No More Average

[Artsy]

I fall into so many loops that waste time. I'm on a clock, 24 months.

-Escaping Wage Slavery / Achieving Financial Freedom

-Clarity on and Delivery of my Life Purpose

-Excellent Foundation in Health

-Excellent Intimacy, High Value-Provider and Leader in my Relationships

 

These are the areas of my life that I need to bring to new higher stages within that time - Vision, Clarity, Process. Let's go.

 

[Artsy]

My current Vision: 

£1,400 per week through purpose aligned entrepreneurial value creation with the first payment made to me on June 15th. How will I know when I have succeeded? £1,400 will be in my personal bank account on June 15th. Why is this a meaningful vision? £1,400 a week enables me to cover all my bills, comfortably save for an emergency fund, festivals, travel, therapy and puts me in a position to develop myself into a conscious leader and powerful creative value provider through and by embodying those things in the process - because that is what I can see it will take for me to achieve this goal consciously. Cutting through my limiting beliefs/fears/assumptions about money, grounding in - what is something I can provide - a tangible result, consistently, that aligns with my values, (Awareness, Courage and Ease) and life purpose - Inspiring people to take action and turn inwards to create purpose driven lives (I am still contemplating and refining, the vertical development of humanity and and fulfilling the true value of what education could be - embodied education that creates conscious purpose driven leaders is a consistent theme.) 

 

I recognise what I don't know - my own value, I have worked with start-ups, overcome fears and limiting beliefs, coached, created results in my personal life over the course of the past three years such as letting go of addictive habits of thought and creating a zest for life - a drive to live an inspired life and the discipline and consciousness to begin to do so. 

 

This is where my reflection and clarity begins - What results have I created that is worth £1,400 and who is it worth that to? What can I do, or have done that people would pay that for that moves the needle in line with my purpose? How can I find out? How can I stay on track with my vision - how can I step into the shoes of my new identity - moving from someone who is thinking about and wants to create £1,400 per week into the person that creates £1,400 per week - what do they wear? what do they do? who do they speak to? how do they speak? what are the disproportionate actions - the clear proven steps to make this change happen and position me to share the creation of this result too expressed in line with my purpose.

 

My next steps:

Contemplate and get clear on -

"What results have I created in my life?"

"What result is worth £1,400?"

"To whom?"

"How did I create this - what is the story?"

"How did I create this - what are the core (80/20) decisions/actions/habits/skills?"

"What does it look like to create this for someone else?"

"Who wants these results?"

"Why would they want them from me?"

"In what frame/scale is the result worth £1,400?"

"What is the system for making this result and income replicable?"

"How can I test these insights?"

"What action needs to be taken to fulfill this vision by June 15th?"

"How can I document and capture the value of this process?"

"What is the no bullshit system (series of decisions) I need to take to cut through to actualise this?"

Edited May 30, 2025 by Artsy

[Artsy]

18/06/25 

My main two blocks are decisiveness and maintaining clarity.

I have too many competing priorities to meaningfully break ground on any one.

On the brightside - I have defintely developed my level of impulse control to a profoundly higher level since one year ago. 

I've integrated a sustainable routine that covers my bases for health and self-development work.

Career is where I'm suffering from fragmented priorities. 

I have value to share - I've missed a huge opportunity over the past four years of doing self-development work and entrepreneurship for the past two years - of actually learning to capture and communicate the value I've created in this time. 

I have inner game blocks around money - I'm needy. Simply. I feel I need money. This gets in the way of turning up for people and giving all I can to solve their problems detatched from outcome and in it for the learning. Neediness moves the focus from what I can give, to what I can get. 

Reconciling these frames I believe is found in having an artistic realtionship to creating money - it's one of the many canvases you can paint that make up your life.

I think also I have a block around giving people what they want versus what I want to give - I don't want to hop on the stage orange explotive band wagon. I want to contribute to causes that uplift the world - education and environmentalism primarily. 

My path forward now - I see substack as a way forward - my decision: to create a retrospective toolkit that would have helped my past-self get to where I am quicker. One hour a day to write. One hour a day to create. One hour a day to connect and network. Daily, Weekly and Monthly reflection.

What results have I created? 

I let go of unhealthy eating. 

I massively improved my imulse control.

I have a consistent routine of daily excercise, affirmations, contemplation and meditation. 

I'm going into the third year of my relationship. 

I've led start-up teams to deliver profitable events and learned exactly what I don't want to contribute to the world and the importance of value alignment in saving you stress and hours of your fucking life.

I've facilitated workshops on cognitive bias, team coaching, entrepreneurship, and tomorrow creative design. 

I've worked with 5 clients delivering pro-bono coaching sessions.

I think my most valuable integration currently is my relationship with life - I have a grounded, creative relationship with life, it's my canvas, self-development practices are brushes in my collection make paintings with. I see, feel and am connected with a sense of beauty and purpose - even though everything's not quite clear yet. I have coped with, laughed off and breathed through a tremendous amount of stress working in start-up and integrating radical honesty into my relationship.

What are these things worth? 

To my past self - years of creation. I don't know where I'd be or what life I'd have lived if I had these experiences at age 12. I know it would have been a much richer, more connected, fuller - fulfilled life than the one I led. I know I'd have been more capable and in a position to take on responsibilities that would have led to the thriving instead of the suffering of people around me.

I want to learn to pay forward where I am, and break ground even further so I'm in the position to uplift those around me. 

[Artsy]

11/10/25 I'm coming to terms with the fact I have absolutely no fucking clue what I'm doing. This has felt shit, but it's been what I've needed - all the self-doubt about how to build a business that works and create financial freedom is also the opportunity - I don't know how success works for me, but I can figure out how. This is a huge trap I didn't even know I was in, pursuing other people's model's of success. 

 

I've come to understand entrepreneurship is an alive thing - it's opportunisitic like hunting for survival, what once worked won't in the same way anymore because it has been done, someone else was first. I've been clinging to a linear path to success subconsciously, out of fear of course, stepping off the social conveyor belt, putting myself out there, being alive and intuitive and emotional terrifies me. I didn't realise how much I've been holding myself back with subtle fears. With not dreaming big or audacious enough. With not being openminded enough. Not being ambitious enough. I "know," a lot of the frames, ideas, principles around success - I'm aware of them, I need to actually go inwards and develop a deep understanding of what these things mean in the context of my life.

 

I've been stuck in thinking, I need to get to the tipping point of massive fucking action, I've just felt too afraid and lost as to what execution actually looks like - what am I mastering? I'm afraid of choosing the wrong choice. I'm afraid of wasting my time, being critiqued, blamed, failing. 

 

What to do now? 

Stoke my ambition. Vision. Vision. Vision. 

Massive questioning too - I won't see or feel the opportunities available to me if I don't open my mind and let curiosity lead. I feel drawn to group facilitation, meditation, journalling, workshops - these kind of things, I have an interest in creating content, skateboarding, vegan food, coaching, NLP, Art, Languages, conscious relationships, conscious entrepreneurship & finances. I have many avenues to explore. I need to be dilligent, conscious and open to the exploration process.

Add going through a breakup - lots of emotional work to do. I'll do it though. I accept the challenge.

[Artsy]

09/12/25

God I feel so fucking insecure and needy with women, probably socially too - most obvious with women. I'm noticing the desire to find something to hide behind - "the right game," etc. I need to be dilligent around buying into external right answers without direct experience vetting. My biggest boon at the moment  - facing, accepting, meeting my emotional spectrum in all it's chaos at the moment with love, and then letting go and moving on.

[Artsy]

Doing things. I've noticed I spend so much damn time in the planning state - trying to control my life, always feeling like I need to be somewhere sometime, doing something to get somewhere - which is a different state to actually being in flow with doing things - doing things like writing this reflection. I think I thought of re-opening my journal a week ago - probably wrote it at least three times in my physical journal to remember to start - why not actually just start again? Like I am now. It seems I'm attached to having some grand scheme of scheduling where everything fits rather than actually living the ideas I plan for myself most of the time, it's probably been five, six years of this as my predominant state relative to my actual action taking. The amount of hours I've spent planning my life - hundrends, even thousands, relative to the amount of time, effort, spent consistently living my plans, adapting to life via lived experience rather than my conceptualisation of it. Probably down to fear. There is no inner work, emotional challenge, grit and attrition needed to plan a gym session - there is when you're in the gym. I hear a lot about identity in the self-help sphere, who are you voting for? It's not like I'm starting by ground zero by any means when it comes to taking action. But this is me voting for becoming an executor, less planning, far less planning, much more decisiveness. Much more just do the thing and figure it out as I go. All maps are the maps of others - I need to figure out mine by exploring the territory. Expectations has been huge in holding me back and keeping me in this planning state - I basically stopped skateboarding for 4 years because high expectations I could not meet in any single session crept in and tore down my resolve to continue the practice of mastery. I've come to understand this through the contrast of having fun with it again, just randomly picking it up or taking my board to countries I travel to - loving the work, I can love working on tricks, I love hard work in the gym, expectations of outcome and comparison of the training to that fantasy kills the love of the work. I think Ecology is the main benefit of planning - making sure there's harmony on the surface with the life you're living. Not planning eight hours of gym, eight hours of studying and four hours of meditation back to back in the same day would be a basic example. There's more nuance than that of course - what ways in which you pursue outcomes take away from eachother, and which syngergise. I think life feels awfully dry as well in this overly conceptualised way of living - it kills spontaneity, intrigue to a degree, the perception is bland. Fun, play, postivity, inspiration need to come into the moments of practice for it to be sustainable, or worth doing. So... Doing things - I did a thing, time to do another thing.

[Artsy]

Pouring consciousness into Body:

My theory is the proper order of integrating a training habit is first frequency, then volume, then intensity. Even hitting one situp counts as hitting frequency for example for abs. Consistency before intensity. Chunk it down until it's so ridiculously doable it's impossible not to build momentum. I think this only works if I'm actually hyped on keeping on track with my progress - I could have done nothing today, yet I did something, thank you me - I love ya.

 

Body (Frequency):

 

Tuesday - Stretch + Front + Calisthenics + Abs + Cardio

Thursday - Stretch + Upper + Abs + Cardio

Friday - Stretch +  Legs + Abs + Cardio

Sunday - Stretch + Back + Calisthenics + Abs + Cardio

 

Stretching x4

Hitting Upper Strength x3 

Hitting Cardio x4

Hitting Abs x4

Hitting Legs (Kind of) x4 - More interested in skill progression with Sissy & Pistol squats

 

 

Body (Volume):

Front:

Bench Press 3xF

Seated Incline Curl 3xF

Incline Bench Press 3xF

Cross Body Hammer Curl 3xF

Shoulder Press 3xF

Barbell Bicep Curl 2xF

Lateral Raise 3xF

 

Upper:

Pullup (Weighted) 3xF

Pushups (Weighted) 3xF

Chin ups (Weighted) 3xF

Dips (Weighted) 3xF

 

Legs:

Bulgarian Split Squats 3xF

Romanian Deadlift (Barbell) 3xF

Sissy squats 3x8

Squat Barbell 3xF

Zercher squat (or Hip Thrusts) 3xF

Calf Extension (Machine) 3xF

 

Back:

Deadlift (Barbell) 3xF

Reverse Fly 3xF

Lat Pulldown 3xF

Skullcrusher 3xF

Single Arm Cable Row 3xF

Single Arm Triceps Pushdown 3xF

 

Calisthenics:

Pullups / Dips 3xF

Chinups / Pushups 3xF

Body Rows / Pike Pushups 3xF

Sissy squats / Assisted Pistol 3xF

 

Failure is a lot easier with training partners also going hard. I want to increase my PR total volume for calisthenics and ORM for everything else. If I don't match the previous volume, do another set/drop set to go at least one rep further. Up the weight when I hit 10 rep max.

 

 

Abs:

Knee raises x30

Side Plank 60s

Situps x50

 

Total volume workout for abs, increase amount per set per week, increase total volume per week. Aiming for 4x25 or more for knee raises & sit-ups, progress knee into leg raises. Not sure about obliques? Add side crunches after the plank?

 

Cardio:

2 minute warmup

5x 30s Sprints

 

Starting with this, Ideally want to get strong at going fast for middle distances, 3km-8km.

 

I can do full sessions in under ninety minutes if I finish sets including recovery time within 2 minutes. One minute to one minute fifteen for the set, one minute to forty five seconds for the rest time. Sexy.