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  1. Create a schedule to discipline yourself. I would just use a timetable app to do what you want to do. At specific times you will drop everything and just do it without any questions or thought. Do this with the vision of bettering your life. Every action you take is an action that is within your vision When you don't feel like it, visualize yourself doing it, and then do it. Visualize every single step, like putting on your shoes, getting into the car, driving the to the gym, etc. Timetables are a nice way to discipline yourself. Have goals as well, like when doing sports.
  2. @NoSelfSelf The reason was just feeling masculinity within me. I felt like I blocked it out all this time and it came out all of a sudden. It's one big ego trip. That's the only reason that I can think of for something like this to happen. I'm letting it ride out now
  3. I just wanted to share this with people and to get some advice because I'm about to take real actions All of a sudden, as I was meditating, I realized how much of masculine energy is built up in me. With the Masculine energy, I became really harsh with myself. I have long hair, but I just want to cut it off now. I have also a beard, but I want to cut it off as well because it doesn't look "manly". I'm a bit chubby and overweight, so now I want to go and become the strongest I can become. I know this will lead to some other serious actions This isn't just physical, it's also mentally. I feel like I have so much potential within me, like really getting 100% committed to self-actualization, and I'm talking about 18 hour meditations and 4 hour sleeps... I feel like I need to quit all of this bullshit that I am addicted to, mainly games. I've always played games, and without questions too. I just play without any thought. Now, I just want to stop and become my potential. First step, getting a haircut tomorrow and fixing up my style. I want to just cut my hair, and finally don't give a fuck about my looks because that's what alphas do. With long hair, I always messed around with my hair, but now... Cut it off and fucking be a man I also want to just go out and do stuff. Really take actions, take walks, take friends outside and get drunk, get extremely "happy" off life. Then there is the lazy side of me hehe, but yeah... So much energy but no ways of executing it feels like I want some advice though, I feel like I'm making an identity. I feel like this is strongly from the ego, like, cutting my hair? Why should I cut my hair? Why do I want to look manly all of a sudden? If I follow these actions, I feel like it will be a never ending process of pleasing myself and just feeding into the ego...
  4. By being the person who studies for long hours. By being the success. If you keep thinking that you can't be successful, then you won't be. Keep thinking positively and keep thinking success. Every action you do is in the name of success. Gotta work long hours? Do it because you want to be successful and earn everything you want. Do you know why you can be successful? Because "people" have always been successful, and last time you checked, you're part of the people. Your professor is only human, he isn't this amazing person. Sure he worked hard and made something out of nothing and that's what you see as amazement but look, he's just a regular person, just like you. You can do the same, because you're human, just like him and have potential. Difference between a successful person and you is that they have a vision and a purpose. Other than that, there is no other difference (that I can note of). They are human and you are human, nothing is impossible. If they can do it, why can't you, you're a person
  5. @Serotoninluv Sounds intense, but I will take your advice. Just ride with it and learn, I guess this is also something I need to actually learn
  6. @Brittany Yea... There's actual freedom in my life? I just feel like taking actions on literally anything @CreamCat Pretty much, I just can't be bothered anymore. I'm going to do it. @Serotoninluv So is this an ego trap? Would you consider this as a distraction?
  7. Stop it, and take a break. Live a little, enjoy eating ice cream, go out and meet people. Work out? Do things that you feel like doing. Get your blood moving. It seems like you've been self-developing so much that you forget to enjoy this experience. How about for once, stop the enquiry and just do something. Take action
  8. @Epsilon_The_Imperial Yeah, you're already enlightened, you just haven't realized that yet. It's seeing the glass of the TV, once you see the glass, you cant unsee it, but it's always been there when you've been watching the TV. But then, you see the edge of the TV, then the box, then the entire TV. It's always been there, you've just never seen it. You can't escape from anything by killing yourself. To make yourself enlightened quicker? Noone can answer that. only via meditations and preparation for a long journey
  9. Killing yourself doesn't change anything. You are still trapped in this reality, with literal no escape. The best thing you can do is just go with the flow
  10. This is exactly what Karl Marx was talking about. He goes on to say how capitalism and greed will numb and cut out any creative thinking or individual freedom. This includes things such as art; when's the last time you heard someone making a living with art? It's rare to see it. Working is fine, it's a way to actually live. But when rent can be so expensive, and living standards are also costly, it becomes trouble, to a point where there is an entire culture of work. A work culture should not exist at all. Working should just be like meditation, you do it without any questions and do it to not die. But it becomes absolute in society, you HAVE to work or you will be on the streets. You become absolute with the work instead of yourself However, even without capitalism, there is work. You have to work for your food. It's just, capitalism's version of work is sucking your soul out Don't be a communist though, but I'm just saying, there are good points that Marx has said. And by all means don't quit any job. It's needed
  11. You know what's crazy? Intelligence of gravity. We're not floating around or being spread apart into space, instead... We're solid, and grounded onto Earth. Isn't that intelligence? We're actually composed of things, that composing thing is intelligent and uses gravity! They say we're made up of atoms, but the atoms are in one dense area, which supposedly creates solid. The atoms could fly around and just be "independent" but it chooses not to. It chooses to be part of the human.That entire process is fucking intelligent. (Just adding models and examples) It's not just humans that are intelligent, It's also the rock, because the rock is solid and doesn't fall apart. It's just being. A blanket can keep me warm, that's fucking intelligence. It stops heat from escaping, IT CAN ACTUALLY STOP THE FUCKING HEAT. HEAT THAT I CANNOT STOP. But I am so blind to this intelligence, it makes me sad. Bro, the heat itself is intelligent. It makes me feel warm and can even harm me. It makes me dead. Everything is intelligent
  12. Try keeping your eyes open when you're meditating. That should stop the sleeping
  13. Everything that happens has nothing attach to it. A breakup isn't bad unless you say it's bad. Equally, you can say a breakup is good. This just creates a flow. Universe is a flow, with events happening. It's you that creates the bad or good environment or assignment. it's you who judge the events. It's you who judge the universe. But it was never bad or good in the first place. That's just my view
  14. You've literally read my mind. I've restricted myself from talking, because I feel like it's just mental masturbation. The silence makes me more composed, less toxic, less judgemental, less everything, and to be honest, I have no idea why but it's definitely an amazing thing The silence created more healthy relationships as well, which is so ironic. Less effort in talking = more healthy relationships? Paradoxical (for me atleast) This restriction just made me so calm. I never knew that talking could take out so much energy from me. Silence is the key, I would like to talk more about this
  15. Could say there is only one universal intelligence... There is no stupid or smart Woah, Trump has Intelligence?
  16. I would say that the Universe is experiencing itself through itself. Humans experience is part of the whole experience. You need human experience to experience the whole thing in some messed up way.
  17. See this "now" as balance. Good can't come without bad. Experience the bad, be in the bad moment, and then move on. Don't be greedy and only experience the good. The bad must be there to help you become stronger and resistant
  18. I would suggest to meditate even longer then, go upto 15 mins and see where that takes you
  19. I've experienced this before. It's super weird, and it is literally as you describe it. It's as you're dissolving and engulfed by "something". It's you stopping the labeling, stopping the balance, stopping everything that you think you're doing and you are now just being. When you "be", you're no longer sitting, you're not longer breathing, you're no longer keeping your balance or keeping your back straight. you're just being awareness. The sensations is something I don't know where it comes from, but it means you're doing something right . It's rare for me to feel something like this. But when it happens, and I realize it, it goes away
  20. Lol I see this all the time. The universe doesn't resolve around the enlightened monk. He can't stop a bullet, of course not, because the bullet itself is awareness.
  21. Hey, you're beautiful, funny, confident, attractive, clever, and everything. Don't let labels hurt you, be true to yourself. Everyone has their own flaws, and you just need to accept them and move on. What helps me in these situations is to pretend that I am something that I am not. If I have the same thoughts of someone who is, lets say, a confident person, then this would only mean that I will be confident. Be the thing you want to be. Don't let these stupid judgments affect for your true self. Your want to be self.
  22. Fuck other people, just believe in yourself. Trust yourself. Be yourself
  23. A lot of people make mistakes on not learning maths. Maths is needed in Computer science, so if you don't like it, then I wouldn't really suggest going for it. I mean you could? Some people get by it but you never know when you have to develop a program that requires maths. Even with your game, physics is needed to create the mechanics. You don't need to study computer science either, it's more of a formality when getting hired. Programming is not equal to Computer Science, there is a lot more to CS. It's called Computer Science for a reason, it has the word science => maths. Develop the game if you want to do it. You don't need a degree to develop the game, but if you feel like you need the degree to create the game, then yeah go for the degree with the vision of the game
  24. Just gotta keep trying and trying until that negativity ego can fuck off I think you need a habit or even a schedule. This might help with the awareness, perhaps have a journal or every Sunday you can do something special
  25. They say it occurs in memory and ultimately, this is what creates the thoughts. Also, your literal thoughts are the ones that are causing the failures, because on a very deep level, you think your actions as as a failure when in reality, there is no such thing as a "failure". Failure is a human concept, failure is something YOU created and failure is what your thoughts say when you are in the loop. This leads to desire to stop the failure when there was no failure in the first place, lol. Desire is just something your ego wants. Embrace the desire, and just do it. Attach yourself to the desire. Once you've done that, you will probably realise that the desire was fucking stupid and never satisfied you. This realisation is important. Memory affects your behavior. Nobody or nothing controls you but the thought and moments which are expressions of the memory. You could be constantly shifting emotional states/moods without even realizing it, which affects your current moment. Look at this forum, it's full of mood swings and shifts of the emotion. Do deeper research within yourself. Try and realize what a thought is, and what a memory is, the answer is within though. This is just my rationalization of what an action is