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@AuroraDream Cause we sound like anti-vaxers and "it's all in our mind". While there are serious issues for some part of the population who get the vaccine. I mean when you feel it for your own self, the bad consequences you get, you no longer want to get vaxed. Also it's interesting to think about what would happen to me if I did get the corona virus at it's 1st form, now that it's evolved to be milder, maybe I would get even worse health issues.

@Danioover9000 Has your heart recovered?

@Koeke I took it on January 24th. and my heart still feels weak almost working over-time. I can just feel it beat hard in my chest every time. I've read that mRNA vaccines can cause "Myocarditis". People reported even having strokes after a few weeks of the vaccine, some report even deaths.

Don't.

Anxious / Preoccupied

@Blackhawk tapping unconsciously. Happens to me from time to time, very mystical. Sometimes I just feel like my friend is coming home and I just unlock the door for some reason without even thinking about it. Feels like I just received a message in my phone that he is coming. And one time as he was going up the stairs I unlocked the door and he was like wtf how did you know that I'm coming, and my reply was "Idk I just felt your coming"

@CuriousityIsKey Nice, thanks for sharing.

@Focus Now I'm very aware of those kind of people and can smell them mile away. If you ever meet a person like that for the first time and see that he does some kind of negative stuff at work immediately say it to his face and repeat again if needed to the point where either he changes or you get into a fight. If you go by it blindly after some time you will suffer My CEO wanted to fire the guy and asked our manager if it needs to be fired and my manager had no balls to make a decision and just kept the guy still. In my frustration when I heard all about it I just fucking quit.

@Focus Oh wow this topic is totally relatable with me. I had a coworker like you described. He was such a pain in the ass to work with that it literally broke our team and I just quit my job all together because my boss had no balls to tell the man that he is just a horrible worker/person. Those kind of people are like a cancer to the company. Oh and also that person is a Stage Red/Orange (Spiral dynamics). Constant lies, manipulating others to not do so much work, very "alpha" male thinking, wants to be the "best". Oh boy I totally understand the frustration you have to go through while you have to work and be near him 8hours/day.

Yeah you kind of start to depend on someone for your help which can become a crutch, while talking to God is on your own. I think it's way more deep to talk to God than to a therapist, because you can be honest to God which would make you honest to yourself because you are literally talking to - yourself.

In my understanding addiction boils down to not having enough WILLPOWER. You have urges to do something, be it smoke or masturbate etc. but you don't have the willpower to stop the initial urge. When it pops into your awareness just be aware that you want "insert your addiction here". While maintaining awareness on it it will go away, just try to not react to it immediately, just observe the urge and it will slowly fade away. Practice meditation and put some effort into it. After a week or so you will grow some willpower and with enough effort you will drop it if you REALLY WANT TO.

@Forza21 Im gonna do my best to answer you from my experience. You are still in the ego mind thinking. Early stages of oneness can be hard on your psyche because all your life you saw yourself as separate, now you are breaking the illusion and loosing meaning that was built on the ego mind. Actually now that the illusion was broken through you will have to re-build your purpose towards what is meaningful and this may take some time. Recontextualization from separate self to oneness can be either hard or blissful. You will probably get a period where everything will be meaningless, you will slow down everything that you are doing, questioning everything. But later you will adapt it and be happy, just trust that it will come. Dark night of the soul can be hard. Just trust and keep on doing the work. Don't back down, I've been there, it happens to everyone eventually.

@Fkdel I can relate to this. When im hungover a bit I feel like im tripping the whole day. I couldn't explain why it is the way it is, but it's funny though that you could get mystical experiences through drinking.

@Eren Eeager When I start to see this my ego always says: Take me back, I wanna be material again!

Thank you all for your guidance. ?

Reality is working. It exists as Now. Was there ever a start to God? I mean was there ever nothing and then God came into existence. I just can't imagine how this moment as Now was forever. It kinda confuses me a lot when I try to think and contemplate how this moment came into being. Was God ever present? Or was there nothing someday? I understand and had awakenings that all of reality is being materialized by God's infinte intelligence, I witnessed it with my own eyes. But now I'm kinda stuck with this question of how this moment was forever. For my mind it kinda needs a start to get going. But where does it come from. How can this moment be forever present. I hope for the one's who is reading my question will understand what I'm stuck on. Thank you.

I guess I'm stuck in logical thinking about this. Will definitely contemplate it in my next trip.

@Breakingthewall and it mindfucks my mind also just to think about it. I bring up this ever lasting moment of Now and contemplate how can it exist. Was it all there all along? If it is, it baffles my mind how.

@Gili Trawangan I understand that. Now is ever present. But how Now is forever. How did Now start?

I consumed about 200ug of LSD, my most done yet. 40minutes in after I just put it under my tongue I already started to see visuals and I knew it's gonna be a strong one. And I just said damn this is gonna be a huge one so I just laid in bed and watched it come up. Main insights: Raised Consciousness can be anywhere. I literally Saw myself laying in bed through the outside, it's hard to explain the sensation, but wow. I could imagine myself being anywhere else in the world right now. The infinite hug - I was laying and hugged my legs and it felt like I needed someone to hug me. And as I searching for myself to hug Me it felt like I was catching my own tail, but I was trying to hug me. Then I just became infinite and groundless, as some kind of spinning donut LOL. Then it was obvious No one can ever HUG the whole of ME. The realities infinite gears/nuts/bolts. As I was concentrating on a object it felt like there were some kind of gears through reality, like spinning a nut on an infinite rod of reality and that felt like I was spinning a nut through the rod of time, as if I could go to the future or the past. As it stopped then the rod shoot out in a different way that was meant by location, where I was at that moment in time and space. And yet other rods sprung out of that one and more and more and more to infinity and it started to spin and spin and I understood that those nuts are like everything I experienced through life, my beliefs, my bad habits everything. And I sort of started to rearrange those nuts, spinning them in different directions, putting the big ones else where and getting them back together. That was so bizarre but interesting. This was my biggest dose and I really was so responsible with all my setting, just laying in bed and being calm, watching what happens, no ego recoils or anything just a calm mindful trip. I was also wondering how much do other psychedelics feels different, like 5meo dmt.

@Vibroverse Become conscious that what you see in front of you has no space between you and the object. The space which you see must become sort of a 2D view. When you look at a tv screen and lets say a movie is on, it looks like there is depth in that movie (space between a character and some background stuff lets say a house) but you are literally looking at a 2D view as your TV screen, start to contemplate and look for that 2D flat view in your own consciousness, thus you can realise that there is no space. Good luck. Hope I helped.

Would love if Leo at least uploaded mp3 of his blog posts

By doing nothing you always decline/degrade. Growing consciousness on a daily basis is crucial in this work, if you can get a 0.1% improvement by meditating once a day it's still a lot. Btw you need to grow your focusing muscles which then grows into having more will power, being more aware of everything thats happening around you, after some time you notice even the full moons energy which is very powerful when you start to notice it. All in all some kind of "sadhana" is important for your over-all being.

Absolute nothingness, empty void of something which is nothing. Beautiful. Those ego death moments are something magical.

Almost every morning when I eat breakfast I listen to trance music and I can hear God, this brings tears in my eyes every time. On my rides home in my car I often just fall in God's Love which also brings tears in my eyes. I could go on and on how I'am with God all the time, but I think your point is that you want to know if you can BE very spiritual sober and the answer is - ofcourse. Just meditate, exercise, eat clean, get your system IN FLOW and you will be with God very often. This work need decades of integration to get a real tangible reward in your every day consciousness. It's not only in those deep realizations where we are with God or Infinity. As time goes by you realize that you always are with it, you just need to stop, remember that and feel into it.