LambdaDelta

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    Lately each of my nightly dream sessions is a psychedelic trip unto itself. When falling asleep, I get a moderately intense ringing in my ears, and a feeling of sinking into the bed, or more accurately my mind. 

    This began after about a year of daily use of Zolpidem for making the dreams more vivid. At some point I decided to quit, and after a difficult period of re-learning to fall asleep on my own, a new dimension opened up. Chemical-enhanced dreams don't hold a candle to the ones I get now. 

    Whether it's slipping into total delirium, exploring the fluidity of consciousness, using Leo's voice to narrate insights to myself, previewing small snippets of the future, or tapping into bottomless creativity to generate and watch entire YouTube channels filled to the brim with impeccably edited multi-hour essays on topics of interest, there's never a dull time. This last point about creativity is particularly valuable, currently I have little conscious control or understanding of how I'm doing any of this, but if I can get some grasp of the mechanics, great things can come from it. 

    Tonight in my dream I took ketamine, tripped for a bit, woke up, and continued tripping despite being completely sober. That's some freaky stuff, feels beyond lucid dreaming, like the line between several very different states of consciousness is dissolved, creating a unique blend. 

    You spend 1/3 of your day sleeping, so use that time productively ;)

  2. Posted

    21 minutes ago, AION said:

    So how are you going to get your stuff after your stash is out?

    It is too large to be seriously concerned about that for the next 5-7 years. Where there's a will there's a way. I can keep stocking up a select few substances with spare change over time, depending on how the situation evolves. Also there's always darknet markets; I have my preferences, but in the end there's almost nothing that can't be done with the classics like mushrooms and LSD, those will always be available. Lastly by the time I do run out, I plan to be financially comfortable enough to afford a custom synthesis. I may also die long before that or quit psychedelics.

  4. Posted

    Repetition is now inevitable, I also noticed lots of overlap in the high/low perspectives video with old content, especially in the examples. Initially it drove me nuts, but it's hard to come up with fresh poignant examples every time. I've reframed it as driving home important points so that they stick nice and hard. That's pretty much the point of the shift to epistemology foundations, it's no use teaching more advanced stuff till proper sense-making is internalized completely. It's a sort of prelude to the subconscious reprogramming course (whatever happened to that btw?)

  7. Posted · Edited by LambdaDelta

    https://www.rijksoverheid.nl/actueel/nieuws/2025/01/28/eerste-kamer-stemt-voor-designerdrugsverbod

    Effective on July 1, 2025. 6 months remain.

    Netherlands is the largest, for all intents and purposes only producer of research chemicals and even many classic already illegal psychedelics in the EU.

    While at the moment this amendment largely targets trashy substances (stimulants, synthetic cannabinoids) for junkies, some good phenethylamines such as the 2C-x class are also affected. The law also allows for expedited banning of entire substance groups in the future, no more year-long debates. Last but not least, a lot of vendors are expected to shut down, as said trashy substances make up a large portion of their revenue. The most prominent lab in the EU, Lizard Labs, responsible for producing pretty much all tryptamines and dissociatives on the market has closed last month. The US will also be affected, even though Canada has its own largely independent RC market, it's not as diverse, so expect even less variety and higher prices. I expect plenty of analogues to pop up regardless, but they're getting progressively worse as legal options run out. 

    I've stocked up on pretty much everything I could want and put it into deep freeze, that way I can't be caught off guard. If you care and can afford it, consider doing the same, especially if liquidation discounts come up.

  8. Posted

    2 minutes ago, Terell Kirby said:

    Yeah-but it's essentially targeting a marginalized group. Lacks empathy for trans, and sets a pretty egregious precedence.

    Of course it's bad. Basically everything he does lacks empathy and sets terrible precedents. I'm just saying purely by the volume of people this is going to negatively impact, it's relatively minor. Even another trans-related policy of only putting the birth sex in IDs may have broader consequences for the future.

  11. Posted · Edited by LambdaDelta

    Trump needs to fulfill at least some of the campaign promises he made, and is going for the low-hanging fruit. He personally doesn't care, it's a boon for his ideological voters. 

    This is probably one of the least harmful policies. It's estimated around 15k trans people are in the military, out of like 1.3M, or ~1%, it's a negligible difference. Moreover, army people in general tend to be around SD solid blue with some orange. While I haven't seen concrete reports of trans being bullied in the US army, people with that level of development will generally be at least somewhat uncomfortable with them. 65% of veterans voted Trump in 2024, and there's been many videos of barracks cheering at the news of his win, it's a safe assumption they share a lot of positions.

    For now this is fine. When we evolve a little, it can be brought back. But the approach has to be balanced. For instance I wouldn't want a platoon being trained to participate in active warzones to soften their regiment to adjust to the needs of a single female to male member (obviously if they can keep up it's all good), like school classes are sometimes slowed down for the lowest common denominator. The military has tons of jobs to fill, if you put trans people in some command center to intercept missiles, there's no issues whatsoever.

  12. Posted · Edited by LambdaDelta

    I've noticed an interesting pattern. Almost every one of the best experiences of my life has been some form of death. There's good reason for that, death is nothing other than dissolution into Love and Unity. A true state of Being.

    I compiled a list of examples:

    1. Dying as Mozart while writing the last bars of Lacrimosa. Hauntingly beautiful.

    2. Having an actual NDE from harmala poisoning after taking a large DMT dose. In my estimation I was pretty close to kicking the bucket, pain and sweating so immense I blacked out several times. After some time of that I experienced an hour of intense bliss, joy, and marvel, rolling around on the floor laughing.

    3. Reaching out to my teacup amidst a hard trip and feeling a deep connection, Love. Fusing our essences that have been temporarily separated by the illusion or forms. We're made of the same substance, that realization got me incredibly emotional.

    4. Suffering a psychotic break where my identity was completely deconstructed, and then living as several distinct identities, those of people I know or fictional characters, it did not matter. Their thoughts, memories, experiences, beliefs became my own. The idea of my old self was not present at all.

    5. Lying on the bathroom floor, turning over to my back, accepting the real possibility I could choke to death on vomit, and choosing to experience merging with the floor, the sewage system, the surface of the planet, the space around, the sun, all of it.

    6. Being in such Stillness that all sensory perceptions and thoughts cease, it wouldn't be inaccurate to say I was dead in that moment.

    Now, if I were to die a violent death, I probably wouldn't like it very much in the moment. Then again, it depends on the state of consciousness and perception. Another related example is inducing a delirious state to overcome my deep childhood fear of being eaten alive by giant snakes, surrendering completely to that and ultimately becoming the snake; although there's no 'physical' danger, it's indistinguishable from reality. That went well and the fear is no more. 

    It's a recurring theme that Love is concealed behind a thick wall of fear. What you fear is yourself, the magnitude of it is terrifying. Surrender, surrender, surrender! Remove the reverse gear and move forward with a smile, excited at what lies ahead.

    [Not medical advice, don't put yourself in unnecessary danger and so on. Use intelligence.]

    It doesn't need to be so drastic either, there's hundreds of micro-deaths one can experience every day. While quitting a bad habit, each time you say no to it, that part of your identity slowly dies by starving to death. Letting go of needing to be right, facing embarrassment, changing your mind, saying goodbye, leaning into discomfort, apologizing, staying humble, living in the present moment; it's all the same. 

  16. Posted

    5 minutes ago, Kairos said:

    Using dark net is also not safe also laws here regarding darknet are harsh .

    Wdym extract for yourself ? You know how to do that ? 😂🕴️

    Darknet is quite safe if you follow correct opsec procedures, nor does LE usually go after small time buyers. You know your local laws better, but that's usually how it is. In certain ways it's safer than an extraction where you can get chemical burns. I have extracted other substances in the past, it can be quite fun. Don't need to do that for DMT since I can get a pure synthetic version, but there's plenty of guides on DMT-Nexus, using different precursors.
    https://wiki.dmt-nexus.me/Category:Extraction_Tek#DMT

  18. Posted

    26 minutes ago, Kairos said:

    How do y'all buy all these psychedelic stuff .Where I live it's illegal 

    Is there still a way to access it ? 

    Sure is, unless you live in the Middle East, SEA and such. DMT is illegal pretty much in the entire world. You can buy some on darknet markets or even extract it yourself. 

  19. Posted

    40 minutes ago, James123 said:

    Definitely. That's why I choose the long trip and instead of short trip.

    You're extremely lucky to have no tolerance with mushrooms. For most of us by the 4th redose the amounts would have to be astronomical to compensate, making it unfeasible. Hence alternative methods have to be designed.

  20. Posted

    4 minutes ago, James123 said:

    Have you ever experience great madnessness?

    Sure, and I plan to get some more in the future. It's great. Not in the moment though, then you're like "fuck, go back", but there's no more reverse gear. Afterwards it's always recontextualized into something valuable. Insanity and Chaos are underappreciated aspects of God. 

  21. Posted

    10 minutes ago, James123 said:

    Of course, it is dangerous. Specially, going crazy while you are the floor lol? It is just leads to the open minded. Can you imagine knowing the perspective of Floor? Meanwhile people do not even understand each other.

    If you're the floor, you should feel deep joy from fulfilling your life purpose when people step on you. I wonder how's that.

  22. Posted

    10 minutes ago, Daniel Balan said:

    I disagree! That way you allow for piracy. And therefore renders your work valueless if you allow everybody to download it on their machine. It only takes one bad person to spread it all online for free or for a reduced price. 

    I'm not saying the provider/owner should provide direct downloads of files, it's their prerogative to apply whatever protections they wish. Pretty much any such system is easily circumvented though, and as you said it only takes one person to do so. Piracy is a much deeper issue, there's no simple solutions to it. It's up to each person to decide what level of integrity they wish to maintain, what they're prepared to do and what's going too far. It's entirely possible to acquire the content legally, make a backup for yourself, and never share it with anyone, that would be a balanced approach. 

  23. Posted

    5 minutes ago, RightHand said:

    I had a difficult trip where I felt like God forced me to keep my eyes open. Like

    "Mother fucker, I'm communicating to you using your whole bubble of experience, LOOK AT YOUR ROOM"

    I had this naive notion that ego death was just me surrendering to my body sensations. 

    ---

     

    Thoughts ?

     

    That's a valuable experience too. Same structure as having to absorb all evils before breaking through to Love. Once I was also forced to look at myself in the mirror, and the more I refused the more weight piled up on me forcing me to my knees. By making you look around, God could be trying to make you see it all as your Being. I generally trip purely within headspace nowadays, it's more efficient than anything sensory, concepts arise directly in the mind. But just recently on a hard trip I reached out to my teacup, and through touch felt such a deep connection to it, pure Unity and Love, we're made of the same substance. That's a nice technique to practice even while sober. 

  24. Posted

    4-AcO-DMT will take you for a ride largely outside of your control. 4-HO-MET is lighter, but still with decent headspace which you can direct; excessive visuals may be distracting, closed eyes are recommended, which's not ideal if you want to write things down. 5-MeO-MIPT does not work on me, based on people's experiences seems like a decent candidate. For uninhibited contemplation I tend to use dissociatives.