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Good motivation to build up our own industries. A good shake-up to the EU status quo that has become over- bureaucratic.

Very normal, especially considering the dose. Not all your trips will be “productive” or “useful”. Some will be twisted, convoluted and hard to translate. 2 out of my first 3 mushroom trips were like that. The third one was 5g and I barely remember stuff from it because if how “otherworldly” it was. Just take some time to ground yourself and go at it again.

My baseline is also pretty fluid. I get the dancing buddha a few seconds after I stare in one spot. If I focus for long periods (hours on end), especially on math, I get mild open-eyed visuals and strong closed-eye visuals (similar to 150 ug LSD)

Make sure to share your experience! Psychs are largely unexplored, so any and all experience are welcome in the name of science.

Thesis done. A few hundred hours. This week was a 100 of those. 25g/day of creatine is an ATP cheat code. Permanent part of the stack now Proved a novel theorem. A lot of inspirations and hallucinations. Some of them seem promising. Tis only the beginning.

The following journal will be based on excerpts from the notes of my ongoing investigation into the paradigm of 'Chaos, Entropy, Order', seeking to establish the foundations of the upcoming transition from Tier 1 (deterministic and closed-form thinking) to Tier 2 (non-deterministic/stochastic emergence of macroscopic/holistic order). It is inspired by the long-forgotten history of my ancestry, namely the Orphic tradition and more specifically: the Orphic triad of Chaos, Eros and Gaia (termed by Ralph Abraham but miscategorized as Greek in origin). Its primary purpose is that of a rigorous reformulation of contemporary Mathematics, Statistics and Theory of Computation (based on my background) by taking holistic and interdisciplinary inspiration from variety of topics and subjects, such as Statistical Mechanics, Measure Theory & Functional Analysis, Integrable Probability, Category Theory, Representation Theory, The Free Energy Principle, Active Inference, Bayesian Mechanics, Chaos Theory, QFT, Fluid Computing, etc. The format would be loose and free-flowing but primarily technical in nature. Scientists, whose works serves as inspiration - Karl Friston, Michael Levin, Chris Fields, H, Haken, John Baez, Ilya Prigogine, David Spivak, S. Smirnov, A. Grothendieck, A, Kologomorov, A. Borodin, etc. It has been by far the largest recontextualization in my neural net to date, combining years of experiences both in the spiritual and psychonaut, as well as the mathematical/ scientific realms. It has given me a decade-long purpose with both spiritual and technical realization. Date of crystalization in consciousness: 18th of August, 2024 Main ideas - First is the postulate of the fundamentally unknowable and intractable nature of Chaos, i.e the ontology of Consciousness in its primal form. - The second is the postulate of entropy. From it follows the fact that Mathematics and Science are our generative models based on the sampling of Chaos through the Active Inference/Free-energy principle with the purpose of minimizing surprise (maximizing entropy). The principle implies a never-ending cycle of model building/refinement and eliminates the existence of a UFT/ToE, i.e an 'end to science' precisely. Papers/books, such as 'On the statistical mechanics of life' or 'Every Life is on Fire', 'Evolution 2.0', 'Undeniable' examine more in depth the misconception entropy implies disorder - in fact the opposite - Life emerged as the most efficient driver of entropy: 'You start with a random clump of atoms, and if you shine light on it for long enough, it should not be so surprising that you get a plant' - Jeremy England - Third is the postulate of abstraction/order - Reality as a Holon - described by the need to observe reality at different levels independently: Quantum Fields -> Particles -> Atoms->Molecules-> Cells -> Tissue ->Organs -> Organisms -> Societies/herds/flocks-> Ecosystems-->... Cognition/Intelligence is presence everywhere - from the smallest collective behavior of electrons, to the largest systems and networks. Technical Foundations The complexity we encounter in contemporary problems of energy, climate, societies and ecosystems cannot be handled by the contemporary human-centric, deterministic and closed-form solutions. The need for stochastic and emergent systems has become apparent. The theory would be based on the following technical undertakings: - Transitioning from Hamiltonian (deterministic, trajectory-based) to Langevin dynamics (stochastic, probability-based) - Categorification of Probability Theory and Stochastic Systems, allowing for the abstraction of entropy/free-energy principle as a topological operad, applicable to any system, ranging from Plasma and Fluids, to Cellular and Biological networks, to contemporary AI models. - Embedding of the novel framework into appropriate computational paradigm, resting on the idea of Functorial bridges. - Transitioning away from Set Theory towards Topos-inspired foundations of mathematics, allowing to embed all current mathematical structures as macroscoping phenomena of miscroscopically-stochastic systems Each postulate and technical direction is sufficiently rich to warrant year-long investigations. For that purpose, my timeline and approach is very strategically adjusted based on my current technical background, as well as my vision for the next few years. Current scope of investigation - The rigorous foundations of Random Matrix Theory (Created by Wigner as part of the Statistical Physics of QFT) based on Heavy-Tailed distributions. The inspiration has been work by researchers at DeepMind, Gerard Ben Arous, and Charles Martin, the lattter of whom has empirically found direct connection with the weight matrices of NNs, and model performance, independent of training and testing data.

Human society lived through thousands of years of famine, disease and predators. More recently, the black plague and two world wars. It will withstand the ramblings of a brain dead narcissist. Of course it doesn’t mean you will remain unscathed. I am one of those immigrants at risk, despite being here legally. Still not gonna run like some kid at the first sign of resistance.

T-92:00 Until Thesis submission. Last 6 days I have been on < 5h of sleep with 12 + h of math daily. When I was trying to fall asleep yesterday, the closed-eye visuals were absolutely crazy. The mathematical patterns I was seeing I could almost touch. They were like lightning balls of energy of all colors with fractal curves for each bolt, opening their own universe/ crack in space-time. All of them were fundamentally dynamic, moving and evolving. Almost like they were alive. The patterns were really, really intricate. More so than some of my LSD trips. I would say they were even an order higher in terms of complexity than fractals themselves, because they weren't scale invariant - the symmetry was fundamentally changing with the depth/ scale. It's hard to explain, but the symmetries were even more "alien" than fractals. Like if you've seen a fractal at any particular scale, you kinda have an idea of how it goes on. It's not "trivial" per say, but there is still a general trend. These were not even close. Guess what - This is exactly the meaning of multifractals and RG flow - different symmetries. The "instruction"/ "intuition" I got from this is to go beyond operators - I should study a hierarchy/ spectrum of operators w.r.t. to the scale - learning how to decompose the system on a level of operators, not a single one. RG in fact lacks a single unified mathematical formalization that works across all contexts - there is Wilson-Kadanoff formulation, Functional RG, CFT approach, constructive field theory - for RMT the meaning of RG is different than those in QFT and StatMech. This is what the CEO formalism will entail. The categorical construction of the operator hierarchies of complex systems.

I realized I was taking for granted the fact that you are the only teacher who hasn’t crystallised on a single rigid model. I haven’t had the opportunity to thank you for being a constant source of epistemic novelty. It is what has largely prevented me from falling down formulaic model dynamics. Your alien awakenings were a really strong perturbation to my sense-making and a piece in the intellectual cascade that inspired the algorithmic improvements that made me rich.

That’s why I don’t respect philosophers. There’s nothing to ground them from pulling shit like this out their ass. Trump in his life hasn’t thought about anything more than himself.

“It’s the vibes, man!” Russel Brand is another. No good outcome from having poor epistemology. It takes a level of intellectual sophistication most will never reach.

I have had both. Interesting how different experiences can be. Granted, I was kinda asking for it in the latter and got humbled real quick.

Recently started experimenting with essential oils as tools for mood and consciousness regulation. I’ve used lavender, lemongrass and rosemary before. Currently testing out cinnamon leaf, cardamom and patchouli. Really enjoying this one. What are some of your favourites and why?

Vox populi, vox Dei. No king, politician or oligarch can withstand the masses when they are hungry for justice.

@gengar Have you ever had a psychedelic breakthrough? I am talking beyond the 2-3g mushrooms/ 150-250 ug LSD doses. There are seriously twisted things that you can experience in those spaces, like, for example, being shredded and morphed inside out. If you did, you would have a little more understanding for what Leo went through. That said, I myself wonder what makes the manifestation of a psychedelic state into baseline so hard, even with Leo's level of Awakenings. My current understanding is that each level of Consciousness has a certain coherence to it, accessible only from that particular state of Mind. If you read Talbot's "Holographic Universe", then you may be familiar with the idea a spiritual events can take different forms depending on the consciousness of the observer (some just get headaches/ others straight up see that shit). The "if Jesus/ aliens appeared, you wouldn't even know it" type thing. The dynamics between states, i.e the relative ontology, is highly non-trivial.

One here lol. Leo, you should really think about writing up your thoughts on rationality and post them on arxiv. The reason for example Wolfram hasn’t made a dent is because he doesn’t publish so he is invisible in the eyes of academia. Don’t make his mistake.

You either are or you not. If you were ambitious, you would know it. I am one of those hyper-ambitious people and every time someone asks me why I work 11h, 7 days a week I ask them “ What else is there to fucking do?”. I’m already a millionaire, and there’s no stopping after I make a billion. I could a give a fuck about the cars and mansions. There are things that need to be done and there’s no else that can do it. That’s my reason. I will die knowing I have squeezed every last drop of life energy out of myself. For the evolution of Consciousness.

Absolutely agree with the importance of exercise. Just want to mention that depending on what type of physical activity you do, daily exercise may not be recommended. When I used to run a lot and do calisthenics, I indeed trained 6-7 days a week. However, for powerlifting you need to take breaks, otherwise you can injure yourself. I did 3x4 365lbs bench yesterday and am not hitting it again until 2-3 days later.

Fight.

You failed at your first attempt and now want to cut corners. That’s what separates the grifters and scammers from those who bring actual value. Choose which one you are and stick with it, accepting the consequences.

Amen

@Leo Gura You should really consider writing up your ideas about deconstructing rationality as a paper and upload it to arxiv. I can help you with that. This will allow for you to receive the proper credit through citations.

The fact that you don’t even see the irony in your response is why it is clear to everyone that you have been drinking too much of your own Kool-Aid.

@The Crocodile The biggest indicator of “snowflake” behavior is when one starts to spew insults. Your mind is literally incapable of holding a civil conversation because of how deep you are in your own bullshit. If you actually believe you have provoked an emotion in me, you are living in a self-aggrandised righteous bubble and need to go touch grass. I have had attempts on my life and my family. You think I lose sleep over what some internet troll has to say? We live in different worlds buddy.