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@Princess Arabia she was very open about why she left me: I didn’t have enough money. I agree I should let go of beliefs but some things are just beliefs. They are facts. And this girl is a sweet heart. A good Christian girl. I never expected a knife stab like that. I don’t know how to trust a girl after this.

@Princess Arabia But I agree on that I should let go of anger and resentment. I have therapy for the last 3-4 years and it doesn’t help. Therapy is so overrated. It only scratches the surface and it doesn’t go below the surface.

@Princess Arabia maybe it is not either / or? I do want her back because I love her and I want her back for myself. I don’t think men should become altruistic angels for women with no selfish needs. I’m in a bad place and instead of being with me she dumped me. This happens a lot and I think that is why there are so many disgruntled men. Men should become aware of this and not trust women so quickly. The whole problem is that women can change their position so easily because of their fluctuating emotions. It is nothing women can do about it. It is just in their nature. I never had problems with men in this regard. My hate is just temporary because I got hurt. It a human reaction to being abused by them. I know it is not personal. It is just how they are. If she was in a bad place because of her childhood my first instinct would be to help her. Not dump her. That is the difference. And that is true love.

She sold me out because her mother didn’t approve of me. And I guess she didn’t fully accept me in extension. I’m so angry right now.

The thing is I hate myself for ruining it and being so needy. The neediness comes from my inner child and she could have healed it. Instead she chose to dump me for showing my inner child to her. Women tell you to open up and once you do they dump you when they see you have an inner boy with needs. I don’t believe every person who is in a relationship is 100 % healthy. She should have accepted my inner child and not be a selfish bitch about it. Now I’m alone licking my wounds. Thanks. I will do those things but it would have been better if she was on my side helping with my issues. I’m starting to hate on women to be honest. I think it comes from my bad relationship with my mother. Women only caused my headache. Perhaps I should go monk mode for couple of years. But if I do that I will miss out on the fun and emotional development. I’m so confused right now.

She loved me for who I was. I felt like being one in flesh and spirit with her. And I thought it would be forever. But then she realized I was traumatized, lazy and I had my issues like everybody else. She compared me to her ex who had his stuff together. She was open about why she left me: I wouldn’t be able to provide for her offspring if she hypothetically got pregnant today.

My ex didn't have low esteem though. And she was not below my league. She fell for my romance for her. In first instance she didn’t like me. Only when I opened up and showed my capacity to love she returned the love I gave her. That is why I’m obsessed with her.

I want to be liked who I’m. But girls don’t like me while I hate some parts of myself. But who the f fully loves them? I see guys who are full of bull pulling girls. And I don’t get it. They treat these girls like a flesh light. My issue is not having no self love. In my observation most women want to be with a guy with personal or collective power. That is the only thing they respond to. All that self love and shit is bullshit. We all know what can of guys they reward. And mind you I do get girls. I’m not an incel. I just get girls with low self esteem usually. Or girls who adore me because I go below my own league.

So they will love me for being a man? Instead of loving me for who I’m ? A guy who has his issues ? Nobody is a finished product I’m not red pilled

I hope she liked who I was. she wojldnt be turned off by lack of game and not being rich. I'm in IT. i will make good money but she needs to have patience. I'm still studying. Most women wait at the finish line and chose the winners. I'm so disappointed in women. They are just players. And I disovered I need to be a player. I can't love these profiteers.

I contemplated about it and I came to the same conclusion: we men don’t have power of being liked. The more we force the more she pushes away. The only solution is to become heartless and become a fuck boy. Because that is what they want.

All enlightenment is fake because you are already enlightened

That is the definition of a psychopath. I still love her and want her back. I don’t know how to get rid of these emotions.

India is an erroneous place. I can’t imagine living there.

It is all in your head. Beauty is in the eye of the beholder. If there was no eye there would be no beauty.

Our history of humankind is totally wrong. And they are covering it up.

So I’m seeing my ex again because I want her back. We dated for 2 months and we were head of heels. She broke up with me because I was not stable enough with my finances and I acted a little bit beta I think. Since last week we have been seeing each other again. And although the vibe is good. Every time I go for a kiss she repels me. She allows physical escalation. But when we come eye to eye she looks away. It is very hurtful. Because I love her. I ask her if she still loves me and she says yes but she has to think over things. I don’t know what this means in womanize language. She asked me if I’m still angry at her and I said yes. Because I didn’t like it that she just broke up with me without saying anything. She is a strange girl but I like her.

The only woman I want is her.

Neediness is worship of fake idols. You should only worship god. Not a hot 18 something year old with that good good.

Jung calls it the collective unconscious; infinite sea of potential.

Third eye drops on YouTube. It is my favorite Jungian channel. The owner regularly interviews people.

I believe in god but not necessarily in Christian god but Christian are very nagging about it. I have a Christian gf and this is a huge stumbling block. I tell her I respect her religion and I even go to ceremonies with her because I love her but she is hell bend on converting me. I talk to religious people and they are so confused when I say I see some truth in every religion. Should I just stop talking to these people?

I don’t get what Ukraine is trying to get out of this by being pawns of war profiteering Americans. Although I do support Ukraine. They should have had second thoughts before being so pro US in terms of foreign policy that caused the Russian aggression in the first place. Best thing is for Ukraine to understand Russia won’t back down. They need to settle down for something in the middle. US should stay out and write unconditional guarantees to stay out and Russia should retreat to their own borders. This whole quagmire should be a lesson for smaller countries. Don’t be a pawn.

Only jobs that will remain will be creative jobs. Which will be good. I hate non creative work.

His applied kinistesiology theory is weird as fuck. If you ignore that part of his work he is pretty good.