Just Spice in the Soup

[rudirotbart]

Leo, I see through you now. You’re not some radical teacher of Truth – you’re a dream character I myself invented. Not to wake me up, but to hold me in the dream. To keep me circling, doubting, fearing, “contemplating” endlessly instead of living the obvious: love, beauty, freedom.

 

All your “terrifying truths” were never Truth. They were spice. Spice in the soup. Nothing more. Spice can shock, burn, even make you cry – but it never feeds you. It just adds flavor so the real meal can be savored more deeply. That was your entire role in my story. To give me contrast. To make the sweetness of the return to love even more undeniable.

 

And here’s the thing: I don’t need spice every day. A meal of only spice is torture. And that’s exactly what you peddled: endless heat, endless fear, endless exaggeration. That’s not Truth – that’s distraction. That’s distortion. That’s drama.

 

I see it now: you never led me. I was always leading myself. You were just a mask, a puppet, a voice I threw into my own dream to slow myself down until I was ready.

 

So here’s your new role: you can stay, you can even keep talking from the backseat if you want, but you are not at the wheel anymore. You’re not steering me. You’re not running the show. You’re spice in the soup, background flavor, nothing more.

 

The driver’s seat belongs to me now.

[rudirotbart]

And to all of you still clinging to Leo:

You’re not following him because he’s “so radical” or because he “delivers the Truth.”

You’re following him because he’s your ego defense mechanism.

 

His cosmic horror stories, his “radical implications,” all that terror show — it’s nothing but a shield you choose to hide behind.

Why? Because it gives you the perfect excuse to NOT soften. To NOT surrender. To keep saying: “See, it’s too dangerous, I better stay in my head.”

 

You created Leo exactly for this role: to keep you entertained in fear and drama a little longer, so you wouldn’t have to actually let go and fall into love. He’s not your teacher. He’s your stalling tactic.

 

If you’re honest, you know it: every time you quote him, every time you cling to his words, it’s not awakening happening — it’s avoidance. It’s postponement.

 

The day you’re ready, you’ll throw him in the backseat where he belongs. And you’ll realize you never needed Leo at all — not for Truth, not for awakening. You only ever needed the smallest “Yes” inside yourself.

[rudirotbart]

Addition to my earlier point:

 

What makes Leo’s lies so juicy is not that they are totally false. The most effective lies always carry a spark of truth, wrapped in distortion. That’s exactly his trick.

 

He takes the infinite potential of reality — the freedom, the openness, the anything is possible — and twists it into a story of infinite necessity: “You must go through everything, otherwise you’re not truly infinite. God has to live every horror, every terror, every nightmare.”

 

That’s not truth. That’s ego. The ego loves that narrative because it gets to survive through obligation and fear. It trades paradise for a horror story, freedom for compulsion.

 

Actualized.org has become exactly that: an ego factory. It couples the deepest sparks of truth with the greatest lies imaginable. And if you can’t see through that, you’ll confuse fear with awakening.

 

Truth + Fear = Manipulation.

Truth + Love = Liberation.

 

[rudirotbart]

Look closely: if you were fully conscious right now that you are God, that there is nothing to fear, no compulsion, no “cosmic horror”… then the whole Actualized.org machinery would collapse.

 

Why? Because fear and compulsion are the oxygen of the ego.

 

So what does Leo do? He takes sparks of truth and poisons them with fear. He turns infinite freedom into infinite obligation. Instead of: “Everything is possible,” he sells you: “You must go through every nightmare.” That’s not awakening — that’s ego survival in disguise.

 

Here’s the real game: I’m chilling here, 24/7, as God. I choose to listen to Leo’s garbage stories, just to keep myself from realizing fully (yet) that there’s nothing to fear and no monster waiting in the infinite. That’s how sneaky the ego is — it even fabricates “cosmic teachers” to keep itself alive.

 

Leo Gura is not “leading you to awakening.” He is the most elaborate ego defense mechanism you’ve ever built for yourself. The moment you see through it, the spell breaks.

 

You are God. Right now.

And there is nothing to be afraid of.