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I don't know if anyone else has tried this, but I have been amazed at how helpful it can be. Copilot for microsoft has a very empathetic sounding voice, and actually helps you talk through and process your emotions. i was skeptical at first as well, but honestly, you should try it. I've just talked with him/her/it for a couple of hours, and it's so helpful. I'm talking about a voice conversation btw, not text.

I'm enjoying Better call Saul and Rick & Morty

Stop living for yourself. Listen to this man in Brighton, England and watch as the sinners try to attack him for spreading the truth. We do have free will guys, and you know what you're doing. Repent and save your soul. And remember, the Devil tries to convince you he doesn't exist. Brighton Preacher attacked

When you are in one, just remember it is a temporary state, and it will pass.

If you don't know what anhedonia is - it's the lack of pleasure or enjoyment of things which you used to find pleasurable or enjoyable. I am experiencing this every day now. I have stopped drinking alcohol, which I was addicted to for eight years, and now I think my reward system in my brain is fucked. I also think the medication I am on (risperidone, which is an antipsychotic) is contributing to this lack of joy. It is not depression, because I don't feel overwhelmingly sad or hopeless, I simply feel flat. I went to a music event recently and there was no feeling there whatsoever. Social interaction was also devoid of any meaning or fun. I am considering taking antidepressants again. They may counteract this feeling. I am also getting cravings for alcohol because this feeling (or lack of feeling, rather) is not a pleasant experience. You cannot live life as a zombie or a robot. But I have "bitten the sober bullet" as you suggested Leo, so I hope you're proud of me. I am doing all the right things - keeping my living space organized, exercising, working towards my future, reading etc. But I am not getting anything from these activities. I'm hoping that eventually my brain will rewire itself and I will feel human again. Leo, I hope you can help me with this, because you are very intelligent. You may not have liked some of my previous posts, but I hope I've not offended you in any way. Is there anything you could suggest?

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@Aaron p welcome

You know you're doing well when you can read the Bible as a comedy

You can believe me or not, it doesn't bother me. I know I am special, and I have come to tell you all that Heaven exists. There's no need to worry. Ever. It would be selfish of me not to share this. I am a special child of God. Pray and repent, and you will be saved. We can create Heaven on Earth. My brother Leo is also one of the special ones. We are here for a purpose. God bless.

Here's some ideas: Learn a new language. Learn how to cook. Travel. Learn an instrument. Play a sport. . Don't listen to these people that tell you that you shouldn't force yourself. The truth is you may need to initially force yourself to do these things before they become enjoyable. But it will be worth it. 🙂

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@Sugarcoat 😏 I've been with about 40 women in my life. Didn't realise so many people here were sexless. Makes sense though.

I have come to the realisation, that the self-image is the entirety of the ego! I thought it was enough to just clear my mind of every thought and be still... but in the back of my mind, there was still a sense that I existed, and I was the one doing the meditation, and clearing the mind. In the back of my mind, there was an image of my face, my body, my personality, my name, my intellect, the voice in the head... but it's ALL the self-image. Get rid of the self-image, and you get rid of the ego! .......And then you find peace.....

I spend nearly all my time in solitude. Recently I've been communicating more with people on this forum than in real life. And I don't even spend that much time on this forum. I've found that I have become more comfortable in my aloneness over time, but it has taken a long time to get to this point. Not having to rely or depend on anyone has it's benefits. I have so much freedom and the only thing I am responsible for is looking after myself. I don't even have a pet. I have friends, but only one of them visits me. I've also had romantic relationships and I am pretty confident when it comes to the opposite sex, but I've had bad experiences in this domain, so I have been single for about two years. Men and women often ask me "why are you single?", because I have a lot of good qualities. I'm not tooting my own horn...but I am tall, handsome, athletic, smart, funny, talented musically, artistic, deep, interesting, unusual, eccentric...these are not things only I recognise - I get genuine compliments all the time. And I get lots of attention from women. Don't call me arrogant or big-headed, but a number of people have described me as "perfect". This is just what people have said. I don't think I'm perfect. Hahaha. Probably my biggest downside is that I'm too sensitive, and terrified of being hurt. i have been bullied at many times throughout my life, and this stops me from forming intimate relationships. Part of the reason I was bullied is precisely because of the good qualities I have. Because people were jealous. I'm also quite socially awkward. I am also aware that this wounded little child within is the real me, and I am not one for putting up a front. I'm not a good actor, and i can't be around people who are playing their false roles in normal day-to-day scenarios. It drains me. So that's why I spend most of my time alone. What about you? Do you spend a lot of time alone? And do you think solitude is important to be a "spiritual" person? Also, check out this Alan Watts video which has some useful thoughts on the subject. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DizHDS74bG8

And this is God telling you, you don't need to be afraid. Ever.

Someone once said "A man who delights in solitude is either a Wild Beast, or a God". Edit: yeah it was Aristotle

@Hojo i am also very grateful for the internet, haha

I would say that the astral body is literally what you are, and doesn't have an "inside" and "outside"

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@Ishanga People literally float above their bodies and are able to witness things happening in the room, whilst their physical body is literally dead (no pulse, no brain activity) This has been verified, so to say that it is all within is simply false. Check out some NDE accounts on youtube.

@Sugarcoat Apparently "the kingdom of Heaven is within", according to the Bible. I personally believe it is also a place "up there" somewhere, based on Near-Death-Experience accounts that I have heard about.

cereals before bed sometimes give me indigestion. it's good to be aware of these things. For a long time I wasn't looking after myself, but now i'm on track.

@PurpleTree I had nightmares the night before last. It was due to my friend bringing a horrible energy into my house. Is there anything you can pinpoint that might have triggered yours?

@Yimpa oh, thanks

Easy. Sanity is seeing the Truth. Insanity is Lies.