John3596

I’ve had many awakening experiences induced by self inquiry. My question is-when is the fun part? Every time it happens, I just feel myself disappearing and it is rather frightening, as everyone I love disappears too and it feels like there is no one else in any of my loved ones bodies. I just don't like the solipsistic part of it. Any tips on how to get over this so I can go deeper and fully experience my awakening without fear? I always cut it off before it goes to deep.

I have always had a good long term memory from early childhood years, and I wonder if everyone experienced these same childhood insights I had from the ages of 1-3, and they just don’t remember them: I remember being confused as to why I can’t put my hand through the wall. I understood that everything was ‘holographic’ in nature, but was confused as to why if that was the case, why my hand couldn’t pass through a wall. I was confusing it the holographic nature of reality with a newly learned idea of holograms from sci-fi movies Another memory I had is my sister who was also my age said death isn’t possible because we are conscious right now, and that we wouldn’t be able to be conscious of this present moment right now if we ever died. This struck a chord in me I remember standing in my kitchen thinking “oh this is where I am now”. This came with the insight of realizing that I had been standing in the same exact spot forever experiencing different environments for eternity, and the present one I was in from my locked in pov was the “Newest” one At a carnival I must have been less than two years old when my ego developed, I was looking around and imagining consciousness oozing around, like the empty invisible space in the room was alive, almost like an organism “oozing” moving around the air in the room, and this must have been around when my concept of “other humans” had first developed, because I was confused as to what was the real consciousness, the empty space “oozing” around the empty space, or the “people inside the head of the bodies”. I remember being in a public library and recontextualizing my consciousness from being an image being experienced inside the head, vs it being outside of the head (the truth). I was able to switch back and forth on command. I remember having to make the decision as to if other people existed or not when I was very young in my kitchen. I decided to believe it because it “seemed like they did” and that they also had bodies, so if they had bodies just like I did, it must mean they had their own conscious experience. I also remember the moment where I first “gained consciousness” when I was walking around with my mom and I was looking up at the trees, thinking “what the fuck even is this place” I remember purposely walking around my hallway moving around the “room” I was in, and realizing I couldn’t ever “move from the one spot (point of view)” I was located at. Yes I was walking around (relatively) but I was forever stuck locked in in this pov. The strongest one is one that I’m not sure if it even happened, all I remember is being extremely young and having a god realization experience where I was walking down my hallway towards my bedroom at night from my living room and it being a “dream” even thought it was “real life”. It almost felt like the most beautiful sunset ever inside a dream, even though relatively I wasn’t asleep. Let me know if any of you had something similar to this

I did it in a ceremony in Oregon recently. Shit was awesome being somewhere scenic in nature. Wouldn’t wanna do it anywhere else

Bro off that Walmart melatonin 😂 no in all seriousness this would happen to me and I stopped taking it. It started to have a “reverse tolerance” effect where each time I took it I would trip harder, so I would cut the amount smaller every night until I was taking the amount of the size of a a couple grains of salt every night but it was helpful for realizing the truth of no self because it would put thoughts in my head that weren’t “mine” so it would make it easy to see that there was no thinker of the thoughts

No I’ve only done 5meodmt. How is mipt different?