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1)Infinite Intelligence video: Doesn't the infinite intelligence concept negate the free will video? Does Uspensky's work still hold true in your opinion? 2) Content vs context: yes, but ultimately, isn't it all just context? isn't content just a part of context? Why are we able to distinguish the two? 3)Journal contemplation. FUCK YOU! I've broken my head thinking about what meaning is! What is it??? is there meaning at all? do our thoughts have meaning, or are they just things floating around that we just sprinkle meaning dust over, and be like, hey, that's meaning! Why does it seem like the whole reality hinges on our believing in that the word meaning actually has meaning? 4)Actuality video: you say that thoughts and ideas are not actual, but how could this be? Why my idea of a hand behind my back is any less actual than the hand in front of me? Are thoughts and ideas not part of reality?

And yeah, I know that you will probably say that that's my ego trying to hold me back and zen devils and all that, but I just want to start enjoying life again.

All this non dual stuff got me really anxious. I honestly don't know anything anymore. I became directly aware that the physical world doesn't exist, and my vision, my thoughts, my sense of touch is just there, not grounded in anything, and it's making me nuts. When I try to concentrate on my bodily sensations I get an instant anxiety attack, I get this eery sensation that my reality could just melt away and I will disappear. As a result of that I can't enjoy my beers and my weed anymore, because these things just amplify this not-grounded-in-anything anxiety. I can't enjoy anything, really, I don't know what anything is. Like, what is this? Are other people real? How could all this be possible? I started all this meditation and yoga stuff two years ago to deal with my neurosis, and took this unlearn everything attitude to the extreme, I don't even know what knowing is anymore. It made my neurosis even worse, and I think I'm going crazy. How do y'all manage to stay so positive about this stuff? It scares the shit out of me.

Also if reality is nothing but a dream, why call it a dream? If there's nothing besides the dream, why differentiate?

@tsuki My goal is to ride my skateboard somewhere warm while high on weed.

@molosku @tsuki Yeah, but if there is no version of reality where there are sea monsters or christian heaven, how come it's infinite

If reality is truly absolutely infinite, is it possible that after I die, my I'll go to a christian heaven and stay there forever? Or is it possible that my consciousness will stay inside of my decaying corpse? Is it possible that I live in a version of reality where my city gets destroyed by a sea monster tomorrow? If it's really infinite, how could it be there is no I in it? In a sense doesn't this notion of an infinite reality make neurosis and anxiety even worse? Because it tells us that all are thoughts and fears actually are real, and there exists a version of reality where these fears are actualized?

@abrakamowse Android studio/Java For those who actually tried it, can you check if the "Start the program" button and the circle renders correctly and write your experience with the circle here? Because really, it's the core of the app.

@molosku I've submitted an update just now, can you please re-install it and check if the button is there? Sorry that I'm asking you to do this, all my friends have iphones and mine has the hugest screen ever, so I've never experienced something not fitting in.

Whooooa I guess it just didn't fit into your screen. I need to fix this rn. Thanks a lot, if it weren't for you this would have gone unnoticed!

@molosku When you press "start the program" button there's a wobbling circle on the screen. Start humming and it begins to flatten out. When you're in total unison, it becomes absolutely flat.

In the past, when I listened to binaural beats, I noticed that If I hum in unison to the sound of the beat I enter a trance like state really fast. It seemed like the wave in my headphones overlapped with my voice creating a second beat. I took that idea and made an app out of it. Nothing fancy, took me around 5 days to make it, but the effect that it produces is quite powerful. You basically need listen to the beat and to try to flatten out a circle on the screen with your voice. Sounds complicated but you need to experience this for yourselves. It's only available for android now, I'm thinking about making an iOs version in the nearest future. https://play.google.com/store/apps/details?id=com.forbiddensaucery.om

Can I do it on a chair? My back doesn't really hurt from sitting upright, but my western legs just can't take the position needed. Is sitting cross legged really necessary?