James123

They fucked my nervous system.

Eat 8 gr dried shrooms with lemon take. You will go before big bang.

Hello everyone. My son's situation is getting better. However, after what happened that little happy guy inside of me has died. I don't talk much anymore, if i talk, i just talk about the truth, i start to pray 5 times a day, i almost surrender every second like there is no future second (because my life slip underneath of my feed, after all those happening), therefore every moment is last moment, i become like 80 years old person whom is waiting for actual death. Could you please share your ideas wtf is going on with me? İ recognize what enlightenment is, i know that fundamentally i am literally nothing, however as a self, i am a human being. But i really don't know wtf is going on now, i have lost my all feelings towards to the universe, including my own death. Moreover, i literally know and embody that nothing is under my control. Because, when i try to control something, the pain is too heavy for me.

@creativepursuit definitely brother. Thank you very much!!! Much love and Peace!

Hey brother, definitely that's what i am trying to do. But, living every moment as like that is very very hard believe me. Very hard. İ am doing / surrendering my best. But, it is so tough. My chest fucking Borns for weeks.

Hey brother, that k you very much for your kind words, suggestions and beautiful wishes. As you said, I will do my best. Unfortunately, it is impossible to control reality, everything is out of control. Therefore, surrendering is must. Thank you again. I appreciate 🙏 🙏 🙏

You are most welcome brother! Great!!!

The entire UNIVERSE.

What if all knowledge is just an illusion? What if now is before so called birth and nothing has never happened?

Enlightenment is neither good nor bad. İt is a realization of your True nature or Really what you are.

Body is a accumulated of thoughts as Universe.

İmo, instinct is equal to survival skills. Therefore, instinct created the language. Looking forward to hear the answer of yours.

What about if we never invented the language? İ remember that one of pychedelic trips, i become a wolf. When i smell the walls, i could understand they are walls. However, somehow, they were no language there. Because, animals do not talk. Maybe barking, smelling and howling is the another type of or same as language?

Yeah. Exactly, but without the language, what will it be?

Does Survival instinct exist without language?

Definitely True.

Long term meditation, darkness and silence, retreats are the key. Psychedelics will not help you for surrendering the monkey mind.

The one who experience the god or become God is an illusion in first place.

Sure, great advice. Thank you. Of course, fundamentally i am nothing, but as a self I am still human being. Definitely, balance between ego and the truth is key for living of the life.

Thank you very much!!!! ❤️ ❤️ ❤️ I love you guys all too. ❤️ ❤️ ❤️ This is probably what happened to me except the last article. Thank you very much for sharing. It seems as terrible deasese.

Definitely. Definitely brother. Thank you very much for your beautiful wishes. ❤️ ❤️ ❤️

What a fucking joke, literally. Before, enlightenment seemed difficult, but now fucking life terrifies me, death or enlightenment is easy, at least the end.

This is not true brother. Thank you very much 🙏 🙏 🙏 I felt like half of me died, I was cutter into 2 pieces. Fear about trying to control, and fear about uncertainty. Thank you very much!!!

Definitely, not easy. Specially, for your own kids.

God is nothing as before birth, after death or now. And i am surrendering to it. İmo, Which is the most understandable reason for me. Poor us. Literally.