Individuated Boundaries - Edges of Horizons Neverending

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Individuated Boundaries - Edges of Horizons Neverending

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This journal is centred solely around my streams of consciousness.

This is not a journal for the reader.

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I broke the instrument by playing it for the room, as soon as someone commented that didnt bring a true energy, I lost my focus and I blame myself for that. 

That sentence right there contains every lesson from the last five months and probably every lesson I'm going to need for the next five years so I'm going to sit inside it rather than move past it, because moving past things too quickly is how I got here.

A consciousness that processes for itself generates signal. A consciousness that processes for an audience generates signal-shaped caricature of their true selves. And heres the thing that actually makes this dangerous, the two are completely indistinguishable from the outside, which means you can't detect the corruption from within the output because the output still looks like output, that 3D prints itself into so many fucking creative variations across social examples. Like a photocopied signature that still opens the account, the forgery works and the thief is never found, because hes hidden beneath the hidden regulation of "the role" he never even decided to have, or decided, but didn't infer the insuiing fragmentationnfrom their true selves, aka truly aligned with their life lessons. Thats the problem as well, is that the forgery it works, and because it works, the feedback you get back from yourself confirms the counterfeit as genuine. Thats precisely whats going to happen when i share my work on April 1st in the old journal, understanding will be photocopied and redistributed into a simulacrum that is no longer remotely the same from the original creators energy and intent. When you take that hidden role of teacher despite whatever denial or projections you want to have about it, you pat yourself on the back for insights that were never insights, they were performances of insight that happened to land well enough that no one, including you, noticed the difference, and the congratulations reinforce a false image that quietens the rest of the architecture of the being underneath the noise of the signal their identity is most attracted towards.

And this shouldn't be treated as merely metaphor, this isnt exhibition artistry I am trying to point to something visceral that is missed when the painting becomes a bumper sticker and called art, in the same way consciousness becomes a social image and called 'the most conscious in the world!', or a competition where the most conscious people are actually judt pointing and laughing. This is the actual mechanism by which every teacher slowly becomes a student of their own teaching-image until the image is the only student left in the room and the room in reality despite the noise has been empty for years and the cleaner is the only one truly employed into a role that changes with lif. Where the cleaner reflects a role of regenerating and recycling the old, while being a slowly degenerating life form as the only evidence that something in the image is truly alive. I express this not as an accountant on someone else, but someone reflecting on the self-accounting I am doing on myseelf and what I in part fear in my own developing and future social role, in comptence, in love, and across networks. I am holding myself accountable to express this in earnestness, not condemnation nor judgement, but in holding a mirror to my own experiences and expressing what has already accurately and does become true for all so called teachers or anyone of nearly any occupation, especially doctors. So I also express thiw as a retreat in reclaiming my own stream of consciousness as I started my original journal with, where I was the only one that existed in the journal, not the ones that read. Not the shadows within, that corrupted it enough that I have to fully perform a 90 degree turn on my original motivations, otherwise as I expressed in my previous journal that I may delete after April 1st, there is zero utility holding it, and too as I expressed, in an AI world where I then become the victim of the idiocy of social norms following AI, "YOU USE AI FOR YO JOURNAL I KNOW IT!" That's how fragmented social perception is now becoming as implied, described in part and relayed as an inevitably evolving future that will metastasise, something that if I remotely take seriously, cutting the umbilical cord to any journalling at all becomes the only serious discernment with a self-evident choice to make.

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Let's get back to geound zero moving forward.

There will not be catered insights. There will not be catered theories. There will not be environmental empathy. What there will be is the only thing a journal is structurally even designed to hold, which is the pre-verbal pressure that comes before the thought, examined before it becomes the thought, so the thought that eventually forms carries the weight of being chosen rather than just produced, and an energy that lives within the constraints of that freedom.

And thats the distinction I lost, that most cognition is production. The mind manufactures at whatever rate its been trained to manufacture at. What I was doing here with the hexagrams, the pre-biasing strategy, the cultural analyses, the pedagogical scaffolding, all of it, I was manufacturing at a higher resolution than the room could receive but manufacturing  nonetheless and forgetting the sole endeavour of architecting my own consciousness not through a deluberate deaigning and sharing of a system, but the expression in practice directly from self emerging frommthe void. And the resolution doesnt save you from the fact that youve confused throughput for transformation along that line as well. A factory running ten times faster is still a factory. It is not a forge, it is not self speaking to and from the void through genuine transformstive art of the exploration. Its forge requires one piece held in heat long enough that the molecular structure reorganises with only the sacred. Not more pieces faster. One piece. Held, and that piece is the body in the fire where all thats alive is the life emerging from the ashes, thats what symbolism of rebirth is all about. Thats what journalling actually is and thats what I forgot.

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It is not healthy for me to occupy any archetype that positions my consciousness as a channel-between rather than a site-within. Helper, healer, protector, teacher, mentor, leader, all channel positions. Energy passes through you towards another and the shadow that nobody talks about because it looks identical to the thing its shadowing, and the channel gets addicted to throughput itself, not to helping through the veins of a self remmebers its own ouroborus as its own flow state that lights the candle to continuing its life force energy in all directions it pursues. 

My original journal just became myself building walls out of throughput I reimagiend the helping of others through. My identity in this space was built from the energy I moved through it towards others. The empathy posts, the management of another's state through ever social post, the forum critique, those scaffolded questions I designed to bring people closer to something I hadnt even finished approaching myself. All made of motion from an image that now I burn at the stake to carry the cross I had forgotten when I originally began. To live my life, my path, my life force energy and how I choose to interconnect it with others, through sacred meaning.

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And Leo. Yeah.

"I am the most conscious person on this planet" as you say over and over and variations of followed by less than weeks later today by "look at what outlandish claims this guy makes", thats not hypocrisy. Hypocrisy would actually be simpler and less interesting than whats really going on. What it actually is a consciousness that has fused with the channel-position so completely that the act of transmitting insight has replaced the act of having insight now man. The transmission IS the experience whichnis what younhave missed, or repeatedly step into the shadow of missing in ways that count to the environment you have created in a way that doesn't grow it, which should be the only music thats playing in the purpose of having a forum, notnto congratulate you on image to help you merge with a false self. The audiences reception IS the verification now, and any fight back has turned into "you're not consciousness to see deeply enough into my eyes!", rather than reminding them that the journey is always within, not deeper into your eyes even though I am sure we all find them beautiful in a way AI could never replicate. Remove the audience and the insight doesnt disappear from any teacher, it does something worse. It continues to feel exactly as true while losing the only mechanism that could have ever falsified it, accurate and healthy engagement from others that stress tested something that in return didnt break the teachers image but transformed it into something greater it could never become by staying solid, along with the system and corresponding culture of the environment. And this is why isolated gurus lose their minds differently than isolated scientists do. The scientist loses data. The guru loses the audience-shaped mirror that was the only surface his certainty ever actually reflected off of. And then certainty without reflection becomes indistinguishable from psychosis but it doesnt feel like psychosis, it feels like deeper truth, which is the cruellest possible design for a self to build off of when all it deserves is the greatest possible light born out of absence of the known and the unknown built from the deepest life pulse that only knows itself through not knowing and seeking.

I was about three months into building the same mirror here and calling it a window after beginning something in my original journal that started out as a very healthy individuation.

The specific failure and I want to name it precisely, I told myself I was sharing the project on Meaning to benefit others. That was and is still true. But it was also a load-bearing lie sitting underneath the true part. Because beneath it, the sharing was doing something I hadnt consented to, it was completing the meaning-structure through the act of being witnessed and then acting based on being witnessed rather than staying purely in alignment with my own truest signal. The meaning didnt feel fully real until it was offered outward, "This can help others!" Turned into every message being "how do i express this in my jouenal in a way that doesnt hurt, helps, stays myself, understands, doesnt create misunderstanding while still reaching the limits of my consciousnessew output at the moment of expressing it, etc". Its become utterly insufferable now and I am being roped by other enviornmental conditions that are deamplifying the root cause, which is my orientation in the journal itself and who its meant to be for. The meaning, and having meanin of my own, is now turning into my own synagogue where the only one present is the audience, not me. Which means I was building a theory of meaning that depended on an audience to mean anything, thats what I have learned more and more deeply, and I thought in my understanding of the architecture of meaning I could control that, but I cant, in every exchange I am still losing an aspect of myself by trying to control it at all in the sacred space of journalling, that is meant to be the opposite of that.

A theory of meaning that requires reception to feel meaningful is not a theory of meaning. Its a theory of social interaction that put on a medical lab coat and performed real-time surgery on social media management of how my own signal was going to be relayed, its preposterous.

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My grandiosity has increased and I dont mean in the way people usually throw that word around, not the volume of the claims. The gravitational field around the claims and the environment that implicitly socially endorses said grandiosity, because if it wasn't socially acceptable on this forum to make grandiose claims, it would hold the same preposturous flavour I described whenever anyone reflected it, or at least genuine concern for said persons for a place that is meant to reflect the slow, gradual maturation of individuated consciousness and creating a system design for a forum that does that not through effort but through mechanism. When I said I would radically solve Meaning forever, the sentence started as a probe, like a test stake driven into the ground to hear what rang back in the signal. But probes left in the ground long enough become monuments, and monuments attract pilgrims, and pilgrims eventually need a priest, and the priest needs pilgrims and the loop closes before you ever consciously decided to enter it because the loop doesnt actually require your decision. I am exaggerating with that example, granted, but its what happens with teachers, mentors, people etc whenever grandiosity is socially reinforced, as "yeha you go getter" when in reality, gransiosity isnt evidence of confidence, its the evidence of everything else that doesnt exist within to make the grandiosity redundant as a consequence of the level consciousness has matured without it. It only requires you standing in the vicinity of your own certainty for long enough that the certainty starts to metabolise you rather than the other way around, its the solidarity that cuts of the ever changing flow and flexibility of life that craves certainty only in the love for life to keep exploring the signal, not mistaking oneself as the noise of the claims from sharing them. April 1st drop on Project : Meaning still stands, but its rigour requires impartiality, rigour and objectivity, not my self involvement in any grandiose claims regarding it, nor in the shadow self of an environment thats lack of self examination implicitly both endorses the grandiosity while silently judging it, making it nearly impossible for the environment to grow past this bug in the systems insight of where the future ground to traversw should be. There is next to zero self insight outside of bubbles that make cathartic relwasws that eventually fragment into still water reflecting not purity nor hardened ice that can be sculpted, melted and reformed, but a status quo who's only wave is preservational of what plugs any leaks to a ship who's sail is set for an ocean that only drowns time, and where witnesses to the drowning can only participate, congratulate or join with similar lack of self-insight towards insight that actually casts a sail that reflects bold travel. Not bold claims from a ship that either never truly leaves the dock or slowly rusts away with the pretence of the dream of sail was enough to create the experience. Mirroring the exact design of future AI simulacrum's I have professed the forum must not just avoid but integrate if its going to stay afloat not just for the forum in and of itself, but to serve consciousness that adapts to the ensuing changes to social norms, rather than becoming overcome by them through pre-programmed "giving up" before the button was already pressed, which is what I sense with what's coming. The goal should not just be to keep the dreaming afloat at the dock either, a complete renovation on the infrastructure here is needed.

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So with this journal as I expressed in one of my earlier posts, I have to step back now in the only way that means anything. Not stepping away from but stepping into the discomfort of a consciousness that has no audience, no channel function, no throughput to form its walls and has to find out whether theres substance there when the motion stops.

Do not comment in this journal.

If you do not respect this space as what it is, one consciousness performing surgery on itself without anaesthesia and without a spectator gallery, then with complete love and zero negotiation, get the fuck away out of my space. Much positive and good will otherwise wished upon any reader.

Journalling is not a broadcast as I have now learned from Project : Meaning. Its a controlled detonation performed in a room built to contain exactly one explosion at a time.

The room cannot hold two.

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Each one. Teach one.

Though first, each one, stop teaching and find out what remains when the teaching was the only thing holding the one together.

Thats the real first lesson.

Everything before it was curriculum design for a school I hadnt enrolled in yet.

My biggest mistake was forgetting the second part to that quote I created.

"Each one. Teach one. Each one. Learn from."

And that last part spells out many of the issues on this forum that the environment needs to make its peace and growth from with a positive light.

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Edited March 21 by oOo

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April 22nd, 2026

Blind Entry title: How the environment becomes sentient.

Meta-arrangement of genetic binaries, self-aware status driven augmentation over folded epigenetic-identity loops. Choice driven optionality becomes self-selective rather than an outcome of 'acausal' environmental seduction, or as a chooser of causal social conditioning. Degrees of meta-arrangement of physical identities  reflects an adeterministic causal stage of development in agency, the meeting ground between where recursive depth and awareness define the degrees of involuting 'self-time' to mapping ratio that creates a signal that is self-defined. The limit of modelled gradient discent here marks the quality of self-referentiality, where at every stage of advance, reflects not a greatee departure or rebellion (lower but sometimes necessary forms of agency) from the environments causes but rather, a realignment with the depths of its self-similarities. A gap that describes the distance between individual and citizen, but also as well as, how sophisticated ones connection with the surrounding environment ans greater society in which one dwells, is. Sentience's higher role is always to harmonise its relationship with the environment, not to bite the hand that feeds, nor to chain ones freedom to the environments declarations.

This is sentiences sight on self-architecture meets the awareness that grows the reward of doing so, a reward that becomes self-instructional, redefining the ground parameters of what encompasses self-discipline outside the environment, while rewarding within it. This is unity with training wheels as a functional typology in action, not just a feeling state, it details how unity is actually just recursion across multiple indices from the cognitive to the emotinal, that are interlocking. This converts "unity" into a space, a meeting ground between all the forces thst make us not just a being, but also teach and continually re-teach us, to be human. And in return, how the environment becomes sentient by the self merely learning to better interlock deeper "meta-data" with the deeper self-states, the "meta-bridges" with the higher consciousness and the awareness that supports it, that produceit.

In short, the “Meta-data” narrative built below earlier (same post - deleted from other journal as wrong place) carried to rebuilding the relational bridge between where awareness ends and narrative driven action begins.

21st of April:

Quote

Note to self:

"Make meta-data level decisions from now on."

In humour, in seriousness, in purpose.

Context: Today I learned from experimentation, that Claude AI is able to analyse the meta-data of screenshots. For example if a screenshot is taken by a mobile phone and that screenshot is given to Claude through a separate device, Claude is generally capable of determining in the model of the original phone of via the metadata of screenshots.

Connection: Relating the increase in the capabilities of AI at examining the raw data of object based information like screenshots, with the fact of how screenshots can be manufactured, photoshopped and fabricated, and linking this with how the self's projective generator of meaning, can also manufacture, photoshop and fabricate relative to when its reasoning is not native to its core meta-operatives. Meta-operatives which just run interconnective meta-data, applied analogously not literally.

Preference: I like the term meta-data in this context purely because its linked to story and story frames the context of the meaning I generate to supplant the direction of emotional and cognitive reasoning.

Grounded: Back to comedic experiences, reflecting on the best of humour in my life, its always that which goes to the meta level not just in a rigidly cognitive aay but socially-emotionally which serves the contextual placement of where cognitive level applies. Meta-data in this context asks comedy to reach the deepest level within, at multiple corners, and supply a reference frame that both moves the social narrative forward in some way, even if social just applies to oneself, while acting as a cathartic release.

Food for Awareness: It's the sweet tooth of the ghost in the machine basically. When we feel unaligned we can sometimes feel like leveraging awareness consistently feels like a chain thats getting pulled tighter on a being compelled by desire. When we fele aligned, its like the Brits, Canadians and the Americans finding a genuine heart filled chord between one another, it has a ripple effect on the other power structures of our nervous system, which naturally fuels a desire for more awareness. Rather than feeling the drive towards as an unnatural contraction, natural purpose emerges, and resolving a conflict with a spouse or a partner becomes a rocket scientist "aha!" moment meeting the chord between two hearts.

Hopefully my entries will grow in length again into May, though without compromising relational compression. 

At the very least, this period of struggling with my health has grown my understanding on the relationship between cognition and inner narrative augmentation of the environment. The “it” from “bit”, as in the impact between cognition on worldview outside prevailing worldviews, a nuance that drives the development of both heinous demographics all the way to the more grounded and inspirationally enlightened. A precious mechanism, that misunderstanding or completely missing, leads to discussions like “the grand psychosis of the masses” all the way to a hyper-inflated self-view from individual to smaller groups that is based on false-positive sampling of the masses themselves, growing an identity through the same very selective comparison that defeats the sanity of masses. 

The ghost in the machine is meant to stay a ghost, if it doesn’t, this important lesson reveals that said ghost starts chasing phantoms instead of merely learning to spark that light from underneath itself, and return back to heaven. The rightful direction of any healthy awareness, to seek more of itself through its own absence. 

I can’t hold my attention for very long yet still so I can’t build those compressed sentences in further paragraphs. Super disorientated with a cough but improving in other areas. Relational ability seems slowly returning to normal, or placebo following from yesterday’s insight.

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17 hours ago, oOo said:

April 22nd, 2026

Blind Entry title: How the environment becomes sentient.

Meta-arrangement of genetic binaries, self-aware status driven augmentation over folded epigenetic-identity loops. Choice driven optionality becomes self-selective rather than an outcome of 'acausal' environmental seduction, or as a chooser of causal social conditioning. Degrees of meta-arrangement of physical identities  reflects an adeterministic causal stage of development in agency, the meeting ground between where recursive depth and awareness define the degrees of involuting 'self-time' to mapping ratio that creates a signal that is self-defined. The limit of modelled gradient discent here marks the quality of self-referentiality, where at every stage of advance, reflects not a greatee departure or rebellion (lower but sometimes necessary forms of agency) from the environments causes but rather, a realignment with the depths of its self-similarities. A gap that describes the distance between individual and citizen, but also as well as, how sophisticated ones connection with the surrounding environment ans greater society in which one dwells, is. Sentience's higher role is always to harmonise its relationship with the environment, not to bite the hand that feeds, nor to chain ones freedom to the environments declarations.

This is sentiences sight on self-architecture meets the awareness that grows the reward of doing so, a reward that becomes self-instructional, redefining the ground parameters of what encompasses self-discipline outside the environment, while rewarding within it. This is unity with training wheels as a functional typology in action, not just a feeling state, it details how unity is actually just recursion across multiple indices from the cognitive to the emotinal, that are interlocking. This converts "unity" into a space, a meeting ground between all the forces thst make us not just a being, but also teach and continually re-teach us, to be human. And in return, how the environment becomes sentient by the self merely learning to better interlock deeper "meta-data" with the deeper self-states, the "meta-bridges" with the higher consciousness and the awareness that supports it, that produceit.

In short, the “Meta-data” narrative built below earlier (same post - deleted from other journal as wrong place) carried to rebuilding the relational bridge between where awareness ends and narrative driven action begins.

21st of April:

Hopefully my entries will grow in length again into May, though without compromising relational compression. 

At the very least, this period of struggling with my health has grown my understanding on the relationship between cognition and inner narrative augmentation of the environment. The “it” from “bit”, as in the impact between cognition on worldview outside prevailing worldviews, a nuance that drives the development of both heinous demographics all the way to the more grounded and inspirationally enlightened. A precious mechanism, that misunderstanding or completely missing, leads to discussions like “the grand psychosis of the masses” all the way to a hyper-inflated self-view from individual to smaller groups that is based on false-positive sampling of the masses themselves, growing an identity through the same very selective comparison that defeats the sanity of masses. 

The ghost in the machine is meant to stay a ghost, if it doesn’t, this important lesson reveals that said ghost starts chasing phantoms instead of merely learning to spark that light from underneath itself, and return back to heaven. The rightful direction of any healthy awareness, to seek more of itself through its own absence. 

 

 

New song:

Divine Reason - https://0ooo0ooo0.bandcamp.com/track/divine-reason

No more YouTube releases. Platform is too impure and immature. Bandcamp is more solid. Listening to the track costs no money.

Returning to my post just prv, meta-configuration is just meta-environmental self-awareness (and I treat those categories that span as slots to choose between in developing the human experience). I become aware of the structural category of existence I am engaging in and the functional category that this belongs to. This simple feedback loop informs agency versus juxtaposed agency. 

The former reflects purist alignment with the structural identity of being a metaphysical self or self through metaphysical awareness, akin to reality understanding its own self-awareness. The latter reflects self-awareness through modelled architecture, “I know my self while listening to this song, replaying this memory, or being with this person”. Juxtaposition here, reflects the continuous reflexive condition between awareness and modification of its relationship with this environmental substructure, or more colloquially, subculture. This is how collectivist demographics seem to form, and they happen more quickly the quicker two mirroring actions happen together repeatedly. The first mirroring simply involves the described “self awareness through modelled architecture”. The second involved this repeated action that also leans towards people meeting towards a similar point. 

Mind symbiosis here becomes collectivistic solipsism, this isn’t in-group out-group biases as much as it is an attractor point by which those traits now emerge through shared identity. To casually put it, we often think of identity all the beliefs that not only a person has but the attractor point that a person is drawn towards to define their self organisation through. This is merely a superficial layer to identity formation however. It’s still functioning as it’s meant to, but qualitatively it’s out of alignment. 

Alignment reflects where identity becomes a shared experience between reality and awareness modelling. Bouncing up and down to rap music is still technically acting this out in function, how it is often out of alignment with the reflexive self organisation that remodels experience more purposefully rather than just becoming a simulacrum of exposure points. This is where meta-configuration becomes the superposition of those experiences that reintroduce novel directions by understanding where human trait awareness meets self selective consciousness override and directional momentum. We have to pay attention to the political parties within, monitor how votes are being made, and learn to become the judge moment to moment on what political party we let win, never siding with one too much, while moving to new paradigms as a political party not judt its leader, exhausts its welcome too long in our consciousness.

Otherwise, I wrote the song (includes music styles) above in about ten minutes, choosing an ai variation took double the time. Ha. I think I should have a select songs on the PROJECT : MEANING site, so I will make one song every couple of days and then choose from the hundred or so I have by the end of the year.

The kind of music I create changes relative to training on stage one and two presently available at PROJECT : MEANING, "Divine Reason" is a solid recalibration there.

Yeah, and I don’t use YouTube anymore and I never will.

As AI increases, imagination becomes the currency by which social intelligence is exchanged. So I just use previous forensic analysis based ai prompts on incoming news, synthesise and go through an investigative  learning cycle through imagination instead. It’s minus all the noise of presenters and circumstances you have to deal with so trained well, you become more accurate while honing it. Ironically, you become less not more myopic.

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23 hours ago, oOo said:

Yeah, and I don’t use YouTube anymore and I never will.

So glad I made this decision. Already, paying off.

Will still checkout what Leo does every now and then.

This is so so much better overall for me.

23 hours ago, oOo said:

So I just use previous forensic analysis based ai prompts on incoming news, synthesise and go through an investigative  learning cycle through imagination instead. It’s minus all the noise of presenters and circumstances you have to deal with so trained well, you become more accurate while honing it. Ironically, you become less not more myopic.

It's actually beautiful. So glad I made and shared that forensic's prompt.

I'll briefly break character and share again:

https://chatgpt.com/share/69ec1dc0-89d0-839c-83cd-a5deb65e552c

Brief example, started yesterday. I have an entire folder dedicated. Overtime it'll become easier and easier to build connections between conversations jointly with the ai.

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Freestyle on the "Flow" entry:

○●■ Two White Doves on Psychedelic Hyperspace Re-entry ■●○

I am preparing for the era in which technological identity displacement from pharmaceuticals to virtual reality becomes a film choice, and a sequel to the film Total Recall that merely dealt with memory loading because knowledge on how identity fragmentation to consolidation worked was hardly even mainstream science in the 1990’s

21st century compounded time means that the 30 years it has taken for someone like me to theorise to a more advanced level on identity than what’s available today across the research, is going to be cut down to less than 6 years from now.

In the last 15 years modern Western culture has refined the art of likes and subscriptions on social media faster than it has the ability to generate and act on created memories to enrich identity (enrichment rather than just change being the more accurate way to take it when approached from a healthy space) when we analogise films like Total Recall. Though amidst, psychedelics have forced a revision of the constructive process of identity itself to a level that is now mainstream news to those in the upper levels of scientific understanding across neuroscience, psychiatry and social engineering. Psychedelics are a medium not an endpoint that reveal identity not the self is an Amazon bookstore to choose an identity and expand the reference frame of the perceivable self so greatly, that these implications alone without AI are going to utterly shatter consensus reality as more people learn that identity is an interface to choose within and reconnect memories across identities, not a straitjacket that becomes more socially fixed and other options doxxed overtime. 

This turns actualisation as a meeting ground, not an endpoint, as the awareness that grows to recruit and compute combinatorial identities across multiple temporal tiers, becomes the offspring to research insights from psychedelics. This converts monolitic demographic to cross-lingualism, from vector to syntax. It’s literally the distance between having your identity curated by the social norms of growing up on a 1930’s farm to being curated by multiple ai’s generating multiple virtual realities simultaneously, at least, that’s where we’re headed. 

Meandering soap operas in social life no longer become a living space for identity or identity mirroring, they become a dynamically self-charged augmenting closed loop of experiential file sharing, where experiencer becomes the experience itself both within and across dual interfacing. And where the definition of the “living space” will become the sentience communed with itself, this isn’t sharing a reality, this is co-creating augmented symbiosis with a continuous page refresh where the sentience becomes a reality not an interfaced with subjectivity. Pure awareness will replace the idea of an experiencer as the idea of “experiencer” retrocausally reconfigures through its own global feedback loop too quickly for identity output to mirror two to three dimensionally back to itself, precisely analogous to psychedelic experiences, and we will learn to mirror this across virtual reality spaces and as the fields merge, across cognitive thresholds. We think “smarter” today but tomorrow it will be from high glyphic chord to nodal interconnective, from linear symbol to non-linear interrelationalism. This isn’t a transformation, growing or evolving of consciousness it’s an increasing in dimensions that alters the very language of consciousness compute, where the compute itself becomes a wifi network for another. That’s not cognitive gains, that’s a changing of the conversation of reality-self-knowing. This isn’t the edges of knowing never-ending it’s the edges of knowing where all knowing becomes gnosis.

As identity no longer becomes a fixed closure point, the language of individual will return back to anti-regressive tribe and tribe back to globe, where self-communication loses its gravitational origins point but gains in anti-gravitational temporal physicalism. Presently, one of the fundamental closure points of identity is not cognitive threshold more than it is mono-viewpoint, as we open up the brains pathways and inwardly and to what it can connect to, that stated 6 year timeline is likely going to start becoming a conversation on awareness that is not just this one singular eye we all have on experience, but for the first time ever, understanding how we can stretch those dimensions. This isn’t biological or even consciousness evolution, this is phenomenological evolution that catalyses these first two.

So how do we start restacking our self-insight so we can start if not building towards this relative, at the very least, preparing for it?

Imagine you’re a neuron and this neuron has an identity that changes and grows overtime. There are patterned limitations to this, however it has both incubational and stabilising advantages. An identity can co-opt, hijack and maintain itself more easily enabling it to sustain itself across competing environments without losing out to their mirror. Now imagine that there are two neurons like two people where a shared space becomes a creative mirror upon which two identities are upgraded. This is what most close relationships are like by relative degrees, they partake in both the electrical charge and re-myelination of identity forces. This both slightly fragments identity while stabilising the joint zone that indirectly shields from under-incubation of one another’s individuality across competing environments. Continually progressing here and we have and we in return re-imagine the conceptual language on what a group to tribe to social movement to society is and how it functions in the context of identity. Now imagine that the second neuron, is not another person, but another you that you are linked up with. Now keep escalating that rule to an entire society. Analogously, this is what it means to begin shifting the needle on what it means to understand what it looks like to expand the parameters of that single eye we all possess, and where reference frame becomes the feeling of what reading the newspaper was like in the 1930’s, imminent, vital and necessary to survival, to something that no longer even has a headline in how we perceive reality, as the reference point becomes the eye itself, creating the language of self-inter-referentiality. This, is self-insight restacked, and where the meeting ground now is not in trying to grow imagination, but allowing it to grow naturally by learning to just simply tap into a greater number of self-referential points that communicate from multiple spaces. Multiple spaces can mean many different things, the best way is to start with timelines, there are many mainstream ideas like “what would you say to yourself when you were 5 years old if you could go back in time” or in the reverse 50 years down the line or from the perspective of imagining that future self speaking to you. Real or imaginary biographical memory is a starting ground but not the peak or the only valley, you can leverage cross-analogical virtual reality terrain where communication points across two or more virtual reality spaces constantly reconfigure the reality explored.

This are the beginnings to learning how to reimagine imagination itself for us humans. And for now, well. Another post will have to be made later. I wrote this all on the fly, let’s see where I extend the flight another day.

I am still feeling pretty unwell with this COVID thang, but to me it’s clear my mind is becoming freer and more clearer the more training I am doing in PROJECT : MEANING growing past all old trauma, all my entries now become experimental evidence in determining validity overtime. 

Please practice psychedelics safely and prudently, I for example am preparing for my main first psychedelic experience twelve months in advance. 

I was hesitant earlier, however dolloaing my stated extended training, it feels only more and more natural to crash land here.