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You getting born is not your fault, but your living is your responsibility.

The Little Prince (2016).

I gossiped about Leo once. I have a profound regret because he really offers value to us. It doesn't mean I always agree with him, but I can feel he's very kind. I hope he's fine. Edit: if you read it, Leo, sorry for gossiping about you.

RSD is just about getting laid. Following their tips is useful because you'll actually get laid. But I feel it's very shallow and doesn't fulfill my soul. They have some ideas like: "you have to go out every night, because, if you don't, you're a chode." So it's based on humiliation. I hope Owen Cook evolves with Julien Blanc, but maybe it'll take some time. It's funny because Owen Cook's book list is full of several types of books, from Orange SD to Turquoise SD books. I wonder why he's so attached to this pick-up culture. He seems to be a very kind man.

I'm starting to study about it too. They say Carl Gustav Jung studied alchemy.

@Faye, I did some research about chakras and how to balance the root chakra (Muladhara). The root chakra has relationship to fear and depression and we need to get grounded in order to heal it. Meat and every rooted and red food will help you to get grounded. Some examples of food that help you to get grounded and heal the root chakra: Carrots; Potatoes; Parsnips; Radishes; Beets; Onions; Garlic; Protein rich foods like meat and eggs; Beans; Tofu; Soy products; Chives; Paprika. Pepper. But there are also other ways to get grounded and heal the root chakra: Physical exercises (walk for 40 minutes everyday); Connecting intimately with the earth (walk on earth and dig your hands in it); Learning self-reliance; Discoreving your true needs and aspirations; Going from a psychology of scarcity to personal abundance. I'm going to follow these tips and I post here the results (I still won't eat meat though).

I did keto diet for more than 3 months. I lost some weight, but still had some depression and anxiety (in the first month, I was happier though). I'm on a plant-based diet for 3 days and I'm feeling better. I just asked myself: do I have the courage of killing an animal? My answer is 'no', so I won't eat it for now. Edit: before being on plant-based diet, I was eating a lot of junk food. Edit 2: I took a look at Jordan Peterson commentaries about eating just meat. I don't know about it because I never tried it. I hope it doesn't destroy your health though.

Hi, guys! I just found out about the term empath (empata here in Brazil) and realized that maybe I'm one. That's funny because many times I thought I was a psychopath or sociopath because I felt so detached from my emotions. I even borrowed a book about psychopaths in order to see if I was one. I remember once I took a psychopath test and the result was that I was not a psychopath and neither had tendencies. Then I just concluded that I was a human being with no emotions. What happens is that I take antipsychotics and, before taking them, I was a big wave of mixed emotions. But after taking antipsychotics, I became a little more dettached from my emotions. I just took the test of Judith Orloff M.D. to see if I was an empath and I scored 16 points of 20 (there were questions I didn't understand, then I jumped them and I didn't score). It says that I have a strong empathic tendencies. I'm reading about empaths and I identify myself too much, especially before taking antipsychotics. What I find it's funny is that a therapist warned me that maybe I didn't have schizophrenia and just was too sensitive. A bar access facilitator also warned me that maybe I have a gift instead of schizophrenia (actually, I'm now diagnosed with schizoaffective disorder). If I'm really an empath, now I can understand why I attracted many toxic people and emotional vampires (especially family) during some moments of my life. But, at the same time, I also understand why some people don't give up on me (I really think things like: "why the fuck there are people who like me if I'm a depressed weirdo who can barely stand up). I really appreciate feeling what other people feel and I would do everything to heal them. But sometimes there are people who just want to drain my energy and it's not healthy for me. By the way, I'm spending some days in nature and it's being amazing. Just wanted to share it with you. Peace and love, guys! ✌❤

Teal Swan and Infinite Waters, but they're more about stage turquoise stuff.

Awesome! I can have natural water, but organic food is too expensive. I found coconut oil as an alternative to traditional toothpaste, but, what about the breath? Is iodine supplement really necessary?

I don't know, maybe you want to take Judith Orloff test in order to clarify it: https://drjudithorloff.com/quizzes/empath-self-assessment-test/ I didn't understand what you mean exactly. @Arhattobe thank you

@Smika thank you for your words! I lived a great deal of my life on unconsciousness but with a lot of suffering that I didn't understand. Many times my energy got drained and I couldn't understand why. I wondered a lot: "if I'm being kind, why I'm feeling so tired?" I also have natural inclinations towards environmental causes and other equality causes, but I never fall into being an extremist. When in psychosis, I could sense when someone was lying to me or when someone was simply unhappy. I also would cry a lot many times without understanding exactly why (despite sometimes I was crying due to my life traumas). Animals are very important to me and I feel their pain, but I lived a long time of my life on unconsciousness and I thought it was okay to just eat meat because my parents and family wanted me to do so. But I never liked the idea of doing bad things to animals and, when I did, I regret myself profoundly (I still feel the pain). Sometimes I hate being this way because of such suffering and I think: "it would be easier if I felt nothing." I don't know if I'm really an empath, but I can really feel what other people feel to the point of getting depressed. I attracted many narcissist to my life (especially family) and I felt guilty because of it (they say we attract what we think, but, what about empaths?). You can call me crazy or whatever, but, when in psychosis, I was able to do telepathy. I was really able to understand what other people was going to say before they saying it. Sometimes it happens even when taking antipsychotics to the point I got used with it, @Aakash empaths are people more empathetic than normal.

I hope you're in good hands @Aquarius because sometimes medicines are necessary. If they want to put you on antipsychotics, a good choice would be olanzapine (this medicine made me sleep for 13-14 hours a day). But, as you said, you're probably having hallucinations (or delusions, I don't know) due to your lack of sleep. Anyway, all of it may have spiritual meaning.

Find a trustworthy psychiatrist. But that's funny because risperidone is supposed to help you with hallucinations.

Thanks, @Martin123! I need strategize my medications withdrawal. I'm still not sure if I should do it now.

I just drink alcohol with my family and friends (I don't get drunk since 2014) because I just want to taste some beer (I realized last day that I have no joy anymore with even craft beers). When I go out to night clubs, I drink nothing because I like to be 100% sure that I was sober when approaching women. Your question is interesting because I'm wondering if it makes sense to quit alcohol completely for spiritual purposes (the same with night clubs).

Hi, @Martin123! I'm really thinking on quitting them, but I'm not sure when to do it. According to The Inner Compass Initiative, I should wean off slowly (very slow), but I can't split my tablet of antipsychotic in a very tiny piece that will let me taper off very slowly. Maybe I have to talk to my psychiatrist to have a liquid solution of my antipsychotic in order to stop medications the proper way. But, directly answering your question, I still don't have plans with the antipsychotics.

@ivankiss I agree with you. No one should be ashamed of crying. @Psyche_92 sometimes I get afraid that my family will hospitalize again if I cry too much. I just cry alone though. @Inliytened1 I'm a man and, yeah, I see many men with difficulties of letting their tears go. @ajasatya thank you! I read some of this article yesterday. I love your posts and insights by the way. @BjarkeT yeah, I think the more I'm connected with myself, the more I find crying a wonderful thing.

I did a life purpose exercise and then I started to cry due to the message I was creating during the exercise. After cleaning my face, I decided to watch a video of a dance about domestic violence (very famous video) and then I cried again. Then I decided to watch a video of Tony Robbins and Dawn Watson and I didn't stop crying. This last video was pretty intense (what story!). Before having these crying, I was willing to binge and eat a lot of junk food. After crying, the binge just disappeared (I'm still hungry, but I'll take a healthy food to eat). I also had other cravings that I don't want to show here but, after crying, they disappeared. I can say I'm a bit depressed, but I didn't cry with no reason. Crying was really good for me, specially during the life purpose exercise (the message I crafted was really deep). The message I wrote touches my soul and I simply cry. I don't know if it's a cry of joy or sadness, but I'm sure it's a cry of happiness. I feel happier and relieved after crying.

I like Tony Robbins' idea of incantations and I want to try it. But I still live with my parents and maybe they would think it's a bit weird to hear me yelling out loud while doing push ups in my bedroom. I had the idea of telling them that I'll try something new in order to handle my emotions. I hope they don't think I'm getting psychotic again. What any other ideas do you guys have for doing incantations?

There is a documentary called In The Beginning There Was Light. You can find about it in http://www.lightdocumentary.com/

Thank you, @Leo Gura! I still can't meet my basic needs, but I have an inner desire of helping people. Actually, I'm a college student and I generally help people with my own college works (I study Graphic Design, a very Green course here in Brazil). I'm taking baby-steps towards my development. It's baby-steps, but at least I'm evolving. During a healing session I had with some people, a guy told us that, when we heal ourselves, we're healing the entire world. I'm not happy within, but I'm working on this happiness. I don't think it means I can't help people at all, but, as Leo said, I shouldn't bite off more than I can chew.

All this content about self-development is amazing, but I have the impression we focus too much on ourselves. I don't know if I'm being too much Green, but isn't life purpose more about helping others than just working on ourselves? I just watched a documentary about children slavery and it made me question it. I spend too much time reading about self-development and how to heal my emotions but, suddenly, I burst with tears while watching a documentary with children being used as machines for the capitalist system. Maybe a better way of finding our life purpose is by paying attention to what makes us cry. I heard I should have tears of joy and excitement, but I have tears of compassion and willingness of helping those children. I have the will of having them near to me just for them to hear that they deserve an awesome life and not those brutal stuff they were doing. It's not tears of joy and excitement, but tears of compassion. Isn't it also important for our life purpose? Or is it all about excitement, joy and self-development? I read somewhere that the best way to overcome depression is by getting out of the bubble and starting helping others. I also heard from a therapist that I need to help myself before helping others (I heard it from the whole psychiatric system). I'm a bit confused now because I do have emotional stuff and depression to heal, but at the same time I want to help the world.

That's funny because when I was going out many times, it helped me to land a job. I would interact easily, so I would get well during the interviews. I don't know how many times I went out alone by myself without alcohol. I don't have consistency, but I have the guts to do that.

Marina Abramović is a Green role model for me.