Is This A Paranormal Thing OR Total BULLSHIT?

[innerchild]

Okay, let me tell you a brief history/relation with Paranormal. I wasn't a psyche in my childhood/teenage days. In fact, I was totally clung over rationalization/logical thinking. The worst part was my parents were encouraged me to be such a way I am (instead of insisting to change how I behave). Of course, rational thinking might be helpful to attain a higher domain of academics.

 

But, it is not gonna change the game of Autism, Overthinking, Lack of Empathy, Introversion, Ego Boasting (Yes, I used to brag about all the nonsense I could do with my reptilian mind!). Hence I got to believe logical (linear analysis) as an only superior power that mind ever does I got bullied in school, my self-esteem was totally shattered, I have successfully made literally 0 friends until I found Leo Gura (not an honor, just fact!).

 

Even now, I'm struggling harder to increase my level of empathy in my social skills. I totally neglected or hardly believed in 'crazy' stuff like paranormal, law of attraction, even I was skeptical about Psychoanalysis (though it is heavily recognized by academia).

 

From 2019, I happened to change myself gradually, I've started opting into several courses on LOA and psychotherapy, I've read 2-3 books on brain-damaged cases (as Leo said, I'm not sure those books are in his booklist).

 

Now I apparently believe some people actually can manifest or alter certain parts of this stream of consciousness according to one's desires. Hence our own mind got some advantages as the infinite mind does (not solipcism). Recently (8 months), certain things of my imagination or thoughts are getting rendered into real-world (Of course, I didn't make any money through this).

 

But, some radical things are going on in my life, nowadays I tend to iterate such things in a very frequent manner. I don't know whether it could be considered as a sign of paranormal or not. So, let me know whether it is or not.

 

Recurring Pattern among all - I can often manifest things, events after 1-2 days of thinking of them..

 

i. I tend to sight certain words while reading, words such as Epitome, Cohesive, Dormant, Derogatory, Yearn. I happened to see them again within 3-6 hours (max 48 hours). Of course, these are getting repeated in totally irrelevant sources. Some words I can sight while reading spiritual materials for the first time then I can sight somewhere like reading about automobiles, old-school technology.

 

ii. Some philosophies or ideas getting repeated for multiple iterations.

iii. I'm experiencing over 6-10 encounters of Thegavu moments every single day (I had some in my childhood, but it's getting more vivid where the point I can convince it had already happened someday).

iii. The same posts regarding some articles (memes, wow factors) are getting repeated very frequently. Such as articles on some crazy vegan ideas, bizarre decisions ever made by celebrities, rag to riches stories.

 

You might say these are could be side effects of personalized ads or search algorithms, don't fool yourself. But, I've literally tried switching my IP address every single day. my cookies, browser cache will be automatically deleted every hour, also installed multiple ad blockers and literally stopped every ad popups of Youtube, Duck search results, popup/floating ads, and so on. Also, I've completely eliminated most dominated segments of Youtube (Youtube recommendation, Suggestion, Videos through Subscription listing) - You should implement this stuff if you're struggling with distraction issues like me..

So, definitely it couldn't be the aftermath of some data mining shit. So, should I conceive it as a realm of possibilities and pursue Psychic abilities or should I don't bother this stuff too much?. Let me know your opinion. Also, let me know your psychic manifestations or symptoms if you have any..

Edited April 23, 2020 by innerchild