now is forever

who is peter you might ask - and what is science anyways today except a religion? today religion is also the religionless religion the scienceless science and they are in opposition of the pathless path and the gateless gate. objectifying reality we already do it without noticing, most of us have never thought outside the box.

@Wisebaxter

@Wisebaxter yes. but regarding underpants... you know what i mean. maybe it could be interesting to reflect on neti neti regarding underpants.

regarding underpants i guess being a skunk vs doing the change you can measure the conciousness in the activity. (if you are in access to a washing maschine or a sink and detergent)

why is being opposed to doing ? i don’t get how that would look mathematically and also can’t really buy into the logic. but you know i just answered to a question that was about spontaneous laughter release. and well you can laugh during a funeral.

yak

just because you don’t change your girlfriends that often doesn’t mean you shouldn’t change your underpants once in a while...

you could basically have suppressed anything - as laughter is just a spontaneous release for overshooting controversial emotions and thoughts. there is a phenomenon of people bursting out into laughter during funerals, that encloses this phenomenon really good - it doesn’t mean something has to be funny to release with laughter, sometimes situations are so tense or so sad that the body does that. it would be interesting for you to listen inside yourself what it may have been about.

smoked a herbal cigarette today - it’s not backlashing, as i did it just out of interest and there is no craving from it. it contained damiana what i‘ve never heard of before. funny thing is i still feel a little bad, as if i was cought in the act - maybe because there are many exceptions lately as it is not easy to stick to one’s own rules if the sourounding doesn’t support it. so i wouldn’t even have touched it if it wouldn’t have been around. some behaviors are produced only by availability. and some because of unavailability. and a lot are produced because of particularity.

@Wisebaxter just put that external intelligence in your hand down and focus on the external intelligence in your presence. i mean it reacts if you poke it...

oh ?? am i just too much lemon for the world? i really tried to wash my face today but sometimes it just sticks as lemon is really everywhere... and no one can understand the lemon phenomenon as lemons are maybe one of the last big riddles of our time!

i don’t know if you understand synchronicity, as in synchronicity things fall together instead of apart. what i also noticed is how you perceive the path as if she wasn’t walking one. i wonder if walking the path means not seeing what’s happening along the way? only focusing on the track ahead without even knowing where it might lead to? how do you know you are on the right one and she is on the wrong one?

the thing is i don’t even know if it’s just one or if there are more of them where i partially belong to. by the way which one of the adresses where you referring to? cyprus or the troglodyt?

i really love art - it’s so dammn good, especially directly where it belongs.

if i research that creatively i just get: troglodyte?

@tsuki your not a man if you can‘t take the pain.... just do some selfflaggelation - your ego can slowly get used to it.

@tsuki what would be ralston style? gold? i would not put metal in my mouth - you never know if it might become a radio receiver and if so you maybe let them install some kind of on/of switch.

i‘m sure you‘ve read that a thousand times but what about adaptogens and nootropics? are you taking any for basic stability? if not - really please try rhodiola and ashwaghanda and brahmi as those are the only ones i know for sure can have a small impact on this pain you are having right now. i know this pain is real and hurtful but as long as you feel that pain so severely you can’t really work on the problems. @Charlotte also talked about nootropics that helped her once, maybe she could tell you. the second step is to change the variable in your life that will make the biggest impact with the lessest effort. as you don’t have much energy at the moment handling all at the same time. you are juggling with your problems but you can only concentrate on one. so aim at a simple solution of the biggest problems first, it doesn’t have to be the final solution - there are also provisional solutions. also even though all problems are probably connected and intertwined, you need to separate their connection to see how the viscous circle feeds itself, and handle only small matters aside from them. bullet journaling helps me a lot these days to juggle and get a grip on the balls to man up you know maybe you could find the book in a library. ? and also if you are interested, just call them and ask how much it would cost and how you could get support from insurance or other sources! https://www.mindtherapyclinic.com/neurofeedback-treatment/ and yes it all costs money - but food also costs money. treat it as food, food that will really nourish you.

i start to understand the problem of elites again, and how there are so many types of elites i can never be a part of, some doors keep on being closed, i just was never so aware of it because mostly i never wanted to be part of a lot of these elites. i never noticed that i might also belong to one, but i do.

@Leo Gura guess you confuse the ox for a bull

depends on how you define bank account and if bank account is just a concept - depends on what and where it’s saved what someone else is logging into. some nothings stay nothings precisely because they are nothings and some nothings turn into something precisely because they are nothing. and some somethings turn into nothing precisely because they are something then you realize it never has been something.

@tsuki i don’t know tarot - it’s just intuition. only know the fool and the hanged man until now maybe there will be more... like the strawberry card - well that i know, too.

that’s maybe because the violation brakes open your channel to the beings around you - it opens you up for respect to yourself and other sentient beings. that’s respect for life itself, caring is indeed the only thing that can heal neglection.

@tsuki thank you! no it’s a healing process that needs time. everything else i can imagine seems impossible as i can’t just force them into existence. everything will fall into place you know and our open wounds will heal, well some will scar.