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Intermission.

My head. Not my body. 

 

The first step of a series in sharing and reinforcing of each stage of the technique. The Intermission until the rest are completed by the end of the night. Each song is very carefully considered. This technique, surrounds the development of “Intentional Agency”. This playlist is devoted to its full disclosure in practice.

 

 

Disclaimer: I am not yet a medical, counselling, psychology or psychiatric professional, so with my personal gratitude, please be responsible with all decisions you make following my shares. Thank you and best wishes.

Edited February 8 by oOo

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8 hours ago, oOo said:

Intermission.

My head. Not my body. 

 

The first step of a series in sharing and reinforcing of each stage of the technique. The Intermission until the rest are completed by the end of the night. Each song is very carefully considered. This technique, surrounds the development of “Intentional Agency”. This playlist is devoted to its full disclosure in practice.

 

 

Disclaimer: I am not yet a medical, counselling, psychology or psychiatric professional, so with my personal gratitude, please be responsible with all decisions you make following my shares. Thank you and best wishes.

I have now added step 2. Memory to the playlist (starting with “1. Awareness”) directly above.

“2. Memory” took me 6 straight hours.

What I thought was going to take me just a few days or so has now become a month long project. 

The first two steps of the project above, “1. Awareness” and “2. Memory”, are done so freaking good that I may as well turn the project into a masterpiece, which arguably, it already completely shows the signs of becoming.

I was just planning on translating the technique I made on developing intentional agency and research I’d completed into an essay around it. Now, it’s become so much more, and will be far more useful to myself and others if I just take my time with it.

I will add two more steps/songs to the playlist by the end of the week, I just want to spend hours and hours refining my reflections on the nuances of the words to get it all right. Maybe we’ll have less/more than ten vocalised songs by the end of the month to finalise the project which will include both:

(1) the essay around the technique

(2) the 50+ research studies I have completed to give credit to my work.

Let’s see what March 1st reveals. But yeah, this is a completed project that will be valuable to me for the entire rest of the year.

The playlist may not work properly so I will just share the second step/song here, likely need to take it off unlisted will see later:

 

 

Disclaimer: I am not yet a medical, counselling, psychology or psychiatric professional, so with my personal gratitude, please be responsible with all decisions you make following my shares. Thank you and best wishes.

 

Edited February 8 by oOo
Tested. Yeah turns out “Unlisted” playlists don’t work on site.

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I spend an hour each day studying how my mind creates meaning now, and yes, this is 3. Meaning coming by the end of the week sometime. 

This is one of the fundamental ingredients missing in most meditations, as their isnt the assumption that people have the awareness to sit and study how consciousness is creating itself in real time. We all have that ability, the belief to do so influences our capacities here tremendously. Just don’t get caught in the story, it’s study how it’s created first and foremost, the rest comes later

Best wishes

Edited Tuesday at 06:07 AM by oOo

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Faded but fixes can come later. Slight art improvements, symbol in background needs reworking again. AI will get it right down the line. People worry about not getting validation for their art anymore because of AI, totally forgetting that it’s about the branding and if that fails, well it should have always been about the journey not the approval seeking.

Edited Tuesday at 07:35 AM by oOo

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Or this one. But I like the haunting gloomy look.

 (Again yeah I know the fading needs fixing).

I am actually more masculine, pretty muscular (as said, stuck head on this body).

But I don’t care. I don’t have an identity around how I look. I think with my head but I could put myself on a fat body and I could still make it work.

Edited Tuesday at 07:53 AM by oOo

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I am into the 4th hour of a 300mg dose of DXM.

As you can see by the picture it has had zero impact on me.

And I mean that, DXM has had zero impact on me. People spoke about the psychedelic effects so I thought I’d give a try.

Do not try this at home by yourself. I am sitting here with a medical friend, he is already a legitimate doctor. I rigorously prepared this as an experimental test to see how I coped as I have epilepsy.

I thought I’d report though just as an entry.

And heres the after image by the way, my face looks a bit different compared to the original just above. I’ll just keep on experimenting including with music. I’ll be keeping the same theme though with the 1. Awareness, 2. Memory, to come is 3. Meaning and the rest till 10. ? We’ll see.

Edited Wednesday at 10:11 AM by oOo

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Maybe it’s an ego backlash, but I feel like I don’t even want to be known for music anymore or engage with the intersubjective reality. 

All I want deep down is just maximisation of signal to noise ratio on creative conversations and relationships. Becoming well known, it runs against that in many ways, especially in the context of not even having that realised in the face of AI.

For many years I have overhyped the entertainment industry in my own mind. However the core of its origins began when I was a little boy. I would busk tap dancing at the age of between 5-9 yrs old. People were amazed at what I could do despite no training, and it was cute for people. I would have crowds form around me every single day I busked and I would make a lot of money for my family. I grew up poor living with my mother despite us living in a mansion until I moved in with my father, and then the music stopped for a few years. 

Every day now, my awareness is just waking up to the illusion more and more of the dream I created for myself. 

It feels more like a childhood yearning than it does a practical use of my time. Even concerning the leveraging of AI to create really cool creative content and generating a creative network of people to work with to create cooler projects. It feels like a massive waste of time when all I care about at the end of the day is personal reflection, extending my consciousness and creative conversations and relationships with other people. I used to see music as the gatekeeper to really leveraging that, however the social terrain is changing rapidly with outcomes that are no longer contingent upon becoming well known for something, in fact it’s almost the opposite now. 

Viewing my photo directly above stretches that truth further for me. Yesterday with my friend I was looking for something to break the veil a little bit finally, however it literally didn’t turn the dial even remotely as I expressed; stretching my own mind takes me to incredible places anyway, still, I wanted to see if I could find a little of what I may have been missing out on after some people talked about the psychedelic effect as I said. Anyways, while reading my journal and imagining the readership of others coupled with awakening from my own illusions, it makes me realise how we’re all just creating illusions with one another. That we meet at the nexus of genuine connection, not at all, or illusion, and most people are happy to go along with the latter until it finally breaks. 

Through medicine, I am already expanding my social network in new ways, building connections that will last indefinitely. It makes me only interested in just working on my relationship skills, having an influence on the world privately without people knowing, and continuing to expand my own consciousness and its understanding through my formal studies. I will never set-out to be a regular general practitioner, my goal has always been to appreciate the knowledge of medicine, to specialise in my main and to leverage my skills and abilities as a silent leader in the field around entrepreneurship and medicine; with the connection between those two having no shortage of other doors that are already opening.

I don’t know how long I will be journaling for here, at the very least I will extend it till the end of the series to complete what I set-out to do as it concerns my mapping of consciousness in the context of the simultaneous framework for developing and mastering intentional agency.

There’s more reflection to do, and more of the dream of reality to master from within. I want to live a peaceful life, be a systems manager from behind the scenes and make boundless connections with many interesting people around the world. It isn’t to be popular, it’s to build what I believe to be the only thing that is real over the long term, and by expanding the number of connections I reduce the need to focus on any one person unless life establishes that as something resembling a necessity. More and more I believe, people will begin to realise the illusion of modern life, step back, and then after they’ve gone through their ego battles they’ll realise that life really is all just about relationships. 

I don’t care about how I am viewed, and I don’t care about how I view another or in the substance of things how people view themselves. Thats what the 21st century bubble thats been socially engineered now over the last hundred years has trained people to believe what’s important first and foremost. At most I see myself as playing a role of responsibility at most and for music, it seems less and less I’ll be about to do that and more and more that I can fulfil that role of responsibility far better in other ways behind the scenes. I don’t need to ‘perform’ like I did as a kid to establish meaning and importance in my relationships, I can just have relationships for the sake of having relationships because thats what normal people do.

Edited Thursday at 03:53 AM by oOo

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In following my growth from the last few posts, I realise all that matters in every moment now are how my actions serve the outcomes to these two questions:

1. What serves the growth of consciousness?
2. What serves the integrity of my social feedback loops (inclusive but not limited to self development here and mastering relationships at a global level)? 

Everything MUST adapt accordingly, including all creative (inclusive of but not limited to music), financial and global ambitions that only happen in light of to live the badass life that makes sense a hundred years looking back from now. With medicine already a well thought out given, everything else will be weighed, analysed and whatever remains will be systemised to ruthlessly executing according to these two points. 
 

Further constructive points I made in forum posts that share relationships concerning:

Best wishes, #3. Meaning as stated to come by the end of this Sunday.

 

 

Edited Thursday at 09:10 AM by oOo

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10 hours ago, oOo said:

In following my growth from the last few posts, I realise all that matters in every moment now are how my actions serve the outcomes to these two questions:

1. What serves the growth of consciousness?
2. What serves the integrity of my social feedback loops (inclusive but not limited to self development here and mastering relationships at a global level)? 

Everything MUST adapt accordingly, including all creative (inclusive of but not limited to music), financial and global ambitions that only happen in light of to live the badass life that makes sense a hundred years looking back from now. With medicine already a well thought out given, everything else will be weighed, analysed and whatever remains will be systemised to ruthlessly executing according to these two points. 
 

Further constructive points I made in forum posts that share relationships concerning:

Best wishes, #3. Meaning as stated to come by the end of this Sunday.

 

 

 

If:

1. I have the ambition to reach the highest state of consciousness potential in my life
2. Understand that my social network is vital as a support but not a crutch in achieving
3. Understand that the impacts I have on my social network is impact the rest of the world and therefore my social network snd therefore me

 

• Why would not seeking to raise the consciousness of the entire universe be as equally important relative to balancing that equation and at no stretch compromising the original intention?
• Why would I not treat every consciousness action as one that impacted the smallest and largest aspects of the universe that in return impacted me via the butterfly effect?

 

4. In understanding the implications in whole recognition becomes self evident. And therefore to act with the highest level of one’s consciousness potential as if the universe depended on it is not only not irrational but is the only existentially valid causal starting point. Everything is me, and everything is you, and together we are the verse of unity in universe. This is the meaning of when one understands themselves as Source, and therefore the source to the entire universe. This also divides Will to its truth, generative of “True Will” divided from every false separation division.

 

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Edited Thursday at 07:52 PM by oOo

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Totally get I am biased as he’s a fellow dude that has epilepsy, but I recommend the watch even if it’s all wrong. I have watched about 39 seconds in ha, he’s done a fantastic presentation and for me it’s good to just see where he’s coming from on these issues regardless while just being fun to watch after a stressful day for kicks heh! 
I rarely watch his content but he’s introduced this really well:

 

Edited Friday at 07:34 PM by oOo

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Chase did a great job (see directly above).

 

Best wishes.

 

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I am just going to be honest.

I do not fully understand the concept of “meaning”, #3. Meaning being the third release by the end of this Sunday.

It envelops our entire experience, and yet, I don’t know anyone nor any philosopher or otherwise that has fully grasped the totality of its authority over us.

I am therefore trying a new creative approach to lyric creation.

I am mind mapping just any associations that come to mind then building from the ground up following the synthesis of the mind map. From drawing pictures to mathematical equations to poetry, I am using whatever miniature candles I can create to just light whatever space I can in the dark lyrically, as I truly just do not fully grasp what meaning means, and I am openly very confused. 

I will share what I have done tomorrow, and I know I will be very proud about what I have made, but please, I encourage any listener to question absolutely everything, as it is your meaning and your meaning alone.

I hope you enjoyed my share from Chase Hughes just above.

Best wishes and enjoy your weekend.

oOo.

 

Edited yesterday at 12:39 AM by oOo

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8 hours ago, oOo said:

I am just going to be honest.

I do not fully understand the concept of “meaning”, #3. Meaning being the third release by the end of this Sunday.

It envelops our entire experience, and yet, I don’t know anyone nor any philosopher or otherwise that has fully grasped the totality of its authority over us.

I am therefore trying a new creative approach to lyric creation.

I am mind mapping just any associations that come to mind then building from the ground up following the synthesis of the mind map. From drawing pictures to mathematical equations to poetry, I am using whatever miniature candles I can create to just light whatever space I can in the dark lyrically, as I truly just do not fully grasp what meaning means, and I am openly very confused. 

I will share what I have done tomorrow, and I know I will be very proud about what I have made, but please, I encourage any listener to question absolutely everything, as it is your meaning and your meaning alone.

I hope you enjoyed my share from Chase Hughes just above.

Best wishes and enjoy your weekend.

oOo.

 

I’ll be sharing my homework FOR EACH FUTURE SONG from now on, ha I know a disaster right. Give me a break! 🤣 THIS is ALL while I am enjoying afternoon in cafe HEH; and like I said about the mind maps etc, theres others but this is all I had time for!

MY HOMEWORK FOR TOMORROWS RELEASE:

#3. Meaning.

Any words/lyrics you see may or may not be used in the song, it’s all just random careless free styling.

I barely ever write with the written word, so my writing will improve pretty quickly between now and next weekend.

I have broken new ground but. And that’s precisely what should be my aim from now on. Not to just map, but to truly transform my own internal maps from each creation to truly make the endeavour really worthwhile for everyone inclusively. And while tying up the endeavour fully through my own appreciation of what becomes really its own personal challenge to training to evolution.

Edited 20 hours ago by oOo

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Sites running really slow for me continually, it’s saps a lot of minutes in a very busy schedule. Family emergency right now as well. Reprioritisation. Will drop #3. Meaning next wk and hopefully speeds good then too.

Keep your closest truths… close. 
Sometimes they need us to know we still care.

Stay strong.