James123

What about if we never invented the language? İ remember that one of pychedelic trips, i become a wolf. When i smell the walls, i could understand they are walls. However, somehow, they were no language there. Because, animals do not talk. Maybe barking, smelling and howling is the another type of or same as language?

Yeah. Exactly, but without the language, what will it be?

Does Survival instinct exist without language?

Definitely True.

Long term meditation, darkness and silence, retreats are the key. Psychedelics will not help you for surrendering the monkey mind.

The one who experience the god or become God is an illusion in first place.

Sure, great advice. Thank you. Of course, fundamentally i am nothing, but as a self I am still human being. Definitely, balance between ego and the truth is key for living of the life.

Thank you very much!!!! ❤️ ❤️ ❤️ I love you guys all too. ❤️ ❤️ ❤️ This is probably what happened to me except the last article. Thank you very much for sharing. It seems as terrible deasese.

Definitely. Definitely brother. Thank you very much for your beautiful wishes. ❤️ ❤️ ❤️

What a fucking joke, literally. Before, enlightenment seemed difficult, but now fucking life terrifies me, death or enlightenment is easy, at least the end.

This is not true brother. Thank you very much 🙏 🙏 🙏 I felt like half of me died, I was cutter into 2 pieces. Fear about trying to control, and fear about uncertainty. Thank you very much!!!

Definitely, not easy. Specially, for your own kids.

God is nothing as before birth, after death or now. And i am surrendering to it. İmo, Which is the most understandable reason for me. Poor us. Literally.

Thank you very much my friend. ❤️ Imo, there is reason for my suffering. Without a reason, surrendering and accepting becomes more difficult. Do you have any advice to surrender and accept what happened, rather than god?

Yeah man. You are right. Being honest to yourself is most important thing to do. Moreover, what I recognize is death or enlightenment is easy, fucking life terrifies me. It feels like having a open heart surgery without any medication.

Sure brother. İ will try, thank you very much!!! I was diagnosed with MDD. Therefore, i have been on antidepressants for 3 years right now. I had a open heart surgery 10 years ago. Moreover, i actually do not hide anything, i am sharing all my weakest or strongest or "whatever it is" point with you guys.

Damn right. Thank you.

Of course!!! But i am trying to understand the best way of living, with all the problems, suffering, pain, etc... What can be the best path of living? Enlightenment or death is easy, but the life terrifies me.

We cant so anything brother. Thank you very much for your input. Thank you.

I am god, but God is nothing. Imo, Being humble, having a smooth and beautiful heart, and putting heads down makes you closer to nothing. Rumi says the same thing. Now I understand why they still prays 5 times a day, meditate, pray to god, asking for forgiveness to god, and putting heads down. What do you think?

Definitely right. I am the weakest human being in front of god. After this, i will call myself "poor james". Can we change my nickname from james123 to "Poor james"?

Great, amazing. Thank you very much brother!!!

@Someone here thank you very much brother. İ really do appreciate. İ am taking Wellbutrin (300 mg) and abizol (10mg) at the total for per day.

@Leo Gura what do you think about my situation? Do you think that i am fucked up in the head?

Great answer, thank you. İ have a heart condition and had a open heart surgery 10 years ago. İ think, i suppressed many emotions and feelings there. Moreover, i consumed lots of weed, pychedelics and other drugs, which destroyed my emotions and thinking process. Even if , i recognize that i am nothing. The life is going very though for me. Do you have any other suggestions about having a kid or being a parent?