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autistic people tend to have truth as their highest value, non-adhd people tend to have meaning as their highest value

@yetineti I disagree with pretty much everything you said. My claim is that neurodivergency is neither caused by outside influence, nor does it have anything to do with the integrity of the prefrontal cortex. I know this is a radical claim and very essentialist. I am developing a theory about reason, intelligence and mind, that I have not posted about yet, but they are necessary to make my point properly. However, I've already made some posts that are relevant for this.

Marxists criticize him for arguing that secret societies are the main issue of geopolitics. They say this distracts from the real problem, which is capitalism. Also, antisemitism actually strengthens Zionism since Zionism is to a huge extent based in victim-identity. I have even heard the theory that Jiang is actually funded my the Mossad to increase antisemitism for that reason. It is easier to justify violence against someone who is hateful. This does not seem so far-fetched when you learn that Israel funded terrorist groups and enabled them for that reason. This is actually how Zionism operates. Professor Jiang might be Chinese, but he seems to be a liberal. Liberals can not liberate anyone because it is liberalism that is the problem. If you somehow get rid of the secret societies you will still have liberalism, and therefore you will still have endless wars. But at the end I think there is actually an interplay between esoteric societies and capitalism. It could be argued that this forum is in some way an esoteric group. The term esotericism originally does not mean "believing in bogus or in ideas that are not epistemologically grounded" but it actually just meant something like "advanced teachings that are only accessible to the few". The isolation of these groups simply comes from the fact that just a very small minority of people can grasp truly advanced teachings and the secrecy comes from members trying to protect normies form heavy topics like suicide, nihilism, psychedelic use etc. Sounds familiar right? What separates this forum from an esoteric society with material influence is that Leo and therefore most members of this forum don't believe materialism is significant and therefore don't have the motivation to have massive material influence in the world. But this is not true for people who engage in occultism. The core principle of occultism is "as above, so below" which I interpret as encouragement to engage with and change material reality. If you define a powerful esoteric society as: "A group of people with advanced teachings that use those teachings to influence material reality" then suddenly, Marxists-Leninists with their dialectical materialism fall under that definition. But of course, Marxism-Leninism does not have enough spiritual depth to be a complete esoteric society. The reason why the western esoteric societies have such a disastrous impact on the world (if what Jiang is speculating is true of course) is not because they're evil or sadistic or some shit, it's simply because they are liberal. I once went to a meeting of Freemasons and also a meeting of the Lectorium Rosicrucianum in Germany, and they were great people with spiritual depth and they were pretty harmless. There was indeed not baby on the menu, unfortunately. However, they were hardcore liberals like pretty much all people in the west who are not educated in Marxism, historical materialism, anti-imperialism, etc. and also they are the whitest people I have ever seen. The only upper hand these societies have over Marxism-Leninism is that they have more spiritual depth and a deep historical grounding in western culture. If one would infuse Marxism-Leninism with spiritual depth with imagery that is familiar to the west, communists would take over very quickly. This is exactly what I'm trying to do.

Friday: March 20th, 2026. Self-differentiating away from someone is distinct from abandoning someone.

Yeah that's an interesting observation. Seems true intuitively.

19.1 1 Hate and non-hate are dialectical opposites. Non-hate breeds more hate than hating hate. When you hate hatred, you gain the energy to win against hatred and decrease hatred overall 2 The same is true for tolerance. 3 This seems to also be true for judgement (and therefore alienation?) 4 Can I find abstract concepts to formulize this logically abstractly? 5 Is this also true for alienation? 6 If this is true does it even make sense anymore to declare alienation as evil? 19.2 1 Thesis: The purpose of alienation is to induce depression which allows for reevaluation 2 So when I tell a zionist "zionism is a cancer", knowing fully well, that they identify with that ideology and that this causes major alienation in them, it is still "moral" since I want them to become depressed 3 and reevaluate their ideology 4 The same is true for: "You obviously have autism, if you deny this you are an idiot" 5 What is the danger of this approach? 19.3 1 Emotion is the language of Resonance 2 Symbolism is the language of Meaning 3 The Pattern is the language of Sequenciality 4 The somatic language is the language of embodiment 5 Being is the language of consciousness 19.4 1 Do all dualities come from the unity-duality duality? 1.1 No, the infinity-finite duality is seperate 1.1.1 The infinty-finite duality comes from complexity-simplicity 1.2 What about power-cuteness? 1.2.1 Dude no idea where this duality is coming from. In my interpretation, this seems to be an important aspect of the holy Trinity and Christianity, with the father being power, the son being cuteness (in German, I'm using the word “Liebenswürdigkeit” which means something like “being worthy of love” (I think cuteness is fundamentally the same thing as that which needs protection and is therefore worthy of love) and the holy spirit being god knows what (meaning would make sense I guess). 1.2.2 It could be sequenciality-resonance. But in my model, power is more closely associated with “the stability of a space”. I think it might make sense to differentiale between stability and power. 1.2.3 use an idea: I'm defining power in such a way, that it is the ability to influence material reality. And since resonance can only be in resonance with reality and not change it and meaning can only interpret reality and not change it, sequentiality is the only mode of existence that is capable of that. On that note, change is inherently sequential. The transition from unchanged to changed is a sequence. Yeah, it seems to make a lot of sense. 2 it seems there are multiple "styles" of survival. The sequenciality mode is changing reality, the resonance mode is being cute so that you are protected and the meaning mode is charging either of those with meaning which motivates the pursuit (?). 3 (1.2.1.1) If the holy spirit is the unconscious, then it checks out perfectly since the unconscious it that which processes meaning. 4 (1.1.1.1) The complexity-simplicity duality can be summarized as “granularity”. 4.1 It seems that granularity is not integrated into the model yet? 4.2 It seems this is connected to wholeness, self-similarity and therefore the fractal. Is it emergent of what I already have or seperate? 4.2.1 It seems to be a necessary condition to even be able to say stuff like: “When I say field, I mean something abstract that applies to all levels of granularity”. 4.2.2 It seems that it is the nessecary condition for any abtraction and therefore metaphysics. 4.2.3 The fractal seems to point to a pattern that has the self-similarity aspect. 4.3 (4.2.3.1) Can something self-similar that exists within the resonance and the meaning modes of existence be found respectively? 19.5 1 Another word for meaning is “guide” and “decision” and “belief”. 1.1 Yeah the word guide is really freaking sweet. 1.2 Is decision really a mix of sequenciality and guide? 2 Another word for resonance is “qualia” damn this is an amazing term. I might be using this primarily now. “Qualia, guide and sequence” has a nice ring to it. 2.1 What is the difference between qualia and phenomenon? 3 Another word for sequence is “step”. (Qualia, guide, step?) 3.1 another word for sequence is “cycle”. (Qualia, guide, cycle. Now this is cold) 4 Oh shit, if I am using the word guide now, it makes sense to use the five pointed star as a symbol for it like in the sense of "guiding star". That's really satisfying. 4.1 Shit the german translation of guide is “führer” which is ass for obvious reasons lol. 5 There is one leap of faith which is that of stopping self-doubt. I need to remember this imagery of the "leap to authenticity”. 6 I found this really cool Mao quote: “No investigation, no right to speak.” 6.1 It seems to be a very concise and more broad version of the pre-trans-fallacy of Ken Wilber. 19.6 1 Damn I might have found a good rearrangement of the terms: 1.1 the field is substance. (Or consciousness?) 1.2 the wave is the spirit (or the soul instead?). 1.3 sequenciality is consciousness or the father. (Or reason? Or Intellect?) 1.4 qualia is the soul (or the animus instead?) or the son. 1.5 guide is the unconscious or the holy spirit. 1.5.1 I'm struggling trying to derive the guide from the wave. I think it is the collapse of the wave function. But it seems to me that not every wave function can collapse so the generality is kind of broken. But maybe this is for us maybe every wave can collapse? The way that I explained meaning before was with the spectrum, which is a cool idea, but I think this is really incomplete. 1.5.1.1 okay, I have an idea. The proposal of a wave is always faith based because of the uncertainty principle. 1.5.1.1.1 down this is a really cool thought. There seems to be an interesting relationship between the idea of uncertainty which is embodied by the guide and the uncertainty principle. I think at the end of the day the uncertainty principle is the proof that this Trinity is one which makes sense. Because without certainty, not only the guide is non-existent, but also the Qualia and the sequence (cycle?). 2 I need to start integrating the term essence. Somatic language 3 (19.3.4) the somatic language is more broad than the language of symbolism which is the language of the guide and the language of logic which is the language of the sequence. What this means is that there's also a language of qualia which is the language of emotion. Until now I have mistaken the somatic language for the language of emotion, but there is a subtle difference. I will start contemplating about what language precisely encapsulates emotion. I will have to start looking into and analysing poetry. 3.1 since embodiment includes the Trinity, the somatic language is actually the most powerful one. This is because the body language is always a sequence with symbolic meaning (every yoga pose for example can be interpreted as a symbol with meaning) and with emotion attached (every pose and every yoga pose points to some kind of emotion). This makes complete sense to me since there are a lot of spiritual traditions that focus on the somatic experience a lot through the art of movement. 3.2 this kind of means that I need that distinction between that part of the spirit which wants to embody and that part of the spirit which seeks to feel emotion. Right now, I have the spirit as this which is embodying and the soul as that which feels emotion, and it kind of makes sense but I'm not 100% happy with the usage of spirit. I think the word soul fits both spots the best, but I want to distinguish properly. At the other hand, I think spirit works just fine. 19.7 Qualia 1 I need to learn more about qualia. I think both the sequence and the guide might be also a kind in qualia. So qualia seems to be equivalent to embodyment. This is really cool but then I need to find a replacement for what used to be resonance. I think phenomenon is pretty good. 1.1 This leads to the current trinity: Sequence, Phenomenon, Guide. 1.2 Oh shit okay chatGPT says that phenomenon is broader than qualia so never mind. So I guess the phenomenon is that which relates to embodyment? 1.3 note to self: Nagel is important for understanding qualia. Relativity 2 Is the sequence relative? Is qualia relative? Is embodyment relative? If no, then why does space, time and meaning happen ti be relative? 2.1 I think they are all relative but in distinct ways. 2.2 I need to contemplate more about relativity. It is not obvious how relativity arises from what I currently have or if it is another seperate thing 2.3 Is relativity and absoluteness another one of those dualities? 2.3.1 "The One is neither relative nor absolute" damn thats cold. 2.3.1.1 reminder of the phrase "is a supercombination" 3 List of things I need to integrate: Relativity, granularity 3.1 Also information 5 I think I will be translating guide to "sinn" in german. 6 Damn I just realized that sequence is quantity and resonance, qualia is quality. 6.1 So I could Just do quantity, quality, guide (or back to meaning? Wait no purpose??) 6.2 Quantity, Quality, Purpose. Thats cool 7 Let's collect the different ways to conceptualize the trinity. 7.1 Frequency, Amplitude, Particle 7.2 Quantity, Quality, Purpose 7.3 Sequenciality, Cyclicality, Parallelity 7.4 Father, Son, Holy Spirit 7.5 Intellect, Soul, the Unconscious 7.6 Deductive, Empirical, Inductive (DAMN) 7.1.1 I think that saying "this is a chair" might fundamentally require the same faith as saying "this is a particle". 7.6.1 This opens the question: Is probability a form of inductive reasoning???? Damn all of 7.6 are different forms of reason? this means reason is super broad actually holy shiat. So it seems reason is fundamentally tied to spirit (geist). 7.6.2 Are there other forms of reason? I think that there is also a neutral Zen form of reason that is embodyment (DAMN x2). And a "transneutral" form which is non-embodyment which is embodying emptiness throught nirvana (DAMN x3) 7.6.3 Holy shit I think this is it! This might be the most satisfying one! "the tendency towards deductive reasoning" is such a good way to encapsulate what autism is. 7.7 I think that all of those trinities are subtly different but I believe they are all linearily independent in regards to the existence space. 8 (7.6.4) Reason 8.1 Okay it seems like reason has a central place in my theory now which is extremely satisfying knowing the history of western philosophy. This was kind of a big missing piece. 8.2 Now there is a problem. It is hard to separate inductive reason from sequenciality (?) 8.3 The Question opens up: How is an axiom derived? I think an Axiom is closely related to embodyment. The reasoning goes like this: An axiom is true if its truth is a necessary condition for the possibility of embodyment itself as it is in this moment. (You see I'm trying to engage in language without the subject since that would be a form of empirical reason) 8.4 This really just is unbelievably satisfying. Here is why this is important. At the end what's really important for morality and existence is the relationship between the true self and the self-image. The way I understand the true self is the preferred mode of reasoning of the self. What's important now is that the self image is, even if you are not a scientist or a philosopher, still constructed with reason. This opens up a very interesting dynamic between the true self and the self image that can be investigated.

What do you mean by this? My guess is that you are confused about the fact that I'm talking about ADHD without mentioning attention or hyperactivity. This is very intentional. I think ADHD has nothing to do with hyperactivity and problems to focus. It is not respecting the order from authority to sit still and focus on what authority wants. Terms like "respect", "loyalty" and "authority" make no sense when you have ADHD. I remember when I was a child I constantly asked myself what teachers meant when they said shit like "you are not respecting me". If one understands exactly what causes ADHD, they will be able to emphasize way more with them when they babysit them or meet them in general. People with ADHD have super high depression rate because people don't understand them and they don't understand exactly what makes them different since the current popular understanding of ADHD is dogshit. By helping to increase understanding and therefore tolerance, I think my model can help drastically reduce depression and other mental illnesses. I think it is not improbable that I will save someone from committing suicide with my work.

I see three ways to defeat the Epstein class: Have a revolution and put them in the Gulag and let people throw stones at them. Validate their experience and let them heal and accept themselves. Put them in the Gulag where they are forced to do therapy. I am actually for all three of these options. What I'm strictly against is this: Judging them but also not actively working to overthrow capitalism. If one does this, the problem will never go away.

I think that's fair. I'm not offended. I'm not even expecting you to be comfortable with it. This dissonance between people with different modes of existence is a central part of my model. There is a crucial difference between dissonance and alienation. Did you notice how you moved from "this guy is sick" (alienation) to "I'm still not quite comfortable but I kinda understand it" (dissonance without alienation)? Allowing the possibility for alienation to turn into "neutral" dissonance is one of the core purposes of my model. It is not just mental masturbation. It has real world applications. If you alienate pedophiles (okay at this point I might have to clarify that I'm not a pedophile) what happens is they won't say "I guess I will stop being a pedophile now". This is not how these kinds of pathologies and addictions work. If they feel bad they will just download more CP. Paradoxically, If you validate their existence (there is an important distinction between validating someone's existence and validating or enabling someone's behavior), the probability that they will stop is much higher since then they will be able to accept themselves. Think about it. If you are obnoxious because you hate yourself and because of that get abandoned and because of that resort to exerting power over helpless kids, which makes you hate yourself even more which makes you more alone, you get into a vicious circle that is extremely hard to get out of. This is also true for drugs, but it is especially true if you are a pedophile because if you are a pedophile NO ONE accepts you other than opportunists or pedophiles or both. (And people are wondering how Jeffry Epstein got so powerful. I think he just went around and gave the powerful people what they truly want which is someone who affirms their existence) HAAHAHAHHA yeah so this post did not arise from me asking myself "why do I like children" but actually from "If I have ADHD this means age is just a number for me. But then why am I appalled at the thought of ... anyways if not for ideological reasons?". This is why I came up with this additional condition of "being in the abyss" and I think it checks out pretty well.

HAAHAHHSHSKHAHA I don't know what you mean I rarely mention neurodivergency what even is this a HOAX?????

HAHHAAH I did not notice that I was kinda zoning out in both pictures 😂 I'm zoning out CONSTANTLY. It is very common for HSPs

These are from a couple of months ago. My hair is longer now. I barely have any photos that are more recent.

Thanks for making me aware of the word qualia, it is actually kind of a word that I have been looking for. In my model, The sequence is separate from qualia.

The reason why I rationalize is not because I'm sick, it's because I'm autistic. The reason why I don't shy away from rationalizing vulgar and offensive topics is not because I'm sick, it's because I have ADHD. Do you realize now why the neurodiversity language is negative to the great detriment of neurodivergent people? It's because of people like YOU. When your argument to my point of "if you have ADHD, implicit conventions like "don't rationalize pedophilia" have no truth to you" is "bro it should be obvious that it is wrong to rationalize pedophilia" then it is obvious to me that you did not get my point at all. Well I agree with you however I think that I'm much more precise and my reasoning goes beyond simple black/white, good/bad dichotomies. The fuck????

can you explain what you mean with this exactly what is your conventional answer? That pedophiles are just evil bruh? And you dare to accuse me of nativity? I'm sorry, I cannot find any substantive critique in this paragraph. To me this is just ideological ramblings. Can you tell me what you want to stay with this? What do you think pedophilia is? A form of sadism? Do you actually believe that evil exists? What do you think evil is? Where do you think Evil is coming from? I'm sorry I can't find any substance in this reply. It just seems to me that what I wrote made you upset in some way. If you can't articulate a proper critique, I can't answer properly.

Thursday: March 19th, 2026. Urgency/stress is distinct from drive/eustress.

There is a very important distinction to be made between urgency and drive. The former leads to stress while the letter is some kind of eustress. I have never been more driven than right now. However, there is very fiew urgency and I try to avoid it.

There's nothing inherently wrong with watching porn. Porn addiction is a symptom of a deeper problem which is alienation. If one fights porn then one fights the symptom and not the cause.

@AtmanIsBrahman My answer is no. What is your point? Do you want me to completely reinvent language? You seem to be assuming that I'm just juggling with concepts here, but I'm not. Every one of my points are rooted in direct observation.

There is a very important distinction between doubt and the dialectical method. The latter archives an accurate view of the world without ever having to doubt oneself. "I am not doubting my worldview, but I am acknowledging that I have not integrated its antithesis yet, but I am in the process of doing so"

There is exactly one leap of faith that you need to do to break out of the faith-doubt, success-failure spiral, which is the faith in letting go of all self-doubt. Once you have faith that you deserve to exist purely by virtue of being yourself, you are liberated. Once your only goal is non-doubt which is authenticity, you can not fail anymore. This idea of asking yourself "do I deserve to live? What do I have to achieve to be able to prove that I deserve to exist?" is an idea that does only exist in humans. It does not exist in the animal kingdom and it also did not exist in humanity until it was corrupted by civilization and private property. It is a narrative that is artificially perpetuated, so the working class keep serving those who own the means of production. In truth, the world does not need capitalism anymore. There exists enough wealth to make everybody on the planet self-actualize and live authentically on the long run. The only reason why capitalist ideology is still so prevalent is because western people are so propagandized by anti-communism propaganda.

Would you have derived all these ideas about Atman/Brahman if you had never heard of those terms?

It seems you have understood very well what my point was. I agree that "abandonment" is the manifestation of something more broad and abstract. To me this is "the abyss". I have described it here: I focussed on abandonment to avoid abstract-ontological-existential-metaphysics-land which is hard to grasp for people which is likely why this post has no replies. It seems that the abyss is an established concept in continental philosophy, but I need to look deeper into it to be able to compare it to how I use it. Cool observation! My knowledge about Jeffrey Dahmer was part of the inspiration for this analysis on abandonment. My roommate said, that apparently, Dahmer only killed his victims when they were about to leave his place which is interesting and fits this idea that fear of abandonment (or fear of powerlessness as you say) played a role. This is really good analysis and a good extension and critique of my points. This is an example of a constructive reply to my points. I don't think we are in as much of a disagreement as you think. Again, I just used "fear of abandonment" as a placeholder for "the abyss" which includes fear of powerlessness. I kinda do think it might be that simple. There are a lot of times where complex phenomena could be reduced to a few mechanisms. Look at the emergent complexity of the game of life. This is the power of pattern recognition and abstraction. No. You can learn what meaning is, but it seems to me that one can't really increase ones sensitivity to it.

This post was somewhat experimental in that the argument why pedophiles need to have ADHD is weak and lacks rigorousity. This is because I'm working on a theory on neurodivergence in parallel and I constantly have new insights that are based in direct experience that I'm testing out. I am constantly working on my epistemology in this dialectical way. This is why I marked the first part as "less important". However, my point in that part broadly speaking, is not that radical which is "banging children is unconventional, therefore you need to be unconventionally minded to do it". The bulk of the part is kind of a bloated sloppy attempt at defining what conventionality is as precisely as possible. The reason why I keep doubling down on neurodiversity is because learning about it has only ever helped me understand the world and myself better and I only had a myriad of moments of "there is more depth to neurodiversity than I thought" and never the opposite. I hope that you remain open to my points. It is very unlikely that I will stop doubling down. To me, it is also not a joke.

Yeah I'm also kinda sceptical. I've heard people say he might right-wing-anti-israel. He has an interview with sneako that's a huge red flag.