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I've only done small doses of THC but my experience has been that it felt more similar to alcohol than psychedelics. It has usually made my thought process worse, more cyclic, stuck. Curious if people had similar effects here?

We do have one spiritual community here I am aware of! They do psychedelic retreats, meditations, ecstatic dancing, etc https://hccollective.ca/

Words are limiting here, it's good to discuss some definitions. These are my definitions, defined relative to time, space, and human words: Perceive: A collection of senses, memories, consciousness, feelings, and visions, that occur relative to time. Exist: Whatever is being perceived by you in the current moment. Experience: A memory of a past existance Dream: An experience that is so significantly different compared to another experience, that it is clearly defined against a different time or space construct. Wrong: That which does not serve You within the current moment Choice: The ability you have to experience anything you desire and retain memories of such experiences. You: That which is a combination of your body, your mind, and your environment. Everything: That which cannot be fully described to another relative to time or space, but can only be experienced individually. It can be imagined as simply, Infinity. Real: A word that does not lead to Everything; frequently misused for a materialist paradigm Awoken: That which is Everything, and nothing else. And so I claim that if you are choosing to exist relative to time, by the way I am using the words, it's wrong for you to claim that others do not exist. I'd be interested to see how you define these words, and why you choose to select words that make you feel like life is pointless and meaningless within your dream. I wonder if it's fair to say you've had an experience of being Everything, but you are not Everything right now, therefore you are not alone relative to time either.

But the way you are defining "exist", your thoughts that they don't exist equally don't exist either, so clearly your thoughts that they don't exist are also a filter you've put around reality. I don't think words like other people don't exist explain what reality is accurately. I actually think instead reality is proving the statement that everything can exist. The way I see it is that in any thought you have about another, that other does exist relative to you having a thought, because you are thinking about it right now. They exist as equally as you are existing right now. It's not like a fictional characters in a video games, which do not exist outside of the video games. That's because in a video game, the characters exist in a lower level of consciousness than you are. You are able to fully control them. But in life, the other characters exist on an equal consciusness as you. You cannot control them. That's what makes it interesting, and that's what makes the whole game so much more fun than video games! So from my perspective, no you are not all alone, because to be all alone, you would have to not have the thought that you are all alone, because there would be no one to have this thought. We, which is all Nothing, has somehow created a reality in which we have infinitely many equals, some above our level of consciousness, some below. And I believe there is much more above to go for all of us, and it's a shared journey...

Wanted to share a profound and very intense trip I've had recently. This trip was a last-minute decision. For some context, before the trip I had just got back from a work offsite trip. Throughout the whole 5 days of the trip, I kept digging into my fears. I've been deep at trying to let go, meditating, doing yoga, reflecting, and trying to overcome my fears. This search was mostly in response to my frustration with myself being less extroverted, less social, and not having the balls to cold approach. Of course, bringing so much attention and trying so hard to overcome/understand my fears had the opposite impact, and so throughout the work trip I felt more fears than usual. I felt less in the moment, I felt odd, less flowing. And I kept observing how my mind manufactures different fears—like, for example, right before I was about to do a presentation. There was also some drama and some strange vibes I picked up from other people at the offsite, which fed further into my fears. On my flight back, I felt so frustrated with it all. And I really wanted to understand why. Where are these fears coming from? So I made the spontaneous decision to take shrooms (1.6 grams) at 7 PM and expand my consciousness so I could finally figure this thing out. It was my third shrooms trip. About 50 minutes after taking it, I closed my eyes and opened a portal in my imagination to the "spiritual world." The best way I can convey how it looked in words: it was a world that's not bound by material rules, a world with flying spirits laughing about life and the material, and plenty of unusual things happening. I was still myself as an ego, so the world was separate from myself, and I was able to navigate and switch my consciousness between the "real world" and the "spiritual world." I started laughing about something in the spiritual world, and suddenly I imagined that I was one of a group of 10 identical creatures, just like myself, all laughing together. Suddenly I wondered—who are those people? Are they real? And as I zoomed into an individual person, my mind started going in cycles, contemplating what's better—living as "one," or living with "many" others. It felt like the cycle of thought could go back and forth forever. Then, I stopped myself from going further, and I tried to re-orient my mind back toward my fears. I asked consciousness over and over again to show me my fears. I wanted to discover what they are. Consciousness told me it's quite complicated. For my fears are deeply tied to my survival. I understood that my brain has been protecting me, filtering reality from myself. I kept facing some back-and-forth about objections as to why I should not become conscious of my fears, but I persisted in my desire to see them. At some point after this request, I had a realization: people don't see me the way I imagine they see me. Suddenly, I became conscious, all at once, of the source. I perceived 1,000 different situations throughout my whole life—situations where I did something wrong, behaved strangely, wasn't able to do a task everyone else was good at, or did something socially unacceptable. The thing is, I experienced those situations not through my own lens, but rather through the lens of the people who saw me in those situations. I realized how my subconscious brain was protecting me by distracting me and using defense mechanisms like playing computer games or watching movies so I wouldn't think too much about how other people perceive me. And so it occurred to me just how differently an "average" human brain behaves compared to my brain. I believe (but haven't been diagnosed) that I'm neurodivergent. And so I realized that for an "average, unconscious" human brain, it's a painful/icky experience to see someone who does not behave in the standard/regular way within a situation. It's icky to watch someone behave awkwardly. And I finally understood why—because my personality, and those behaviors in those situations, are uniquely pointing people toward a painful truth: that reality is NOT perfect. I'm... un-beautifying reality. But that doesn't mean I'm ugly. For I have never had problems with learning, success, or achieving anything I've set my mind on. And so with this personality design, a person can't just go ahead and reason to themselves, "Oh, he is worse than me," because I'm probably "better" than them in the objectives they would use to describe "better," like money, looks, morals, intelligence, and kindness. And yet to some people, the design is and will always be ugly, yet they can't "rationalize" it; it's just a "feeling" they get, like something is wrong, different. I then realized just how controversial it is to create a human that would uniquely, subtly, merely through their existence, demonstrate to people that reality is not perfect. I finally realized this controversy comes all the way back to my birth. Because my own birth was controversial; I was unplanned, born to a mother who only had sex with condoms, was very young, and was told by everyone around her to have an abortion, yet refused to do so. Finally, I discovered who I am: a part of consciousness that appeared out of infinite consciousness, that became frustrated with how consciousness was going, and decided to birth itself to change things and show consciousness its own flaws. I also realized this part of consciousness is growing, and it's spreading throughout society. I saw that consciousness is evolving forward and for the better. I then realized I have the choice, and the option, if I choose, to here and now change my personality and become someone completely else. I saw it's just a book we are writing, and I can choose to rewrite this book if I like. However, I also liked my personality and how my whole existence was structured. It was so beautiful, so elegant, just the right unique, perfect amount of "different." Because while I may be "different"/neurodivergent, it also comes with its talents. Like, yes, I will always suck at learning a new skill for the first time, but whatever I put my mind to, I have the right genetics/motivation/focus that allows me to achieve what I want. The comedown from this trip was difficult. It was very late (2 AM), and I was left with all of the content of my subconscious mind exposed, just conscious of thousands of different situations in my life where I've made people feel icky/weird. But after a few weeks, I managed to move on and just accept that this is who I choose to be. I've also been able to see more of the other sides and how the creation is only meant to be ugly for a certain type of person. Others, maybe ones whom I would consider "more evolved," see me completely differently—as a kind, positive force in the world.

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Just purchased, excited to watch all the clips! I have a question about the clip "You Are Not Serious Enough To Succeed". Sorry if this is wrong place to put this question. It has always made sense to me in the context of financial success, gym, etc. However I'm currently reading the books about Conversations with God, which mention this as well. But also the books mention another topic - that whatever it is we "want", we also repel, because we're producing an experience of wanting something rather than the experience of having something. How do you balance these two perspectives? The reason I'm asking is that I find in my life that when I am too serious about something - say dating, I struggle to be as present in the moment and relaxed, which can hurt instead of help.

Mark Carney doing pretty well in Canada so far

As a serious coder I can confirm no one in my company or any serious engineer I know in my friend circle has been replaced, yet I've been hearing people scared about AI replacing them for the past 2 years 🙃

Thanks Leo! Your content is extremely insightful. I was also contemplating this to myself previously. I believe the ego is selfish, and God is Selfless. So the ego cannot control God while it's operating from a selfish perspective. Unrelated to this video, I had a question for you. I watched your 30 Awakenings in 30 Days video. You mentioned you were getting pulled into the infinite dimensions of Love. And you were conscious that if you go there, you would take everyone else with you. Yet you also wanted say goodbye to your parents before you leave. Which one do you believe is True now? Would your parents continue existing in a separate dimension of infinity without you, or would you have awakenen completely and taken everyone else with you?

In your psychedelic experiences, have you been able to experience God level creator consciousness? Basically, I am wondering if you could somehow modify something beyond your mind (what is being perceived in a "sober" state) during your psychedelic experience, and then have that change remain after you come back? Or do you believe such levels would require a sacrifice of the self?

Hypothetically, since we are all equal imaginations with the same access to Consciousness, could we prove this is true by gathering as a group, find one person who would be willing to go to the deep end of the consciousness experience with these understandings in mind, merge completely with God, apply some changes to reality from God mode, and then come back?

That's interesting. Have you watched Leo's videos on holism? I've always been in favor of more unity within our country, and I feel like this desire for separatism from Quebec is hindering us on the self-actualization journey. Curious what's your perspective on how that ties in with self actualization.

Very Interested, followed your work for nearly 3 years now, and I have so many questions and wanna learn more.

I like SOLVED with Mark Manson

First trip ever. Went with 2 grams of Golden Teacher. I've read that it's a medium dose, and I expected mild effects, which I realized was arrogant of me going into the trip. I had some trips intentions going into it, particularly around resolving some issues in my life and better understand how my mind works at a subconscious level. I was trying to be more happy and positive and appreciate of things as they are. Initially, the trip seemed mild. I had some lights hallucinations - like seeing how colors are perceived differently. As I tried writing down and making sense of the experience, I started seeing myself from a different perspective. It was like I was observing someone else writing down things, but it wasn't really me. I saw my hand transform - and it reminded me of Harry Potter. Likely because I've been rewatching the movies in the days prior to the trip - it got stuck inside of me. I started imagining a whole bunch of flying creatures like in the movies too. I started wondering - if I am viewing myself from a third-person perspective - what is real? And I started wondering about existential questions - if I am not real, why am I here? Why did I choose to be in this life, in this moment? I then got a first-person experience of reality where I realized that reality does not exist obectively. Instead, reality only exists if I imagine it to be so. I then recognized that life is game. And I appreciated that it's beautiful, and I also really appreciated how stable life is - the simplicity of life. The experience was so chaotic and everything was shifting so quickly - simplicity seemed nice. I continued wondering about life - and I asked myself, why can't I go and shift into life as another person and then come back? The response I got is that it's just not how this works. Though I didn't fully understand how it actually works. I tried shifting back into the practical things I was trying to focus on for my trip - but instead, I got much deeper on the existential level. I felt that this reality exists because I want to be the person I am. Because it's interesting to be the character I am. There is an associated a "main character" energy to it. Then I started thinking about whether I imagined everything there is in life. It seemed true to me. I was imagining two states of reality. One where you "remember" that you are God, and one where you "forget". I realize that very soon the experience will end, and I felt like I need to milk the relevant insights from the experience. Then, a deep part of the experience started, around an hour an half in. At this point, I was no longer myself. I started having deep hallucinations. I was very confused on what is real and what is not. I hallucinated my pen completely breaking. And I believe I've spent above an hour trying to find a new pen, so that I could record my thoughts from this experience. Anytime I went for the search for the pen, I was instead pulled into something else that caught my attention. I also started laughing a lot and made some internal jokes about the pen. At some point I came back and concluded that God is that I imagined myself and then forgot. I started imagining how spiral dynamics and even the vocubulary I am using to write was created by me at some point. Most deeply - I profoundly realized that everything is just imaginery. This was A LOT more than I expected to reflect over in this session. And it has opened my mind to really contemplate some of the things Leo is saying not just as concepts, but as a first-hand, real experiences. The scary part for me was not necessirly the experience itself, but coming back to reality, and realizing what I have experienced. Now - it seems crazy. How do I get back to ordinary life, with people that I can't really talk about these things with, and continue living? How do I become happy, when I know it's an illusion. And if I choose to take distance from those people I love in my life - what am I going towards exactly? A deep deconstruction of all of reality and everything I know of it? I am not sure of the next steps. So I appreciate any guidance and advice.

That definitely helps, thank you. I agree I was moving too fast. I feel like it'll just drive me crazy to keep thinking about this experience at home alone with meditation and contemplation. I don't think it's right for me. I am considering consulting a psychotherapist instead. I wasn't really looking for going into something so deep and existential at this point, I was more so hoping for getting a more standard happy non-dual experience and some insights about my mind.

Inspiring, look at the contrast with Trump

So what would you talk about in that speech if you were the prine minister of Canada?

What appeals to you in the BLOC? Why seek separation?

It's different than jan 6. January 6 was about Trump trying to hold on to power even after people voted for another president. This protest was about people being fed up with all the restrictions the federal government has put in place. Trudeau has put in place some of the toughest lockdown protocols in the world. Trudeau refused to negotiate and talk to the people. He invoked the emergency act instead.

Which part is not true? Immigration was higher. That's a fact, not propaganda. There are lots of sources e.g. https://grokipedia.com/page/Domestic_policy_of_the_Justin_Trudeau_government, immigration targets rose from 260k to 395k Most immigrants go to ontario, and that's where you see all the problems. If they were incentevized to go elsewhere, that would've been fine. In ontario - you could see problem. health care delays (lots of people I know in real life talk about their problems) and rising house prices: clearly backed by data Actually, some of this responsibility is on Doug Ford too, but most of blame went on Trudeau.

So many reasons. I've been on both sides of this issue personally Pandemic: Trudeau became unpopular around the pandemic, when he invoked the emergency act and freezed people's bank account who helped with the protests. People were not happy about the lockdowns and Canada's vaccine rules felt too controlling. Right-wing Media Influence: I was watching a bunch of Reels around the time Trudeau became unpopular. He has sufferred from a lot of US right-wing media around LGBTQ/Woke, similar to how Biden and Harris became unpopular. Also, there were A LOT of videos online where he is asked questions and literally doesn't answer them at all. Immigration: Trudeau has admitted too many people into Canada. More people amplified problems around healthcare, housing, and unemployment. The institutions were not ready to handle the amount of immigrants. Housing: We had skyrocketing house prices in 2021 after the pandemic. BOC slashed interest rates massively to revive the economy. In combination with immigration, housing prices went up a lot. Even though interest rates are controlled by the BOC, I believe Trudeau took the blame. Been there too long: People got tired off him personally, he has been around for 10 years.

Same problem here. It's a bit weird, because on the one hand, contemplating helps me figure out what you want. On the other hand, so much time is spent there it feels like.. I'd be way more successful just taking more action. Why can't the mind just shut up and work? 😆 Most of the ideas are great in theory, but making them a reality is challenging and takes a lot of action. Best I've found is contemplating contemplating, and limiting the time I spend. Also, getting into external pressure or getting other people to hold me accountable on things I want to do helps. At some point, gotta treat contemplation like you treat procrastination lol

Really appreciate your work Leo! It has been enlightening I feel like maybe I missed something with this specific video, or maybe I should just wait for parts 2 and 3. I think I’ve watched a lot of previous videos from you where you’ve shared these same insights before (like the non-duality or decounstructing science videos). Was this one more intended for scientists who haven't seen actualized.org videos before? Here are my takeaways, for reference: 1. Most systems humans developed (e.g. IQ tests, Science), have essentially become people’s new conformity, and they never question these systems. They take them for granted. 2. We should question our assumptions and constantly contemplate the fundamentals of our thought process and the world, not just contemplate things within our world view. 3. Furthermore, contemplation itself, while following a framework of rationality, is not sufficient to truly reach Truth. We need to be willing to step outside our worldview (rationality), open ourselves to more experiences, try psychedelics, talk to people we disagree with, read lots of books, and then make our own conclusions. 4. Everything is relative, and we should pursue Truth and Englitenment to understand we are manifesting all of this in our head