EtherNine

Dear Leo & community, I've been wondering if there's a better way to embody oneness than mushrooms, please? Not just feeling the sensations of it but actually becoming this identity. My hang-ups/drawbacks are my attachments to the external: validation, trying to be good enough for people/achieve good enoughness etc etc I've been working on this for a while and it's so painful that it's taking so long. I've been doing all of the mediations/activations/mindfulness work that this entire world has to offer, as I'm able to observe my attachments & let my consciousness be guided towards source. But I just feel like I need a stronger pull, a stronger field to hold me, as I'm navigating this shift. So I've been wondering if that is what shrooms provide - such an profound experience that it impacts consciousness forever. But...I'm just opposed to the shrooms: 1) I don't feel like I'm yet stable enough for it 2) If our nature is oneness, I would to achieve this naturally. So I'm in a dilemma here because: am I BS-ing myself. Or is it my epistemic responsibility that - even if this embodying takes my entire lifetime, that it's worth it. Would love to know your thoughts on this. Love you btw - got into meditation cause of u, 10+ years ago. Did the life purpose course & all that. My deeper yearning is for a coach, someone to guide me there and help me/give me reasons to hold the oneness. Because this process is soo hard to undergo alone, as you know. I'm so grateful to be alive. I know that I've overcome physical death so many times because of this work, whereas so many have succumbed & died/manifested all sorts of illnesses etc. I guess the entire world is yearning for how to fuck to do this...to let go and surrender back into our true identity of oneness, whether they know that's what they're really seeking. I'm seeking it and I greater support/tips etc. on how to embody this more consistently. What do you do? Maybe I simply need a stronger experience of Source/Infinity itself. With love,

I'll give it a go. Thank you for the voucher. I've done 5000+ hours of meditation/mindfulness work.