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It is neither an identity nor just a trait. It is existence

@Bjorn K Holmstrom fyi, I'm still very much invested in the conversation but I realized you have a SUPER AWESOME WEBSITE that I find extremely inspiring. I think this introduction thingy goes hard man this resonates with me a ton, this is exactly my current special interest. I'd love for you to read and give me your thoughts. The most relevant part is: This is an extremely compressed version of my theory of life and I'm planning to go into more detail in future posts. -------- I noticed you WROTE A BLOG POST ON YOUR WEBSITE ABOUT MY TAKE "MARXISM-LENINISM IS STAGE YELLOW" WITHOUT TELLING ME??? HOW DARE YOU! I WOULD HAVE LOVED READING THIS WHEN IT CAME OUT!!! -------- Damn it seems that the "that's what I'm trying to build" was not an empty statement at all. You really seem to know what you are talking about. I really want to answer but I also kinda want to keep digging theough your website more first. I don't want to make the mistake of critiquing your system from below too much. You will hear from me soon. *smooch*

This is the fundamental pain of someone who is autistic and is low entanglement with sensitivity of being (short: Is low sensitivity. Other: Non-HSP, non-new-age, non-esohead, non-energy-and-vibration, non-kriya-yoga) on top of that. The advice "just be with your subjective experience" does not work since you are low sensitivity of being. The advice "Just find out who you are. Find an identity" deos not work since autistic people don't care about symbolic identity since they are low simultaneity of being (other: Symbol-insensitive, non-conform, ADHD, low filtering, low parallel processing, low access to unconscious, high precision, good vision) The advice "just be (with the absolute)" is a step in the right direction, but it is not the whole solution since autistic people are high sequenciality of being, which means their existence requires pattern, repetition, sequence, etc. The advice "focus on the journey" is great since the "journey" is itself a sequence. But this does not address the fundamental problem of autistic people on this planet which is: The existence of autistic people is dependent on patterns and 99.9% of all patterns presented in this world: Contain sensation, Contain symbols, Are not precise and logical enough, Contain internal contradictions and/or Contain contradictions with immediate being* *I'm trying to be broader than "immediate experience" here Physics is cool but it is not yet unified and it also only explains what reality does not what it is. Analytical Idealism is a candidate for a logical ontology and claiming that reality is mind is cool and all but it doesn't explain much. Mathematics is heaven for autistic people but it only relates to reality through physics. So to solve this issue, some mega autistic person needs to find a grand unifying ontological cosmology (six o's!) that unifies maths, physics and analytical idealism, such that an ideal language can be found to describe all of reality from the bottom up, starting with the absolute. If this language would be found, it would be "the last pattern" so to say and it would finally give every hardcore autistic person peace. If that would ever be found, it would mark the beginning of the golden age of autism (lol). This is precisely what I'm searching currently and I'm making great progress. There are a lot of mysteries that I managed to explain with my theory and I'm not planning to stop anytime soon. If you want an example of how powerful this theory is, read this post, where I demystify schizophrenia with it:

Intuitive movement is the best thing one can do for the body imo

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It is way deeper than you think. I might have just decoded Greek mythology. Hear me out. Here are my thoughts Zeus represents the ideal, virtue and restraint. The reason why he is always sleeping around, is that restraint necessarily causes destructive coping mechanisms. Zeus represents self-denial about those mechanisms. Israel is a manifestation of Zeus. Prometheus represents the fire of passion and desire. He wants to obey to the ideal but becomes aware of the coping mechanisms. This leads him to being torn between the passion and the ideal. The result of this conflict is the agonizing pain of self-hatred, symbolized by the eagle eating the liver of Prometheus, which is the symbol of both America and fascism of course. Liberalism is the manifestation of Prometheus and his agony. This is represented by the west and the USA. If you deeply study the psychology of people like Trump and Musk, you will realize, that they genuinely want to give people what they want so they are getting praise in hopes that this praise will cure their self-hatred which it doesn't. This is what narcissism is. Heracles is the one to slay the eagle which means that he represents the defeat of self-hatred. In history there are two different interpretations of the idea of Heracles. The first one is fascism. It's solution of the problem with self-hatred is to double down on narcissism and enable it. For me, Heracles symbolizes Marxist-Leninist ideology. This is what Nietzsche truly meant with "herrenmoral". The Nazis misinterpreted Nietzsche's critique of slave morality to falsely worship Prometheus. This is only a sketch and might need refinement, but I think it's cool enough to write down and share it. Edit: Hey! It seems I have just reverse engineered Spiral Dynamics lol. Stage blue is a manifestation of Zeus. Stage orange is a manifestation of Prometheus. Stage green is a manifestation of Heracles. That makes sense bc I've been a big fan of stage green people and lifestyle lately. Ever since I started embracing true neurodivergent authenticity in my life, I started to see all these cosmic patterns everywhere. I think this might be my stage yellow kicking in. Bruh stage yellow seems to not be universal at all. Seeing patterns, that's just autism lmao

I wanted to write about the symbolism of intuitive, flowing dance, but I need to collect my energy first. If you want to get a sneak preview of my view on the significance of dance, I encourage you to read: The important part is:

This is in interesting observation. I have never considered that this myth of the three-day meditation could be an allegory of mania. This is extremely dangerous advice. It makes a massive difference, if you have a good life with support and people who love you unconditionally, and you want to know the truth about the universe like Yogananda or if your life is shit, the people in your life are toxic, and you want to know the truth about your suffering. If you are depressed, there is likely some giant elephant in the room that you need to become aware of. This metaphor has way more depth than you think. Let's break down its symbolism. The Miracle of Symbiosis Life is symbiosis which is the space that is created by the dance (the couple dance symbolizes the harmony between the hug and the handshake) between love (unity, symbolized by the hug) and partnership (creating space, symbolized by the handshake). Symbiosis is a fundamental law of nature and of life. You can be in a symbiotic relationship with any entity. It can also be a career, an identity, an ideology, a pet, a hobby for example. A large part of this space that is your life is created in a dance with the people who are closest to you like your parents. The Elephant So what is the Elephant? let's say, one of these people closest to you are mainly in this dance with you to exploit you and feed their void which is their self-hatred, you have an elephant in your room which is suffocating you. This metaphor does, again, not just apply to personal relationships. Living in a space for a long time makes you blind to what is really going on in it since you are so used to it. This is the reason why there can be something as massive as an elephant that you have not noticed yet. This blindness (blindfold in the metaphor) is a necessity for peace. The blindfold is trust. If you didn't have it, you would be paranoid. Being depressed in this metaphor means being forced to exist in this space with lowered ability to leave with distraction. What you can do about the Elephant So you are lying in your bed with a blindfold on with an elephant that you are not aware of sharing this room with you. If you are in this situation you have three options: Distract yourself anyway which would be symbolized by staying in bed. Stop distracting and start mind wandering in a healthy way while taking care of your needs and nurturing your body, which would be symbolized by standing up and start the process of touching the elephant and slowly start to identify it over the course of weeks. Entering obsessive thought spirals, obsessive meditation, use of psychedelics while not nurturing your body would be symbolized by standing up, ripping off your blindfold and then FREAKING THE FUCK OUT BECAUSE WHAT THE FUCK DO YOU MEAN THERE HAS BEEN AN ELEPHANT THE WHOLE TIME????????????? If you become aware of this elephant in a sudden, violent way, you have a massive problem. Remember, since you bypassed option 2 and you therefore have not investigated the elephant prior, you see it, but you don't know what it is and where it came from. Schizophrenia explained If you have the disposition for schizophrenia and you engage in option 3, what your body will now do is violently (often literally violently) end all partnerships with all entities you were in partnership with. The mechanisms that drive this process are hallucination, paranoia, mania, etc. Going back to the partnership metaphor, when you are in a handshake (partnership) with somebody, the contact of your palms is making the space stable, but it also makes you vulnerable. Pushing away somebody you are in a partnership with is the best thing you can do if they infect you with their self-hatred. What you need to know though is that there exists no life outside symbiosis, therefore there exists no life outside of partnership. What this means is that when you push someone away, the space between you two becomes unstable and therefore turns into void/abyss. This is why people enjoy things like cosmic horror even though it is scary. If you get desensitized to the void, you will gain massive amounts of independence. Just because you end one relationship does not mean your whole life is a void since you still have your other relationships. So if you commit to option 2 and do what's necessary, you will face existential void, but it will be good on the long run. If, however, you decide to do option 3, and you become so paranoid that you self-isolate completely, your whole life will be nothing but void. You will get rid of the problem like this, but the abyss is the price of your body pressing the nuclear button. A nuclear bomb is actually a good metaphor for schizophrenic psychosis. The event of the psychosis is the bomb detonating that is destroying everything with substance in your life. This will allow you to start from scratch and build something different, but there will be a fallout. If you suffer a psychosis, you will become radically aware, but it can leave lasting damage to your brain.

This phenomenon of "victim thinking" that you are talking about stems from self-hatred that stems from non-acceptance of neurodivergency. I'm not advocating for self-hatred. I'm advocating to learn to love ones neurodivergency and live authentically. Strategies like pomodoro and gamification work but are not sustainable in my experience. Do you have chronic health issues by any chance? Your ignorance is stunning me once again. You have absolutely no idea what you are talking about. Alysa Liu has retired from ice skating from the pressure and returned under the conditions that she can train, eat and carry herself how she wants. There is a quote from her where she is asked where she gets the motivation, and she says that she doesn't need motivation to train. She needs neither gamification nor pomodoro nor some other bullshit to be at the top since she is completely aligned with her authentic self and therefore intrinsically motivated. If you need this shit for anything then you are not aligned

Marxists are not violent because they are vengeful. They are violent because they do what's necessary. This image of the vengeful marxist is fabricated. This image of the irresponsible marxist is fabricated. This image of the paranoid marxist is real. You will realize that the paranoia of marxist leaders is extremely justified when you learn about the brutality of the west against it's enemies. Look at the Ayatollah. A little bit more paranoia and he might have lived a little longer. When analyzing failures of past communist states it always has to be looked at from the context which is that the west was doing everything in their power to make sure they fail. Also their material conditions were shit at the beginning but they pretty much always managed to rapidly improve regardless; even under the pressure from the west. When you do a real analysis you will realize that these states were and are managed reasonably well. If you distribute power you will just have liberalism. The ideal realistic government needs to be one disciplined, centralized marxist-leninist party with absolute power as long as capitalism still has this much power in this world. The notion that absolute ideologial power corrupts necessarily is a lie invented to defame communist states. The reason why marxists tend not to get corrupted by ideology is because they care way more about analysis then about identity. How do I know this? Because I'm like this.

1 There is no evil outside of self-hatred. There is no personality disorder without self-hatred. A demon is a personality disorder. 2 Understanding of nerodivergency is understanding of the self. Understanding of the self is the basis for real self-acceptance which allows for authenticity. Authenticity is what kills demons.

I love this piece of raw authenticity! I also really like the music and the editing. Keep up with the creativity and exploration!

"How does it matter if you made meaningful memories and connections if you don't have a truthful view of reality?" "How does it matter if you have a truthful view of reality if you don't have meaningful memories and connections?" If you understand that both statements are equally valid and choose one, not out of belief of superiority of your choice, but because you know what you want and accept that you want it while accepting the choices of others, you have transcended the Actualized.org paradigm.

Race is just a construct to support western hegemony. Italians used to not be considered white for example.

@Lila9 This is adorable. It is not easy to build such a connection to an animal to a normal person. You need to be extremely sensitive in order to be able to do that. You need to promise me to never ever be ashamed of your gift.

The foundational text from Mussolini is pretty short and readable. It's called "the doctrine of fascism" https://sjsu.edu/faculty/wooda/2B-HUM/Readings/The-Doctrine-of-Fascism.pdf Fascism is the direct answer to communism. There is no such thing as fascism that is independent of communism. If you want to understand what fascism is you need to understand communism and learn why communism is objectively the best system. Fascism rises to power when liberals become afraid of a communist revolution. That's it. As soon as the rich realize that communism is a better option for the people, they start funding fascism out of fear. And they should be fearful. Communism shows no mercy to the corrupt. If you are corrupt and a revolution is on its way you need to start taping your head to your neck because else it will be separated from your body soon

Once you know how autistic people carry themselves, you can recognize them immediately. I suggest you watch videos about people who are autistic (roughly as functional as you) and try to learn the patterns. You can usually immediately tell just by their (lack of) facial expressions. Also, what they focus on when they talk. The more information dense the things are that they say in social contexts, the more likely they are to be autistic. Also, if they ramble about some topic, they are autistic. This is the easy part. You can't really do anything wrong when interacting with an autistic person lmao. They have just as much social anxiety as you so if they sense you are anxious, they will not find that unattractive. In fact when they sense you have anxiety yourself, they will see this as relatable and cute, and it will allow them to relax, so you really have nothing to worry about. Overstimulation is also not a problem. When you talk to an autistic girl, and you feel like you need a break because of overstimulation, it is really not a problem because it is likely that they are also overstimulated and need a break too 😂 I'm telling you it is impossible to do anything wrong hahhah The way you make an autistic girl fall in love with you is to just ask her what her interests are and then ask a question about it that is as specific as possible (this last thing is important. Autistic people don't like broad questions) If you are genuinely interested, she will like you automatically. The only mistake that you can do really is not being explicit enough. If you like her, you need to tell her. Don't try to figure out from her implicit, non-verbal communication whether she is interested, because autistic people don't do implicit non-verbal communication. If you want to know if she is interested ask her. She will always appreciate explicit communication.

I highly recommend you reading this. Especially if you also have ADHD (non-conformist) together with your autism: This is the most relevant part of the post: You can find love if you find someone who also connects with people via analysis. This is also relevant: A good option for you to contribute in a wage labor context would be that you ask some company to give you access to a shit ton of their data (or code if they are a software company for example) and then you just spend your work hours plunging into the data and search for patterns. If you understand these so called "highly functional" symbol oriented people, you will realize that none of them really know what they are doing. They all just run some shallow script of conformity. They need people like you who can see everything as it is otherwise they are unable to make good business decisions. But it is not important that you contribute in the wage labor context. You will already contribute enough when you just talk about your interests on the internet. Also, you can talk to normies and analyze their lives, informing them about contradictions in their relationships for example

Trying to reach prestige and being societally accepted is poison if you have ADHD (non-symbolic, non-conformist, less filtering in perception, less parallel processing) This is because to you, these things are not real. It is not authentic and that's why it's draining. If this is not the case for you then maybe you don't have ADHD. What I'm saying is, being a conformist or being a non-conformist is not a choice. If you are a conformist, and you live among non-conformists you will suffer just as much as when you are a non-conformist among conformists. I'm not saying conformity is stupid and non-conformity is based. It is simply a difference in brain processing. I've written about this topic in this post: If you understand history and you understand how evil liberalism is, you will understand that communism is the ultimate life purpose. (For a non-conformist) That's precisely what I'm doing atm. These girls look funky because they are the embodiment of ADHD-authenticity on earth. If you don't find girls like Alysa Liu attractive, you likely just don't have ADHD. Again, it's only overrated if you don't have ADHD.

The way to cope with ADHD is by rejecting the chase of symbols like degrees, prestiguous jobs, monogamy, marrige, etc. Don't ever go to a university or do any training ever. You can teach yourself anything by yourself autodidactically. The less prestige the thing has that you do more more likely it is that you are on the track of healing. Also you need to always put your freedom first. If you do these things you will not need any medication

This distinction only makes sense when looking at a person who is living in disalignment aka inauthentically aka in self hatred. When you live authentically, you automatically become at the same time the most selfish person and the most selfless person on the planet. If you are in this state, you produce maximum value for yourself and maximum value for others at the same time. This is true for me. Ever since I started trying to embrace my neurodivergency completely, I have never been more selfish but I also have never produced this much value in my life. The more you fight your selfishness, the less value you will be able to produce and therefore the less selfless you will be.

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@LastThursday If I remember correctly, you are the one who said you don't like it when users on this forum make up their own concepts expecting people to understand? If you are interested in my theory, I have good news for you which is: I just managed to radically debloat my theory. It seems to be down to just 3 principles again (plus spaciousness) from 8. You are right that the theory is bad if I can't explain it in ordinary language. However I will not make promises about never making up words again. I think this can be a powerful tool for increasing understanding, symbolism, compactness and the probability of finding an ideal language.

@LastThursday Identity is existence for neurotypicals. It is not artitificial. It is "real" in the most fundamental sense of the word; but only for neurotypicals. My latest hypothesis is that identity and social norms are only empty and "artificial" for people with ADHD. ADHD was never about attention. People with ADHD only struggle to focus if the act of focussing stems from sociatal expectation. They never where "hyperactive" they just don't see and accept the social rule that demands them to sit still.

Yeah. It is important to note though that this is a long process to go through. It requires a big shift in identity, since most of us were tought that the west are the good guys from a very young age. The process goes usually like this: Haha wow this leftist is so anti-america that they went full circle and actually got brainwashed by propaganda! Let's listen to them and see what they have to say just for fun Okay they got a point but that country is still evil right Okay they got a point but that country is still evil right Okay they got a point but that country is still evil right Okay they got a point but that country is still evil right Okay they got a point but that country is still evil right Okay they got a point but that country is still evil right Okay I'm starting to think they are not evil at all what the fuck Imortant context: Iran and Russia are right wing so of course they are not ideal. However if they were puppet states of the west, there would be a severe inbalance of power.