Goal tracking

[NewKidOnTheBlock]

Have to stop taking people so seriously. They're just means to an end, at the end of the day. You are always simply seeking certain emotions from them. And you have certain expectations of how they should behave towards you. Not saying those should change. But I'll never bend over backwards to be popular with someone, never have and never will. If the consequence of that is a little bit of an internal pain, then so be it. I see this pain as inevitable, honestly, and never ending - not in a sense that the pain ia constant, but moreso in a sense that, there will always be times when people fail your expectations. And the result will always be discomfort. It is what it is. But not to worry. Everyone is replaceable, and I don't need (and never will) to kiss anyone's ass. Ever

Edited May 22 by NewKidOnTheBlock

[NewKidOnTheBlock]

Eventually I am going to have to start approaching women. There is just no choice and no way around it really. This whole normie "meet someone throught mutual interests" thing is a crock of shit, because there aren't many interests that could be mutual in the first place, and you have to basically do the same shit you'd have to do at cold approach anyway, women are 100% passive always and, at the end of the day, I want them more then they want me. Yes, it is very annoying that we are working this way, but it's the fuckin truth. Especially since so much of the self esteem is tied to this fuckin BS, it's unbelievable. Man's whole worth

Edited May 22 by NewKidOnTheBlock

[NewKidOnTheBlock]

He's been my enemy this entire time, and I'm starting to understand it

Edited May 23 by NewKidOnTheBlock

[NewKidOnTheBlock]

I wouldn't have a problem with renting out my appartment to some well paid faqs, but such is the nature of renting that only people who are not making that much money have to rent, cause they can't afford their own place. If however, some richer faqs wanted my very modest place, I'd be filled with joy ngl. But it's very unlikely unfortunately

Would love to rent it out to some OF worker or whatever. Parasiting on a parasite, lmao

Edited May 23 by NewKidOnTheBlock

[NewKidOnTheBlock]

https://youtube.com/@uberbintegers?si=PezXq3a_f3bHBYT9

Really like this guy. One of the most emotionally inteligent people I've ever seen, and has the best view of these issues I've ever seen so far

Makes me wonder what self improvement is even for if you are doing it to fit someone else's standard, when really what you want is being connected to others, but as an extention of being connected to yourself, by sharing your true self. Not some self improved masked self

Edited May 24 by NewKidOnTheBlock

[NewKidOnTheBlock]

I feel like he's right and loneliness indeed is an unsolvable kind of problem. At the same time... I feel like people have always been kind of lonely, and it's not really some new phenomena. Like, there always was a basic baseline of loneliness that always permeated through all ages and societies, and is just one of the consequences/byproducts of the human condition. Idk, maybe I'm onto absolutely nothin here, but whatever. In short - it was always kind of bad, but now we've trully exposed our nature throught technological progress - which is that, althought we are inherently craving connection, our tendency is also to be anti social, especially if the enviroment allows and encourages it

 

But also, loneliness is such a conundrum, like, what is it really. Is it a feeling of low self worth because of absence of people, a lack of self love, or the absence of the real you being heard/noticed/validated? Is it a perspective? Is it lack of sex and romance? Is it a kind of serotonin and dopamin addiction programmed into our brains by evolution? Is it a lack of second party feedback, validating our existence and questioning/approving our actions? Is it a lack of understanding in regards to relating to other people, i.e. skill issue? Is it a continious sense of lack of commonality with others? Or is it all these things above and more? Well, all I know is that chances are high I'm never going to be able to completely solve it. It will always be present in my life in one form or the other, all I can do is to lessen the negative impacts as much as possible

[NewKidOnTheBlock]

This site and all of self improvement is bullshit. It is starting to be more than apparent to me