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The dental appointment went well.

Another dental appointment in the process.

By sugary drink I meant junk food, playing video games all day and all kinds of addictions like smoking, drinking beer etc. You took it the wrong way. Those parts of the normie lifestyle are pure poison and they are usually abandoned on a spiritual path.

Knowing that the universe around you has a greater impact if you are willing to put the effort to align with it.

I see a democratic win in 2026. Gavin Newsom is a good candidate. The Democratic party now hinges on good candidates who aren't fluff.

You can watch youtube ad free. Problem solved. And regarding the algorithm, it depends on or aligns with what you have already been watching. I didn't find it disruptive.

(self referential notes) Dear OceanicBlizzard - OceanicWorm/BlizzardWorm. Let yourself land. The day is done. It is time to rest. Breathe deeply and feel your focus shifting to rejuvenation. The more relaxation you let in, the more nourished you will be tomorrow. The Sufi poet Rumi wrote: Moonlight floods the whole sky From horizon to horizon; How much it can fill your rooms Depends on its windows. Close your eyes and breathe in. Imagine your ceiling is made of skylights so you can see the entire constellations above you. Let your room be made of glass so it fills with the silvery light of the moon. Breathe in again and let the night sky wash over you as your body relaxes even more. You are a traveller on this fabulous landscape. You have many vistas ahead of you. And with each journey, you are forming habits that will help you on the next. When you wake, alter just one thing in your environment that will help nudge you towards your desired behaviors. You choose what that is. Your goal is actually to make your actions easier, not harder. If ever a step feels too much to take, break it in half. And if that feels too much,break it in half again. Long lasting change comes from tiny steps, repeated regularly over time. Your path will unfurl before you, always waiting for that next little step. And in between each, remember to give yourself credit for every single effort you are making. The entire night sky is offering you rest right now. Widen your windows and let self-compassion and kindness in. July3

@Hojo needles to say, I enjoy all of your ur posts thoroughly especially in this section. You post really good, all of your questions and insights, top value. Hojopojo

@samijiben Some people are wired to be mentally tougher than others. They might reserve crying for a more serious experience. They might even look down on crying causing blockages. Either you're hard wired to not cry easily as others or you have perspective related blockages about crying. As long as you connect with an experience and understand, integrate and absorb it, it doesn't matter either way you cry or not.

What's so difficult about the physical world? Meeting the wrong kind of people? You could be in nature if you want.

I wish I could find a bunch of videos of Ralston on YouTube like Matt Kahn. Otherwise all is good.

Have you ever seen an overgrown plant with its branches growing wild? Here in the world of fabulous, the reason you begin with just one habit is to fortify your center first. Thicken your trunk to build the strongest foundation possible. After solidifying one habit, you do not suddenly branch out in dozens. No. You choose only one more to add. Nourish it. Be patient, no matter how long it takes. You are choosing the direction of how you will grow. You are sculpting the limbs of your tree. And it is beautiful.

Missed out on some.

I don't find certain conversations rewarding enough.

First is awareness of your problem and then letting go.

You're way too attached to who you are as a person so it's causing a lot of friction in the inherent ego. Let it go. Let people say what they want to because people will do it anyway. Become immune to it, be more focused on what you want in the moment and then whatever they say will be a piss in the wind.

Different psychological aspects discussed on this channel.

It seems like you want to escape this human form but is this what you genuinely want or just a coping front?

(self referential notes) Dear OceanicBlizzard - OceanicWorm/BlizzardWorm. Breathe in, the Knight has come in his warrior clothing. Let yourself relax into it. You are an important part of everything. Waves are traveling across vast lengths of ocean,rising and falling right now. Just as your circadian rhythms tick on, the tides are responding to the moon. The trees nearby are taking in the carbon dioxide you exhale. They send back the very oxygen that circulates through your bloodstream, allowing your muscles to relax in this very moment. You live in an interconnected world, as your own story revolves here in a Fabulous way, do not be surprised if it becomes easier to have patience for those around you. You are learning to have patience towards yourself. The simple act of breaking habits into tiny pieces and committing to just the first, is an act of patience. You are creating space and time for your own ups and downs, free of judgement. The Serbian poet Dejan Stojanovic takes perspective taking into poetic levels. As you breathe in again, imagine yourself, embodied in every one of these lines : To be a lantern in the darkness; Or an umbrella in a stormy day; To feel much more than know. To be the eyes of an eagle, slope of a mountain. To be a wave, understanding the influence of the moon. To be a tree and read the memory of the leaves. To be an insignificant pedestrian on the streets. Of crazy cities, watching, watching and watching. To be a smile on the face of a child. And shine in their memory. As a moment, saved without planning. Know that, someday, your own memories will be made of unplanned moments. You are planning your habits, true, but you can remain alive to the experience. The way water feels as you drink, the tree you never noticed on your walk. Let each moment be vivid so that, when you look back on the tapestry of your life, each is still beautiful to you. Tomorrow may contain a moment that will shine on into your future and, someday, bring a smile to your face as you look back.

I liked this. And I'm going to follow this. Consider that when it "hurts", is not about the other person but what your thoughts are telling you about yourself in that moment. Basically your mind is playing a trick with you, is saying the problem is outside when actually is inside. You can´t let your mind tell who you are. Because it will always tell you who you are based on your experiences, past and karma. Because that´s what the mind runs on: information about the identity it has constructed. It can´t reveal who you are. So if you use your mind to tell who you are it will always tell you the same story. You need to stop letting the mind telling you who you are.

Self-honesty is the path mate. Just be aware of your emotions and thoughts. Avoid comparing yourself to others. Everyone had their own unique path. You have yours too. You are suffering from deep insecurities and that's pushing you to growth but that's negative motivation. You are operating from a paradigm of fear rather than motivation and enthusiasm. You want to succeed at the things you do because you like doing them and not because you want to be better than everyone or to put someone down. Extend an empathetic glance to people who are doing better than you, think that they deserve and even if they don't, think of them as fortunate instead of thinking that you're inadequate. What's happening is that you are largely centering your ambition around Ego and egoic fulfillment. Instead take the route of compassion. Both fortunate and unfortunate people deserve compassion. You don't have to be jealous of them. Think of yourself as deserving of whatever you don't have and thankful of what you already have. Then focus on what you gotta do to filter out distraction and pointed focus on what you want without any ulterior motive. Without any insecurities. Without too much illusion or attachment. Radical self acceptance might also help you. You haven't yet embraced the unhelpful parts of yourself. Integrate that. Tell yourself that you love yourself as you are and who are. Begin with this emotion of acceptance. Then your jealousy might fade away a bit. And always know that what we do is not just to feed the ego endlessly but to find awareness, hope, help and gradual improvement. Other responses were good too. Excellent!

It also depends on the instruments used.

In late May I started getting these unique experiences. It started with a walking mindfulness meditation, where 20-30 minutes in I started to really feel everything around me, the hardness of the concrete, the heat of the sun, the noise of the passing trucks. It all became overwhelming. I had to take a break from it all and ended up in a park. Deeper meditation made the colors vivid, and I could feel the plants, hear the bugs, people walking by were moving in slow motion. The weird thing is that it felt like it had been 15 minutes, but an alarm in my phone indicated it had been almost 3 hours. Although it is inaccurate the only experience that is similar was the weed I had before But it wasnt quite like that either.

Eat at your friend's place. A retreat might help. Be hardcore on changing your diet and hit the gym.