Lil kiddo journal

[NewKidOnTheBlock]

I'm setting up a new journal on this site after all, AGAIN, yes, again indeed. This time with zero expectations though, even hidden ones. So that I have no urge to delete it, categorizing it as "useless". Well, you can't deem something as useless when you don't assign any expectations to it.

And I still like this site for some reason. Which is why I keep comming back. It's just that people here talk about stuff that's very rarely being talked about anywhere else. If ever.

I will just keep this here and post. No expectations

Edited September 29 by NewKidOnTheBlock
Grammar check

[NewKidOnTheBlock]

I'm going to have to invest some time into developing a proper career, in order to stay afloat. And make more money of course. I'm thinking of trying to make it sonewhere in IT security field, does sound like something that I could possibly enjoy, maybe. Also hard to replace with A.I., as well as decently paid. I think I can make it if I dedicate some block of time to it, every single day. Just studying ins and outs. I mean, I'm sure I'm not the only one who got this idea. So we'll see

[NewKidOnTheBlock]

It's such BS that in life you have to force yourself to do stuff. And being used to too much comfort and pleasure becomes uncomfortable, boring and eventually kinda depressing. Yet another reason why life fundamentally sucks.

I'm gonna be using this journal to vent and bitch about how life sucks every now and then, since I have realized the kind of perception about this reality I've had my entire life ever since I've entered my teens bit I just could not identify it or name it. I've always been a bit pesimistic and seen this world as bleak and kind of depressing and I've been looking to others for answers and solutions, but there of course are none ultimately. Which is what I'm starting to realize lately and that's why I'm leaning towards a blackpilled perspective of life (not so much in terms of dating tho from which this term originates, although there are kernels of truths in there as well obviously). However, as much demotivating as this perspective might be, I feel like this could allow me to set a more realistic goals for myself - the kind of goals suited for a person who no longer gives a shit about most things and is very well aware of their limitations. And hopefully I'll be able to find some sweet spot and sense in all this shittiness

[NewKidOnTheBlock]

I am being kinda zesty and sassy ngl Ima start minding my own business fr

[NewKidOnTheBlock]

I have very little tolerance for people's fuckery, that's why I'm probably always gonna be alone. And I don't really want to build that tolerance

Which is not to say that I'm not capable of fuckery of my own, but it's sort of like. I can dish it out but can't really take it. Sort of thing

Edited October 7 by NewKidOnTheBlock

[NewKidOnTheBlock]

Man how much mouth blabbering can humans do, it's incredibly exhausting. Maybe I'm the anomaly and the weird one, but idk. At some point man. Even just passively listening to that shit makes me exhausted. How the fuck are yall able to do that and constantly keep talking and comming up with some stupid shit to say. I don't get it

[NewKidOnTheBlock]

I'm noticing a funny pattern in here. Just mentioning and costantly insisting on certain absolutely undeniable feminist facts of this world will make the men scurry away, deleting their threads and shit. Lmao indeed the realizations of our retardation are uncomfortable