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According to Buteyko, there is a painfully easy method to know if something you ate was bad for you: Did your breathing volume increase after eating? If yes, then it wasn't good for you.

The deep hurt is self-alienation. Every person with neurodivergency has the deep hurt, since being neurodivergent means alienating neurotypicals.

@PolyPeter There is a very subtle distinction between being critical of the self vs being critical of an idea that comes from the self. It is very tempting to say "my idea was bad, therefore what produced it was bad, which is me". This is especially true for neurodivergents. This self-critique is very internalized and stems from neurotypicals thinking the ND did something wrong even though all they did was be authentically unconventional. If you once had a neurotypical teacher who has no idea what what ADHD means, which you most certainly did, you most definetly have internalized self-critique if you have ADHD. (The deep desire to work on a personal project is a high predictor of ADHD in my model)

Summary: Drop all external ideals and end self-judgement. Replace ideals with inherent authenticity. For that, learn about your neurodivergency. Stop thinking self-judgement increases survival Stop mistaking self-judgement for skepticism

I just found out that something similar exists already and it's called "fields of sense" and is a part of new realism. Coincidentally, it was invented by a guy named Markus Gabriel, who teaches in my city. A childhood friend who studies philosophy even knows the guy.

The way I am currently trying to solve this conflict, is by trying to show, that reality has the attribute of self-similarity like a fractal. If one were to show this, the top down, bottom up distinction with collapse. My best approach currently, but it is not finished and there are still loose ends, is the idea that reality has "field-like" properties on every level of granularity, and all of existence has "wave-like" properties on every level of granularity. Every time I'm talking about a "space", on this forum the last few days, what I mean is a bounded field, that allows for a standing wave, which is existence to exist. (everything metaphysically speaking)

I have written about the topic here: One also has to be HSP and ADHD in addition to autistic to be able to come up with a conspiracy theory. Dependent on whether the autism dominates, or HSP dominates will change the "flavour" of the theory, with it being more material and logical when you are more autistic and it being more magical when you are dominant HSP. ADHD is the necessity for unconventionality. The reason why you need to be HSP, is because a purely autistic person can only follow instructions. HSP has the ability to ruminate, due to the wiring of their brains, which includes more feedback loops. The ability of the HSP-autistic person is feed a thought back into itself, and coming up with a new thought in that way. When you do that for a long period of time, you will reach conclusions that are far beyond the established knowledge. there has always been these people, they just used to call them, magicians, shamans, and prophets, etc.

I have developed an ontology off hell, which is alienation, which is a super set of what you mean when you say "gore". I made an extensive post about it here: Here's my interpretation of your post: when you say "gore", what you seem to mean is the superset of what I call "the maw" and "the abyss". My interpretation of the first example, is that you have established a relationship with the fences, which has created an existence space between you two (also, the fences are part of the existence space you span with your stepdad). When the fences are destroyed, this space that is a part of you disintegrates, and turns into the abyss. Since there is no existence, and therefore no self beyond the existence space, the feeling that you describe is the feeling of self-disintegration, more broadly, self–alienation. this is also the feeling you have after a break up, for example. More broadly, when you fell abandoned. The second example is an entirely different phenomenon that also leads to self-alienation, which is why you saw the connection. In my model of horror, involuntary fusion,with another being or disfigurement, is horror and alienation through the collapse of boundaries. When you become one with another being, the existence space that you were spanning is collapsing, which is also a kind of loss of self, but an entirely different mechanism behind the abyss. The metaphor that I'm using is "the devouring", which is the maw. In a relationship, this can happen, either when you are too obsessed with one another, or they are traumatized from past alienations, which leads to them to seek unity and cling obsessively.

@Natasha Tori Maru the reason why pets are pure godliness, is because they don't have the ability to reflect on and judge being, because they didn't eat from the tree of knowledge. When you have the ability to judge being, you have the ability to alienate others when you judge, and alienate yourself, when when you self-judge. All hate and all evil originates from alienation. people falsely think that self-judgment is necessary for survival, but that is wrong. If you stop self-judging, you will become so authentic and so loving, that people in your environment will automatically want to help you with anything. People falsely think that self-critique is necessary for skepticism, and this is also wrong. If you have audhd, you don't need self critique to sense, that your current worldview is flawed, and you don't need the motivation to seek the antithesis to your current worldview because you will seek them out of curiosity automatically, and integrate them, making you intuitively engage in dialectical thinking. If you are patient with yourself, you will eventually reach the right conclusions. It just takes time. One of my childhood friends told me yesterday, that I for brief period, believed that the Earth was flat when I was like 15. If you have audhd, you don't get that head start that other people have, who just accept the word view that is given to them. This "starting at zero" of audhd people can lead to frustration, but it is necessary for radical skepticism. Be patient with yourself.

The reason why people don't reply is because they are autistic. Autistic people have elaborate worldviews but it took them super long to get to that point because they take a long time to process new information, since they process more deeply and precisely. Leos worldview for example is always changing, but just very slowly. You can see how slow when you look at his blog. This is not a bad thing, it is a "symptom" of epistemic integrity. When you dump autistic people with new information, it usually takes them multiple days, weeks or even months to process the new information. But if it is good, they will eventually grasp the truth very deeply, it just takes a long time. Also ontology is maybe more niche than you think. The reason why I replied is because I happen to be working on an ontology. But I also need more time to see the potential in your idea. I have the same problem with people not immediately seeing the potential in my ideas, trust me. Just keep posting. Be patient. Don't be discouraged.

this idea that humans have to support themselves is not inherent to being a human. It is a symptom of the cancer, which is civilization. When humans lived in tribes, the idea of "work" didn't exist because everyone was supporting each other by the abundance that is created from authentic living. From civilization, the ideal (and the concept of maturity) arose, and from that self-alienation arose, and from that suffering arose, and from that scarcity arose, and from that cynicism about sharing arose, and from that property arose, and from that capitalism arose, and from that your false view of the human arose.

This is "arbeit macht frei" Nazi logic

The trick is never to be too broad, try to write something specific about her. Also always end on a question you think she wants to answer.

One type of objection that I saw during my quest of convincing everyone they're Neurodivergent (ND) goes something like this: "I think that some people might tend to cling to these Labels is out of hope it might solve their problems" To read this sentence on this forum is kinda funny to me. You think you are seeing through their self-deception but have you ever critically considered that the reason they might do that is BECAUSE IT'S TRUE??????? Is this really so hard to believe??? Is it really so hard to believe that you get to have a good life????? Is it really so hard to believe that you get to live a life without chronic stress chronic neck pain chronic back pain chronic jaw pain chronic I did not know that you could have chronic pain in this body part but here we go chronic migraine chronic my whole body feels like fucking sandpaper in a blender chronic why isn't she responding to the text I sent her that might very well contain every word in the Bible chronic fatigue chronic overstimulation chronic I'm on the internet all day trying to prove people wrong. Also I hate myself chronic burnout chronic I don't have burnout I just sometimes lie in bed all day, but it's just because I'm not self-helping well enough absolutely not because of burnout no no no burnout not me no chronic depression chronic I don't have depression I just sometimes lie in bed all day, but it's just because I'm not self-helping well enough absolutely not because of depression no no no depression not me no no chronic asshole bleeding chronic talking to a girl might as well be mission fucking impossible starring Tom Cruise chronic people suck they get on my nerves chronic loneliness chronic I'm not lonely, I'm just better than everyone. Also I'm lonely. and last but not least wait for it 🥁 chronic fucking BITCHLESSNESS???????????? Learning how to learn to live a life suitable to your personal N In future posts I plan to go into detail about: Why learning about ND solves all your problems. Examples in what way ND can solve all your problems. Examples from my own life. (Oversharing is a strength of mine since I'm autistic 💅) Also about more of the objections like: Labels bad Don't you throw these goddamn labels at me dipshit (totally fair objection honestly lol) I've done an online test, and It says I have low autism you nerd Is the weird bunny creature trolling? Yes but no. I'm having a lot of fun truth-pilling the truth community, but I'm 100% serious about my core message

I stand with my critique of Buddhism. Duality is not a bad thing at all, and it allows for the fulfillment of space and for symphony as I said. pain and suffering are a part of the symphony. The only way to arrive at cacophony is by engaging in self-hatred.

yes exactly!😭😂

what do you describing is sequentiality and it is not survival but existence for the autistic brain. if you put down the sequence, you are putting yourself down, which leads to self-hatred. So stop

Agreed. Without dissonance there can be no resonance and therefore be no harmony and therefore be no symphony. Emptiness is great because it is silence and a good symphony needs silence to have contrast and structure. But emptiness itelf is just empty. It is neither infinite nor beautiful by itself.

you are completely correct. Of course I would not use the word with retardation, but I understand what you mean. The reason why Neurotypicals hate neurodivergent people It's not just because of ignorance. The reason is much much much deeper. What do you need to understand is for a Neurotypical person, their identity and their conformity is their existence. So when the neurodivergent person runs around shitting on conformity either directly or through their actions, they are invalidating the existence of the Neurotypicals, which leads to them being alienated of themselves by the suggestion of their own non-existence. So this hate is existential in nature. This conflict can not be solved. There will always be dissonance between the neutotypical and the neurodivergent for that reason. What I teach, though is that this dissonance can be used for counteracting the destabilizing effect that pure resonance, which is pure love, which is pure unity, has on the existence space. This process of counteraction through complementary spanning leads to symbiosic space. This is why the neurodivergent people and the Neurotypical people are in reality codependent of the other. It is also the reason why free love in hippie communes can lead to disaster, because in free love, there is the risk that the overrepresentation of unity among likeminded people causes the collapse of existence space. this is not to hit on hippies, usually people naturally seek this counteraction. This is why the attraction of opposites exists in the first place. Precisely because they repel each other paradoxically. OK, here's an esoteric thought: what if that's the dynamic that is precisely what keeps atoms intact? What if the electron and the proton are secretly in love? This leads to an interesting distinction between being in love, which is symbiosis and being love, which is unity. That's why you don't want to meet your soulmate, because if you were, you would mistake being love, which is obsession with being in love, which is symbiosis. This is actually what happened to me. This is why the saying that there has to be some amount of conflict and therefore distance in a relationship is true. With understanding of the dissonance between opposites, it does not have to turn into alienation. This is the basis for my plan to reduce fragmentation in society.

You are both correct. A conspiracy theory is what happens when you have an autistic person who has not learned epistemic responsibility. That's it. There's no such thing as a Neurotypical that has the ability to come up with a conspiracy theory. A conspiracy theory is basically what happens when you only have off the charts pattern recognition and other than that no real knowledge about reality. So what a conspiracy theory is, is it is always a very real pattern in reality that is just interpreted the wrong way and therefore leads to the wrong conclusions. So when examining a conspiracy theory, never make the mistake to ask what it says, ask instead what pattern it points to. when you don't see the pattern, this usually means that you have not looked hard enough or that your interpretation of reality is incomplete. That's because for a conspiracy theory to be popular, a lot of people with superior pattern recognition have to agree with it in some way. Here are a couple of examples. "birds are spies" of course this is wrong, but this doesn't change the fact that western people are being spied and Palantir exists. "the elites are Satanist" is wrong but what is right is that they worship Yaweh who is the Demiurg in the gnostic interpretation of the old testament, which is the devil. So in that sense this conspiracy theory is completely correct. "they eat babies" might be wrong, but they sure as hell like to fuck minors "Bill Gates wants to implant chips in my bloodstream" is wrong because it's Elon Musk who wants to implant chips "the system is rigged" well that's just the truth "the leftists want to replace Christianity and traditional values" yes that's exactly what I want to do

I know this sounds arrogant, but I honestly think that I am the best source. I'm not mentioning masculinity specifically much to avoid sex-gender confusion, but what I'm talking about is extremely relevant for the concept of masculinity. I am precisely, logically, and ontologically describing what you mean when you say "the balance between masculinity and femininity". I have the answer for why this is important in the first place. When you think that you have deficiency in masculinity than everything about my theory that has to do with sequentiality, which is objectivity and power is especially irrelevant to you. But of course everything is relevant since learning only takes place through making distinctions.

Without self-hatred, his ideology would collapse

A very wise man once said "I'm a lot more literate than you Mr. Monelli. The problem is you don't know the english language Mr. Borelli"