Journal v2

[Metanoia]

I have decided to leave the old journal behind. I felt a new one was in order for this new chapter of my life.

I recently had some memories pop up on my snapchat from the year before I began studying. One thing hit me instantly: I have really let myself go during this bachelors. No wonder I feel so unconfident and unsatisfied with my appearance, I used to be shredded back then- now I have love handles and a way rounder face.

In about 10 days out from going home for ~2 months. I want to achieve two things by then: 10 days where I am out of bed by 10am and go to the gym 7 times. During those two months I will be working an old manual labour job, whilst I apply for work within finance. It pays tremendously well given the low barrier to entry and I will be exercising all day. I also intend on getting a local gym membership whilst I am at home. 

Tomorrow might be a bit rough, as it is well past midnight where I am located. We will see what future me brings to the table.

[Metanoia]

I had a good day today: I cleaned my bathroom, tidied the bedroom/living-room, recycled, washed *all* my clothes and still had time to go workout. I even went for a nice walk in the sun. Currently in bed chillen. 

I'll aim towards being at least this productive tomorrow. 

[Metanoia]

Life has been hectic since my last post. I've moved back home and began working as a manual labourer. I am now in the process of applying for finance jobs, statistically 90% of students at my university are in full-time employment within 9 months after graduating. I'm applying both locally and internationally, though I doubt I'll get the international positions. Work is pretty awful but the pay is great, shifts start at 6am and run about 12hrs and are quite taxing- but at least I'll be getting some exercise. 

[Metanoia]

Last night, a girl I had an "entanglement" with for about 1 & 1/2 years a few years back replied to one of my stories. This resulted in a few messages back and forth which have carried on into today. I actually dreamt about her last night. Come to find out she's in a long-distance relationship now and to be honest, I'm happy for her. Naturally, though, curiosity got the best of me, so I browsed her social media for a bit till I found about three guys who *might* be the one she's dating. 

She didn't really post them directly, the images were like: "the arm of one guy", "the back of another's head", etc. I'm not sure why but I felt a bit hurt by it. Which doesn't make much sense since we haven't spoken properly in at least a year or so. She did try to "booty call" me once 5 months ago, which I turned down as we had agreed to turn each other down in such an event. 

I don't know why I got that sinking feeling in my heart, but I don't like it. I should work more on myself. 

Edited Tuesday at 04:10 PM by Metanoia

[Metanoia]

Update boys: I got a gym membership. I won't be able to go daily as my current job is hard manual labour, but I'll fill the non-working days with exercise that targets the muscles I don't hit at work: chest, triceps, lats, etc. If I can hit the gym 3 times per week I'll be happy.

Edited Tuesday at 05:03 PM by Metanoia

[Metanoia]

Went to the gym, then for a short walk, had some food, showered, packed up my gear for tomorrow and am about to watch an episode of The Sopranos. I feel a lot better. Gn lads. 

[Metanoia]

Yesterday was quite difficult. Worked from 6am till 9pm, the labour just never seemed to end, and most of the workers had originally thought we'd finish by 5 or 6pm. Body is still quite sore in some places, but luckily I have today off. Today I've got a few errands to run: I'm buying a wrist wrap for work, some more comfortable shoe soles, heading to the pharmacy, visiting my grandparents to help around their property as well as going to help my older brother around his. I also plan on hitting a light gym sesh sometime in the evening: full body. 

My hinge is also doing quite well at the moment, I'm also getting pretty comfortable talking to women on here/sending the first message- but I for some reason just don't feel like texting back.