Surfingthewave

The ultimate goal is to gain an understanding of why we're here. To experience consciousness in all it's beauty. How you do this is up to you, through whatever practices you so choose. What's missing from your quest is faith you will get there. In fact you don't even have to go on a journey, it's right here in front of you. Rather than thinking, how about experiencing. At some point you need to stop asking questions and allow it to come to you. You are what you seek. If you are doubtful and feel things are pointless then so it shall be. If you are inspired, excited and grateful to be on the journey then you're in for a fun ride. See the miracle in the mundane. Every time you wake up from sleep you are experiencing a gift. Don't waste it.

Matter over Mind Rupert Spira talks to Curt Jaimungal (Theories of Everything). Curt can't quite see it, he's battling with entrenched materialism. Rupert makes the point that when the engine on a large ocean liner is turned off, it doesn't just stop. It keeps going. When we become aware of our True Nature (that we are Infinite Consciousness) it can take time for our bodies and minds to catch up. It can take days, weeks, months, years, or sometimes a lifetime. Rather than seeking or letting go it's about sifting through the layers of thoughts, feelings, sensations etc to, get to that vibration, that sense of awareness . There are no boundaries to awareness. Try and sense the boundaries. There are none. You don't need to go anywhere. It's right here. What's stopping you from seeing and experiencing? It's because it is formless, disguised by form. You're looking for something that is invisible but is made up of everything. You're looking for something that you are. Next time you say "I am" - stop. What are you? The I am will tell you. Instead of Mind over Matter, realise that Matter is taking over the mind. Let go of Matter, Let go of Mind. When you feel the Joy that rests in empty silence, you have it. Rest in Infinite Consciousness. That's all.

Paradise Lost Part 2 - Call off the Search It's time to stop seeking. Seriously, call off the search. The seeking has become a distraction. Keep learning by all means, practicing and growing. But seeking has a heavy meaning. I had an insight today, its just another thought. There will always be thought, although now and again I can experience blissful minutes, sometimes hours of no thought. One special day, early on in my journey I had no thought for an entire day. Pure consciousness. Consciousness carried me through. When we experience no thought, we allow. We allow the opening of consciousness / vibration / awareness of no self. What is this? This is a slice of Infinity. Enjoy it. When thought appears, smile and observe thought disappear, or sometimes, not. So call off the search, keep practicing but enjoy things as they are. Let consciousness carry you through.

Paradise Lost Rupert Spira talks about movement and rest, the movement towards awareness and the resting in awareness. The movement towards awareness can be the shift towards seeing the light of being. Michael Singer talks about how we over complicate spirituality, that really it's just being aware of thoughts. Perhaps we over complicate life? Seeing the light of being is essentially seeing paradise in the moment - the sun setting, a beautiful tree, a tasty meal, laughter with a friend. Not seeing the light of being is seeing suffering, experiencing resistance and being caught in thoughts. Paradise Lost is where we get caught in between, when we seek too much or when we miss what's in front of us. What are you missing?

@Giulio Bevilacqua The balance between effort and surrender IS the way. It's both sides of the same coin. Rather than effort versus surrender - they come together. See it as a dance, you do every day. If you can balance between the two, you can become conscious. If you're applying too much effort, surrender. If you're surrendering too much, apply a little effort. The magic is knowing the dance.

@Vynce What do you mean when you describe " my psyche?" Let thoughts do their thang. Laugh at them, be curious by them, watch them. The key is thoughts come and go - like addiction you got to ride the trigger - and suddenly you are no longer addicted. Try a retreat (see it like rehab). Intensify your practice and see what happens.

That's it. You've hit the nail on the head. Except there is no nail or head. Where do physical sensations go? Where do physical sensations appear from ? The same place, right. They dissolve into...? That's it. Illusion has too much meaning. Try the word being. Try the word source. Any words can work. It's not a word, it's an experience. You need to experience it. Then you'll know.

Experiencing God So I had a tough week. Family and relationships can bum you out at times but something different happened this time. This time I didn't get roped in. This time I could see clearly what was being played out. I called it out. And interestingly it comes down to projection. People, particularly people close, can project onto you, especially if you're at a certain level of awareness/consciousness /self actualisation. Perhaps to avoid their own issues. But a sibling relationship which - in my early years caused a lot of pain but also brought a lot of love - I could feel the level of distress radiating from a detached perspective. This detached perspective is awareness. What I then experienced in my Yoga&meditation session today is God. More than just a feeling, an experience of consciousness, a love,a being, a glow, a grounding, but most importantly a Knowing. A Knowing I am always supported. A letting go of needs, of positive and negative. A realisation of the mystery of what this means. This brought me to tears because I realised then everything I want I already have. It is already on its way. A profound shift has occurred. I no longer need to seek so much as it is already here.

@BipolarGrowth Yes, indeed. But you still think there's an I am - experiencing? That's how you're making definitions/ meanings. Think of it as consciousness having a human experience not the other way round.

@Nahm Wow! ?

@BipolarGrowth You're getting it conceptually. Why do you think that you're not experiencing Oneness right now? Or to rephrase How are you experiencing Oneness right now? It's a recognition and a non duality of things. What is Oneness to you? Yes there is no separation. The Buddha got enlightened when he gave up seeking it (although he had 16 years of work behind him). I find Adyashanti's books really help to clarify the above. Walking through the door of "I am" he describes it. We're so used to seeking, when we find it, we often resist. Break down the line "I exist but am not Enlightened" to I am. Just I am. Meditate on this / contemplate this and see where it gets you.

Why do we get blown off course? There are a million reasons but a good one is self protection. Just like the thermostat in your house, homeostasis will pull you right back when you start to make progress. When it comes to life purpose see this as part of the path. You can quit anything but what can you actually stick to? What kind of life do you want to reflect on when you're on your death bed? These are key parts of the path. The biggest threshold guardian is yourself. Are you ready to really push yourself and go the extra distance. But what if this was all an illusion created in the mind? The mind creates all sorts of rubbish to stop you from doing what you need to do to protect you from doing it. See the games the mind places and carry on regardless. But if you need time out, take it. Just don't quit cos things are about to get exciting. When you feel like quitting it's generally because you're about to make massive progress. Keep going.

@Raphael Thank you.

@Opo @Opo I have no idea.

@Opo There is a connection between far right political extremism and far right religious extremisim. This has been discussed in sections of the media, particularly after the Capitol riots earlier this year. Evangelicalism in particular has become associated with American nationalism, specifically white nationalism, according to some of Obama's advisors (this is a quote from Time mag). For example some White Nationalists use Christian symbols to spread messages to racists. There's a good article on this in Time magazine, Jan 14, 2021. There's also a political thread to this. I recommend reading Obama's A Promised Land. It's an excellent book that is not only a deeply personal account of the presidency but also attempts to explain the roots of White Nationalism, if you read between the lines, this movement gained traction over years during Obama's presidency. There were certain groups/voters that didn't want a black man in the White House.

@trenton Fear of difference and perpetual 'othering'. Also many white people have continued to deny the impact of racism, colonialism and slavery within history so disillusioned young people aren't able to challenge and uproot white supremacy once and for all. There's also the massive part Religion plays which is inexplicably linked.

You are not your thoughts Some thoughts are overwhelming. Some can be obsessive like a strange loop and come back time and time again. Some thoughts make us feel a certain way, a feeling we crave. Thoughts can become stories. Stories that stick and become part of identity. Thoughts are not what we are. They are like sensations but localised, as our perception says, in the mind. Although this is not the case. From where do thoughts arise? To where do thoughts go? Surrender to this place. Become conscious of this place. This place is awareness, it is consciousness. What is only real is this moment. Thoughts can stop is from really enjoying and experiencing this moment. Let go of judgement of your thoughts. Practice having no attitude to your mind, as Deepak Chopra talks about. What you really and truly are is something way more magical and mystical. Don't let thoughts get in the way of experiencing this.

@Emerald Great post. Keep doing what you're doing.

Every moment has potential Sounds like a line from a cheesy Tony Robbins power seminar. But this stuff really works. Been feeling good recently. I've been setting boundaries with myself and important people in my life. The daily meditations and regular yoga have allowed a lightness to be present. If you truly realise the potential of every moment you have a different perspective of those bad habits and stories you make up. You see them for what they are: stories. You begin to really listen and connect with others without judgement. You begin to listen to your deep inner voice, that feeling that is your inner guidance system. The one that has the answers. You begin to receive what you have been asking. You begin to see the beauty everywhere, this beauty we take for granted every day. When you let go of "good" and "bad" experience - as this is the mind filtering experience - you enjoy the what is. You merge with it more and begin to get what all those spiritual gurus have been going on about all this time. Michael Singer talks about waking up and feeling good every day. Surrendering to what is, is his mantra because actually, there's nothing else. I've begun to let go of those stories and scripts of who I thought I was. I am light that shines bright. Favourite quote this week: Laugh at what games the mind plays, the tricks of the mind. See the mind sticking to stories and experiences like barnacles on a boat (Deepak Chopra's Methuman). Getting close to nature has really helped me with this. Star gazing, walking and being in the wild. Doing more stuff that brings joy. We are only here for a brief moment. See the potential of the moment and all will be well. Tips i've taken to wellness: Daily meditation / yoga / consciousness work Jounalling Eating healthy, drinking more water and exercising regularly Regular rest / contemplation (important for nervous system) Daily creative expression and consumption: music, art, books etc Nature connection: wild swimming, walking, retreats etc Commitment to self development: books, seminars etc Having fun: enjoying the journey and connecting with others To sum up: Consciousness, Contact, Chi, Contemplation, Creativity, Connection, Commitment, Calling

@OneHandClap Good post, refreshing, honest and very true. Marriage or significant commitment instead of casual sex/ frantic seeking the perfect other has had a bad rep of late. Actually committing to someone can bring great freedom. Even if that someone is yourself. You don't have to be in relationship to be happy and fulfilled but if you do want one, marriage or commitment can bring you this and more. In terms of Enlightenment work it can move you on leaps and bounds, it can release creativity and heavy stuff. As you say it's about sharing this crazy thing called life with another and having as much fun along the way. Too many people are obsessed with the surface bs like looks. The thing is you never really know if it's gonna work out. But take a risk and I guarantee it will work out if you want it to. For those seeking, seek connection and love and you'll find it.

@ivankiss @ivankiss Because the chair doesn't care if it's objectified or not. Be careful of using Love as an excuse for any kind of action or explanation (especially when it comes to nonconsensual experiences with others ) this is the danger of spiritual work. What you did or didn't do for your woman has nothing to do with you, this is her experience also so be careful not assume, how do you know she doesn't want a relationship with you? Also this is about you getting laid with beautiful women, as your accounts showed rather than Enlightenment. There's nothing wrong with that though as long as you are being transparent which you are. It's great that you are advocating clear and open communication. That's the basis of maturity and real respect.

@ivankiss There are a lot of things wrong with objectivism. Women are made to feel uncomfortable on a daily basis. As your views are strictly from the male view point, my point is you may not have experienced objectivism the way women have, how can you comment without this experience? I'm just expressing my views based on the narrative of the male gaze which you are describing in your accounts. I'm glad for you something more devine and magical is occurring, conscious sex is mind blowingly amazing. Good luck ?

@ivankiss Thanks for the clarification. I think you're mixing up ego with self transcendence but we can agree to disagree. What you're describing, imo, is not about exposing vulnerability, just writing erotic accounts. If you were really being honest and vulnerable you could talk more about how sex really and truly makes you feel, strong, weak, confused etc and all the the things in between. You seem to be typically taking the masculine view point of objectifying women based on how sexy they are and how they turn you on. My points are to help you to think about some of those deep rooted masculine view points. That's why we're here to hang out and discuss, right? Breaking down social constructs and the minds conditioning as you so describe. But I understand this is your journal so I respect your space. By the way the word slut is offensive. No woman (unless they ask you) likes to be called that. Please refrain from all the explaining about how a woman should feel about a certain terms, as a man, you have no idea.

@Applegarden8 I never said it was bad, just the wrong place. He could sell to a publisher instead. 50 shades of... (insert name here). There's a lot of people journalling some reallly tough stuff. This is just pure ego. Women no longer want to be sexually dominated all the time. It's 2021. Get over it.

@Applegarden8 Why post publicly then? Just write in a private journal. There's a lot about these posts that highlight concerns which I've raised. This is just soft porn, there's no self actualisation going on. I look forward to hearing feedback from other females on here as I think @ivankiss could benefit from it.