Amplifying Dividends

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Just exploring the space around me. Little by little. Breathe in breathe out. Just begin. 

Edited October 18 by Deziree

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More signal. Less distraction. That's the way to go.

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This is so beautiful. Living like a shaman.

 

 

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I have to carefully lay out my goals so as to not get completely entangled in them. I want to study. I want to work. Currently doing a part time art teaching job. But I want to upgrade soon. I want to feel intellectually and spiritually safer to be in my own rhythm. I am single and not looking for a relationship as yet. That will need time. I want to settle first and take things slower. Change strategies and change my mindset. Long term goals planning. 

 

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I talked to my family yesterday and we had dinner together. It felt good after a long time. Sometimes they don't understand my issues and journey and that's okay.

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Growing in my brain is good but it's also draining. I have understood that self development is not that easy. It's an on-going thing and needs  a lot of motivation to keep digging to keep going. First thing is liberate all the fears. Don't hang on to anything. There's no need to fear anything at all absolutely. 

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It's been raining outside and I have caught a flu. Just high body temperatures. Not feeling great generally. Not trying to get this on my nerves. Drank hot water a while ago. 

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I discussed with my colleague certain crucial aspects of work and life. One of the things that came up was that I perpetually live in survival mode. It's not separable from my entire self. That makes anything so difficult. Along with the diagnosis of adhd it's hard not to feel like I am spazzing out. I am thinking about healthy emotions now. Healthy emotions not just in self but also with respect to environment.

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First thing is to create a safe space. That's how you switch from survival mode to safety mode.

 

 

Edited October 17 by Deziree

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Caught flu. Drinking fluids.

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Values check-in

What values did I uphold today, and in which moments did I stray from them? How can I better align my actions with my core beliefs tomorrow?

Learning corner

What did I learn today — about myself, others, or the world around me?

Interaction insight

Which interaction today left the most significant impact on me? Was it positive or negative, and why?

Dreams and desires

What is one thing I deeply desire, and what steps can I take tomorrow toward achieving it?

Barriers and solutions

What obstacles did I face today, and how did I overcome them? If I didn’t, what can I do differently next time?