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it shows Thank you, Leo.

Yes and No. Yes, I can handle it. Naturally. No, there is no "swallowing". It's meeting and matching the flowing-of-love which is simultaneously being restrained. Flow-ing and Be-ing. Present-progressive. I think these subtle choices when discussing anything relating to the divine are extremely helpful. Anything divine is an ongoing event, eternal. That's why I prefer to adopt and accept awkward phrasing, at times, in favor of a present-progressive conjugation.

Which is "transcending-transcendence". An ascension lacking any descent would be incomplete.

Are you sure they said: "never"?

... may those who are afflicted find peace, speedily and soon.

It's a very old pop-culture reference. https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/This_Is_Your_Brain_on_Drugs

I watched it

"This is your brain on non-duality. Any questions?"

Another question, if you're feeling generous: Within your own frame of experience, ignoring theory, is there any thought that occurs without an emotive trigger? Or, to put it another way, is thinking the master? Or, is it the heart which is pulling the strings, hiding in plain sight, which produces the impetus which further blossoms into conscious chains of thought?

? curiosity inclining towards awe ? IOW ? curiosity inclining away from wonder ? His-Her majesty's name is "loft"? or "ascension"? ... in its purest, loftiest, least differentiated form?

Following, and thank you. For Americans it's easy to make broad assumptions about the disposition of the Israeli constituents. This will help.

Before there was Actualized.org, there was Caddyshack. --------------------------------------------------------------------- "Do you do drugs, Danny?" "Yes. Everyday." "Excellent. So, what's wrong?" "I don't know. ... I'm supposed to go to college." "Just be the ball, Danny. That's all you have to do. Be the ball." ---------------------------------------------------------------------

The video begins with a distinction between little 'm' "meaningless" and big M "Meaningless. Leo says, the confusion regarding the concept is resolved when little 'm' "meaningless" is reconsidered as big M "Meaningless". Then, as he elaborates, if you pay close attention, he doesn't say "Reality is meaningless". He says, paraphrasing, when you realize that Allllllllll of it ( looking all around with his eyes with a big grin ) is big 'M' "Meaningless" ... Then the words slowly stop, and you can tell, Leo is enjoying this. The Allllllllllll of it, that Leo was referring to is the panoramic multi-dimensional sensory experience which is rendered like a "play" on a "stage" within his mind's eye. When you realize it, if you haven't already, it tickles a little to defocus and refocus such that the cognition of rendering within the mind's eye is noticed. And that's the real point of it. He's contrasting this sort of pleasant realizing with an unpleasant inherently incomplete conception of "Meaningless-ness". If this is still a struggle conceptually. Give it time. Take Leo's advice. Try to distinguish between two types of nihilism. One type is necessarily self-defeating. it cannot be nihilistic and simultaneously pejorative. Those two are mutually exclusive. Then, from there, try to complete the notion of meaningless-ness which blossoms from recognition of the illusory nature of human sensory feedback apparatus.

Lacking a specific quote, I'm guessing he's referring to "maya", which is all inclusive with regard to sensory feedback. True. My best guess is: what was referred to as "meaningless" is actually abbreviated in common parlance. More rigorously and completely described: It's "meaningless with one and only one exception." That one exception is knowing oneself. It's omitted because it's a mouthful to repeat and the audience is assumed, rightly, to be in the process of self-discovery. So, it, the one and only one exception, knowing oneself, gets left out as a matter of convenience.

I'm kicking my own ass - Youtube link

Describe tech 50 years from now. Travel? Communication / collaboration? Construction / manufacturing? Clothing? Energy / fuel? anything else? Thank you,

Sorry. I was attempting to ~virtually~ wave to you from this side of the world. I can see that attempt ... failed.

Maybe this will help with finding logic in it. https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Van_der_Waals_force

Sure. First, please know that I've read your entire post. And I have experience with those feelings myself. This is what helps. When in fear, focus on your breath. Follow the breath with your mind's eye. In through the nose, up across the top of the mouth along the palette. Down down down, parallel to the spine, into the belly. Then release. Practice this. Focus on the breathing. The breathing is real. After that, affirmations: "Here are things I know are true, always and forever:" My name. My parent's names. My birthdate. My affinities. My aversions. My talents. My flaws. When I was young, I had a birthmark removed from my thigh. I can see the scar. When I was young, I heard about prison tattoos, and I gave myself one on the palm of my right hand. I can still see the mark. Ah. For this specifically: distinguishing between existence and reality is useful. Whether or not something is real is a philosophical conundrum. Whether or not something exists is much easier: Does it have physical dimensions? Is it located at a specific unique time and place? Does it break down over time? If the answer is yes, it exists! It's a material manifestation. If not, it's something else, potentially a non-existent or quasi-existent aspect of reality.

It sounds awful. Doing nothing doesn't sound like an option.

Anger is born from a lack of empowerment. Take charge of your life. When there is a lull in your professional development use that opportunity for personal development. Then, as one develops personally, new career opportunities will naturally arise. A life-coach can help you put together a personal development plan and keep you accountable. But, a coach isn't necessary. You can do it yourself. 26 is a great age for this. If you need a hint: this is heart-work. Emotions. For personal development, look for things which make your heart go "pitter-pat" picking up its pace, in a good way. Then, become better than most at that thing. You'll see that in the process of seeking and developing, new opportunities which are in harmony with your pursuits will open up for you.

When was the last time you exercised, hard, to the point where your back is sweating?

~waves from the eastern seaboard~

My gut response is the office job exacerbated a prior condition. The suffocating feeling, the lump in the throat, while attempting to achieve a quiet calm meditative state: I've felt that myself. The office job and the optimism sound like distractors. Substantive relief, imo, will come when the underlying root cause of discomfort is revealed. The work I recommend for you is to make a list of all your secrets and pay attention to how you feel while writing them out. Then isolate the scariest secrets which you never-never want to reveal and work towards integrating and exposing those secrets in the right way to the right people.

Good question. God created evil and is cursing it.