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People's opinions still affect a lot. I think this is just being a part of a commune, it goes hand in hand. But I have learned an important lesson. Take in what comes in, graciously, little moments, people without an ego, be around humble folks, let go what doesn't belong to you. Deal with that unbelongingness, remember you can't change people, they are what they are, sometimes reading people's opinions is just nauseating, kinda vicious and lacking in understanding of the sensitive state of mind, let go then, there will always be that pitting against one another, social stuff, it's hard to integrate in a commune where opportunities are never given, let go once again, think about better opportunities, bigger wider doors, matured people who are level headed. Read between the lines. Genuine people always want to read the room and make sure that nobody feels uncomfortable or incomplete.

I need to start taking Vitamin D from today. Exercised a bit today, not much. Just jogging. Build that mindset. Get going.

Matt Kahns forum. Don't know if it's still active.

What about taking Vitamin D, start making changes today.

Interesting discussion on vitamin D causing time dilation. Didn't know that. I have another hospital visit today. And two more to schedule next week. Don't want to get into too much detail but yea regular health checks.

Spiritual Resonance As the cosmic energies align, we journey through the luminous veil of awakened consciousness. Embrace the vibrational frequency of universal love, allowing your essence to merge with the boundless flow of divine intention. Within the sacred geometry of the soul, we unlock ancient wisdom, transcending the illusion of separateness. the Clare Graves & Spiral Dynamics theory (which I felt was so accurate in the first tier) from the perspective as a yellow, what is the transitional dilemma and what is aqua like? So, I'm pretty scared of over-raking myself, but I feel like I am a yellow - I have done a lot of self seeking for years now, and when watching Leo's Clare Graves & Spiral Dynamics, I could follow the system right up to yellow, and I could see in my life how I went from blue, orange, green, yellow. I do associate myself with yellow quite a lot when hearing about their qualities, but as to what might be next seems alien to me, and what aqua could be for me. I want to aim to change myself for the better (obviously), but is there any advice for yellow except to be open minded (which is working really well lately)? I have read about aqua but I'm not too sure about what I read - even the other colours seemed off in their descriptions. Here is my theory, Yellow is like enlightenment.1 in which you realize your ego, gain a strong and real sense of losing the self, seeing life as the pure-experience it is just in this moment. But, at this stage, as to what reality actually is, is still a bit of a mystery - and studying about quantim physics and science in general doesn't help that much. This seems to be where I am at I would say, and although I am learning new realizations steeply (as compared to before), I cannot tell where this is leading, and I just feel a bit lost as to what I should be changing into with these new realizations. Aqua is like enlightenment.2, as a common example, what people say Buddha would have reached. This would be complete connection with reality (I have heard that is a theme). The brain should have some physical limit as to its comprehension, there must be a limit somewhere right This was sort of hard to communicate with language but I hope that is clear and all.

Tomorrow another hospital visit. A regular check up.

Yea good points.

Absorbing news hasn't been the best thing lately.

Some of the people I know went to California today. It does raise my anxiety around the whole California protest thing.

Makeup is not a about art or beauty. It's about hiding flaws, perfecting the face to beauty standards, looking better, basically covering up what one would look like without it. Because for a lot of women, the bare face doesn't look good, at least in their own eyes not satisfactory enough so they try to make it look better. This is basically covering up. It says it - make up.

Another hospital visit today. Sometimes I'm tired and exhausted and I prefer to keep to myself. Had enough conversations for the day. I wish life was more meaningful and colorful. Like doing great amazing stuff. Or just relaxing on a holiday. At a beach. On a yacht. Just chilling. Forgetting every day worries. The more you neglect life the worse it gets. Then problems begin to pile up like dust on a cover.

Sounds like habitual boredom and being stuck in a rut. Revamp yourself. Get some sun. Go hiking, swimming, travel. Discover new places, new people. This will get your blood pumping.

When someone settles for a relationship, they are looking for more than just sex, it's that the bargain is at a lower tier. To think that people settle for relationships just for sex if they are waiting for someone better is a biased needless assumption on your part.

So does a gym rat!

God realization mate.

To be honest, women are always looking for a better option. It's their survival at the end of the day. They imagine an alpha to be a good provider but settle for the beta long term because betas tend to provide better and stay loyal. Alphas usually stay in a relationship until a better comes along. These patterns repeat in dating circles and women just have to learn in time. That's why we call them mature women, hardened by experience, or should I say softened.

Women are attracted more to alpha, isn't it? It's only mature women who are attracted to beta, generally mature in age. Some could be doing it to avoid getting dumped by an alpha, no?

Also men take steroids.You forgot that. Both men and women do unhealthy things for looksmaxxing.

Toxic masculinity needs to be discussed in greater depth. Too.

But it improves self esteem.

I am determined to complete my tefl program. What else? Exercise hard and lose weight. Get back on track. Deal with emotional issues too. Follow mindset mentor. Today I'll create a frame chart for my problems and let's see how that pans out.

Today's life lesson is a good one. Such a mindful podcast.

Strange indeed.

I'll need a daily check-in like in the hospital. I also need multiple hospital visits over a period of a month now because of my multiple medical issues. The bills will pile up. I have to be determined. I have several hospital visits this month. Giving myself a dose of hope Dear Planet Jupiter.