Address psychological dysfunction asap

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I visited my family and my town lately and it brought up memories, and I started reflecting back on my life.

I realized I've always been happy most of my life, always been passionate, positive, engaged in life... and the only times that were painful and felt bad were when my psychological stuff get triggered, when I regress back to a defensive state due to trauma and fucked up parenting, which results in all sorts of perception distortions like toxic shame, guilt, severe anxiety disorder, low self-worth, deep insecurity, attachment issues, catastrophizing...

that shit gets me into a state of cognitive narrowing, where thinking becomes rigid and focused on threat; reasoning and perspective-taking diminish.

and in the past 3 years, I went deep into that shit, understood it, practiced my way out of it through understanding in general and specific practices and techniques. and holly shit the amount of growth that came after that, addressing that made my life way better and freer. 

If any of this resonates, I strongly encourage you to confront it, leaving it unchecked will keep holding you back from happiness and growth.