@WhatIsThis The same phenomenon happens to me, and I rationalize it with the same theory as yours, however, I often wonder if this is total bullshit. I think this is the ego back-lashing and becoming even stronger. I would recommend watching Leo's video on Zen-devilry. There is always more to learn, and new levels of love and understanding to uncover. I have discovered that I often fall into the trap of believing there is something wrong with me which needs to be improved, but the further I come in the this journey I realize this is an unfulfilling, negatively motivated approach to self-actualization, which often leads me into slacking off. Paradoxically, inside you there is all you need to know to be happy, but naturally you need to grow which entails learning more.
