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I think this is fair. I'm in a theory building, brainstorming phase fight now and this is very different from implementation. I have barely begun applying my model to business. I think it can lead to very radical conclusions in the field and solve a lot of conflicts.

I have made a lot of notes this month and forgot to share them. Here they are. The numbers signify which day of March. This post and this post Might help for understanding some of these notes. 11 Monophonic (sequentiality): processing Polyphonic (simultaneity): interpreting Resophonic / ampliphonic / phase flow / feedback / resonant (sensitivity): ruminating Ontophonic: neither I think an HSP (highly sensitive person) is someone who is neither monophonic nor polyphonic. “Harmonic” is now replaced with euphonic “Disharmonic” is replaced with cacophonic Hylophony: high-entropy symphony Aniphony: low-entropy symphony What is omniphonic? “The reason feedback loops create stable structures everywhere in physics is that they impose a self-consistency condition on waves. Only patterns that reproduce themselves after one cycle survive.” 12 What if a field, a wave, and space are the same thing? Simultaneity asks whether a wave is similar Sequentiality asks whether a wave is coherent Sensitivity asks whether a wave is resonant 14 Main claim: Reality is consistent because the psyche must be consistent. The stability of reality equals the stability of the mind. Example: When the mind becomes unstable → dreams occur (reality becomes chaotic). A dream is not unstable in terms of resonance. In fact, a dream is often more resonant in the symbolic and subjective/emotional modes than the waking state. A dream is only dissonant with respect to the objective, logical mode of resonance. In this way, dreaming may create a balance between the three modes (assuming there are only three), compared to someone who does not sleep. When asked what determines the structure of the mind, Leo says: It is a deep mystery. The mind has the structure of a field. When the field is not excited, it is empty. When it resonates, it becomes a space—a non-linear resonant body with system-like qualities, and thus becomes existent. Criticism of the resonance idea: What patterns? What is resonance? Where does it come from? Why is it necessary? Thoughts How do different frequencies interact with one another over time? The “sensitive” topology is resonant; the ADHD topology is linear; the neurotypical topology is non-linear; the autistic topology is sequential. The topology of autistic people has more depth; the topology of neurotypical people is more self-communicating and therefore less rigid; the topology of HSPs is more reflective (and/or recursive?). What is the minimal fractal that exhibits these properties? In neurotypical individuals, the topology itself has wave-like qualities; in ADHD individuals, the topology is more rigid. 14 (continued) The dopamine system seeks collapse The serotonin system seeks stability The fight-or-flight system seeks disintegration 15 Body (Leib), Merleau-Ponty: physical body, sounding body, resonant body, embodiment Repetition (Deleuze) What is doubt in my theory? Doubt vs. contemplation: Doubt: “I do not accept this because…” Constructive feedback: “I accept you, but here you could improve.” 16 Communication: Humor, provocation, ragebait (e.g., Sneako / IShowSpeed style) Streaming? Website: Interactive website with colorful visuals Extremely complex site, controllable via a controller YouTube videos alternating between: me, a notes app and the website Universal introduction → perspectives on different fields Domain name??? Fields: Pedagogy Education Dualities A symphony is: Neither ideal nor non-ideal Neither idea nor non-idea Neither order nor chaos Neither infinite nor finite Neither unity nor duality Neither synthesis nor non-synthesis Neither symbiosis nor non-symbiosis Neither harmony nor disharmony → Maybe: “super-combination”? → Or simply: “a symphony between …” Lack of human dignity = cacophony (a cacophonic judgment) Human dignity = euphony Thoughts Should I first study mythology to find the perfect name? What are the Infinity Stones? 17 System = process 18 Symphony → beauty beyond harmony Euphony → symphony without alienation Cacophony → symphony with alienation Orchestra → reality giving birth to the symphony that is being Conductor → visionary who guides the course of history The soul is the striving of the spirit toward embodiment; it is embodied spirit The body of Christ is pure embodiment without alienation Being is embodiment Spirit is the field Soul is the wave Body is space Consonance and its opposite: dissonance Both consonance and dissonance can be embodied Resonance can include both consonance and dissonance When does space become a body? → When it becomes personal Symbiosis is the integral (the intact, the whole) Only a coherent wave can persist and thus exist Incoherence leads to destructive interference and thus non-existence Avoid resonance catastrophe Masking is when one’s own topology is adapted to avoid incoherence Masking is stabilizing and grounding. If done excessively and unconsciously, it can lead to fragmentation Masking is necessary to build something Masking is the tension between the true self and the self-image What role does the unconscious play? The collective unconscious consists of the three properties of the wave

Consciousness is the field The soul is the wave The body is the Space God and the absolute are all three (and more?)

Since the last draft of my ontological cosmology, my theory has become A LOT more streamlined. It seems to have moved from the domain of analytical idealism to the domain of field ontology. Of course, I have been inspired by physics, however, I am using every concept borrowed from physics as a metaphysical principle that applies to all of reality, including physics on every level of granularity because of the self-similar nature of reality. What is Reality? Field is the absolute. Reality is space. A space is a duality with an outer boundary, and an inner boundary that separates the dualities. The space has the field quality. The outer boundary of the space is necessary to prevent the disintegration of the space and the inner boundary is necessary to prevent the collapse of the space. The outer boundary allows the field of the space to resonate. Resonance is what happens, when the frequency of the wave match the outer boundary, such that it becomes a standing wave and therefore allows for existence, which is an instance of being which is field. Any wave with the same frequency with an inverted phase in the same space will cause destructive interference and therefore the complete negation of the standing wave, which is non-existence. A space with no wave is empty. The qualities of field Field has three qualities: Unity, duality and wave, which itself has four qualities: Frequency, Spectrum, Amplitude and Phase. Unity is the devine desire for the collapse of duality, which is space, into singularity. Duality is the gift from god that establishes space and allows for existence. Frequency is sequentiality and causes the manifestation of logic and the object. Spectrum is simultaneity and causes the manifestation of meaning and the symbol. Amplitude is feeling and causes the manifestation of phenomenon and the subject. Conclusion Of course, this is just another draft. The theory will change again, when I try to integrate more concepts into it, especially from physics, about which I need to learn a lot more. It might not seem like it, but as it stands, it explains A LOT. There are still open questions and inconsistencies like: What exactly is phase? How exactly does resonance and dissonance happen? What is a mind, and how does the distribution of the three attributes (neurodivergence-neurotypicalness distribution) arise? Idea: Mind is a topology (resonance body) that creates a space with special attributes The HSP topology creates a ton of feedback (wave is trapped inside for longer). It creates resonance when there is a pleasant feeling and dissonance when there is an unpleasant feeling. The Autism topology creates resonance when a wave is coherent and dissonance when it is incoherent. Neurotypical topology creates resonance when a wave fits its identity and dissonance when it is in conflict with its identity. If the field comes first, then what comes second? The wave or the space? Does the wave create the space (high frequencies create smaller spaces with a frequency of the Planck length creating singularity and lower frequencies create bigger spaces) or does the space create the wave? If it's the latter, then where does the space come from? Where do these forces of unity and duality come from? Do high frequencies create unity and low frequencies duality or is it the other way around or not at all what's happening? Is all of this in some way related to physics or just Deepak Chopra style pseudoscience? I'm pretty confident that I'm onto something, also because: (Fields of sense seems to be a lot more limited to my theory since it seems to assume spectrum, which is meaning, is the most fundamental, which is only a part of my theory)

I don't. At all. The more urgency I have, the less creative and productive I become

The pattern is the antidote to postmodernism. Ask them: "Are patterns relative? If I see a pattern, is this pattern only true for me or also true for others?"

The trick is to find other people who suck at people skills. Find other neurodivergent people. It is really easy to connect with them

@Toranvor Yes I would suggest you to focus on grounding exercises instead of intense meditation. Meditation can make your situation worse I think My top 3 guesses are You are in a very close relationship with someone toxic who is abusing you via manipulation, verbal abuse, emotional abuse, physical abuse etc. You have enormous backlash from meditating or taking psychedelics that is uncovering trauma, which itself comes from toxic people you are in a relationship with like your parents Capitalism is suffocating you I really don't think It's something physiological except if you live in Hiroshima or something.

I honestly think all of y'all are projecting hard. You must understand that living in this world is not that poisonous. There's so many people who can live just fine. This forum is filled to the brim with highly sensitive people. When HSPs are mentally unwell, they develop chronic problems and psychosomatics. All of y'all have the same mental problems and you projecting them into some substances that poison you. This is textbook paranoia. And now you're in infecting another person with your paranoia. It's very dangerous advise.

Jesus fucking Christ. I feel bad for you. I have developed a model that can hopefully give you a valuable perspective to your problem. When you say that you are vomiting, my interpretation is that there is something wrong in your life that your body is trying to purge, but it doesn't know what it is. I have written several posts on this forum that are relevant for you. Here they are in order. If you read and understand them, you will gain a valuable new perspective on your issue: What is the purpose of manic depression It is a good introduction to the next post. The most important part is What is the purpose of schizophrenia This is the most important post for you. You need to find out what your elephant is, but you also need to be patient with yourself. The most important part is: It seems like you are in option 1 currently. You need to move to option 2 and try to avoid option 3. What is the purpose of paranoia In this post I entertain the idea of interpreting the symptoms of a psychotic disorder, rather than analyzing it. What could your vomiting represent? The origin of all Psychotic disorders: This is my best post so far. It describes the ontological basis of your problem. I interpret your vomiting as your body trying to get rid of something that is suffocating you. This means you are likely in the maw currently. Is there something in your life that takes away your autonomy or that suffocates you? The most important one is "What is the purpose of schizophrenia". It describes "the elephant in the room". I'm making an educated guess, that the thing your body wants to purge is such an elephant. I know that you are not describing symptoms of either manic depression, schizophrenia nor paranoia, however I believe that these illnesses result from the same origin which is self-alienation in a broad sense.

For me it happened when I gave my mind space. I stopped everything what I was doing and just focussed on following where my thoughts led me. Eventually I had so many ideas that it would take multiple lifetimes to manifest all of them.

This is petty behavior imo. I respect non-analytical philosophers since they are not just scientists but also artists. I can highly identify with this intersection, I never wanted to do either pure science because of too much restriction nor pure art because of too much freedom. It seems to me that a kind of envy from alienation out of a lack in inspiration is talking out of him. Pretty sad to see.

It is important to distinguish meaning from truth. Truth is in some way more simple than people think. Truth is just a pattern. Truth seeking means completing patterns. The pain that drives truth seeking is fundamentally different from the pain that drives seeking meaning. The pain that drives truth seeking fundamentally is "the incomplete pattern". It is the pain of Sheldon when he is not allowed to complete the three knocks at Pennys door. It has nothing to do with meaning. I could send a video that bashes every belief system on the planet and most of you would be able to stay calm since you are not ideological. But it is different when I send this: This is why autistic people are more holistic than neurotypical smart people. Neurotypicals learn about science to get a nice prestigious job, not understand the world. But an autistic person doesn't give a shit about a nice job. They want to learn all the patterns and integrate them with each other so they are coherent.

@Majed Neurotypicals often mostly care about meaning. They want to have a nice job, a nice marriage, nice family and they want to be respected. Learning about philosophy will not do this for them and this is why they don't care.

Sorry to always do what I do but it's autism again😅 Autistic people take longer to process. Talking requires a lot of quick decisions. This is hard for someone who is autistic since they need to contemplate everything deeply. This doesn't mean practice doesn't help but knowing that helps with the confusion. It's not like people who can't talk well necessarily don't have a deep inner word. Often it's actually the opposite. A lot of neurotyicals have loose imprecise symbols floating in their head and they make loose connections very fast intuitively. That's why they are so good at speaking. But when you debate them or ask what they mean precisely, they hit a wall pretty fast because they don't have the depth of understanding an autistic person has.

I have borrowed a rhetoric from leftists. My goal is not only to tell the truth, but also to get people to ACT NOW one can't think a revolution into existence.

I've seen it I love this😂

How am I supposed to know what is wrong with my points if you don't tell me?

@YIDIRYIDIR Thanks for the feedback. Yes this writing style is polemic. If I was more nuanced, the post would be longer than it already is. This does not mean that my point is not deep and nuanced. I used binary language for simplicity so of course most people are inbetween the two. The post is mainly adressed at extremely neurodivergent people who struggle a lot in life. But it also applies to mild ND too somewhat.

I have not done that yet, but here is how I imagine that logic: If someone else fucks my girlfriend, then I can focus on my own pleasure rather than hers.

No. War is the logical result of capitalism. Even if you have a world of enlightened beings, you will still have war if there are a loyal capitalists.

Open relationships is an ADHD thing. If you have ADHD, you are blind to the concept of monogamy.

@LastThursday You are correct. My leverage point is alienation. That is the Achilles' heel. Without alienation, the system collapses

Seeing how many people here struggle with survival is heartbreaking. While studying neurodiversity deeply, I have realized what the problem is. Here is the big thing I want all of you to understand: Survival is not the job of the neurodivergent. Survival is the job of the neurotypical. The notion that "everybody is responsible for their own survival" is the most evil idea that has ever been thought. It is a cancer that needs to be removed as fast as possible. If you think that I'm wrong, then you are just drowning in capitalist propaganda. Humans and animals lived in groups where each member supported the other for millions of years. And now all of a sudden it should be "obvious" that living from the support of others is not a valid mode of existing anymore? I want all of you to rinse all of your brains from this capitalist propaganda. If you are very neurodivergent, you need help. You cannot survive on your own. You need to seek support. Don't try to come up with elaborate systems that make you money. You don't care about money and you know it. Money has no value for you. You know exactly that money is fake, yet you chase it anyway because society tells you that you are useless if you don't do it. In reality, you don't need money to survive. The only thing that matters is SUPPORT. THE TRUTH IS YOU DON'T NEED MONEY TO BUY YOU SUPPORT. YOU JUST NEED TO FIND PEOPLE WHO LOVE YOU AND ACCEPT YOU. The problem is, you don't really understand what it means to be Neurotypical (functional). You think something like "if I just were functional, focus on money and stop obsessively thinking about the truth and being inspired by infinite beauty, then my life would be great" then you have no idea what it actually means being functional. Being functional means this: Getting a good education and vibing Doing a job and vibing Marrying someone and vibing Having kids and vibing Getting old and vibing But what I want you to understand is, that being functional also means this: My life is kind of great and stable, but I don't really know why I'm doing all of this. Who am I actually serving? What is the meaning of all of this? I don't even know what all of this is! I am dependent on some super old traditions and ideas with problematic and outdated aspects to give me identity. I can't really inspire myself and create my own meaning, so I must be inspired, but since this system kills real authentic inspiration, for this reason I feel kind of hollow inside. I'm so involved with making a shit ton of money and being functional that I never get to stop and just enjoy the moment. I'm so involved with making a shit ton of money and being functional that I never really learned to love properly and be empathic. There is conflict in every one of my relationships and my marriage will likely not last forever, since I don't really understand psychology at all. When you point a finger at these people now and call them "these damn conformity people!" at the end you are just jealous of their ease to function in this system. If you understand now that they also have it bad because they don't have anyone to show them the beauty of life, because all the neurodivergent people are in a ditch somewhere, then you can accept them, help them, and receive the help you need in return. You don't understand how much money these people spend in their desperate attempts to save their marriages or to finally feel something. The oppression of the neurodivergent is the root cause of the meaning crisis. If you build a deep relationship with a neurotypical, you understand their need for meaning and provide it for them, what could actually happen is that they will start worshiping you and that you never have to worry about survival again. But in order to get to that point, your first have to learn to accept yourself, accept your gift, and learn to live authentically without self-judgment. I know that this notion of independence is deeply woven into the fabric of western culture. I think this is the biggest problem of the present day and this is why I want to help to rebuild western culture entirely from the ground up.