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  1. This is something to seriously ponder about... But don't I need to do all of this bullshit to actually see what I don't want? I think I have convinced myself that there is anything other than myself... I've kinda lost myself? is that what you're trying to say?
  2. I really like this. I need to include everything, even the manipulations. Thank you for saying I'm pretty switched on, it just reminded me to keep on carrying on with the contemplating, and go deeper with the questions like you asked e.g. what is actual manipulation. I need to also explore more into epistemology @ajasatya Solid advice, but what about if you don't actually know what you want? With this work, I sometimes feel like I don't even know what I want. Why do I want to make myself liberated, is there a reason to? Liberation seems egoistical? Perhaps these are just distractions and self-deceptions to stop me from advancing...
  3. This is very true. Sometimes I even have self-doubts about the things I learn, and those self-doubts are fears of submitting. If I submit to something, and it's "fake" or "lies" then I feel like shit. But the trick is... Everything is fake and lie. Everything is a construction by the mind. Something I still need to experience. But it isn't really a question of control. It's more like, is this the actual Truth? Well, not even Truth but is it right? But the need to know if this is the actual Truth/Right is just self-deception and a distraction. That's where the root is or close to it So I'm slowly seeing this distraction and root. Still needs work though
  4. @Serotoninluv Yep. Just in the first 20 mins of part 1, and a lot of strong insights already like I am actually tricking myself. The mind and it's structure is deception-making, and not the influence of the outside. It's actually so obvious lol
  5. @Serotoninluv Now that is something I haven't watched. I didnt know he had a video on this
  6. This is not working for me... I'm still lost here. Good insights here but something is missing What I have also seen is that my ego responds to everything. Every action is a swift movement of my ego mind, but I only have awareness of this. What I've discovered is that if I learn something new, let's say I watch a new video by Leo, I surely respond to that video through actions, and through my thoughts. It gets stored in my mind, and I respond to that memory. I feel like I'm stimulating rather than being. You can copy and purify it, but again with the purification, it's affected by "you" still. The purification could just lie My ego could lie. How do I spot the lie? Any videos would be appreciated The ego isn't bad... It's just that I don't clouding
  7. @Misagh such a beautiful answer. Thank you! <3
  8. Why try to create when the love is already there <3
  9. Art

    @Fuku Passion is linked mainly with life purpose. Is art something you REALLY want to do. Your look on art without ego is good. Basically art shouldn't benefit you. It shouldn't help you relief stress, or help you with escapism, and that's something you have to look over yourself and see if it is actually doing that for you currently. Art can help ask you create questions that are used in contemplating like what is the meaning of life or it can help you with awareness of your emotions like painting when you are in an emotional state can show you that certain emotion in that state and even purge it out. If you create art when you're angry, that art is angry and thus you can really see the emotion, visually. (Just an example). This is why I'm more interested in abstract art, where art has actual meaning and can come from a very special place, within You can turn art into one of your spiritual hobbies, if you do it right. manga and comics, are not part of this art. Drawing of the sun's reflection on a beautiful river is.
  10. Art

    Art that is made from the roots of the ego is a waste of time. You have to realise that art is ultimately created by a human. That human is unlikely to be part of the 1% of individuals who are probably not even aware of self-actualization let alone enlightened But art isn't a waste of time if it has purpose. If it has passion, if it has love If you were to create art, and done in a way that has no ego influence, you would create... The universe So I don't think anything is a waste of time unless it's egostical. To be honest, to even say something is a waste of time is bad, because it's suggesting that you're trying to get "something" but what are you trying to get? Let time be wasted, who gives a fuck? Oh right, your "ego" does That's why it can be different when you make. It's made from love because it was made by you. If you have no ego, and you made art, it's just pure love examples of egoistical art is like portraits of Monarchies... Or Romantic art
  11. Finding passion in the actual spiritual working. You say you want results, but who wants results? Isn't this your ego wanting results? A way to discipline yourself is to put awareness onto yourself further. If you put awareness throughout the day, sure you will see that you're not disciplined but you are unaware what is actually causing it. It could be addiction, it could be self-doubt, it could be distractions, it could be boredom, it could be many things why you are not disciplined.
  12. Oh my God... I can peruse enlightenment, sure. I can do these meditations, sure. I can do the practices, sure... I do it not because I want enlightenment but because it feels like a natural occurrence to me... But it isn't even about me... As I continue, I will lose my friends, my family. the world... I will have to face my mum and say goodbye. I will have to face my dad and say goodbye, to everybody... I don't meant physically.. I mean metaphysical, consciousness, Awareness-ly? They will lose me, and I will lose them. As I peruse, I am not killing myself, I am killing everybody... I kill mother nature, I kill the world, I kill the puppies?! I think killing is harsh, I should use the word disappear actually... I will literally disappear everything, and now I am scared but delighted because I feel like I'm finally making progress It was never about me! It should never be about me?
  13. I would go for longer to be honest. 2-3 days for me is just getting use to the retreat. go for a week, 7 days if you want, but if you can't... Then it's fine because 2-3 days is better than no day I don't know if this is personal with me but I always have doubts about retreats during them. I feel like it's a waste of time. But it REALLY ISN'T. Towards the end of the retreat, you will see the huge difference. So if that thought ever comes, remember, it gets "better" towards the end. First couple of days will suck!
  14. I try to meditate with my eyes open, so that I can keep myself alert and awake. But one thing I realised is that my view is just a wall, a blank space, and boring. To some people, this is good since it doesn't distract you but it makes me feel like I am trying to meditate, rather than just meditating and we all know how it feels to "try" to meditate. So I changed my normal routine IMAGES! Beautiful images of mountains, lakes, of nature in general. It's not intended to distract you from meditating but it's actually much easier to stare at nature than a wall. It's easier to get lost in an image! Getting lost in meditation is the key! But I wouldn't recommend a slideshow or anything like that, since that can be distracting. Only an image you can just look at for hours on end, and not get bored. This is the image i meditate to It may be fake, or photoshopped but my God, it's beautiful. It really does silence your mind when you get into the staring. I use my laptop, put it right infront of me and just look at the nature. What do you guys think?
  15. @starsofclay That's very smart, it's also much better than my currently setup with the laptop, I'll have a gander
  16. You need a life purpose, something to thrive for. This should make you more passionate so you won't get any feelings of pointlessness. The authentic self will occur when you find your life purpose as well A purpose that you will not regret, and every action/thought/thing you take is a step to that purpose To find your life purpose... There are many activities, techniques and actions to do, here are some Visualisation everyday, like 5-10 mins, create mental pictures of how you want your life to go, picture all the things you want, the houses, the relationships, the boats, everything. Really exaggerate as well, because nothing is impossible since you have such potential Find a career that you are happy with and will benefit the world. Think about how much you want to help the world and you can do that via your career. You can contemplate on how you want to benefit the world, and contemplate what type of job you want to do, this can be combined with your journalling Research more into life purpose, either by Leo's videos or other sources Your friend is right, but you need to do it everyday!
  17. Yeah, your brain does all of this. You can be aware of all the actions, all of the thoughts, all of the chemicals like dopamine. You are literally aware of all of this but you can't control anything. The awareness can't stop anything. The soul can't stop anything but watch... But one thing the awareness/soul can do is give hope and love. It can tell you "Stop fucking doing that" and it is by hardwork, heavy reprogramming of your brain and determination that will lead you to general fulfillment in life and neutrality. Awareness tells you what to do, and that is the soul.
  18. I would make an emotional journal. Every hour, just write down how you're feeling. Do this for a week, and you realise how emotional you truly are. You just don't realise it because you're in "moments". One day you're feeling happy, the next sad, but the happy day you was once feeling is most likely to disappear because of moments. Do the journalling. Write down every emotion every hour, sad? happy? hungry? regret? depressed? fulfilled? These types of stuff. It should open your eyes because not only you can remember how you felt, but also, you're putting more awareness onto the emotion and you can really soak it up
  19. Fucking amazing post, you've literally shifted my entire goals... I need to focus on basics first, my foundations are shitty, thank you <3
  20. @exhale Hey man, you gotta ask questions. You gotta say "why why why", so don't feel bad. You gotta question your entire reality and perception to because you know, we're trying to figure out our ENTIRE EXISTENCE! Question literally everything, because that's the best way to not get sucked into ideologies. But be open minded, it's the most important thing All is infinite could mean all ideologies are equal and are the same. They come from the same place... Ego. So I say it's not really an ideology, because it means all ideologies and reality are in oneness so it's all the same, but it's not like you can be a christian and a muslim at the same time... You gotta be all things, christian, jewish, muslim, and so on. that's only my opinion, and you can disagree with that too! But to an extent, that is kinda of an ideology, because it's a belief, value and theory that reality is all infinite, when it could easily not be as @Caterpillar said, so you're right in saying that and I see where you're coming from. Paint a beautiful picture of a mountain on a paper, and you call it a painting. The mountain could have different flush of colours like red, blue or green. It could have immense detail and it could have many objects like trees. You can say these are assignments and ideologies but... If you just remove the colours, remove the detail, remove the mountain, remove the objects, remove the assignments... You just get the paper and that's it. So the paper must contain all before it became a painting of a mountain. But I'm just saying, if I include all things, I include the whole universe. The painting of the mountain can't be a painting without the colour, the detail, the objects, or everything .
  21. @exhale His belief and my belief are all the same. In non-duality, there is no separation from the Truth. God (even if it's Christian) is part of the Truth. All Truth are equal in non-duality. That's how deep this goes, and we have no right to tell that person if they are wrong or right. If you try to convince people of non-duality, you're imposing them because you're trying to get them to understand, and the only way to make them understand is via rationalisation. His God is the same as my God. There is no separation in reality All is infinite, and this includes the existence of God!
  22. It's only an ideology when you try to rationalise non-duality. It's an experience you need to actually go through before you understand what people actually mean. Even me using the word "experience" is no way accurate to what non-duality is.
  23. Try to attract them to self-development, like @Harikrishnan said. Maybe not the sexual stuff since he's Christian but something else that attracts him. if he needs something, he will do it. Try to also create or help to produce results in their lives. Let them try one self-development trick, and if it produces results, they will be hooked. Literally something like Leo's video on how to be happy or confidence, show them this and tell them to try it out. If it works for them, then they will carry on self-development. It's the most you can do, a video is better to start them off, and then when they have questions, you can answer them. Good thing you're staying away from the enlightenment stuff, that's way too early for him One thing that made me get into self-development is results. When I watched Leo's videos, and they actually worked and made sense to me, as well as improved my life, it got me hooked @fluidmonolith His wife saw the results. It's what they want! Results is what people want, if you can't provide results, they won't understand. Then as time goes on, they will forget about the results and just self-develop for fun. To produce results, tell them what to do, and they will do it IF it works. Try to attract them!!