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A thought in my mind regarding relationship with dad , I was supposed to accept it on day 1 that he didnot love me , and it would not lead me in a person who was anxious , attention seeking , emotional unstable Simple formula : accept others behavior towards you ,its fine life is designed this way , if he hates you ,love you doesnot change you as a person Notice your self agenda ( I ) gets crazy here and for its survival it hides the reality and hurted every cell with stress , haha ,when The I is only illusion , Reminder : Its ok whatever its going on , what truly matters is Live from higher conscious benefit : detoxification from false self,neediness and addiction is gone , Peace is here surrounding this body and inside

paradox of Living as being vs carefree ego , Don't let ego play games here

throughout this life the I searched for freedom ,just in a moment when I disappeared ,freedom left

meditation is happening, consciousness is happeneing ,there is no one here who is doing it , life is flowing ,its all part of nature

while watching Leo video , teachings came to me what ego has done and made hell ,I WAS strong ego in past , with dad ,my ego became defensive so i call ego in weaker form ,but when recent work i get some of self-esteem and confidence ,so when working on process there is no me ,there is no Ego who has control , basically life inside me ,every cell has controlled and made life out of me as part of nature ,not i am an individual was mindblowing ,and it became easy to dissolve this I ,( the I took responsibility of my behavior and reaction when my weaker ego was clashing with another weaker ego ,the reaction supposed to be what it was ( depression,anxiety ,frustration, sufferings) when only stupid I who thinks has control created my illusory life even I as identity reach here through nature ,It was meant to be that I has to learn it ,the cells inside this body were designed for it everything is life supposed to be in flowing and (i) has enjoy ( no ego ,no control) , I , sorry but you are not driver ,why don't you rest and enjoy every peaceful moment Oh my goodness ,this is beauty

Is this topic discussed before ? Interested in learning techniques using for self observation

glad to have your insight here thanks Master

2016 is really important year for me ( I am feeling the turning point of my life) If i take the correct decision ,my life will be changed totally career and relationship ahead I am living in) physiological aspect In Maslow's triangle ,NOW i HAve to take step to reach the safety Today is Day1 I identify that there is decision should be taken

TODAY : 6/29/2016 I realised I am sleep ,in dreamy state , Journey begins

Insight on one's victim mentality During this journey ,you may feel ,you want to complain ,cry and seek attention ,but sometimes telling others I am fine completely works better than telling I am not ,cause than you give space and time to your inner self for more growth and it will work for you not against you , Learnt it when applied, Again ,being in present moment and with patience , what also work is Smile too ,so you can get space from others

Open minded ( seems easy to read) but when implemented ,then get the true essence very easier of us as identity to become close minded ,try to be open minded ,and get the real pleasure at begining ,a good amount of resistance will show up , let it pass ,( patience) and see the result The story which tortured you ,the answer is Simple ( no story ,no torture) Bottomline : Only learn when applied ( don't miss the chance now) Live with peace, dignity and integrity

it was once emotional difficult decision , and NOW ,this MOMENT ( no anxiety ,no fear , no panic , no hurt ,no palpitation) Only left is Calmness, gratitude ,gracefulness , love and BIG SMILE ( this is ME ,I am forever Free)

When love beckons to you, follow him, Though his ways are hard and steep. And when his wings enfold you yield to him, Though the sword hidden among his pinions may wound you. And when he speaks to you believe in him, Though his voice may shatter your dreams as the north wind lays waste the garden. For even as love crowns you so shall he crucify you. Even as he is for your growth so is he for your pruning. Even as he ascends to your height and caresses your tenderest branches that quiver in the sun, So shall he descend to your roots and shake them in their clinging to the earth. Like sheaves of corn he gathers you unto himself. He threshes you to make you naked. He sifts you to free you from your husks. He grinds you to whiteness. He kneads you until you are pliant; And then he assigns you to his sacred fire, that you may become sacred bread for Love's sacred feast. All these things shall love do unto you that you may know the secrets of your heart, and in that knowledge become a fragment of Life's heart. But if in your fear you would seek only love's peace and love's pleasure, Then it is better for you that you cover your nakedness and pass out of love's threshing-floor, Into the seasonless world where you shall laugh, but not all of your laughter, and weep, but not all of your tears. Love gives naught but itself and takes naught but from itself. Love possesses not nor would it be possessed; For love is sufficient unto love. When you love you should not say, "Love is in my heart," but rather, "I am in the heart of Love." And think not you can direct the course of love, for love, if it finds you worthy, directs your course. Love has no other desire but to fulfill itself. But if you love and must needs have desires, let these be your desires: To melt and be like a running brook that sings its melody to the night. To know the pain of too much tenderness. To be wounded by your own understanding of love; And to bleed willingly and joyfully. To wake at dawn with a winged heart and give thanks for another day of loving; To rest at the noon hour and meditate love's ecstasy; To return home at eventide with gratitude; And then to sleep with a prayer for the beloved in your heart and a song of praise upon your lips.

Insight on chimp brain while complaining I just put awareness and be at the moment ( IMP step : didnot rush towards the answer ) and I just came on right time , Bottomline: presence , patience ,Practice ( hurry is job of DEVIL) Only learnt when applied

I am not proceeding ahead as far as life purpose is concerned ! because I am not aware of it yet I need help here, I joined actualized.org initially to learn to deal with people ,but after coming here ,I learnt self love, stay conscious and aware every moment ,and I experienced joyful things ,I never even imagined , I was EXTREMELY CAREER ORIENTED , ( literally was neurotic that sense) , I don't have any interest left with that now ( the reason I would say here was because To reach that I was NEGATIVELY motivated) My personal development part is positively Motivation ( even if i feel tired ,exhausted ,miserable ) i am not giving up on me that part now as i am getting more and more conscious The FIRST thing I need to change in my career life is type of MOTIVATION ( as I feel somewhere deep that i still dont want to give up) Second thing I want to do is Change the relationship with it ,( i was abnormally attached with idea that I WANT It ) Third thing is Career does not seem to be my life purpose ,but It can help me to find one and also to achieve one Fourth thing Adding value in other people's life ( I can do it through my Career) and I am interested in volunteer work SOME Vague stuffs I visualize 1.Financial independence 2.Travelling world 3.Healthy ,beautiful Excellent Human being 4.Writing ( articles , books etc) 5.Meditating sitting in Beautiful beach ( this is my favorite ) I worked previously to become financial independent ,I failed previously ( which somehow discourage me ) because I was not looking for anything ordinary ( whic was my fault and abnormal attachment that I want that thing only ) so as I mentioned I have to work on that too

https://www.amazon.com/Rich-Guide-Investing-Robert-Kiyosaki-ebook/dp/B007L8717Y This is book you are talking about

Yes , on the journey to get to know thank you

It was , i cut almost all those hyperstimulating activities , It does work for me , Meditation , practicing present moment ,and working as inner self are the keys

Insight on intuition Today while I was about to take a nap , I didnot close my eyes because I got an intuition ,that my niece is about to come home ( normally she sleeps at her home if her grandma is around) Oh My Goodness ,In two minutes the bell rang ,and it was Her

Thank you

Insight during my prayer Today while in position of Sajda ,the "I" dissolve ,and the Reality left ( the Him) left , Me The identity Merge with Him and felt Everywhere is Him ,Everything is HIm,inspite of Me performing the Salah , But there was no "me" Only reality is Him the truth is there ,when "I" is not there

Insight regarding 'Marriage' today Two reflections of reality when merge enahnces the beauty of reflection not dim it and made a whole beautiful reflection which is combination of Him reflection of reality and Her reflection of Reality

In each moment , feelings was HIm ,finding HIm was finding everything, I was nothing ,just a story teller to decieve people, reality He was everywhere , although i tried to find HIm in masjid , But He was in Heart , i tried before to meet Him ,Today He come Himself , found life purpose ,got everything , false perception made my heart black ,I embrace Him Today ,All darkness gone read HIS book As I was Him made me understand what He talked

When You starve Ego ,soul shines

I am very sorry to hear about this lady , thanks for sharing ,its helpful