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17/06/15 Overall Habit Streak: 0 Contemplating and embracing the desire to eat (when I want to snack) - Streak 0 Fasting until 12 - Streak 5 (pause) Doing something different - Streak 8 Apple cider vinegar in the morning - Streak 18 Programming my Subconscious Mind (10min) - Streak 26 Waking up my body outside - Streak 41 The difference: I was hiking with the family. We saw two tourist attractions (?). A lot of judgments and negative emotions came up. I watched two hours of a three hour movie about the NS time - Schindlers's List. There are some days where it just makes no sense to do intermittent fasting. I could have done it but my mood would have become very very bad throughout the course of the day. So I ate breakfast and I think that is fine on such days.

I always forget how powerful the neti neti meditation is for me. I wasn't this deep for a long time. If I would have been more concentrated it could have been even deeper. There was almost just no self. I am nothing! "Everyone is a mirror image of yourself - your own thinking coming back at you." - Byron Katie My mother is truly a beautiful woman when I think of her this way. My father is truly a beautiful man when I think of him this way. When you think bad things about others, bad thoughts and emotions come back to you. When you think beautiful things of others, beautiful thoughts and emotions come back to you. Why isn't this common knowledge? It's so supidly simple. "Violence teaches only violence. Stress teaches stress. And peace teaches peace." - Byron Katie Its good to do no programming for some days. On Sunday I was away, on Tuesday I was away, today I was away, and tomorrow I will be away. So much stuff But in the back of my head I think often that I am so unproductive. Friday I will finally again have a relatively normal day.

17/06/14 Overall Habit Streak: 1 Contemplating and embracing the desire to eat (when I want to snack) - Streak 2 Fasting until 12 - Streak 5 Doing something different - Streak 7 Meditating 1h at a time - Streak 3 Switching meditation techniques no more than one time - Streak 15 Apple cider vinegar in the morning - Streak 17 Programming my Subconscious Mind (10min) - Streak 25 Waking up my body outside - Streak 40 Gratitude - Streak 90 (!!!) The difference: I went with school friends to a trampoline park. I had to drive there over the highway with some of the friends and I had to use a new navigation app. Jumping there around was a lot of fun but also exhausting. I almost learned doing a front somersault. I also jumped from high things into foam things which I was kind of scared of. After the time there I had to bring a friend back home.

Books currently reading: The Path of Least Resistance by Robert Fritz The Book of Not Knowing by Peter Ralston (reread) books that I already have at home: Zen Body-Being by Peter Ralston Pursuing Consciousness by Peter Ralston The Genius of Being by Peter Ralston a book about human thinking and AI stuff and many more that I don't see as relevant anymore books that I almost wanted to buy today and that seemed so inspiring: Thinking Slow And Fast Becoming Steve Jobs a biography of Elon Musk Quiet "Das Kind in dir muss Heimat finden" (I guess its about inner child / shadow work) There are too many great books in the world that I want to read, and so little time. There is still so much to learn in this life time. And when university begins I will have even less time to read books. Therefore I will need audible. I have started reading The Path of Least Resistance two days ago. Its brilliant. I love the creative process. And I see that I am a problem solver in many domains. Mostly with my eating habit. Therefore i want to stop wanting to less because I feel bad when I eat to much. Instead I want to get the mindset of creating a healthy body in which I feel good, light and energetic. And I want to increase my body awareness, and do that what makes my body feel better. I see that Elon Musk is such a good creator, not a problem solver at all. This man is just amazing.

17/06/13 Overall Habit Streak: 0 Contemplating and embracing the desire to eat (when I want to snack) - Streak 1 Fasting until 12 - Streak 4 Doing something different - Streak 6 No phone in bed - Streak 0 Meditating 1h at a time - Streak 2 Switching meditation techniques no more than one time - Streak 14 Concentration - Streak 2 Getting up directly - Streak 0 Apple cider vinegar in the morning - Streak 16 Programming my Subconscious Mind (10min) - Streak 24 Waking up my body outside - Streak 39 Gratitude - Streak 89 The difference: I was "shopping" in a different city. I got an "outfit" for the prom. I was in weird shops that smelled very bad with my friend. I became inspired by so many books that I want to read in a bookshop. I was picking strawberries with my friend. I ate so much strawberries on the field. One habit at a time! I will remove some habits with which I am struggling at the moment. I want to concentrate on only ONE HABIT for now, and that is the eating stuff. These are two habits but they fit together well. In the last mornings I often wanted to eat in the morning, but I was able to see that its unreasonable. I will remove "no phone in bed" and "getting up directly." I guess the rest is doable without that much effort.

I guess the course is from 2015. But I don't see a big difference in the video quality of the course compared to the latest videos, nor between the 2015 Leo and the 2017 Leo (at least from the outside). And still you should buy the course for the content and not the video quality. The content is life changing and the 2 years make there no difference. Even if the quality is bad, you would get used to it.

@Dragallur what the fuck could you explain what the x-axis and y-axis mean exactly? then I could calculate at which state I am now and how long it will last

Personal Development, Emotions, Beliefs... I have finished reading "Loving What Is." I have made notes on the book, and have printed out worksheets from Byron Katie's website. I have so much more stuff to do regarding The Work. There is so much more to inquire in my psyche. And I will do. At the moment I feel like I have dealt with most of the stories in my head, but my subconscious mind still has to absorb the new knowledge. The old stories and beliefs are still active in my monkey mind. But now I recognize these thoughts much more often in action. I now want to review all my notes from the book and also other books regularly. Otherwise I will just forget everything that I have read about. This happened already so often. I rather want to work though a book slowly, but then remember the knowledge and wisdom, and be able to change my life to the better with it. Otherwise the reading is just a waste of time. I also have been reading the emotional healing guide from the forum. Its good. There is so much to heal in my mind and body. In the last week I have been doing much more personal development stuff than in the weeks before. I spend now a good amount of time in the morning and evening journaling, reading and doing other stuff. This feels better than just programming most of my day. I want to resolve more of my stories and beliefs, so that they cannot haunt me in the future that much. In October my studies begin. Then I want to be more relaxed and at peace with myself. I don't want to feel so stressed out like in school. I want my every day life to be more pleasant then. So I have been also working with my emotions. I have been feeling down for some days. I could resist these bad emotions. But that would just make it worse. I am working through them mostly and feel them. Right now I am rather at a low of the sinus curve.

Life Purpose I am making slow but steady progress with my life purpose - and that means with my app. I've been having some really big issues about one or two weeks ago. It just didn't work out the way that i wanted to. I've had to use a global context, but it seems like thats not possible. So at some point my subconscious mind had the idea of creating a global database. That worked and this solution was so simple. I made some different user interfaces. But my father said that the usability of this app is very low. Only I understand how it actually works. He made some suggestions on how it would look better. At first I was pissed of because I have spent so much time creating this UI. But he was right and it looks better now. And at the moment I am again making some bigger changes. I should look at the beginning of a project what my end product will look like. Because now I have to change bigger parts of the code in multiple classes. Its very complex. I also have been looking at design patterns. The people from Google have created a good platform for choosing the right colors and stuff like that. My design looks pretty crappy at the moment. Design is harder than I thought, and its definitively not my domain. I hope that I will be finished with the app part of this project soon. Then I will have to tackle another big issue. And that is adding vocabulary to the database though a website with a server. i have never done anything like that before. I will have to learn a new language - ruby. I will learn a lot there because I have no experience there at all. Sometimes I feel like I just want to quit this project and start another one. Sometimes I doubt my life purpose. Sometimes I just feel like being stuck on the plateau. I am just addicted to constant climaxes. I should learn to love being on the plateau like George Leonard says it.

Mission Statements Zone of Genius: I understand systems and develop solution processes Impact Statement: creating technology that advances consciousness Life Purpose Statement: I understand systems and develop solution processes to create technology that advances consciousness Domain of Mastery: Computer Science Ideal Medium: Programming High-Consciousness Virtue: Consciousness Top Goals: developing 3 usable programs/apps/devices studying Peter Ralstons books (Book of Not Knowing, Pursuing Consciousness, Genius of Being) → reading or contemplating every day → making notes, summaries → revising strong concentration ability → 20min without drifing away contemplation habit → each day 15min+ concentrated 50 social comfort zone challenges Mushroom Trip 2 Meditation Retreats Top Goals until university begins: finishing VocabTrainer app + website studying Book of Not Knowing studying loving what is – the work 10 comfort zone challenges – (1/10) contemplation habit concentration ability 5 min bank + audible account Top 10 Values: Tranquility Inner Growth Intuition Productivity Clarity Connection Nature Health Understanding Freedom Top 5 Strengths: Curiosity and Interest in the World / Love of Learning Hope, Optimism, and Future-mindedness Perspective Wisdom Appreciation of Beauty & Excellence Spirituality, Sense of Purpose, Faith Top 5 Feelings: tranquil energetic light flow understanding Questions that fascinate me the most: What are perceptions? How to raise the consciousness of society? What is the true history of humanity? What are humanities real conditions right now? (earth, health, politics...) How does society work? Systems… Top Concepts: Mastery – being most of the time on the plateau the 10,000 hour rule becoming world class and getting to the cutting edge of my field detachment from outcome the Hero’s Journey 100% Commitment

17/06/12 Overall Habit Streak: 0 Contemplating and embracing the desire to eat (when I want to snack) - Streak 0 Fasting until 12 - Streak 3 Doing something different - Streak 5 No phone in bed - Streak 0 Meditating 1h at a time - Streak 1 Switching meditation techniques no more than one time - Streak 13 Concentration - Streak 1 Getting up directly - Streak 7 Apple cider vinegar in the morning - Streak 15 Programming my Subconscious Mind (10min) - Streak 23 Waking up my body outside - Streak 38 Gratitude - Streak 88 The difference: I read a book in bed. I've had to refuel the car.

17/06/11 Overall Habit Streak: 0 Contemplating and embracing the desire to eat (when I want to snack) - Streak 0 Fasting until 12 - Streak 2 Doing something different - Streak 4 No unnecessary internet usage three hours after waking up and after 8pm - Streak 0 Meditating 1h at a time - Streak 0 Switching meditation techniques no more than one time - Streak 12 (I didn't meditate, so I pause the streak for this day) Concentration - Streak 0 Getting up directly - Streak 6 Apple cider vinegar in the morning - Streak 14 Programming my Subconscious Mind (10min) - Streak 22 Waking up my body outside - Streak 37 Gratitude - Streak 87 The difference: I visited with my family some relatives. I had to drive the car and that wasn't easy. I was never at that house before and it was astonishing. I want to live in such a place one time.

What exactly do you mean?!

17/06/10 Overall Habit Streak: 1 Contemplating and embracing the desire to eat (when I want to snack) - Streak 1 Fasting until 12 - Streak 1 Doing something different - Streak 3 No unnecessary internet usage three hours after waking up and after 8pm - Streak 4 Meditating 1h at a time - Streak 15 Switching meditation techniques no more than one time - Streak 12 Concentration - Streak 7 Getting up directly - Streak 5 Apple cider vinegar in the morning - Streak 13 Programming my Subconscious Mind (10min) - Streak 21 Waking up my body outside - Streak 36 Gratitude - Streak 86 The difference: I was at a flea market for 2.5 hours selling stuff with my sister.

17/06/09 Overall Habit Streak: 0 Contemplating and embracing the desire to eat (when I want to snack) - Streak 0 Fasting until 12 - Streak 0 Doing something different - Streak 2 No unnecessary internet usage three hours after waking up and after 8pm - Streak 3 Meditating 1h at a time - Streak 14 Switching meditation techniques no more than one time - Streak 11 Concentration (10min) - Streak 6 (not yet but in a minute) Getting up directly - Streak 4 Dorsiflexion exercises - Streak 6 (not yet but in a minute) Apple cider vinegar in the morning - Streak 12 Programming my Subconscious Mind (10min) - Streak 20 Waking up my body outside - Streak 35 Gratitude - Streak 85 The difference: Today I got my exam results. I got congratulations from many people and a gift from my grandparents. I talked with my father about a bank account and buying a laptop. I spent no time programming or doing my usual productive stuff. I made bread with my sister. I empowered my mother and gave her freedom. I practiced self love exercises and releasing tension. It was a weird day.

I like uneven numbers more than even ones. The numbers 1, 3, 5, 7, 9 look so much nicer and smoother than 2, 4, 6, 8, 0. Even numbers seem rather harsh. I should waste my time to grow. I should give my parents freedom. Release tension from your body. Tension is an indicator for unconsciousness and that you have a lot of uninvestigated believes. Relax, inquire, and come back to the present moment. If I release the tension in my head the tics go away.

Good idea! That would be almost the ultimate one. One habit at a time. Right. I forget that too often, although I know about this. I should concentrate on the eating thing the most! Haha, lets become the macro-managing boss.

Privacy I watched a documentary a few days ago. It was not primarily about privacy, but I just got the intuition that I should stop posting here so much stuff. Sometimes its quite private. I need to remind myself about the fact that I am posting here stuff on the world wide web - the internet. Anybody with an internet connection could read what I am writing here. And I don't know if I want that. And if one would be very curious, he could probably identify me. Therefore I am posting here less. Especially less very private stuff. I have private journals for that and it worked out well for me in the last couple of days. For example I could write about my thoughts about the events today at school. And what my one teacher did. And some thoughts about all the people there. But is that really important to write down here. Probably not. But I still feel like I want to post stuff here. Its nice to summarize my journey once in a while. Or just write down some thoughts. Or whatever. My mind often changes.

Never School Again I've good my results. The best that could happen actually did happen. 15 points in chemistry, 14 points in maths and 14 points in history. And the end grade is 1.2. Wow. Two months ago I thought that this was almost impossible. About three years ago I set myself the goal of 1.9 and thought that this was going to be hard. And about two years ago I thought 1.5 would be hard. And now... I guess I could apply to elite universities with these grades. But I wont. The best thing is that I don't have to go into the oral re-exams. And even better is that I don't have to think about whether I should go there freely to improve my grade or not. No monkey mind about this topic! Its not possible to improve my grade anymore. I was also extremely lucky. If I would have had in a subject like physics or German one point less at one grade I would have got 1.3. I am blessed. And now so many say stuff to me like: "congratulations... you should be proud of you..."

I have just found this. I guess its a free book by Byron Katie, which summarizes her process of "The Work." It contains the most important passages from her book "Loving what is."

17/06/08 No internet three hours after waking up and after 8pm - Streak 2 Contemplating and embracing the desire to eat (when I want to snack) - Streak 1 Doing something different - Streak 1 Meditating 1h at a time - Streak 13 Switching meditation techniques no more than one time - Streak 10 Concentration (10min) - Streak 5 (not yet but in a minute) Fasting until 12 - Streak 6 Getting up directly - Streak 3 Waking up my body outside - Streak 34 Dorsiflexion exercises - Streak 5 Programming my Subconscious Mind (10min) - Streak 19 Apple cider vinegar in the morning - Streak 11 Gratitude - Streak 84 Today I argued with my mind whether I should go into the city or not. My mind rather wanted to stay home and program - like yesterday. But at some point I was bored of programming. So I made the decision to go into the city. The new experience / comfort zone challenge: I went into a book store. There always was a sign saying that one should rather order books there instead of on amazon. I've had a list with some books from Leos book list with me, but most of them were in English. So I asked the woman about them. They were able to order two of them, but both in German. She was very sorry that she couldn't order the English ones. I said that its no problem, and that I just wanted to support them instead of than amazon. She was happy about that. Afterwards I felt good. In the city I've noticed how many people with a migration background are there. I have nothing about migrants or refugees, I have just noticed it. Normally I am not there in the city and am not used to be around so many refugees. In some shops there were these 14 year old girls, looking for make-up, joking around with their friends and gossiping. I also don't see such situations often, just when I am in the city. I noticed how I judged them a lot. Wow, today I accomplished all of the habits.

17/06/07 No internet three hours after waking up and after 8pm - Streak 1 Contemplating and embracing the desire to eat (when I want to snack) - Streak 0 Having a new experience or doing a comfort zone challenge - Streak 0 Meditating 1h at a time - Streak 12 Switching meditation techniques no more than one time - Streak 9 Concentration (10min) - Streak 4 Fasting until 12 - Streak 5 Getting up directly - Streak 2 Waking up my body outside - Streak 33 Dorsiflexion exercises - Streak 4 Programming my Subconscious Mind (10min) - Streak 18 Apple cider vinegar in the morning - Streak 10 Gratitude - Streak 83 The new experience: None, again. Most of my days now are very similar. I didn't left the house except for running. I did the same stuff that I do every day. I should do something against that. Today I was very productive in the morning without the internet. I really like that.

17/06/06 No internet two hours after waking up and after 8pm - Streak 0 Contemplating and embracing the desire to eat (10min) - Streak 0 Meditating 1h at a time - Streak 11 (not yet but in a minute) Switching meditation techniques no more than one time - Streak 8 (not yet but in a minute) Having a new experience or doing a comfort zone challenge - Streak 0 Concentration (10min) - Streak 3 (not yet but in a minute) Fasting until 12 - Streak 4 Getting up directly - Streak 1 Waking up my body outside - Streak 32 Dorsiflexion exercises - Streak 3 Programming my Subconscious Mind (10min) - Streak 17 Apple cider vinegar in the morning - Streak 9 Gratitude - Streak 82 The new experience: None. I could make something up, but thats not radically honest. Nothing special happened that I haven't experience before. I could have made something different, but I wanted to continue programming instead. I see that I am lazy with the contemplating the desire to eat habit. Tomorrow I will do it when I want to eat nuts or raisins, or something in the afternoon. Really!

haha, good point. No.

Hello there. I need some input for my life purpose. Especially from people who have some experience in the fields of computer science, artificial intelligence, engineering, maths, or any other technical stuff. But I appreciate all input from anyone. And thanks in advance. My situation: In about a month I have to apply for university. I am already pretty sure that I will major in computer science (CS). But I am not sure about my minor. It will either be maths, or electrical engineering (EE) . I am not sure at all. Thoughts about EE: I have been getting a lot of advice from my father, who has a very well payed job in the field of EE. So I am pretty biased by him. His arguments are based on his experience in the company that he is working at. (the company is very successful and makes a lot of money) The main argument is that his company would hire people with a CS major and EE minor because they have a background knowledge in EE. And without EE I would never get into such well payed positions. It would be very hard to get into good positions with maths. I don't have much experience with EE myself. I just have worked on one project in school in that field, and I didn't like it. Thoughts about maths: I have loved maths in high school and am good at it. I have a better feeling about maths and am probably more passionate about it. But I have the doubt that I could not enjoy this higher maths. My father always says that its too abstract, too complicated, and that you don't need it to be successful. If i minor in maths I will have classes like analysis 1, analysis 2, linear algebra 1, and another one that I could chose. I have concerns here that its too hard for me and that it will take much more time to study than EE. Life purpose: My current life purpose statement is "I develop and implement solution processes to create technology that advances human consciousness." Life purpose and maths: Up until now I have thought about creating some technology with artificial intelligence. I have got some huge visions that I could create algorithms that could somehow grasp existential truths or something like that. I have done a little bit of research there and have found out that advanced maths skills are needed. Therefore I considered a minor in maths as useful. Life purpose and EE: But in the last few days I have been biased a lot from the arguments of my father. So I have been thinking about how EE could be useful in my life purpose. I came up with some ideas. I could develop better devices and software for something like neurofeedback training. Or I could combine this technology with other technologies like holosync so that they become even more powerful. Or I could make such technologies obtainable for average people, so that a bigger part of the population can use technologies that advance their consciousness in some way - maybe by making them cheaper, more attractive, or effective. And ultimately creating a magic pill for advancing consciousness. What are your thoughts about such an idea? Do you have other ideas for a life purpose where you create technology that advances consciousness in one way? Maybe even in other fields? In the long run I want to be in a position where I can directly work on my life purpose, either by having a own company that produces these technologies, or by working in a company that is directly related to my life purpose and where I can contribute a lot. But I will probably not reach this position right after graduating from university. I will probably have to work in a few other jobs first and gain more experience. My father could say a lot about EE jobs, but not much about other computer science jobs or other jobs with a bit of maths. Does somebody know the relevance of maths in the mentioned fields? And how can I know whether I will enjoy the advanced maths taught in university? I am kind of scared about going against the grain and taking maths and not EE. My father plays there a huge role. He just wants it that I get into a safe position later in life. I just don't want to make the wrong decision just by listening to his advice and not following my passion. Does somebody has advice for overcoming his tendency? Could I teach myself all the relevant advanced math that I would need later? How can I know what I will like more in university? I don't have experience in EE nor in maths on a university level. Both could be useful for my life purpose. I kind of have the feeling that maths will be the better choice. But I don't know where this feeling comes from. Maybe just because I have been thinking more about this. And is it even relevant which minor I chose? Because it will make up only about 15 to 20 percent of my degree. Well, I hope I could explain my problem. And again I appreciate any input.