share this with you.

In the past music was one of the most important things in my life. Everybody has their own taste which they enjoy, but a few months back I noticed that I dont get that "kick" anymore, no genrie gives me gossbumps anymore. Silence is all I need now. I still would prefer that music would give me so many emotions as it did in the past. But im ok with it. Try to enjoy the silence.

Youtube searched how to make a girl love you and found Leo. Saw the video, it was helpful so I went to his channel saw another one (dont remember which one) and forgot all about him. After like a few months my friend recommended podcast addict app. I searched podcasts about sex and stumbeled upon Leo once again. Started to listen to alot of his mp3. At first I wasnt understanding what he was talking about cause of the deep insights he was at that time. But given time I somehow understood what he was talking about. Im so happy I found him. He changed my life.