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Wow, thanks y'all for the encouragement I appreciate it a lot

@jacknine119 It seems you got the whole spectrum of answers to chose from 😂

This is why the left hand path is based

I am currently studying the purpose of different peculiarities of the mind and this includes paranoia. I came to the conclusion that it is dangerous to tell people "just look at the facts, you are hallucinating". I believe, that paranoia is a warning mechanism that should not be ignored and explained away. My theory is, that paranoia is your unconscious trying to communicate with you. If you analyze it's content on basis of facts, you will not be able to decipher it's meaning. A delusional paranoid thought is just as non-factual as a dream, and it contains just as much information about yourself. If you want to get to the bottom of a delusional paranoid thought, you have to analyze it like you would analyze a dream. Look for symbols. What does each element represent in your life? What might a poisoned toothbrush symbolize in your life for example? I want you to do exactly what is frowned upon in epistemics: Project "But when you project, the information is biased from your own lens!" Yes this is exactly the goal. When you project, you can learn valuable things about yourself through analyzing that projection, since the projection is a part of you. This is also the point of tarot, astrology, etc. and the reason why this kind of esotericism, dreams and hallucinations don't contain facts or "real" information, because it is not the purpose of these things to carry information. The goal was never to learn about planets, it was always to learn about yourself. To me, it kinda seems like you don't feel comfortable with city life. Being overwhelmed is common for neurodivergent people like HSPs. Maybe you should move to a quieter place with more fresh air or something. Just a suggestion. What is important to understand is, that paranoia is a symptom. If you just treat the symptom and not the cause, you won't heal.

Exactly. The belief that awakening can substitute for emotional development is well known in the spirituality community and is called "spiritual bypassing".

First I want to say, I'm not an expert and this does not substitute for medical advice. I advise you to seek professional help. However, I want to add that a "professional" can still be incompetent and not reach the core of the problem. What you are describing sounds like alternating mania (you feel like you are on top of the world) and depression (you feel like shit) which is called manic depression (bipolar). I'm not saying that you qualify for a diagnosis but what I am saying, is that what you experience is the same mechanism behind what bipolar people experience, even if it is not as extreme for you as for someone who is diagnosed. It is important for you to understand that you cannot meditate yourself out of a personality disorder. I believe that a personality disorder is the natural reaction to an unbearable life situation, not a "bug" of the body or a cancer if you will. It has a purpose. If somebody gives you the order to carry two 50 kilo bags of concrete for 20 meters and your muscles give in after 10 meters, it is not because there is something wrong with you. It's a healthy reaction of the body to make you stop abusing yourself. Being enlightened while carrying the bags in not going to do shit. Your attitude to pain will maybe change, but your muscles will still give in. All enlightenment will do is distract you from doing what you need to do which is to quit the job. So what is the purpose of the manic depression? Depression is the psychological equivalent of your muscles giving in. It is your body having an intervention with your mind. It is a message to you from the body which is: What you are doing right now in your life is not right for you. When you are depressed you cannot move and are forcefully separated from your life situation/routine, which is a good thing, since the goal is to separate anyway, at least on the long run. The depression also gives you time to think and reflect about your life situation. During this time, you are supposed to activate the default mode network (ask an LLM what the DMN does), let your mind wander and think about your values and your life and how the former aligns with the latter. Just try to avoid falling into negative spirals. The fact that you are neurotic in a depression is also a good thing. Neuroticism means focussing on the bad which is exactly what you are supposed to do when your life is shit, so you know what is wrong and what you need to change. The purpose of the energy in the manic state is to use it to then actually do the steps necessary to change your life. Quit your job, exmatriculate, etc. If you instead use this energy on distractions like meditating, watching actualized.org or doubling down on your current life situation, you will just end up falling into the hole again. If you never realize that your life situation (this could be unsuitable job/education, toxic family, toxic friends etc.) is the problem, you will be stuck in this cycle forever. You can be thankful that you developed manic depression. Some people don't tend to not get any personality disorder from excessive stress and this includes me (I think Leo is also a candidate). This is called functional depression ("just push through" attitude). It is good for succeeding in capitalism, but it is awful for your health. It took me too long to change my lifestyle because of this and I suffer chronic pain as a result. The last thing you need to understand is neurodiversity. Maybe you read this and say "sure my life is tough but isn't is supposed to be like this? Also, my life is great I have nothing to complain about". What you need to understand is that "a good life" for a neurotypical person looks entirely different from an authentic life of a neurodivergent person. I have made a lot of posts about this already. I suggest you to read: This is also relevant:

Ah okay I think I get it. Thanks for elaborating. I assume with "they" you mean emptiness and authenticity? Can you please define what you mean when you say "absolute" and "god" and how your definitions are seperate from emptiness. Currently my definitions are: The absolute is the set of all possible ideas (spirit fragments) and therefore fragments and therefore existences plus emptiness The Spirit is the Fragment which is the set of fragments that actually managed to come into existence in this universe. I described how that happend in a recent post. Emptiness is non-spirit. My current definition of God is: The Fragment + emptiness If you mean emptiness when you talk about the absolute, can you differentiate it from asceticism?

@Anton Rogachevski How it started was with the question "how can I live an authentic life with my neurodiversity?" And this is still my number one goal. Just to live authentically and balanced. The theory is at the end just a medium to archive that. This is also the most healthy way to approach this. This does not mean that I don't think the theory has potential. I said this already but the fact that it is metaphysically satisfying at the Genisis level is only the cherry on top. I can see a clear path on how it can revolutionize and unify almost all important fields of human knowledge and answer almost all of the biggest questions of mankind. I'm realizing that it is hard to convince people of this but this is a good thing. This gives me the time I need to work on and write about it. My plan now is to just develop the theory, use it to answer big questions and communicate these answers to people who can comprehend them. Eventually it will accumulate and spread I believe. The world is a web after all (see theory of six degrees of separation)

What do you mean by "reaction to conformity" Also what do you mean with being aligned with the absolute. Isn't the absolute everything? So it's impossible not to align with the absolute? Do you mean align with emptiness?

@gettoefl I'm not sure what you mean. Can you please elaborate?

So the answer "what is God" depends on who you ask. When you say God=Spirit, you are outing yourself as the Fragment.

@Stick No. Spirit is the Fragment and the Fragment is existence from the perspective of the Fragment. From the perspective of each of the fragments, only that fragment is existence to itself and the others are non-existence. From the perspective of God, both the Absolute and the Fragment are emptiness (neither existence nor non-existence) This means, when you see reality as emptiness, you see the reality the way God sees reality.

Spirit is a sloppy translation of the german Word "Geist". ChatGPT: "“Geist” is a central term in German philosophy. It is usually translated as “spirit” or sometimes “mind,” but neither English word fully captures its meaning. Its meaning shifts depending on the philosopher, but in general: Geist = the dynamic, self-reflective, meaning-creating dimension of reality that appears in thought, culture, and history."

Schizotypy is Anticipation of Spirit (Anticipation is an 8th one I found. When I was writing the proof, I thought anticipation is a form of difference, like I thought Space is a form of the whole) People who are Schizotypy live in anticipation and therefore in the future. Anticipation is openness. They are the prophets and the conspiracy theorists. They tend to be paranoid, since paranoia is being open to possibility of being decieved

Dyslexia is low Sequentiality of Spirit. Writing is a manifestation of Sequenciality. This is why they tend to switch letters for example. Dyslexic people tend to have high Wholeness of Spirit. When they look at the text, they fail to see the details, but they excel at seeing the content of the text as a whole. Hermeneutics tells us that without the whole, understanding is not possible. Autism is high Sequentiality of Spirit. Analysis is Sequentiality plus Difference. Autism is low Simultainity of Spirit. People with high Simultainity of Spirit tend to recieve multiple bits of information at the same time, conveyed through the symbol and learned through synchronicity. Autistic people tend to be overwhelmed when met with a lot of stimulation since they process one bit of information at a time. This means that the brain of an autistic person is more CPUey and the brain of a non-autistic person is more GPUey. Edit: Since language is both symbolic and sequencial, it explains why LLMs are most effective when CPUs work together with GPUs. It also explains why some extremely autistic people can't talk, while other autistic people are hyper verbal if they are also high Simultainity of spirt. Jordan Peterson and Ben Shapiro are perfect examples of this. ADHD is Impulse of Spirit. HSP (eso-head) is Interaction of Spirit. This is a tough one. My claim is that subjectivity and emotion is interaction. If you think about it, there is no phenomenon without something interacting.