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First trip ever. Went with 2 grams of Golden Teacher. I've read that it's a medium dose, and I expected mild effects, which I realized was arrogant of me going into the trip. I had some trips intentions going into it, particularly around resolving some issues in my life and better understand how my mind works at a subconscious level. I was trying to be more happy and positive and appreciate of things as they are. Initially, the trip seemed mild. I had some lights hallucinations - like seeing how colors are perceived differently. As I tried writing down and making sense of the experience, I started seeing myself from a different perspective. It was like I was observing someone else writing down things, but it wasn't really me. I saw my hand transform - and it reminded me of Harry Potter. Likely because I've been rewatching the movies in the days prior to the trip - it got stuck inside of me. I started imagining a whole bunch of flying creatures like in the movies too. I started wondering - if I am viewing myself from a third-person perspective - what is real? And I started wondering about existential questions - if I am not real, why am I here? Why did I choose to be in this life, in this moment? I then got a first-person experience of reality where I realized that reality does not exist obectively. Instead, reality only exists if I imagine it to be so. I then recognized that life is game. And I appreciated that it's beautiful, and I also really appreciated how stable life is - the simplicity of life. The experience was so chaotic and everything was shifting so quickly - simplicity seemed nice. I continued wondering about life - and I asked myself, why can't I go and shift into life as another person and then come back? The response I got is that it's just not how this works. Though I didn't fully understand how it actually works. I tried shifting back into the practical things I was trying to focus on for my trip - but instead, I got much deeper on the existential level. I felt that this reality exists because I want to be the person I am. Because it's interesting to be the character I am. There is an associated a "main character" energy to it. Then I started thinking about whether I imagined everything there is in life. It seemed true to me. I was imagining two states of reality. One where you "remember" that you are God, and one where you "forget". I realize that very soon the experience will end, and I felt like I need to milk the relevant insights from the experience. Then, a deep part of the experience started, around an hour an half in. At this point, I was no longer myself. I started having deep hallucinations. I was very confused on what is real and what is not. I hallucinated my pen completely breaking. And I believe I've spent above an hour trying to find a new pen, so that I could record my thoughts from this experience. Anytime I went for the search for the pen, I was instead pulled into something else that caught my attention. I also started laughing a lot and made some internal jokes about the pen. At some point I came back and concluded that God is that I imagined myself and then forgot. I started imagining how spiral dynamics and even the vocubulary I am using to write was created by me at some point. Most deeply - I profoundly realized that everything is just imaginery. This was A LOT more than I expected to reflect over in this session. And it has opened my mind to really contemplate some of the things Leo is saying not just as concepts, but as a first-hand, real experiences. The scary part for me was not necessirly the experience itself, but coming back to reality, and realizing what I have experienced. Now - it seems crazy. How do I get back to ordinary life, with people that I can't really talk about these things with, and continue living? How do I become happy, when I know it's an illusion. And if I choose to take distance from those people I love in my life - what am I going towards exactly? A deep deconstruction of all of reality and everything I know of it? I am not sure of the next steps. So I appreciate any guidance and advice.

That definitely helps, thank you. I agree I was moving too fast. I feel like it'll just drive me crazy to keep thinking about this experience at home alone with meditation and contemplation. I don't think it's right for me. I am considering consulting a psychotherapist instead. I wasn't really looking for going into something so deep and existential at this point, I was more so hoping for getting a more standard happy non-dual experience and some insights about my mind.

Inspiring, look at the contrast with Trump

So what would you talk about in that speech if you were the prine minister of Canada?

What appeals to you in the BLOC? Why seek separation?

It's different than jan 6. January 6 was about Trump trying to hold on to power even after people voted for another president. This protest was about people being fed up with all the restrictions the federal government has put in place. Trudeau has put in place some of the toughest lockdown protocols in the world. Trudeau refused to negotiate and talk to the people. He invoked the emergency act instead.

Which part is not true? Immigration was higher. That's a fact, not propaganda. There are lots of sources e.g. https://grokipedia.com/page/Domestic_policy_of_the_Justin_Trudeau_government, immigration targets rose from 260k to 395k Most immigrants go to ontario, and that's where you see all the problems. If they were incentevized to go elsewhere, that would've been fine. In ontario - you could see problem. health care delays (lots of people I know in real life talk about their problems) and rising house prices: clearly backed by data Actually, some of this responsibility is on Doug Ford too, but most of blame went on Trudeau.

So many reasons. I've been on both sides of this issue personally Pandemic: Trudeau became unpopular around the pandemic, when he invoked the emergency act and freezed people's bank account who helped with the protests. People were not happy about the lockdowns and Canada's vaccine rules felt too controlling. Right-wing Media Influence: I was watching a bunch of Reels around the time Trudeau became unpopular. He has sufferred from a lot of US right-wing media around LGBTQ/Woke, similar to how Biden and Harris became unpopular. Also, there were A LOT of videos online where he is asked questions and literally doesn't answer them at all. Immigration: Trudeau has admitted too many people into Canada. More people amplified problems around healthcare, housing, and unemployment. The institutions were not ready to handle the amount of immigrants. Housing: We had skyrocketing house prices in 2021 after the pandemic. BOC slashed interest rates massively to revive the economy. In combination with immigration, housing prices went up a lot. Even though interest rates are controlled by the BOC, I believe Trudeau took the blame. Been there too long: People got tired off him personally, he has been around for 10 years.

Same problem here. It's a bit weird, because on the one hand, contemplating helps me figure out what you want. On the other hand, so much time is spent there it feels like.. I'd be way more successful just taking more action. Why can't the mind just shut up and work? 😆 Most of the ideas are great in theory, but making them a reality is challenging and takes a lot of action. Best I've found is contemplating contemplating, and limiting the time I spend. Also, getting into external pressure or getting other people to hold me accountable on things I want to do helps. At some point, gotta treat contemplation like you treat procrastination lol

Really appreciate your work Leo! It has been enlightening I feel like maybe I missed something with this specific video, or maybe I should just wait for parts 2 and 3. I think I’ve watched a lot of previous videos from you where you’ve shared these same insights before (like the non-duality or decounstructing science videos). Was this one more intended for scientists who haven't seen actualized.org videos before? Here are my takeaways, for reference: 1. Most systems humans developed (e.g. IQ tests, Science), have essentially become people’s new conformity, and they never question these systems. They take them for granted. 2. We should question our assumptions and constantly contemplate the fundamentals of our thought process and the world, not just contemplate things within our world view. 3. Furthermore, contemplation itself, while following a framework of rationality, is not sufficient to truly reach Truth. We need to be willing to step outside our worldview (rationality), open ourselves to more experiences, try psychedelics, talk to people we disagree with, read lots of books, and then make our own conclusions. 4. Everything is relative, and we should pursue Truth and Englitenment to understand we are manifesting all of this in our head

Next up: Bryan Johnson makes a video about Spiral Dynamics, and this forum will say shut up, stage orange narcissist.

I've recently started the life purpose course. I'm making progress, watching videos, learning the content... Yet at the same time, my mind keeps running across these conflicting thoughts. Cognitively, I feel like I have a very clear plan and a path forward right now. I'm planning to work in my current job for a few year, save up some money, start a family. On the side, I would like to explore and start working towards my life purpose, and then eventually make the switch full-time after I've saved up some money and am sure about my life purpose. However, I can't quite get my emotional side and my energy levels to align with this direction I've set for myself. For example, I'll watch Leo's life purpose course, and he'll say something like "you must quit your job", and then my brain will just keep contemplating the idea of quitting now, even though I know it's not the best move for me. Also, very strangely, I started enjoying my job less. I use to love doing the work, I use to love working hard and getting people's approval. That's how I got into my current job. Now these things don't drive me anymore, but I can't seem to get my new, more authentic direction to motivate me in the same way I used to through external validation. I keep spending my free time looking for advice and other perspectives, which just leads to more thinking and less doing... One explanation I had - like mentioned in book Mastery, I feel like I am used to pursuing the "constant climax" of life, and now that I am on a big plateau, I am struggling to continue doing the work. Making a sudden jump right now seems like I'd be more a dabbler, and jump to something else, before having fully understood my purpose, and fulfilled some of my karma. What are some things I could do to get my mind in a better alignment and motivation towards my goals?

Leo teaches pickup too, this seems irrelevant Julien blanc hasn't taught pickup in a decade if I recall correctly

> So really you have no plan and just hope it works out? Financially I'd say my plan is pretty clear and robust. In terms of life purpose, I find David Guetta's idea of purpose more appealing - which is that purpose unfolds in layers. I'd love to figure out my purpose now, and I hope once I finish this course, I'll have a good idea of it. But I don't want it to interfere with my current motivation and my plans either. I believe my life purpose would be highly focused on impact and helping people, and by the nature of things, most money is just located in big firms and businesses, not in helping people.

> so over the next 10 years meaning the average job will pay less yearly Sure, but my situation is different. I work in software engineering Without disclosing exact TC numbers, if I stay at my job, and I am able to work and be consistent, putting in roughly the same motivation I used for the past ~8 years that I was working, I should be comfortably financially independent in 10 years. I'll also have a good WLB in the process to get there too, which I haven't had much of before. I also have investments, so jobs paying less at some point in the future is not much of a concern for me. I work in a startup and on good terms with the CEO, so not particularly concerned about layoffs as long as I stay in this job. My problem is mroe about dealing with my mind, and dealing with this desire to have a higher impact, than it is about dealing with the money problems.

Software engineering remote job, just talk async.. that's my job

I've recently started the life purpose course, and I started obtaining ideas and I made an initial plan of what I see as my life purpose. I’ve also read The Big Leap, and at the same time, while I understand that I must eventually take a “Big Leap”, I don’t think now is the right time for me. I need to stay within my current job for some time, build up some savings, and do some explorations on my life purpose on the side. I feel like this is a stage of my life that I would like to take slower. I don't think it'd be healthy to switch careers every year. I see other people being happy and socializing and just enjoying the moment, and I would like to do the same. Yet I can’t shake out the feeling within me that I should be pursuing something higher, and dedicate all my energy to working towards this big leap… So my question is - besides pursuing enlightenment, or doubling down on my life purpose, what are some practical suggestions I could do to just enjoy the present moment more?

Yea, and so is everything else in the universe. Speaking in an absolute sense, there isn't really a difference between any of the values... so we are in a relative reference point in this discussion. So why don't we drop the ordering?

Very interesting video, watched it all, but I have some questions, I wasn't fully convinced by the argument around prioritizing truth over family. The argument Leo brought up in the video is that if one prioritizes their family over truth, their family might get corrupt. At the same time, I can use this argument the other way. Imagine one was to prioritize truth over family. But they end up in a situation where someone puts a gun their family member's head. This is not to say that I think family must be above truth, either. But I am not sure why do we need this notion of truth being the top value and being higher than other values. Why can't we just say truth must be an important value for an individual? It seems to me like it's making the video's content more controversial, and would make it harder to reshare this video with someone else. I feel like there is a bias towards likeminded people with INTP-type of thinking, which corrupts the video and makes it more difficult for this type of content to spread more broadly. I can see there a fundamental message here that lots of people would benefit from, but saying truth should be higher than family seems to hinder the effectiveness.

I'm (23yo) Been following Leo for some time now, and his videos really helped me gain some higher perspective o life and move forward in life. After watching the spiral dynamics series, I realized I've been predonomintally pre-occupied with Stage Orange for some time, and so, I have gotten my life in order and have accomplished a few major milestones: 200k/year salary in a company I am interested in, got a girlfriend I'm hoping to marry in 2 years, bought a car, saved some money, etc. Now I noticed my drive and motivation haven't been the same as they use to be when I was deep in stage orange. A lot of my free time I get sidetracked by reading politics (just finishing the conscious politics series) and what's going on around the world recently with Trump, which is distracting, and I realized there isn't really much I could do with all this information besides vote. I've tried reasoning through it, and I came up with a plan to keep working hard at my job for ~10 more years, reach some financial independence, and move on to some new cooler initiatives without worrying about money. This would be great to for one of my goals to have kids in late 20s, but in practice, I feel like I already have sufficient money for this, and I feel like my energy levels are low day-to-day knowing I am just working so I can work on something else one day. Curious if anyone has any suggestions of things to try? I would be interested in some stage green ideas, but I've also been feeling like the majority of the initiatives done there have such a low global impact compared to someone with more money and resources. Psychedelics is another thing, not sure if it'll help but I am concerned to try since it's illegal here in Canada and people in my circle generally have a negative connotation of them.

Yes, I think you hit the nail on the head right there. I haven't actually "transcended orange" as I claimed, I have just reached a point where I have been in orange for nearly a decade, and I'm getting tired of it. Now instead of moving into green it seems like I am trying to apply an orange mindset to become yellow, which I've realized today isn't really possible without going through green. It feels quite confusing. I don't necessarily know how to "get into green". I feel like in theory I share lots of the similar values that Green has, but in practice I am stuck in my own head day to day thinking about the next goal to achieve or the next milestone to cross. Green seems like it would be a shift of these thoughts to a more relaxed place where I balance better between my work and socialization and fun activities and kinda take a break from goals. Any suggestions for things I could to embody green? and how do I stop this obsessive stage for more accomplishments I still feel from orange?

Thanks for the suggestions! My job generally aligns with my values - I think it's as a good as I could find within the software engineering industry. It's a small startup, very nice and motivated people, have a solid B2B SaaS product used by 1,000+ companies, they are very transparent, no BS beurchracy, and while it's not directly related to impact my salary is bringing a bunch of tax money to the government. I don't really know if there is something significantly better I could switch to within software engineering field - it's my fourth job I've explored in the field I've been excited by the idea of getting into politics. Like becoming a Member of Parliament. But it seems like such a huge career shift.. I wanna make sure I'm making the correct decision. It would be a massive paycut and risk around the future if I choose to pursue this.

It wasn't a bad place 9 years ago which makes the case for voting for Conservatives in this next election much more appealing. To me the biggest two political issues here are the spike in housing prices and the lockdowns/emergency act that Trudeau invoked when people were protesting his awful 2-year lockdown. Though as a first-time Canadian voter in the next election, I am very curious to hear other perspectives on this, and if people here would recommend still voting for liberals, or instead recommend voting NDP, who has supported the liberals along all this time until Singh managed to get his pension.

Any thoughts on the start here? Was reading about the facts and seems like the sentence was extremly harsh? 7.5 years is a lot and he claims it's not related to any of the FTX charges.