Surfingthewave

I've lost a friend to suicide, the intent is different but the method's the same. It's no laughing matter.

Leo talked about taking his own life and has made plans. This rings alarm bells to me, how about anyone else? This needs to be taken seriously and I hope the moderators can see this. Whatever explanations he gives are meaningless. I just hope you can see this for what it is which is he is taking too many drugs. Namaste ?

Leo your new video left me very worried for you. I am happy you have reached such peak states however the singularity you so describe is essentially you leaving your physical body...... This love you describe can be found in what we do every day, from washing the dishes to sitting in silence. Do you think your obsessive nature to search for Truth can ultimately miss why you are searching?

@Maxu What really is the core of the monkey mind? Spend time contemplating this, like really really contemplating. You'll be super surprised by the results. ✌️ You'll laugh at that monkey mind, smile and carry on with your day.

@Raptorsin7 You just know. It is a Knowing and an Understanding. The direct path is to both know and understand that "I" is a concept. You still inhabit the mind and body but you no longer identify with the mind and body - you are set free. (to quote Spira and Shinzen)

There has been a lot of love in this forum recently which has been great ❤️ Just wanted to put a shout out to those who are struggling on the path, struggling with the day to day, struggling with loneliness, and also those who are helping by showing us the way ? You may be a moderator, you maybe a beginner, you may be somebody who is neither, you may not be on this forum. Let's appreciate each other because this life is precious and what makes life? We can also appreciate nature too cos we weren't here first ? So pay it forward, and appreciate your fellow humans, yourself and everything.

@Endangered-EGO Just stay in the Now.

@Thought Art I'm sorry you went through this experience. And that's what it is, an experience. You talk about rage, paranoia, distrust, anger, pain, abandonmment, suffering. That's a lot of negative self talk. What can you do to give yourself self love? Open up yourself to love, your amazingness, the beauty of life itself. If that means going solo for a while so be it. You talk about your sexuality, and my question would be have you explored this fully? As someone who has gone through something similar, attracting negative relationships can be part of this. You talk about the potential for you to be gay or bisexual, how does that feel for you, really, truly feel, then go from there. I struggled with shame for many years and had to open myself to this and work with it to be able to let it go. Do what you need to do to clear your energies and find your soul's purpose. Feel it, really truly feel it. When you open yourself up to love, you will find it. Good luck my friend, you're on the path, just be aware of all the baggage you are carrying and find ways to let it go.

How do we get rid of a sense of self importance? Self importance is something that for me, stops me from really really really listening. When you really listen to your body, your mind, the outside world, your significant other, etc etc, a miracle can happen. When you really listen, you feel. When you really feel, you become aware, of that energy, that energy that is around us, within us, enveloping us, carrying us, supporting us. As I continue to integrate my awakenings into my daily life, I feel more love, more light, more hope, more clarity. Stepping away from "human-ness" or "person-hood" continues to amaze me at how deep this goes at every level. To get rid of self importance is to embody it with love but realise it is a mere drop on the wave of existence.

@nexusoflife Amazing post, thank you for sharing. I really felt the love in your thread ♥

@Jo96 You're exactly where your meant to be. You're shedding layers and layers of yourself which is what is leading you to bliss. What I would say as someonewho has meditated for a while, be aware of having a goal in meditation. You sound like you're mixing up self inquiry with meditation. When we meditate, we come home to who we really are. When we self inquire we explore who we really are. Good luck ?

Insights this week The Consciousness Trap continues We all say, just be in the present moment. But the present moment is ever changing. It's hard to keep up. What we actually should say instead is be the ever changing presence. Again thank you Rupert Spira for your teachings. What is the ever changing presence? Consciousness. Awareness. Today on my daily walk I realised how much we hold onto from one moment to another. In our minds, in our bodies. This is because we want to cling on to something, anything, that gives us our personhood. What would it be like if we instead let go of everything, moment by moment. Would we exist? Yes we would, we would absolutely exist. Try it tomorrow. Let go in every moment. Then see the joy. When I realised this I looked up to see a squirrel jump in between trees. In that moment it was a flying squirrel... Namaste ?

@Raptorsin7 I began moving my practice off the cushion and into real life. When travelling, when I was in meetings, when I was doing other things I also purposely began meditation practice during and after really tricky emotional blocks. This is really the best time to meditate as you can't see the wood from the trees so to speak. The resistance is all consuming, but at those times I was able to experience the non duality. At times it was frustrating, endless and exhausting but when you break through it is worth it my friend.

The Consciousness Trap part 3 Meditation isn't a journey, a skill to be mastered, a thing to be learnt. Meditation isn't tricky, difficult, easy, etc (insert adjective here). Meditation is what we truly are. Meditation is the gateway to the source, to consciousness. The next consciousness trap I fell into was the above. That somehow meditation was something to gain, to achieve, to learn. Like other objects in duality I had separated myself from it and it had become another desire to fill a sense of lack. As I contemplated today I realised this: Consciousness (I am) is made up of sensations, perceptions, thoughts, feelings Consciousness (I am) is also knowing sensations, perceptions, thoughts, feelings. The witness becomes reality itself. (thanks to Rupert Spira). John Kabat- Zinn talks about the real work beginning when you meditate during life itself. Off the cushion. Then you realise meditation is life itself. In pure formless-ness : it's being. As I do this more and more, I see how much time we waste fretting, worrying, ruminating, reacting. Creating form to cling to, to desire, to need. It's time for joy, passion, celebration, gratitude, compassion and kindness. John Kabat Zinn talks about riding the wave of awareness. ? Especially now. What if you're actually the sea itself? Thoughts, stresses, worries, emotions are all just froth on the waves. Surf is definitely up. Join me.

Thank you for this thread @Anna1 Last night at 8pm I heard the sound of gratitude. #clapforourcarers Thousands of people came together to clap and give support for the people working for the NHS, doctors, nurses, carers, paramedics and everyone helping those affected. What I was also aware of was oneness. In these difficult times we need love. ?

The Consciousness Trap part 2 Further insights: So today after meditation practice I was totally aware of the physical sensations of resistance in the body. My back, neck and shoulders having been carrying this resistance for a long time. As soon as I became aware of it, I released it. I also had a vision of the infinite, of source. It was appearing around me from everywhere but also jetting out of my hands and body. Sounds trippy again but very vivid. After these moved throughout me I became aware of oneness. How everything is oneness. My thought energy is very active at the moment as is the adrenaline in my body. This appears to be coming from collective thought anxiety about the Coronavirus. Tonight at 8pm I'll be clapping my hands for the health care workers and carers on the front line here in the UK. This brings us together, releases energy and may renergise for the next phase. Do join me if you're reading this. I'll know as I'll feel your energy.

@Raptorsin7 Good for you, sounds like you are making waves with your practices and know what you need to feel good. @SilentTears Thank you for your kind words. It feels strange at times posting a private thing to the public so positive feedback and shared experience makes a difference. I wish you well in your work and practices.

@Raptorsin7 Through meditation, yoga and contemplation. (meditation 13 yrs or so) How are things with you?

@Raptorsin7 No I don't, it's not on my list of practices currently.

The Consciousness Trap Well I got stuck there for a while. Following on from insights last week, experiencing the infinite is a whole lot of difference from the perception of the infinite. That's a trap. As separate selves we want to analyse, weigh up, argue, reason, work out. Contemplation is key here. As I integrate my recent insights, is consciousness...........? I realise this is the trap right there. Consciousness is..... here. Is beautiful. Is love. Is. What is a moment? What is Love? Same thing. A moment is a thing of beauty, it radiates, it permeates, it is aware, it is giving you a gift. Will you take the gift? Are you ready for the gift? My mastery is really taking off. Because whatever happens I believe. I have faith in the path. The path itself is in fact the gift of mastery. Anyone struggling with mastery, see it for what it truly is.

Only men can make breathing exercises into a competition. Namaste ?

I quite like this one. Sometimes text, words and language cannot explain this process. Look inside yourself and feel. You have the answers within you. Follow that. And keep going.

Insights this week Today I was able to feel the thoughts as energy. Felt a bit like a trip. I was aware after a day at work my mind was a bit like a pot of mixing paint with lots of paint being mixed in. Also a sensation feeling of completeness today. The paradox of this sensation with the sensation of seeking mastery made me collapse into myself. I realise the seeking mastery is a bit of an illusion itself. It's the losing yourself in the art which is true mastery of thought or, flow. Aware of perfectionism and how this can be the enemy to an artist. Getting back on track with meditation is refocusing me. I tried Qi gong again today and this seemed to focus my energy. For so long I've fought the overactive thoughts in my head. But that's all they are, thoughts. Energy appearing and disappearing. For a moment in meditation yesterday I observed a thought actually disappear. The content of these thoughts are just consciousness. Just, infinite. It's the thoughts and feelings which are hard to separate. But when you see them separate, it's like a pretty blissful experience. Heading to full on lockdown here in the UK. Time to pause, reflect, be mindful and also intensify my practices.

@Raptorsin7 Like the words enlightened or awakening, letting go means different things for different people. For me I got stuck in a place where I thought letting go was releasing all the "stuff" which I felt was getting in the way of my progress. In fact, this whole concept was stopping me from moving forward. Letting go, I realise now, for me, is becoming being. It's bigger than I ever envisaged. It's realising you are pure energy, changing all the time. Impermanent. Beautiful and fully accepting yourself as you are. It's becoming consciousness. Becoming is very different to releasing. Sounds like your LSD trip gave you some insights on this. Whatever you think or feel now, let go of. What do you become when you let go of it all? See the beauty in this. Going with the flow of life is definitely part of it. Not resisting, realising as avatars we put our "good" or "bad" stamp on different experiences. Letting go is trusting what is, trusting what you need will come to you, but that actually all you need is this. When I meditate now I realise, I am, my true self. Any other times I am expressing consciousness but as a human, in this avatar. It's a total mind bending thing, that's probably why a lot of people take psychedelics to get there.

Hey @Raptorsin7 just checking in, are you OK, did you have a bad trip. Sending love and good vibes your way?