My Magnum Opus: The Search for the Philosopher's Stone

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This is my journal about the journey of pursuing my life purpose which I seemed to have found almost a month ago.

This journey began with a single insight that turned out to be a well that just goes deeper and deeper with no end in sight. I had this insight while formulating the following post:

Thanks to this forum, I can narrow it down to this exact part in the post:

Quote

When you dig deep enough you will realize, what she actually asked was: "Do you approve of my existence?".

This is at the fundamental reason for all social interactions between non-TSPs. This is why they need social interactions, because without them, they wouldn't know whether they exist.

Simply put, the insight is the observation that people seem to engage in social interactions to affirm their preferred mode of existence, which for some is the symbol, while for others, it's the object for example.

This distinction of different modes of existence led me to develop the prototype of the metaphysical concept "ontomodality". Since I came up with this concept, I spent a lot of time contemplating about it, and it led me to have numerous massive insights about the biggest questions of the universe. When I posted "Thoughts on the Theory of Ontomodality" on the February third, I claimed, that it is the unifying theory of all fields of human knowledge and is the "crown jewel of self-actualization". Since then, my belief in the model has only strengthened. It truly might mark the end of all fragmented thinking.

I believe that ontomodality has an insane amount of explanatory power and that it can help answer all of the following questions (I already had a ton of insights about all of these) and much much more:

God

• What is god? What is being? What is existence? What is non-existence?
• What is the difference between existence, life, being, the self and the "I"?
• What is emptiness sunyata?
• What is purpose? What is meaning?

The human

• What is the human?
• What is life, how did it arise and why? What is death? What is survival? How does one overcome death?
• What is consciousness, how did it arise and why?
• Why does consciousness seek unity? If unity is good then why is the collective consciousness fragmented in the first place?
• What is love? What is symbiosis? What is the relationship between the two?

Duality

• What is seperation and duality, how did it arise, and why does it exist?
• Is there a fundamental "first" duality/separation? What are all the dualities? Does it make sense to track, how the dualities of existence came from this one first duality? What would this genealogy of dualities look like?
• What is non-duality? What is liberation? What is harmony? What is infinity? What is transcendence? How are these different from each other?
• What is morality? Does it exist? Does evil exist? Does the "good" exist? Is god good?
• Why does conflict exist? Why is love and unity so hard to attain?

Culture

• What is religion? How did it arise and why? Is it any good?
• What is mythology, how did it arise and why? Is it any good?
• What are non-monotheistic gods? Where do they come from?
• Are there evil gods and good gods and if yes, which are which?
• Is mysticism really better than religion and mythology?
• What is a prophecy? What is a prophet? When does one arise, and can it happen again and if so, how?
• What is the prophecy? What is the future going to look like?
• Is it possible to bring order into the world and if so, who will do it? Is there an "end" to history?
• What is language? What would the ideal language look like?

This must do for my first post of this journal, I need to give my brain some rest. I did not even scratch the surface.

Edited February 28 by Cred

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I have made a lot of notes this month and forgot to share them. Here they are. The numbers signify which day of March.

This post

and this post

Might help for understanding some of these notes.

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• Monophonic (sequentiality): processing
• Polyphonic (simultaneity): interpreting
• Resophonic / ampliphonic / phase flow / feedback / resonant (sensitivity): ruminating
• Ontophonic: neither

 

• I think an HSP (highly sensitive person) is someone who is neither monophonic nor polyphonic.
• “Harmonic” is now replaced with euphonic
• “Disharmonic” is replaced with cacophonic
• Hylophony: high-entropy symphony
• Aniphony: low-entropy symphony
• What is omniphonic?

 

• “The reason feedback loops create stable structures everywhere in physics is that they impose a self-consistency condition on waves. Only patterns that reproduce themselves after one cycle survive.”

12

• What if a field, a wave, and space are the same thing?
• Simultaneity asks whether a wave is similar
• Sequentiality asks whether a wave is coherent
• Sensitivity asks whether a wave is resonant

14

Main claim:

• Reality is consistent because the psyche must be consistent.
• The stability of reality equals the stability of the mind.

Example:

• When the mind becomes unstable → dreams occur (reality becomes chaotic).
• A dream is not unstable in terms of resonance. In fact, a dream is often more resonant in the symbolic and subjective/emotional modes than the waking state.
• A dream is only dissonant with respect to the objective, logical mode of resonance.
• In this way, dreaming may create a balance between the three modes (assuming there are only three), compared to someone who does not sleep.

 

• When asked what determines the structure of the mind, Leo says: It is a deep mystery.

 

• The mind has the structure of a field.
• When the field is not excited, it is empty.
• When it resonates, it becomes a space—a non-linear resonant body with system-like qualities, and thus becomes existent.

Criticism of the resonance idea:

• What patterns?
• What is resonance?
• Where does it come from?
• Why is it necessary?

Thoughts

• How do different frequencies interact with one another over time?
• The “sensitive” topology is resonant; the ADHD topology is linear; the neurotypical topology is non-linear; the autistic topology is sequential.
• The topology of autistic people has more depth; the topology of neurotypical people is more self-communicating and therefore less rigid; the topology of HSPs is more reflective (and/or recursive?).
• What is the minimal fractal that exhibits these properties?
• In neurotypical individuals, the topology itself has wave-like qualities; in ADHD individuals, the topology is more rigid.

14 (continued)

• The dopamine system seeks collapse
• The serotonin system seeks stability
• The fight-or-flight system seeks disintegration

15

• Body (Leib), Merleau-Ponty: physical body, sounding body, resonant body, embodiment
• Repetition (Deleuze)
• What is doubt in my theory?
• Doubt vs. contemplation:
• Doubt: “I do not accept this because…”
• Constructive feedback: “I accept you, but here you could improve.”

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Communication:

• Humor, provocation, ragebait (e.g., Sneako / IShowSpeed style)
• Streaming?

Website:

• Interactive website with colorful visuals
• Extremely complex site, controllable via a controller
• YouTube videos alternating between: me, a notes app and the website
• Universal introduction → perspectives on different fields
• Domain name???

Fields:

• Pedagogy
• Education

Dualities

• A symphony is:
• Neither ideal nor non-ideal
• Neither idea nor non-idea
• Neither order nor chaos
• Neither infinite nor finite
• Neither unity nor duality
• Neither synthesis nor non-synthesis
• Neither symbiosis nor non-symbiosis
• Neither harmony nor disharmony
• → Maybe: “super-combination”?
• → Or simply: “a symphony between …”

 

• Lack of human dignity = cacophony (a cacophonic judgment)
• Human dignity = euphony

Thoughts

• Should I first study mythology to find the perfect name?
• What are the Infinity Stones?

17

System = process

18

• Symphony → beauty beyond harmony
• Euphony → symphony without alienation
• Cacophony → symphony with alienation
• Orchestra → reality giving birth to the symphony that is being
• Conductor → visionary who guides the course of history

 

• The soul is the striving of the spirit toward embodiment; it is embodied spirit
• The body of Christ is pure embodiment without alienation

 

• Being is embodiment
• Spirit is the field
• Soul is the wave
• Body is space

 

• Consonance and its opposite: dissonance
• Both consonance and dissonance can be embodied
• Resonance can include both consonance and dissonance
• When does space become a body? → When it becomes personal
• Symbiosis is the integral (the intact, the whole)
• Only a coherent wave can persist and thus exist
• Incoherence leads to destructive interference and thus non-existence
• Avoid resonance catastrophe
• Masking is when one’s own topology is adapted to avoid incoherence
• Masking is stabilizing and grounding. If done excessively and unconsciously, it can lead to fragmentation
• Masking is necessary to build something
• Masking is the tension between the true self and the self-image
• What role does the unconscious play?
• The collective unconscious consists of the three properties of the wave

Edited March 19 by Cred

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    19.1

1 Hate and non-hate are dialectical opposites. Non-hate breeds more hate than hating hate. When you hate hatred, you gain the energy to win against hatred and decrease hatred overall
2 The same is true for tolerance.
3 This seems to also be true for judgement (and therefore alienation?)
4 Can I find abstract concepts to formulize this logically abstractly?
5 Is this also true for alienation?
6 If this is true does it even make sense anymore to declare alienation as evil? 
 
    19.2

1 Thesis: The purpose of alienation is to induce depression which allows for reevaluation
2 So when I tell a zionist "zionism is a cancer", knowing fully well, that they identify with that ideology and that this causes major alienation in them, it is still "moral" since I want them to become depressed 3 and reevaluate their ideology
4 The same is true for: "You obviously have autism, if you deny this you are an idiot"
5 What is the danger of this approach?

    19.3

1 Emotion is the language of Resonance
2 Symbolism is the language of Meaning
3 The Pattern is the language of Sequenciality
4 The somatic language is the language of embodiment
5 Being is the language of consciousness 

    19.4

1 Do all dualities come from the unity-duality duality?
1.1 No, the infinity-finite duality is seperate
1.1.1 The infinty-finite duality comes from complexity-simplicity
1.2 What about power-cuteness?
1.2.1 Dude no idea where this duality is coming from. In my interpretation, this seems to be an important aspect of the holy Trinity and Christianity, with the father being power,  the son being cuteness (in German, I'm using the word “Liebenswürdigkeit” which means something like “being worthy of love” (I think cuteness is fundamentally the same thing as that which needs protection and is therefore worthy of love) and the holy spirit being god knows what (meaning would make sense I guess).
1.2.2 It could be sequenciality-resonance. But in my model, power is more closely associated with “the stability of a space”. I think it might make sense to differentiale between stability and power.
1.2.3 use an idea: I'm defining power in such a way, that it is the ability to influence material reality. And since resonance can only be in resonance with reality and not change it and meaning can only interpret reality and not change it, sequentiality is the only mode of existence that is capable of that. On that note, change is inherently sequential. The transition from unchanged to changed is a sequence. Yeah, it seems to make a lot of sense.

2 it seems there are multiple "styles" of survival. The sequenciality mode is changing reality, the resonance mode is being cute so that you are protected and the meaning mode is charging either of those with meaning which motivates the pursuit (?).  

3 (1.2.1.1) If the holy spirit is the unconscious, then it checks out perfectly since the unconscious it that which processes meaning.

4 (1.1.1.1) The complexity-simplicity duality can be summarized as “granularity”.
4.1 It seems that granularity is not integrated into the model yet?
4.2 It seems this is connected to wholeness, self-similarity and therefore the fractal. Is it emergent of what I already have or seperate?
4.2.1 It seems to be a necessary condition to even be able to say stuff like: “When I say field, I mean something abstract that applies to all levels of granularity”.
4.2.2 It seems that it is the nessecary condition for any abtraction and therefore metaphysics.
4.2.3 The fractal seems to point to a pattern that has the self-similarity aspect.
4.3 (4.2.3.1) Can something self-similar that exists within the resonance and the meaning modes of existence be found respectively?

    19.5

1 Another word for meaning is “guide” and “decision” and “belief”.
1.1 Yeah the word guide is really freaking sweet.
1.2 Is decision really a mix of sequenciality and guide?

2 Another word for resonance is “qualia” damn this is an amazing term. I might be using this primarily now. “Qualia, guide and sequence” has a nice ring to it.
2.1 What is the difference between qualia and phenomenon?

3 Another word for sequence is “step”. (Qualia, guide, step?)
3.1 another word for sequence is “cycle”. (Qualia, guide, cycle. Now this is cold)

4 Oh shit, if I am using the word guide now, it makes sense to use the five pointed star as a symbol for it like in the sense of "guiding star". That's really satisfying.
4.1 Shit the german translation of guide is “führer” which is ass for obvious reasons lol.

5 There is one leap of faith which is that of stopping self-doubt. I need to remember this imagery of the "leap to authenticity”.

6 I found this really cool Mao quote: “No investigation, no right to speak.”
6.1 It seems to be a very concise and more broad version of the pre-trans-fallacy of Ken Wilber.

    19.6

1 Damn I might have found a good rearrangement of the terms: 
1.1 the field is substance. (Or consciousness?)
1.2 the wave is the spirit (or the soul instead?).
1.3 sequenciality is consciousness or the father. (Or reason? Or Intellect?)
1.4 qualia is the soul (or the animus instead?) or the son.
1.5 guide is the unconscious or the holy spirit.
1.5.1 I'm struggling trying to derive the guide from the wave. I think it is the collapse of the wave function. But it seems to me that not every wave function can collapse so the generality is kind of broken. But maybe this is for us maybe every wave can collapse? The way that I explained meaning before was with the spectrum, which is a cool idea, but I think this is really incomplete.
1.5.1.1 okay, I have an idea. The proposal of a wave is always faith based because of the uncertainty principle.
1.5.1.1.1 down this is a really cool thought. There seems to be an interesting relationship between the idea of uncertainty which is embodied by the guide and the uncertainty principle. I think at the end of the day the uncertainty principle is the proof that this Trinity is one which makes sense. Because without certainty, not only the guide is non-existent, but also the Qualia and the sequence (cycle?).

2 I need to start integrating the term essence.

Somatic language
3 (19.3.4) the somatic language is more broad than the language of symbolism which is the language of the guide and the language of logic which is the language of the sequence. What this means is that there's also a language of qualia which is the language of emotion. Until now I have mistaken the somatic language for the language of emotion, but there is a subtle difference. I will start contemplating about what language precisely encapsulates emotion. I will have to start looking into and analysing poetry.
3.1 since embodiment includes the Trinity, the somatic language is actually the most powerful one. This is because the body language is always a sequence with symbolic meaning (every yoga pose for example can be interpreted as a symbol with meaning) and with emotion attached (every pose and every yoga pose points to some kind of emotion). This makes complete sense to me since there are a lot of spiritual traditions that focus on the somatic experience a lot through the art of movement.
3.2 this kind of means that I need that distinction between that part of the spirit which wants to embody and that part of the spirit which seeks to feel emotion. Right now, I have the spirit as this which is embodying and the soul as that which feels emotion, and it kind of makes sense but I'm not 100% happy with the usage of spirit. I think the word soul fits both spots the best, but I want to distinguish properly. At the other hand, I think spirit works just fine.

    19.7

Qualia
1 I need to learn more about qualia. I think both the sequence and the guide might be also a kind in qualia. So qualia seems to be equivalent to embodyment. This is really cool but then I need to find a replacement for what used to be resonance. I think phenomenon is pretty good.
1.1 This leads to the current trinity: Sequence, Phenomenon, Guide. 
1.2 Oh shit okay chatGPT says that phenomenon is broader than qualia so never mind. So I guess the phenomenon is that which relates to embodyment?
1.3 note to self: Nagel is important for understanding qualia.

Relativity
2 Is the sequence relative? Is qualia relative? Is embodyment relative? If no, then why does space, time and meaning happen ti be relative?
2.1 I think they are all relative but in distinct ways.
2.2 I need to contemplate more about relativity. It is not obvious how relativity arises from what I currently have or if it is another seperate thing
2.3 Is relativity and absoluteness another one of those dualities?
2.3.1 "The One is neither relative nor absolute" damn thats cold.
2.3.1.1 reminder of the phrase "is a supercombination"

3 List of things I need to integrate: Relativity, granularity
3.1 Also information

5 I think I will be translating guide to "sinn" in german. 

6 Damn I just realized that sequence is quantity and resonance, qualia is quality.
6.1 So I could Just do quantity, quality, guide (or back to meaning? Wait no purpose??)
6.2  Quantity, Quality, Purpose. Thats cool

7 Let's collect the different ways to conceptualize the trinity.
7.1 Frequency, Amplitude, Particle
7.2 Quantity, Quality, Purpose
7.3 Sequenciality, Cyclicality, Parallelity
7.4 Father, Son, Holy Spirit
7.5 Intellect, Soul, the Unconscious
7.6 Deductive, Empirical, Inductive (DAMN)

7.1.1 I think that saying "this is a chair" might fundamentally require the same faith as saying "this is a particle".
7.6.1 This opens the question: Is probability a form of inductive reasoning???? Damn all of 7.6 are different forms of reason? this means reason is super broad actually holy shiat. So it seems reason is fundamentally tied to spirit (geist). 
7.6.2 Are there other forms of reason? I think that there is also a neutral Zen form of reason that is embodyment (DAMN x2). And a "transneutral" form which is non-embodyment which is embodying emptiness throught nirvana (DAMN x3)
7.6.3 Holy shit I think this is it! This might be the most satisfying one! "the tendency towards deductive reasoning" is such a good way to encapsulate what autism is.
7.7 I think that all of those trinities are subtly different but I believe they are all linearily independent in regards to the existence space.

8 (7.6.4) Reason
8.1 Okay it seems like reason has a central place in my theory now which is extremely satisfying knowing the history of western philosophy. This was kind of a big missing piece.
8.2 Now there is a problem. It is hard to separate inductive reason from sequenciality (?)
8.3 The Question opens up: How is an axiom derived? I think an Axiom is closely related to embodyment. The reasoning goes like this: An axiom is true if its truth is a necessary condition for the possibility of embodyment itself as it is in this moment. (You see I'm trying to engage in language without the subject since that would be a form of empirical reason)
8.4 This really just is unbelievably satisfying. Here is why this is important. At the end what's really important for morality and existence is the relationship between the true self and the self-image. The way I understand the true self is the preferred mode of reasoning of the self. What's important now is that the self image is, even if you are not a scientist or a philosopher, still constructed with reason. This opens up a very interesting dynamic between the true self and the self image that can be investigated.

Edited March 20 by Cred

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20.1

1 (March 19.6.1.5.1.2) I think that the collapse of the wavefunction might be the necessity for “grasping”. So any kind of materialism is faith based. When you believe, you grasp a chair then there has to be some kind of collapse. Okay this also works for the symbol. let’s say you have got a bunch of atoms that are arranged in a chair shape. The moment you see the chair the arrangement “collapses” into the symbol “chair” for you. So the collapse of the wavefunction into the particle is fundamentally the same as the collapse of an image into a symbol. Cool idea.
1.1 I guess I need to relate this to the double slit experiment do I.
1.1.1 (March 19.7.7.7) new trinity conceptualization: Step, Feel, Grasp

20.2

https://youtube.com/shorts/fvdiVlJiy4I?is=Wnwbr2HxS0EIY9N1

Goddamn. I think it is because they don't understand alienation.

20.3

https://youtube.com/shorts/rPZ89xFA8ww?is=jXgGjShalr1MiVqD

I think Jerome Powell is a good example of someone who is likely autistic and lives in complete self-acceptence, which leads to this level of incorruptibility.

20.4

Form, Emptiness, Graspability, non-Graspability

1 I have not integrated the term "Form" yet.
1.1 "Form is Emptiness". What does this mean? In my model, non-Wave, which is Silence is Emptiness.
1.1.1 This of course raises the question what quantum fluctuations  are and what ripples in spacetime are.
1.1.1.1 I don't know much about quantum fluctuations but I've heard their description is still a mystery and even is an aspect of one of the millennium problems.
1.2 I have an idea. let's look at a tree, for example. If you don't look at it sequentially and you don't look at the qualia and you don't look at the symbol "tree", what your left with is pure Embodiment, which is Form, which is Idea, which is Essence?
2 I will try to gain more consistency in spelling metaphysical concepts capitalized.
1.2.1 It seems that Form, Idea, Essence posit something beyond the Field. Is this also the case for Embodiment? This is a really interesting question. It seems that the Form cannot exist without Boundary which is an aspect of Embodyment, however Embodyment is a very immediate concept and only really ever exists in the now and is not eternal. So it seems like Form and Embodyment potentially have some sort of strange-loop dynamic.
1.2.1.1 

2 (1.1.1.1.1) Fluctuations
2.1 It seems that Fluctuation (new metaphysical term?) might even be more fundamental than the Wave, with the Wave possibly being emergent from the Fluctuation. Their etymology is very similar. 
2.1.1 Google AI: "Fluctuation originated in the mid-15th century from the Latin fluctuātiōnem ("a wavering or vacillation"). It is derived from the verb fluctuāre ("to undulate or move in waves"), which stems from fluctus ("a wave, flow, or surge") and fluere ("to flow"). The term implies constant, irregular, wavelike motion or change."
2.1.1.1 WHAT THE HELL THE TERM VACILLATION IS CRAZY
2.1.1.1.1 Oxford languages: "the inability to decide between different opinions or actions; indecision."
2.1.1.1.1.1 Ah now I remember, these fluctuation must exist because of the uncertainty principle. Damn that's cold that "the pure Absolute/Field" and therefore Emptiness seems to be impossible. What if everything that exists, exists purely and only because the absolute is ungraspable? Is Ungraspability (another new metaphysical concept unlocked) the origin of existence? The helly? This is such a cool thought.

3 (2.1.1.1.1.1.1) Ungraspability
3.1 It seems I need to update my usage of the Grasp. I used it only in relation with meaning (see 20.1) but it seems to be more universal.
3.2 It seems that the purpose of reason is to grasp. Reasoning is the attempt at grasping.
3.3 Google AI: ""Grasp" (verb) emerged in the mid-14th century, meaning to "reach, grope, or feel around," likely from Middle English graspen or grapsen, a metathesis of Old English græpsan ("to touch, feel"). It stems from Proto-Germanic *grap-/ *grab- ("to seize") and the PIE root *ghrebh- (1) ("to seize, reach"), closely related to "grab" and "grope"."
3.3.1 It seems that the term graspability is very closely tied to the term Embodyment. This would make Ungraspability which is the origin of Fluctuation, non-Embodyment, which is Emptiness. Okay this is kinda mindblowing.
3.3.1.1 Okay so we go from Ungraspability which is non-Embodyment and Emptiness to Fluctuation, which is chaos to Wave which is order to Embodyment which leads to Form? This would affirm the emptiness is form lart of the Heart Sutra.

20.5

1 If I know what reason is, what is truth then?

2 I have not integrated the prefrontal cortex. I should in general try to focus more on explaining the different brain regions. I think I can explain all of them with my model.
2.1 If I remember correctly, the prefrontal cortex has something to do with inhibition. So it seems that it has something to do with being conscious. I have not thought about the being conscious, being unconscious duality with regard to my model in a long time and it has changed a lot since then.

3 List if things I need to integrate: Information, granularity, relativity, being conscious vs being unconscious.

20.6

1 Quantum foam.

4 reflection might be a better word then resonance. So Sequenciality, Reflection, Simultaneity?

20.7

Point
1 Differentiating between grasping an pointing.
1.1 Trinity: Sequence, Point, Reflection
1.2 A symbol "points" into the existence space. Pointing is the essence of the symbol?
1.2.1 Embodiment space?
1.3 A phenomenon is grasped. Qualia is grasped. Qualia is a reflection.
1.4 Every pointing is also grasping. A pattern can be grasped.
1.5 What us the difference between a point and the pointer? Is that which embodies the point the pointer?
1.6 Point vs fixation vs whole vs spot vs relativity vs absolute
1.6.1 vs fix-point vs floating-point
1.6.2 vs singularity
1.6.1.1 A symbol is a pointer to a point. If that point is not interpreted (fixed), it is aflaot (a floating-point). If it is interpreted it becomes fixed (fix-point).

Embodiments
2 Examples of Embodiments of different aspects of the trinity.
2.1 Qualia is that which embodies the reflection.
2.2 The pattern is that which embodies the sequence.
2.3 The symbol is that which embodies the point.
2.3.1 No the pointer is that which embodies the point?
2.3.1.1 This seems really brilliant since in physics, a point can not exist in reality because of the uncertainty principle. Does the same hold for the sequence and the reflection?

20.8

Sign language
1 Invent a kind of sign language to decribe every aspect of embodiment and use it when you describe your model to maximize layers of comprehension.
1.1 Sign language is a kind of somatic language.
1.2 What is a gesture? A "word" in a somatic language
1.2.1 Wait this is actually kind of a cool train of thought.
1.3 This is very Petersonian
1.4 "layers of comprehension" is an interesting concept.

Addiction
2 What is an addiction in my framework?
2.1 How can my framework help to cure it?
2.2 Example: smoking.

3 I think I will replace the word sequence with repetition since the sequence is a kind of combination of point and repetition. 
3.1 "If one repeats a point, it becomes a sequence of points." 
3.2 This might have a trickle down effect on my theory.
3.2.1 I think this makes a lot of sense though

20.9

1 Power without vulnerability is fragility.

2 Contemplate about the geometric method of Spinoza and how it relates to your methodology.
2.1 What is the difference between a logic and geometry?
2.2 I seems the reason why Spinoza chose to associate his method with geometry is because geometry was more strict than logic in his time. 
2.3 Can I derive my theory from literal geometry? I mean the terms repetition, reflection, point are pretty geometric.
2.3.1 In order for there to be a point, there had to be a multitude of options. The selection of a point is necessarily arbitrary. A point is a choice.
2.3.1.1 Example: At the beginning of the game of life, the first cells have to be chosen.
2.4 learn about the logical structure of euclidean geometry. 

3 What is an operator?

4 Methodology
4.1 Apparently there are three different degrees of logical rigor: Formally rigorous (mathematical), Systematically deductive, Linguistically-analytically precise
4.1.1 Can I have the whole cake?

5 Integrate linearity and nonlinearity (a new duality?)

6 Note to self: Fashionable nonesense is a book critiquing the use of scientific terms (like field ?) in philosophy.
6.1 It seems that Deleuze and Félix Guattari are very relevant to my theory.
6.1.1 It seems they borrow concepts from physics like nonlinear systems, singularity, topology, chaos, manifolds in an artistic way which I do too and I love it. I wonder if the authors of fashionable nonsense are just angry science people who don't understand post-modernism and linguistics.

7 Interesting term: Ecosophy
7.1 Field Ecosophy has a nice ring to it.

Edited March 20 by Cred

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21.1

1 Integrate manifold. It seems the term manifold is more broad than the term field. So maybe god=manifold?
1.1 Manifold ontology also has a nice ring to it.

2 Note to self: Learn more about pyrrhonianism. Especially the thing about always posing the counterargument to archieve equilibrium.
2.1 What is equilibrium?
2.1.1 The equilibrium between... vs the supercombination between...
2.1.2 Is emptiness the equilibrium between existence and non-existence???? This feels right.
2.1.3 eq. vs balance
2.1.4 Love is equilibrium

3 What is trinity
3.1 Augustine if Hippo 🦛 is relevant.

4 integrate ida and pingala
4.1 master and his emissary
4.2 Yin and yang

21.2

1 Reality has three aspects: Continuum, Axis and Trinity. (123)
1.1 Continuum is granularity and it is the strange loop.

2 Learn about numerology. Is is a part of gnosticism?

21.3

1 focal point is point of reflection

21.4

1 What is the true relationship between complexity and simplicity?
1.1 If you only have complexity, you can't have equilibrium. But is is possible to only have simplicity?
1.2 is weakness related to simplicity and power related to complexity? This seems right. 
1.3 Does comlexity only apply to Repetition? No.
1.4 What is the relationship between resonance (now a mode of embodiment) and complexity?

2 What is the relationship between contradiction and non-contradiction? Is there also an equilibrium?

3 Without polarization, unity is not possible

4 Is it the case that a pointer can be deconstructed but a pattern can not?

21.5

1 I went to the literal drawing board and came up with some new terms.
1.1 There is the continuum, the polarity and the trinity. They make up the six fundamental principles of reality: The Hexad (?)
1.1.01 The continuum is self-similarity
1.1.02 The polarity is the axis of unity and duality
1.1.03 The trinity is: repetition, reflection, point.
1.1.11 Where is the matter->spirit duality? It's part of the continuum. 
1.1.12 Where is dialectics?
1.1.13 Where are the chakras? The chakras are at the same time part of the continuum and the polarity axis (lower chakras duality, higher chakras unity)
1.1.21 There is also the path to liberation.

2 What is epilepsy?

21.6

1 What is the difference between guiding for direction and guiding towards point?

2 Polarity in magnetism vs polarity in the hexad.

3 What is ragebaiting? Can it be mastered?

21.7

1 What is the difference between high frequency and high complexity?

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22.1

1 It's easy the remember the system since: 0-Continuum, 1-Path, 2-Polarity, 3-Trinty. 0123. Good didactics.
1.1 This could make for very compact language.
1.1.1 I could inspire myself from Georg Cantor and find another cool symbol and do what he did with the aleph numbers. The question just is: What unifies 0123?
1.2 It seems they are laws. The 0th law, 1st law, 2nd law, 3rd law. Damn that's cold
1.3 The path is the path from survival to liberation btw. (?)
1.4 It seems like I need to learn about numerology

2 What does nicotine do?

3 (1.4.1) Numerology
3.1 It seems what I'm doing is already a kind of numerology.

3.2 0=self-similarity
3.2.1 01=Idea
3.2.2 02=Form
3.2.3 03=Body
3.2.4 04=Consciousness
3.2.5 05=Idea
3.2.6 00=emptiness?

3.3 1=path, 10=survival
3.4 11=resonance
3.4.1 11 is accessed through acceptence of death
3.4.1.1 being-towards-death (Heidegger)
3.5 12=harmony
3.5.1 12 enabled through acceptence of dissonance
3.6 13=symphony
3.6.1 13 enabled through radical acceptence
3.6.2 Damn that's the unlucky number for the highest principle😭

Alternative notation
4 Polarity: {•}. Damn that seems like an interesting notation for "space"
4.1 Contimuum: 🌀, O, 0
4.2 Polarity: <->
4.3 Path: |

5 Metonymy cool word Lacan

6 (1.2.1) What is a law? It seems to be very closely related to 33 = point

7 Father seems to be a mix of guide (point=33) and repetition=31. Holy spirit seems to be a mix of reflection=32 and point=33. If the son is now a mix of 31 and 32 then it  checks out.

Rizhome (Deleuze)
8 It seems what I'm doing is I'm choosing some point on the rhizome and then trying to trace the entire rhizome in a satisfying hierarchical, 
numerical way. With this designation, I'm exerting power on and competing (competition is 33-10=point-survival ?) with different designations and the rizhome itself, but this is exactly the point and the goal. The concept of the rizhome is true but when one is lost in it, it leads to impotence in regards to fighting the status quo through offering an alternative. Fight power with power. This is a good slogan. This is Marxism-Leninism.
8.1 "Designation" is actually a pretty satisfying term to describe this. It seems that designation is in a sense more broad than the term ideology. 8.1.1 Or is it? No I think it might be the same. But I like designation since it is a less loaded term and it kind of relativises itself through its explicit connection to the rizhome. So designation is kind of an anti-ideology ideology which checks out perfectly. It's the fragment. It's the one piece. It's the will of D.
8.2 "Designation ontology"
8.3 This points to a new polarity which is: Rizhome-designation. 8.3.1 Where does it come from? It seems to have a lot to do with point = 33. I'm also smelling complexity and self-similarity=0. Complexity=trinity=3 I'm pretty sure. So Designation is {0, 3, 33}. Rizhome is non-point designation so just {0, 3}. Just self-similarity and complexity. This makes so much sense wtf.
8.3.1.1 This {•} is interesting notation I need to work on that. I could also do for example 0-3-33. I think the "-" is good because it symbolizes a link and I like the image of the link which is not existent in itself and only exists as the relation to other entities which is a pretty good descripiton of all of these designations.
8.3.1.2 It seems to make sense to call one of these numbers a "designation" since designation is what the model designates itself as.

9=1.1.1.1 Since the designation is such a central term in the self-description of the model I could use some fancy calligraphy version of D.  It's the will of D! Bro HOW does this check out so well?!??!?!😭
9.1 I could use kind of an oldschool german calligraphy (fraktur). This is risky because it is a Nazi dogwhistle  which is also good because it leads to polarization which is necessary for unity. It is also a good way to convey this point: "In the same way that communism in China is the best thing for Chinese culture, communism in the west is the best thing for Western culture"
9.2 What's also crazy is that "fraktur" has the same root as fragment=designation=0-3-33 and fractal≈0-33-31-32=self-similar-fixed-repeated-reflection.

10 Lol is seems like this journal itself is a kind of designation with a similar structure. There is def a clash in notation. Ideally I would make the desigs of the desig ontology bold but I'm transferring the text from the notes app which makes the bold disappear. Maybe I will eventually find a solution.

11 A structure that makes sense is to denote 1.D as "the first version of designation" or something like Cred.1.D "the first of Creds designations". And then for example, Cred.1.D.0-3=Rizhome. I like that "-" and "‎ = " are so similar, it makes the notation satisfyingly coherent.
11.1 Wait this is fun: Designation.0-3-33=Designation. Strange loop! Strange-loop is 0-31-32-33. 0=Self-similarity, 31-32 is repeated reflection which is loop. The strange loop is also a symbol which means it is fixed=point=33. This is interesting because 3-31-32-33 is intelligence. So what this would mean that a strange-loop is "the simplest form of intelligence" which is a very cool idea. I could also number the different "attempts" at denoting different terms within one designation but I have to see that the notation doesn't become too bloated too fast. I feel like git can offer a lot of inspiration for this. I could also just use "≈" when it's meant as a suggestion.
11.2 This is getting very obscure and jargony fast I love it👹

12 It is important to note that the desigs are not numbers but symbols. So what I'm doing is closer to creating some kind of analytical language to doing maths. I'm planning to invent alternative symbols that are more graspable than numbers that exist in parallel to the numbers for each D.

13 I need to find a better word for "a symbol inside a designation which is itself a designation but designation is redundant". Node? Node is great actually. 1.3.1 Nodes (symbol), Links ("-"), statements ("‎ = "). Sounds very logical and coherent so far.
13.1 The question is now: What precisely does "." stand for then? Extension? It makes sense that is also just means node.
13.2 I think it makes sense to denote a node in the abstract sense as: "•" or as "." also works. 

14 Power accumulation for fighting power is distinct from power accumulation as a form of displacement.

22.2

1 Name for post about desig: Attempt at an analytical designation of ontology

2 I love the idea that the link symbol "-" is a metonymy for the brunnian link which itself is a metonymy for "a link that can't exist as a link without its neighboring links." or more abstractly: "that which can't exist as itself without those entities it is in relation with". Another version is: "that which exists is that which is as that which spans a space with others of its kind, which does not hold for sunyata"
2.1 This makes the link and the node equivalent which is sweet since I want the designation to be collapsible (into emptiness) like that.
2.2 I could also call a "node" a lonk this would be fun.

3 This kind of •=•-•-•=•-• notation is similar to molecular notation which is fun. Also it is convenient actually bc this means there are probably already tools to denote this kind of structure in Latex or something.
3.1  •=•-•-•=•-• is lonk is lonk link lonk link lonk is lonk link lonk. I feel like I have just unlocked a new level of autism at this point. 
3.1.1 https://encrypted-tbn0.gstatic.com/images?q=tbn:ANd9GcTnx6IKKkmXcrAHA1gl7ryF5Lm1QccLHm8rn8f59OMMqg&s=10 me
3.1.2 This is very Douglas Hofstadter. I need to keep reading GEB I'm like at page 60. Although I feel like I'm having more fun just reverse engineering the book without reading it completely. My brain kinda learns better by reverse engineering shit instead of reading a ton.

4 Humor is a small ideological shift, rage bait is a bigger one, offending is bigger yet and alienation is the biggest. The laugh tale is the destruction of the hegemonic ideology.

5 This journal seems to be designation Cred.0.D and its goal is to find the first designation which is Cred.1.D.  
5.1 as an example: Cred.0.D.2026.March.22.5="Metonymy cool word Lacan"

6 Metonymy≈0-33. Or 32-33="reflection of a point"? Yeah the latter makes more sense.
6.1 So is that what the son is? It kinda makes sense. "the son symbol=point=33 is the reflection of the father symbol". Kinda checks out actually.

7 Space=2=polarity. Deleuze.difference=Cred.1.D.22=duality.

8 I feel like the designation supercharges thinking just because it is so hierarchical. 
8.1 I need to learn more about Focault.

22.3

1 point-selves cling to capitalism because pursuing and achieving capital is their way of feeling valued.
1.1 Therefore, If one wants to abolish money, one has to establish an alternative system for personal-identity-valuation. 
1.2 The participation of such system must be optional, so that non-point-selves don't suffer.

2 Relativity is non-point=!33(?)

3 I like the idea that this becomes a real speakable language. I feel like there are a couple mega autistic people who would be down learning this language.
3.1 I'm doing the ultimate project based learning. I'm not reading about linguistics. I'm inventing a language and then I analyze my own language.

4 Self-hatred is distinct from harted from injustice.

5 Maybe change point to "fixation". Repetition, Reflection, Fixation. This creates cofusion though since ADHD=non-fixation.

22.4

1 I like that it begins with the letter D but I must say that designation is not perfect. The literal meaning is just desig=33 not 3-33.
1.1 I think an interesting alternative is "tracing".
1.2 Designation is a very loaded nuanced term in analytical philosophy. I need to learn more about it. I'm tending to switch to tracing for now. 

2=5.1 A good word for point in german is "setzung".
2.1 alt word for point is "laying"
2.2 Just definition is also good. But that's too mathematical.
2.3 I think I will just stay with point and setzung.

3 what the hell is schizoanalysis. Sounds super wonky.
3.1 chaosmosis, bifurcation, ontological heterogeneity
3.2 It seems there already exists a strong relationship between psychoanalysis and ontology in continental philosophy.

4 What is field in the tracing?
4.1 Field is the Origin so O?
4.1.1 Ø is the ungraspable?
4.1.1.1 that's cold honestly.
4.2 I have to remember my point about the ungraspable but I'm too lazy. Maybe I can fit the field and the ungraspable in the continuum.

5 If 21-!12 is the maw and 22-!12 is the abyss, what is void? void=!2-!12=non-space-non-love ? 
5.1 (Or 2 with overline, or 2' or ~2 or non-2)

6 What is the difference between perversion and alienation? 
6.1 More importantly what is alienation numerically?
6.2 I think it's roughly the same. Perversion is a form of alienation.

6 I can make the language more compact with regular expressions
6.1 Regex
6.2 System=31-32-33=3[1,2,3]. Honestly not much better lol. Wait or system=3*.
6.2.1 I'm not 100% sure about system 3* btw. I think resonance=3*.
6.2.1.1 Yeah I think system=3(2,3)-2(1,2)="a space where points are interacting". It does not imply change.

7 wait I have an interesting idea. I was talking about somatic languages. What's fun, Is the idea that language itself is a somatic language, since at the end of the day, it requires a performance of movement of the mouth and the tongue, etc. 
7.1 So what this also means is that each movement can be interpreted like sign language, language of body movement could be interpreted for example.
7.2 so once I'm moving away from the numerical symbols into language territory, I can try to find those vocals whose "performance"resemblance the meaning of that which is vocalized.
7.3 what I could also do is create a language that is inherently, numerical, and mathematical. So I don't need multiple versions at the same time in a sense.

8 rename polarity=2 to space? Polarity is good since it can easily be associated with 2 but space is good since duality=22 and polarity=2 seems redundant. Yeah I'm tending to 2=space.
8.1 Wait what I could also do is 2=field and 21-22=space. This seems neat actually. Yeah that checks out.

9 Wave=3•1|2|3, Intelligence=3-wave. 

22.5

1 What is embodiment? Wait body is just 03.
1.1 okay maybe it's 03-21-22=body-space

2 I could also make 0=self-similarity more detailed like:
2.1 00=absolute, 01=idea
2.2 02=ungraspable=emptiness=vaccilating.
2.3 03=graspable=form=wave= oscillating. 04=matter=pulsating
2.4 05=body=humming
2.6 06=mind=buzzing
2.7 07=consciousness
2.8 08=Idea.

3 Maybe differentiate between perversion=!2="destruction of space" and alienation=? Wait no alienation is also !2. I guess alienation is more on the !21=non-unity=abyss side and perversion is more on the !22=non-duality=maw side.
3.1 The question now is ofc what is just !2?
3.1.1 I think this makes sense: perversion=maw=!2-!22, alienation=!2, anihilation=void=!2-!21-!22, fragmentation=abyss=!2-!21.

4 soul=05-2=body-field

5 01234 would be fun and 4 is just 0,1,2,3 lol. "the 4-trace". Wait this would make 4=absolute. That's cool actually. Also it solves the problem that 00=absolute does not make 100% sense. What's a little unsatisfying is that they are not ordered by fundamentality. It should be 40231. Looks like a postal code. Yeah that place exists in germany it's like 2 hours from my where I am. Maybe there I will find my guru or some shit lol.
5.1 Alternative designations of the 4.
5.1.1 Granularity, Ascendance, Polarity, Complexity, Oneness

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23.1

1 Nirvana = !3 ?

2 Interesting concepts: Oedipus, Anti-Oedipus

3 does free will exist in my model? No. 
3.1 wait yes it's point. 
Wait this means people with ADHD have less free will? Well in some way they don't since they can only pursue their passions. 
3.1.1 But point people also don't have free will since they can't deviate from their ideology.
3.2 Interesting observation: From the perspective of a person with one mode of existence, a person with a different mode of existence seems to have less free will, while it seems to oneself that one has chosen ones mode of existence, but this is not the case.
3.2.1 example from real life: I tell my grandma: "you were born to always commit to some values" and then my grandma said: "no I just don't want to let go of my values". it seems like they feel like that's what they want and they have a choice when really there is no choice.

4=3.2.1.1 Choice
4.1 Choice=33 has an interesting status in my theory. In this tracing, choice is a paradox.
4.1.1 My theory states that there are people who are great at making choices since they need to make choices to exist. But if one needs to make a choice, they don't have the choice not to choose. So non-point-sleves have impaired ability to choose and point-selves have impaired ability not to choose. So no matter what, there is always at least some kind of impairment of free will.

5 Desire
5.1 right now I have this weird mechanic where more resonance, so higher amplitude leads to a more narrow space and therefore unity=22, while dissonance, which needs to destructive interference, expands, the space. The thing is I don't really see a connection in physics. One could argue that higher frequency leads to a smaller space but this is also a stretch.
5.1.1 Wait I have an idea. Since resonance is "substance", it makes sense that more substance leads to a more stable space. And non-substance leads to diffusion and therefore an expansion of the space. Yeah this kind of makes perfect sense actually.
5.1.1.1 so I have an interesting idea. It kind of makes sense now in my head, but I think it's very complicated. So the wavelength does correspond to the "size" of the space. So resonance is substance, but if you only have resonance in the higher frequency range and not in the lower ones, then you have substantive space, but it is narrow (construction). if you only have the lower frequencies, then there is a hole in the middle of your space (hollow).
5.1.1.1.1 I have another idea. High frequency resonance is created, when the distance between the self and the self image is decreased. Low frequency resonance is created when the distance between the self and the self-image is widened.
5.1.1.1.1.1 So the phrase "I feel like myself" is a manifestation of high-frequency resonance. So it's 21-11=unity-resonance. Damn kinda makes a ton of sense.

6 What is stagnation? I think it includes !31. It's the opposite of the beauty in the phrase "The world goes its course" = 31-11 = repetition-resonance = "being in awe of the progression"

7 art is "a reflection point of embodiment" = 32-33-03-21-22
7.1 wait I have something better. Scrap the embodiment. It's art = point-reflection-non-point = 33-32-!33 = "A fixed (33) reflection (32) that negates fixation (!33)"

8 wait I realized that insted of for example !33 I could do 100-33=67. This is brilliant on many levels.
8.1 1. An asymmetry in the system is that since the tens digit never goes beyond 4. If I use the complements in such a way there is more symmetry
8.2 It makes the notation more pretty. Without the !, there is a consistent structure of xx-xx-xx-xx...
8.3 The question now is of course if this creates a clash in notation. But I'm pretty sure it doesn't.
8.3.1 It seems that since 33 is the highest number, 34-66 are unused so I could literally use them for anything.
8.4 One problem is that it is slightly more complicated since it now involves doing maths.
8.5 Wait there is a problem. 02=vaccilation is different from 2=field. 

23.2

1 diffuse ≈ 67 is unbelievably interesting.
1.1 
    Rizhome 
    ≈ 31•33-67 
    ≈ structured diffusion
1.2 I like the idea of just only using "≈" to symbolize that the statements are intuitive. Also to trigger analytical philosophers. Also it kinda looks cool.
1.2.1 Yeah this is great. It important to signify that it is NOT a kind of strict logic.
1.1.1 btw I'm using • to connect two traces just to cluster them to make the connection to the natural language strings more obvious.
1.1.2 I think the 67 is fire but 31•33-!31 kinda is more obviously paradoxical. I guess I just use ! when I want to highlight the paradox.
1.2.1 this is really brilliant since with "≈" I'm affirming the rizhome and weakening the designation. This is maybe what I want the tracing to be, exactly that balance between the rizhome and the designation.

2 what is melancholy? It's a subtle kind of longing so it's dissonance from seperation. 
2.1 
Melancholy
    ≈ 79-89
    ≈ separation-dissonance
2.2 one can also add some nuance.
Melancholy
    is seperation-dissonance
    from diffuse-reflection
    of unity-resonance
    ≈ 79-89 67–32 21–11
2.2.1 Damn I like this formalization. It would be more clean if I made the "from", "of" etc italic or something.
2.2.2 This is neither a definition, nor a designation. It is a balance of the concrete and the diffuse. It is a suggestion. I call it "trace" (pausen)
2.2.2.1 What is the difference between definition and designation
2.2.3 it seems that "-" symbolizes prepositions. Sometimes.
2.3 This is very interesting. I feel like 79-89 is also valid. It seems that with the trace, the can be more and more nuance added. Like the prepositions can also be traced for example. 
2.4 I feel like it makes sense if I order it in such a way that the trace that is ontologically most relevant which is 79-89 is at the beginning and the rest is meant as nuance.
2.5 Honestly I like the idea that the entire language is in its essence only xx x xx xx xx... without any punctuation but one is free to use any punctuation they want.

3 Investigate the meaning of the word blueprint (Blaupause). Is that a good name for what this is? A blueprint is a tracing (?).

4 = 2.2.3.1 List of prepositions gpt: about, above, across, after, against, along, among, around, as, at, before, behind, below, beneath, beside, between, beyond, but, by, concerning, considering, despite, down, during, except, following, for, from, in, inside, into, like, near, of, off, on, onto, opposite, out, outside, over, past, per, regarding, round, since, than, through, throughout, till, to, toward(s), under, underneath, unlike, until, up, upon, via, with, within, without
4.1 I feel like these can also be traced.

5 trace-ontology. Pausenontologie

6
Schizophrenia
    is abandonment-feeling
    from paranoia
    stemming from hidden devouring

    is seperation-dissonance
    from symbolic-reflection
    stemming from diffused-unity-alienation

    ≈ 79-89 33-32 67-21-80
    = 79893332672180

7 The tracing really seems to be some wild combination of maths, analytical philosophy and continental philosophy.

8 to uphold the format, I could say 2 for example is 20. Damn that immediately makes my language so much more compact potentially bc now I don't need any structure to signal what the 2-packets are. This is a crazy kind of numerology since now, 79,893,332,672,180 is some large number that exists that I have mapped to this abstract term schizophrenia which is wild. I have unlocked just another level of autism.
8.1 what this means is that this is literally some kind of non-linear type of encryption. Maybe I should keep it a secret and sell it to some military lol😂
8.2 It seems that I'm describing a function T:IL->IN with IN being the natural numbers and IL being natural language.
8.2.1 Damn this makes for a super fun game: I give you a number and you try to figure out the word.

9 is there a kind of coherence that is free of dialectical contradictions but allows for logical contradictions and inconsistency and regular incoherence? Dialectical cohernece?

23.3

1 Tracing

00 = Absolute

    01 = Idea
    02 = Field
    03 = Ungraspable
    04 = Graspable
    05 = Matter
    06 = Body
    07 = Mind
    08 = Consciousness

10 = Path

    11 = Life
    12 = Health
    13 = Resonance
    14 = Harmony
    15 = Beauty
    16 = Potence

20 = Space

    21 = Unity
    22 = Duality

30 = Complexity

    31 = Repetition
    32 = Reflection
    33 = Point
    
    34 = Sequence
    35 = Cycle
    36 = Symbol
    
    37 = Intelligence

1.1 These are 24 + 24 (complements) + 1 (self-similarity has no complement)
1.1.1 So 49/100 are used, the rest are unused. So I can expand a lot. But I like how simple it is rn.
1.2 The important ones are just: 00, 11, 12, 13, 14, 20, 21, 22, 30, 31, 32, 33. So just 12 + 12 (complements) + 1 = 25. This is just one less than the number of letters in the english alphabet. I could also call the tracing "the alphabet" kinda epic.
1.3 I could find phonetics of each number now. What would be the properties of that language? What do I call it?
1.3.1 The phonetics would have to be choosen in such a way, that it's possible to reverse them for the complements.

23.3

1 What is POWER?
1.1 It seems there is a higher non-dual form of power and a lower form. Lets call the higher one Power and the lower one power for now.
1.1.1 Idea: 
power 
    is traditional masculinity
    is influence on matter reality
    is accessed with procedurality
    is sequenciality
    ≈ 34
1.1.2 Idea: Potence is more broad (and therefore more powerful) than power.
potence
    is influence on reality
1.1.1.1 Yeah I think power is def. more broad than just 34.
1.2 Potence is beauty? NO POTENCE IS HIGHER THAN BEAUTY (potence=16?)
1.2.1 Potence is making the ungraspable graspable. It is the power of god. It is the power to influence history.

2 Coherence, integrity, consistency, complementarity, harmony, resonance, beauty, potence
2.1
Consistency
    is sequenciality-resonance
    ≈ 3413
2.2 
Complementarity
    is distance-resonance
    is low-frequency-resonance
    ≈ 2213
2.3 Coherentce is a system with no dialectical contradictions (?)

3 If this was a lamguage, it would enable the speakers to come up with their own words. There would be a huge spectrum of different words for one broad concept. It would allow for an insane amount of precision in speech.

4 
Subtle Energy
    is reflection of embodiment
    ≈ 32

5 Alternative version with the path being the last concept:

00 = Absolute

10 = Granularity

    11 = Idea
    12 = Field
    13 = Ungraspable
    14 = Graspable
    15 = Matter
    16 = Body
    17 = Mind
    18 = Consciousness

20 = Space

    21 = Unity
    22 = Duality

30 = Complexity

    31 = Repetition
    32 = Reflection
    33 = Point
    
    34 = Sequence
    35 = Cycle
    36 = Symbol
    
    37 = Intelligence

40 = Path

    41 = Complement
    42 = Symbiosis
    43 = Life
    44 = Health

    45 = Resonance
    46 = Harmony
    47 = Beauty
    48 = Potence

    49 = Kleos

50 = Sunyata

5.1 This one is pretty cool actually it solves a couple of problems.
5.2 The only weakness is that 01-09 are not used.
5.1.1 The order is just way better. The path must be the last in the sequence. Now it's 01234 and a satisyfying order that makes sense.
5.1.2 one constriction is that I'm limited to 4 or maybe 4+4 stages in the path. I got rid of life and health so it's just four. Wait I've got an idea though. Okay I kinda solved it. This is not something I pulled out of my ass, I have this from a very early draft of my theory. (I'm talking about 41 and 42)
5.3 I added 50 = Emptiness which is cool. I love how The absolute and emptiness are the only traces whose complement is the same.

6 Oppression, abuse

7 I think self-similarity=non-granularity=90

8 How do I use the terms Eudaimonia and Euphony? They just fit too well into the tracing not to at least give them meaningful traces

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24.1

1 Updating the 100 traces.

00 = Granularity
    
    01 = Particle
    02 = Atom
    03 = Molecule
    04 = Cell
    
    05 = Organism
    06 = Individual
    07 = Family
    08 = Tribe

    09 = Ecosystem

10 = Continuity
    
    11 = Idea
    12 = Meaning
    13 = Ungraspable
    14 = Graspable

    15 = Body
    16 = Soul
    17 = Mind
    18 = Consciousness

    19 = Spirit

20 = Polarity

    21 = Unity
    22 = Duality

    23 = Field
    24 = Space

    25 = Inner boundary
    26 = Outer boundary

    27 = Separation
    28 = Collapse
    29 = Dissolution

30 = Complexity

    31 = Repetition
    32 = Reflection
    33 = Point
    
    34 = Sequence
    35 = Cycle
    36 = Symbol
    
    37 = Hidden-self
    38 = Imagined-self
    39 = True-self

40 = Progress

    41 = Thing
    42 = Complement
    43 = Symbiosis
    44 = Life

    45 = Resonance
    46 = Love
    47 = Beauty
    48 = Potence

    49 = Heroism

50 = Emptiness

1.1 There are two subtle problems with path=40. Health doesn't seem to fit in perfectly, and it breaks the symmetry between the two sets of four, since complement doesn't fit with resonance. I have a pretty elegant solution, which makes it actually more in line with this old version. I remembered I had a concept before the compliment which is "thing". I'm kind of using it in a Wittgensteinian way I think. The idea is, that this is an abstract concept to denote "something with a purpose". For example, a container is a thing, because it can contain. If it then does contain, it and that which is contained make a complement which is the next stage (42). Damn kind of a bummer, that 42 is nothing super central. Not really a fan anyways.
1.2 I removed matter=15 because it is kind of redundant if I already have graspable=14 and thing=41 (wait the fact that the number of thing is the reflection of the number of graspable is fun). also, I didn't like the fact that I have eight stages of granularity, which creates some falls association with the other even categories. Now I have cool prime numbers containing the seven, which is pretty deep in ancient numerology, for consciousness=17 and intelligence=37 which is extremely neat. Also 37 is kind of a weirdly special number for some reason: https://youtu.be/d6iQrh2TK98?is=I6UeUIK8Q_6WGQqM I will watch this now I guess.
1.2.1 I just changed intelligence heavy-heartedly.

2 What the actual hell of a wikipedia article did I stumble upon? "Due to the superstitious significance of the numbers it contains, the palindromic prime 1000000000000066600000000000001 is known as Belphegor's Prime, named after Belphegor, one of the seven princes of Hell"
2.1 Numerology is cool

3 I just realized something: Doing arithmetic (modulo 100) with those numbers kinda makes no sense.
3.1 But "not making sense" doesn't have to be bad. I think it's actually perfect for like oracle tarot type shit.
3.2 no this is actually really fun lmao.
3.3 Also one can shuffle digits, square them etc. Yeah really fun. Haha one can take one concept, do operations on it and see what happens lol.

4 I just realized I could somehow mirror the main categories in the 01-09 in some meaningful way.
4.1 Also I could use them as something like an intensity scale. Omg this is great actually. 0130 is "not very complex" and 0930 is "extremely complex"
4.1.1 Okay what is "infinitely complex" then? Yeah what is infinity in my model at all?

5 49=kleos (homeric)

6 There is a ton of room for different dualities in 23-29. I kind of need to actually since having 100 pronciples makes for good optics.

7 These packets of four in the 40s seem arbitrary but their not. I used these concepts in old versions of the theory: 41424344=Terrestrial, 45464748=Human, 49=Immortal.

24.3

1 Alternative Polarities. What I used to have:

    21 = Unity
    22 = Duality
    23 = Order 
    24 = Chaos
    25 = Infinity
    26 = Finite
    27 = Absolute
    28 = Relative
    29 = Space

1.1 There is a bit of redundancy here. I feel like I need both Unity and Duality in the 20s there are very central. But The rest I can reduce. Yeah this is better.

2 Haki simply 48. Also 4815. Also 481506≈06-15-48=individual-body-potence.

3 Integrate fermion boson duality.
3.1 Pauli exclusion principle
3.2 Dirac equation

4 
Dharma
≈ kleos
≈ duty
≈ responsibility
≈ stepping-up
≈ 49

5 If I have 100 traces, how does what I do relate to Martin Luther with his 95 theses historically? Interesting connection to think about since I'm also some kind of reformer.

6 What is artifact? An Artifact is a thing that conserves history. 

24.4

1 tranquility≈harmony=46

2
fascist,
    tracing alienated-hero
    = 7749
2.1 Fun coincidence: 
7711
    = alienation-idea
and 77+11=88=non-field≈"soulless in the deepest sense" more fitting: "Fake soul"
2.2
pride,
    tracing alienated-potence
    = 7748
2.3 I've started using the term "tracing" since I thibk often, "is" is too absolute. I want to find an elegant equivalent of "≈" in natural language.
2.3.1 I could also just say "relates to" which would be super broad. I like it. It would mean that that tracing would be a suggestion, and the reader can accept it if it resonates and else just reject it.
2.3.1.1 I could use "broadly relates to", "narrowly relates to" and just "relates to".

3
reason
    is grasping-self
    = 1439

4 I had an interesting thought. Their exists the set of all one trace words, the set of all two trace words, the set of all three trace words and so on. I could write it down in set-notation. Interesting thought.
4.1 it seems that if physics is math applied to empiricism, then what I seem to do is math applied to ontology.

5
Object
    is thing-in-time
    is repeated-thing
    = 3141

6 Channelling is when the author is not the authority over the interpretation of that which has been written by them.

7 
Cult
    is institution-with-obsessive-unity
    is perverted-ecosystem
    is "dissonance from loss of unity leading to building obsessive unity institution"
    is duality-collapse-ecosytem
    = 7807
8 In this system, enlightenment is seperate from non-duality=78=perversion. Enlightenment is neither unity nor duality (?)
8.1 hm it's kinda tricky. Alienation from collapse of space only happens when it's preceded by identification with the space.
8.1.1 I think "cult" is just one of these terms that's complex like schizophrenia.
8.2 Wait I think 
alienation
    is non-understanding-dissonance
    = 
actually

9 It would be interesting to describe what a tracing is abstractly. Like all the tracings can be chosen differently and a different number system with a different base can be chosen.
9.1 It seems the I Ging is a kind of trace ontology with base of 2 not 100
9.2 how does one evaluate a "good" trace ontology?
9.2.1 "a good tracing is integral. It relates to as many facets of being as possible". It includes as many other existing tracings as possible or addresses deviations.

24.5

1 A huge amount of alienation comes from non-knowledge about the self.
1.1 What is knowledge? Knowlegde in its most simple sense is sequence = 34
1.2 So self-knowledge is 3934

2 A good german word for trace is "Spur". Spur actually means trail not trace. Yeah I need to differentiate between trail=spur and trace=zeichnung. So trace ontology is seinsskizze or seinszeichnung.
2.1 Zeichnung vs Bezeichnung. 
2.2 The image is: "being leaves a trail that can be traced". The trail is the rizhome?

3 I have an idea how to solve the fact that granularity doesn't have a complement. It does and it's 100 which is singularity. Since 100 is the only three digit number it is actually not problematic. So for example 7252661002837 is read as 72 52 66 100 28 37. And 37310087 is read as 37 31 00 87. If a number has an odd number of digits like 7272637 and doesn't contain 100, a zero is added at the beginning or end it doesn't matter yeah I guess then it just has two meanings (which is an interesting mechanic actually). 

4 my birthdate is 09072001 = cosmic-ecosystem-polarity-quantum. Sounds epic but doesn't really make any sense to me.
4.1 Hold on let's play with it a bit
09072001
    = cosmic-ecosystem-polarity-quantum
    ≈ "cosmic system of dual particles"
    ≈ "the cosmic system arises from particle-wave-duality"
I can't belive I somehow made it make sense😂 
4.2 Sounds a lot like dialectical materialism actually.
4.2.1 I realize that I projected dialectical materialism onto it to some extend, but that is kind of the point of this kind of game. I have made a post about the value of projection before.
4.2.1.1 It's a double projection since the trace is itself my projection.

5 I need to translate this tracing into different cultures and languages. Daoism, Buddhism, Hunduism, Greek, christianity, Judaism, physicism, maths, philosophy, psychoanalysis
5.1 what are the most important ones? 5.1.1 Philosophy, Natural sciences, Eastern traditions, western traditions.

6 what's interesting is that heroism is actually a kind of ideal. So my tracing is not actually anti-ideal, which I thought initially it would be. But what I'm learning is that the ideal itself is not problematic, the problem is putting the cart before the horse and pursuing the ideal before embodying the earlier stages. So the path=40 is a kind of holarchy. 
6.1 It is different from spiral dynamics. It seems to be more precise. I need to contemplate more about the similarities and the differences. 

7 Meaning actually seems to be more broad than I thought. What is meaning?
7.1 Symbol = meaning-reflecting-point.
7.1.1 reflecting-point=mirror
7.2 Idea: Meaning=being-in-relation. So meaning=field??????????????????!!!!?!?!!?!?! That would be bonkers. I think it is.
7.3 Meaning is significance which preceeds substance (graspability). "Coherence, mattering, purpose".

24.6

1 "Curation" is also a good name for the trace. 

2 
Translucent
    = 6732
    = Diffuse-Reflection

3 
Nihilism
    = anti-meaning
    = anti-field
    = 88
3.1 Challenge: Construct a satisfying way to describe fascism just with dog whistles.

4 Determination vs point. I feel like fixation is determination. A point-being is dependent on determination to be. A non-point being is independent but can also experience and value determination. 
4.1 "one can be determined without having made a choice"
4.2 It's hard 

5 What is "lie"?

6 What is Marxism-Leninism?

7 Brilliant slogan, aphorism and title for a book: 
"If we know what we are, we may know what we may be"

8 what is the meaning of Anjali mudra prayer mudra?
8.1 Anjali-mudra=stale-personal-soace=harmony=love

9
Inspiration
    is meaning-reflection
    = 1232

10 Telos=path=progrssion=40

24.7

1 I just realized that complex tracecomposites also has an inversion. Wait are there multiple ways to get the inversion? Dude this is kinda wild. This unpredictability potentially makes this such a powerful tool for creativity. 

2 89 ≈ confusion?

3 Insights: 00, 10, 20, 40 seem to be ordered in something like "pre human" "human" and "transhuman" or something. This is neat.

4 I have an idea for a revision: Make the mirrored traces somehow relate to each other

00 = Granularity
    
    01 = Particle
    02 = Atom
    03 = Molecule
    04 = Cell
    
    05 = Organism
    06 = Individual
    07 = Family
    08 = Tribe

    09 = Ecosystem

10 = Continuity
    
    11 = Idea
    12 = Meaning
    13 = Ungraspable
    14 = Graspable

    15 = Body
    16 = Soul
    17 = Mind
    18 = Consciousness

    19 = Spirit

20 = Polarity

    21 = Field
    22 = Space

    23 = Unity
    24 = Duality

    25 = Inner boundary
    26 = Outer boundary

    27 = 
    28 = 
    29 = 

30 = Complexity

    31 = Reflection
    32 = Point
    33 = Repetition
    
    34 = Cycle
    35 = Sequence
    36 = Symbol
    
    37 = Hidden-self
    38 = Imagined-self
    39 = True-self

40 = Progress

    41 = Thing
    42 = Complement
    43 = Symbiosis
    44 = Life

    45 = Resonance
    46 = Harmony
    47 = Beauty
    48 = Potence

    49 = Heroism

50 = Emptiness

5 Smiling in face of death is radical acceptence (one piece)

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25.1

1 Experimentation with 20

20 = Polarity

    21 = Unity
    22 = Duality
    23 = Field
    24 = Space

    ?? = cohesion/Fragmentation
    ?? = stability/Collapse
    ?? = authenticity/Dissolution

    ?? = Intimacy/isolation
    ?? = Tranquility/obsession

    ?? = internal
    ?? = Anticipation
    ?? = absolute
    ?? = Infinite
    ?? = Order
    ?? = future (redundant with path)

    25 = affect
    26 = anticipation (redundant with path)
    27 = cognition
    28 = valence

    29 = Tranquility

04-20-26-08-52-32-00
= cell-polarity-duality-tribe-impotence-point-granularity

2 I think I kinda get why continental philosophers didn't try to define everything they said. It's because if every word is clearly defined, language looses some of it's magic.
2.1 I think to prevent this perversion, I need to use less "=" and "is".
2.1.1 I could do "it traces".
2.2 I realized something interesting: The meaning of a word also spans a space with it's suggested trace.
2.3 I could imply that these are not equations but rather "transformations". So I could do
xyz
1    then "xyz xyz xyz xyz"
2    then xyz-xyz
    = xxxx
That kinda makes sense. Transformation is also works with trace.
2.3.1 I really want to know how all of this relates to early and late Wittgenstein. I feel like it should be an elegant reconciliation.

3
Reconciliation
    into "duality followed by unity and resonance"
    then into loving-duality-unity-path
    = 46242340
3.1 I like how this process is a kind of "molding". Mold Ontology yeah this sounds ass.
3.1.1 The sequence of moldings makes the trace. Omg I love this. I think it has enough precision and clarity but respects and upholds the diffuse nature of meaning in language.
3.1.1.1 I we expand on the metaphor, then 46242340 seems to be the cast.
3.1.2 The sequence of moldings (Formungen) makes the trace (Entwurf, Zeichnung, Skizze) and the result is the cast (Guss, Wurf, Setzung).
3.2.1 I have a feeling professional philosophers would love this. I might be naive but it doesn't matter I have all the time in the world to perfect it.
3.1.2.1 A collection of tracings is a curation (Zusammenstellung, Kuration)
3.3 It seems it makes sense to introduce the convention: "If sequence is the first letter of the word, the following letters of the word might be read sequencially". A convention is not a rule of course.

4 How do I ensure that my language is not too rigid, so it can potentially be developed by the collective? Mybe if's fine if the alphabet is rigid since it's rigid in most languages anyways. The curation of the words and the interpretation of each letter is very individual though and can be influenced by herd intelligence. I just need to get the alphabet right.
4.1 I like the idea that my role in this world is similar to that of satoshi nakamoto.  I'm building something that potentially spreads around the world and develops a life of its own. I must study those mechanics though. The spread mechanics of my language are very different from that of bitcoin.

5 Language
5.1 What is logographic? Will my language be logographic?
5.2 I think that each two digit number is going to be a syllable (Silbe). The sound and the act of pronounciation should somehow mirror the meaning.
5.3 Okay it seems my language could become both logographic and syllabic but I'm not sure.
5.1.1 Google Ai: "A logographic writing system uses signs or characters (logograms) to represent entire words or morphemes (units of meaning) rather than individual sounds. Modern examples include Chinese characters and Japanese Kanji, while historical examples include Egyptian hieroglyphs, Maya script, and cuneiform. They differ from alphabets by requiring memory of thousands of symbols"
5.1.1.1 Does my language have the ability to be by far the most compact logographic language of all time? Maybe I understand logographic wrong.
5.1.1.2 I need to study hieroglyphs.

6 Hieroglyphs
6.1 It means "sacred carvings". I feel like this also applies to my language. I think it's an interesting coincedence that "carving" is so similar to "tracing".

7 Dialectics relates to path = 40 so "the phenomenology of spirit" becomes spirit-path = 1940. Dude this language mogs.

8 The broad meaning of I is Individual = 06. but there are also the precise syllables which are imagined-self = 37, hidden-self = 38 and true-self = 39. So there are at least four ways to say "I" with one syllable.

9 What is tension?

10 anti-path is 60 is "increasing tension". So path = 40 also relates to "resolving". "resolve" interestingly strongly relates to potence = 48 which makes perfect sense.
10.1 it is important to note that sometimes it is necessary to increase tension first to create true resolving.
10.2 resolving vs resolution
10.3 unconscious-destruction = 8160 has a strong relation to evil. It's nihilism without awareness of its own nihilism. So liberalism, fascism, libertarianism, zionism, americanism, capitalism, imperialism, colonialism, white-supremacy, Ayn Rand, Curtis Yarvin, Peter Thiel, Alex Karp, Trump, Nick Fuentes, Tucker Carlson and the list goes on.

11 Is 20 = Polarity related to "relation"? Yeah relation is fantastic actually. Polarity is too physicalist.

25.2

1 Once I have syllables I can make matras. This is hype. Also I can show how to construct an individual mantra for each specific life situation.

2 What is energy? Potence = 48? Makes sense.

3 I just realized I'm so freaking stupid. I should just switch the 00 with the 10. That makes so much sense. I had a big problem with granularity being 00.

00 = Continuity
    
    01 = Idea           99 = matter
    02 = Meaning        98 = meaningless
    03 = Ungraspable    97 = rational
    04 = Graspable      96 = magical

    05 = Body           95 = bodyless
    06 = Soul           94 = soulless
    07 = Mind           93 = mindless
    08 = Consciousness  92 = unconscious

    09 = Spirit         

10 = Granularity
    
    11 = unit
    12 = function
    13 = interaction
    14 = system
    
    15 = Individual
    16 = Family
    17 = Tribe
    18 = Society

    19 = Whole

20 = Polarity      80 = Singularity

    21 = Unity         89 = Anti-unity
    22 = Duality       88 = Anti-duality
    23 = Content       87 = Void
    24 = Contained     86 = Exposed

    25 = cohesion      85 = Fragmentation
    26 = stability     84 = Collapse
    27 = Intimacy      83 = Isolation
    28 = Tranquility   82 = Obsession

    29 = Authenticity  81 = Dissolution

30 = Complexity

    31 = Reflection
    32 = Point
    33 = Repetition
    
    34 = Cycle
    35 = Sequence
    36 = Symbol

    37 = Hidden-self
    38 = Imagined-self
    39 = True-self

40 = Resolution

    41 = Thing
    42 = Complement
    43 = Symbiosis
    44 = Life

    45 = Resonance
    46 = Harmony
    47 = Beauty
    48 = Potence

    49 = Heroism

50 = Transcendence
    51 = Light       59 = Dark
    52 = Order       58 = Chaos
    53 = Absolute    57 = Relativity
    54 = Infinite    56 = Finite
    55 = Emptiness

past/future

3.1 Omfg I can't believe how elegant this is. Of course continuity is 0 since it's a FUCKING CIRCLE. (spirit->idea). I could also do 00 = absolute that's crazy. Yeah now it checks out again.

4 I think 23 is field and 02 is manifold in the physicalist translation.

5 wait I just realized that calculating with a carry makes no sense. So the complement of 42 for example is 68 which makes more sense since 60 is non-40. That makes finding the complement much easier.
5.1 I wonder what the attributes of a numbersystem with no carry are. I can def. define the properties mathematically.
5.2 Idea: Polynomial arithmetic modulo 10.
5.3 Experiment: 
     0363 + 9383 = 0646
\iff vaccilation-beauty 
   + non-tribe-isolation
   = soul-love
5.3.1 It reads a bit like a yogi that was inspired to leave the tribe and focus on doing yoga alone. Of couse I realize that it is very unlikely that the maths made a lot of sense. But this is not a bad thing necessarily. This unpredictability enhances his creativity. I'm happy with it.
5.4 I need to compare this trace arithmetic with tarot, astrology, dream analysis, I Ging, etc. It seems to be a powerful variation of these kinds of oracles.
5.4.1 I feel like I need more unique names for this project then just trace, cast, etc. Maybe when I have my syllables, I can make my own lol.
5.4.2 I feel like whatever these existing oracle traditions do, trace arithmetic can do 100 times better. But maybe I'm arrogant.

6 Name idea: silex 
6.1 this is the name that I came up with in an earlier draft of my theory.

7 Transcendent-repetition is related to eternity.

8 Characterize different time periods. What characterizes the rennaissance?

9 Oracle traditions
9.1 Tarot has 78 cards. That's quite much. I could make my own deck actually.

10 Wait I just realized that if every word in silex is a polynomial, then every word can be plotted lol.
10.1 This is especially interesting since the wave has itself a central role in my theory.
10.2 Wait isn't the sine function some infinite polynomial?
10.3 I wonder if I can somehow replace the modulo 10 with something with i that somehow wraps around automatically.

25.3

1 T_1 is the set of all one-syllable words. T_n is the set of all n-syllable words. |T_2|=10.000.

2 idea: Just come up with ten consonants and ten vowels and string them like the numbers.
2.1 use four different for terresrial, four for human, one for transcendent and six for colors. Ten more trancendents?

3 when it's done do poetry with it

4
Seeing
    to grasping-reflection
    = 0431
4.1
I = 15 = individual, 
you = 16 = family, 
he/she/it = 17 = tribe
them = 18 = society
us = 19 = whole
convention: When it's alone then it's usually the former, when it's within a word, it's usually the latter or somthing else

5 what is a conlang? Is Silex a conlang?
5.1 Esperanto, Lojban, Klingon
5.2 Leibniz characteristica universalis.
5.2.1 Okay damn it seems like I'm trying to build a characteristica universalis!

25.4

1 Syllable = (consonant)vocal(consonant)

2 Idea for Alphabet. I'm using the digits as placeholders for now
2.1 Ten digits 0123456789
2.2 There exists the potential for variations of some of these letters to signal shifts in meaning.
2.3 Idea. If a letter is at the beginning of a syllable it is a consonant.
2.4 Idea: different meanings come from: V, Cv, VC, CVC. Every letter comes with a vocal and potentially a consonant after and before. I don't know yet how I wnat to use this morphology but it's nice to have added flexibility. I could also just say "doesn't matter, just do what sounds good"
2.5 Let's run with a simple way and see what happens
0 = bac
1 = def
2 = gih
3 = jok
4 = lum
5 = nap
6 = qer
7 = sit
8 = vow
9 = yuz
2.5.1 I did absolutely not plan for this to work out so well. I have used every vocal exactly two times and every consonant exactly one time. What the hell. Wait I forgot x.
2.5.2 Examples: 
49 = heroism = lumyuz = umyu
20 = relation = gibac
04 = system = baclum = acum
2.5.2.1 A syllable is unique if it contains at least one consonant of each letter.
2.6 This is def. way easier than I thought. This is just a throwaway example an I'm already pretty happy with it so far.
2.7 okay what I'm doing is I'm creating the composites and choosing the nicest ones while upholding uniqueness.
2.8 How many ways are there to uphold the uniqueness of one composite?
abcd, bcd, acd, abc, abd, ad, bc, ac, bd
okay that's more than I thought. It's 9. That's a lot of potential variation damn. Yeah I'm good what the hell this language can definitely work. Literally how is it so easy to create a language.
2.9 Okay what I could do is make each letter have two dots or something signalling which consonant is spoken.

3 more examples
7397 = guideless-rationalism = sijokyuzit
sijok yuzit

4 some more tinkering. Switching things around
0 = chap
1 = deb
2 = git
3 = yokk
4 = ğūm
5 = dsāng
6 = skoas
7 = fial
8 = tschöx
9 = rung
4.1 Problem: some consonants don't do much or sound the same. Wait I forgot I have ch and sk, ng, sch.

356889
    is sequence-complement-unity
    is jok-tsap-sker-fog-fog-sun
    is yotsaskefogfosun
    is japskegfun
    is jokk-tsäng-skeos-tschöx-tschöx-rüng
    is jotseotschörr
    is jāsötschu

4.2 I think there has to be the convention that only one of the three parts of a syllable can be chosen to avoid ambiguity.
4.3 So it seems like I need 20 consonants and 10 vowels. Wait since I can only choose one component of a composite, it would be simpler if one composite would only contain one vowel and one consonant.
4.4 more tinkering

0 = sha
1 = de
2 = gi 
3 = yo
4 = ğue
5 = dsā
6 = joa
7 = fia
8 = mio
9 = ru

6273 is joa gi fia yo is oagiao 

4.4.1 Okay it seems like the language is too ambiguous right now. I need to make the phonemes one letter each I think

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26.1

1
0 = chap
1 = deb
2 = git
3 = yokk
4 = ğūm
5 = dsāng
6 = skoas
7 = fial
8 = tschöx
9 = rung

6273 is joa gi fia yo is oagiao or jifo or oagiay

1.1 I can do the convention, that a word must alternate between consonant and vowel.
1.2 Idea: These choices can be used to make different words related to each other. 
1.3 Idea: Just draw

2 What's with nouns, plural, adjectives, etc.

3 orthography

4 Idea: Conventions like "nouns always start with consonant that is the second one of the syllable", "verbs always end with vowel" etc.
4.1 a fun Implication would be that a noun could always be turned into a verb for example by making it end with a vowel for example. So when somebody is asking what one is doing one can say "I'm autisming" or something without it sounding weird.
4.2 heroism, hero, heoroically, heroing
4.3 
lexical categories:
noun
verb
adjective
preposition
adverb
pronoun
determiners
conjunctions
interjections
numbers
names
4.3.1 Yeah this is a lot. I feel like I can archieve a lot with grammar though. "this category when it's in this context, that when it's in that context"
4.3.2 how many combinations do I have for one composit?
cvccvv
:= xyzabc

{valid}
    = {all}
    \{words including }
    \{

5 Damn it's crazy it seems like this language is extremely powerful and flexible. It seems to allow for just pulling words out of thin air when needed. 
5.1 less flexible (see 4.2) but more powerful.

6 state of composits:

00 = Continuity
    
    01 = Idea           
    02 = Meaning        
    03 = Ungraspable    
    04 = Graspable      

    05 = Body           
    06 = Soul           
    07 = Mind           
    08 = Consciousness 

    09 = Spirit         

10 = Granularity
    
    11 = unit
    12 = function
    13 = interaction
    14 = system
    
    15 = Individual
    16 = Family
    17 = Tribe
    18 = Society

    19 = Whole

20 = Polarity      80 = Singularity

    21 = Unity         89 = Anti-unity
    22 = Duality       88 = Anti-duality
    23 = Content       87 = Void
    24 = Contained     86 = Exposed

    25 = cohesion      85 = Fragmentation
    26 = stability     84 = Collapse
    27 = Intimacy      83 = Isolation
    28 = Tranquility   82 = Obsession

    29 = Authenticity  81 = Dissolution

30 = Complexity

    31 = Reflection    79 = Absorbing
    32 = Point         78 = Diffusion
    33 = Repetition    77 = Stagnation
    
    34 = Dynamic       76 = stillness
    35 = Sequence      75 = Parallel
    36 = Symbol        74 = Concrete

    37 = Hidden-self   73 = Rational-self
    38 = Imagined-self 72 = Identity-loss
    39 = True-self     71 = Ego

40 = Resolution

    41 = Thing         69 = being
    42 = Complement    68 = Incopatability
    43 = Symbiosis     67 = Parasite
    44 = Life          66 = Death

    45 = Resonance
    46 = Harmony
    47 = Beauty
    48 = Potence

    49 = Heroism

50 = Transcendence
    51 = That        59 = Not
    52 = Order       58 = Chaos
    53 = Absolute    57 = Relativity
    54 = Infinite    56 = Finite
    55 = Emptiness

High/low

Idea 50:

6 Notation. Let X \in {0-9}
X  := just vocal, 
X' := just first consonant,
X, := just last consonant,
X" := first consonant and vocal
X. := vocal and last consonant
X| := all

7 composites

    -i +-1  i
0 = sh  ae  p
1 = ş   ē   b
2 = ğ   i   m
3 = y   oa  š
4 = c   ue  k
5 = x   a   ng
6 = dj  o   d
7 = f   ia  l
8 = m   io  t
9 = r   u   ġ

Unused: 
    vocals: 
        ū, ao, ī
    consonants: 
        dsch, tsch, sk, ß, ř, ġ, ksh, gx

7.1
word: abcxyz-abcxyz-abcxyz
word: fumbar-fumbar-fumbar
lexical categories:

Abstract/neutral (-ism)
    abcyz-abcyz-abcyz     fumar-fumar-fumar
numbers:       
    abc-xyz-abc-xyz       fumbar-fumbar-fumbar
noun: 
    ay-ay-ay,             fa-fa-fa
names: 
    cy-cy-cy,             ma-ma-ma
pronoun: 
    cyz-cyz-cyz,          mar-mar-mar

verb: 
    bx-bx-bx,             ub-ub-ub
adverb: 
    bxy-bxy-bxy,          uba-uba-uba

adjective: 
    bz-bz-bz,             ur-ur-ur

preposition: 

determiners:

conjunctions:

interjections: 
    by-by-by,    ua-ua-ua

7.2 This is crazy it seems a lot like different wave functions.

7.3
b :=-IC (-i)
a := IZ (+-1)
r :=+IC (i)
Okay hold on, maths???

8 Damn how do I do tenses? I will find a way. 
8.1 I could make the pattern of the verbs dependent on the time etc. (so verbs are not bx-bx-bx but more dynamic dependent on the context)

9 This will likely be the biggest challenge: I'm trying to make the phonems obey to the strucure and not the other way around. 

26.2

1 Idea for composites: Make all negative phonems sound similar and all positive pound similar

    -i    +-1    i
0 = p     ae     sh
1 = b     ē      ş
2 = ġ     i      m
3 = ts    oa     r
4 = c     ue     ß
5 = k     a      ng
6 = d     o      dj
7 = f     ia     l
8 = t     io     m
9 = schb  u      ğ

Unused: 
    vocals: 
        ū, ao, ī
    consonants: 
        dsch, tsch, sk, ß, ř , ksh, x, š, sp, pf

2 Idea: Make composits with a value smaller then 50 tend to use positive consonants and complement composites tend to use negative consonants.
2.1 If you do this, you could signal lexical categories with endings and beginnings only.

3 Idea: When It's just a vocal, there is a circle in the symbol and when It's a number it's just raw but pronounced with everything.

4 rearrange the composites in such a way, that the positives "feel" like soft consonants and the negatives "feel" like hard consonants.
4.1 Introduce another 10 vowels so that the vowels also have positive and negative polarity? Also seperate them between long for posituve and short for negative?

    -i    -1     i     +1
0 = p     ē      f     ae
1 = b            ş     ē
2 = ġ     i      m
3 = ts           r     oa
4 = c            ß     ue
5 = k     a      ng    ao
6 = d     o      dj
7 = sh           l     ia
8 = t            m     io
9 = schb  u      ğ

4.1.1 This is hard. One possibility would also be to copy these vowels over to +1 but stretch them.

    -i    -1     i     +1
0 = h     ai     f     aī
1 = b     e      p     ē
2 = ġ     i      ğ     ī
3 = tsch  oa     dsch  oā
4 = ß     ue     ş  sh uē
5 = k     a      ng    ā
6 = d     o      dj    ō
7 = kl    ia     l     iā
8 = t     io     d     iō
9 = br    u      r     ū

4.1.1.1 yeah this is great I think.
4.2 remember ordering them alphabetically to make memorizing easier. Maybe create mose logic on how they arise. 

5 positive,negative vowels
5.1 make negative vowels staccato, posituve legato
5.2 wait I just realized that negatice numbers are now also included technically. Yeah let's just ignore actually. Take absolute value.
5.3 I could also say that the intonation changes if the letter is positive, negative or neutral.

positive: Up to nuetral.
negative: Up the below neutral.
neutral: Monotone
question: Upwards

6
frederic 
    = 73 16 13 24 
    = rational-family-interaction-contained
6.1 Yeah I just realized EVERYTHING is a word in this language.

26.3
 
1 Idea: Fuck long vowels, do: Different single vowels one number or: Reverse Order of two vowels.

    -i       -1     i        +1
    b        a      c        e
    d        i      f        o

0 = p        ae     b        ea
1 = bl       ai     r        ia
2 = d        ao     dj(œ)    oa  
3 = g        au     x(œ)     ua  
4 = f        ei     v        ie   
5 = k        eo     ng       oe   
6 = kl(ě)    ī      l        ē  
7 = s        io     ş(ě)     oi   
8 = t        iu     d        ui   
9 = tsh(ǒ)   ū      dsh(ě)   ō  

a e i o u

All combinations two vowels:
    AA, AE, AI, AO, AU
    EA, EE, EI, EO, EU
    IA, IE, II, IO, IU
    OA, OE, OI, OO, OU
    UA, UE, UI, UO, UU

Ununused: 
    vowels: 
        eu, 
    consonants: 
        dsch, tsch, sk, ß, ř , ksh, š, st , scht, dj, rh, schb, n, m, sh, w, 

    Blacklist
        h(not audible sometimes)

1.1 That's cool. Let's order them alphabetically so they are easier to remember

2 An autistic person is ontologically not very different from a bookshelf

3 Okay lets try to translate
"I have a chair"
    -> 15 41-04 41 20-15-24-32
    -> blaungua vi•bao pē•pāing•djao•gū

I 
    = "pronoun: Individual" 
    = pronoun:15
    = bi:15
    = brau

have
    = availability-ing
    = graspability-Relation-ing
    = thing-grasping
    = 41-04-ing
    = vipao

a
    = article: thing
    = 41
    = pē

Chair
    = sit-ter
    = sit-thing
    = djae-vir-xiang-dūvgūdjo-braung
        -vir
    = djae vir xiang dūvgū djo braung vir
    = "relating thing to location individual thing"
    -> "relating individual location thing"
    -> djae braung dūvgūdjo
    -> "relation individual location"
    -> 20-15-24-32:noun
    -> dā-ing-djao-gū
    -> dāingdjaogū

sit
    = upright-still
    = low-upright
    = mind-location-infinite-body-location- finite-body
    = putting-individual
    = putting-15:noun-thing
    Yields
        djae-vir-xiang-dūvgūdjo
        -braungua

Individual:noun
    = 15:noun
    = 15:bif
    yields
        braung

put
    = relating-thing-to-location
    = relating:verb
        -thing:noun
        -to:prep
        -location:noun
    = 20:ci-41:bif-to-location
    = djae-vir-xiang-dūvgūjo

location
    > contained-point
    > 24:adj-32:noun
    > 24:bad-32:bif
    yields
        dūv-gūdjo

to
    > sequence:prep
    > 35:cef
    yields
        xiang

4 To have it here:

word: bace•difo

lexical categories:

noun: 
    ci
pronoun: 

names: 
    cifo
numbers:       

Abstract/neutral (-ism)

verb: 
    ci
adverb: 
    

adjective: 
    bad

preposition: 
    cef

articles:
    bo

conjunctions:

interjections: 
    by-by-by,    ua-ua-ua

4 I think the ordering of the vowels make sense. Change the ordering of the consonants after a heuristic that is not alphabetical order. 

5 Idea: For every word, the beginning doesn't matter, make it so that it sounds good, but the endongs matter for lexical categories.

6 Idea: 
examples: 
    vaofoa turns into vaofo
    vaooa turns into vaoa

7 idea: make the phonems even more structured

    -i       -1     i        +1
    b        a      c        e
    d        i      f        o

0 = p        ae     b        ea
1 = bl       ai     r        ia
2 = d        ao     dj       oa  
3 = g        au     x        ua  
4 = f        ei     v        ie   
5 = k        eo     ng       oe   
6 = kl       eu     l        ue
7 = s        io     ş        oi   
8 = t        iu     d        ui   
9 = tsh      ou     dsh      uo  

7.1 Wait this is crazy that that just works like that. Okay can I order the consonants like this too is the question.

7.2 Wait now that I don't have single vowels anymore I can solve a problem which is akwardness with words that end on consonants. I can just add the next vowel easy without giving false signals since single vowels normally don't exist. Holy shit also I can now combine two consonants, since they can now have single vowel sounds between them without chnaging the lexical category.