LambdaDelta

It's still daytime in Murica, hope's not dead yet, but I have to go sleep soon

But can you trust your vision? And other senses.

Indra's Net everywhere indeed. Best part is how it can go from 0% content to 100 within a structure of nothingness Oh yes, for Umi the anime is inadequate. VNs with PS3 mods is the way. I love Higurashi animes too, actually preferrable to the novels as they exclude a lot of unnecessary slice of life. Some stars definitely aligned over here. Also my previous reply was #34, lambda = 30, delta = 4, would you look at that.

God wanted to be stupid for once And tiny bits of our DNA can encode exabytes of data! None of the 3 is actually LambdaDelta lol, but I just love that pic. The fusion ended up real nice. Maybe you'd enjoy Umineko btw, it's one of the most meta works of fiction out there. Assuming you got a bunch of time to spare. Speaking of synchronicity, I've been reminded of one of my fave remixes Now if you'll excuse me I'll go attempt to visualize a square circle, got a burst of inspiration. The first step towards alien mind, gotta make the best I can of time w/o access to psychedelics, all hopefully as a foundation for the craziest trip I have planned.

I bought my apartment nearly a year ago, which might not yet be the 'ideal' home, but I'm fairly low maintenance, so it will more than suffice for the next 10-15 years at least. The essentials will partly depend on location, your lifestyle, etc. But for me I found an RO system for water filtration is a must, living without one is like going back to dark ages. Another indispensable thing is reflective film on my windows, I've another house right in front, so when it's daytime from the street it's a mirror, feels private without the need for blinds, and at night the opposite, turns into a mirror from the inside (cool when tripping). Plus it filters UV and reduces the heat a bit, very important for how hot it gets in central Spain. Also all my lamps are LED, adjustable color temperature and brightness + remote controlled. Some have a fan on them. Wooden floor is definitely nice too, I don't have to clean it as often and usually walk barefoot even in winter. I got the fastest internet available, 10gbps, and organized every cable such that they're nearly invisible. Then there's an infinity of little things that in their totality make up a lot of my comfort and convenience - a kettle that you can set and maintain certain temperature for, a sponge holder in my sink, numerous hangers for small towels all around, an anti-fog mirror in the bathroom, workout equipment, extendable coffee table, foldable buckets, and so on. I can highly recommend getting a couch with a reclining mechanism, they're fairly inexpensive these days and super comfy, we got one for mom's house recently, and now I want to replace the regular one I have with that at some point. I sleep on the floor, no bed, but have a good memory foam mattress that's just 8cm thick, and a proper orthopedic pillow. I use percale cotton sheets, they have a nice texture, perfect for sleeping naked, and don't get dirty easily. Lastly, I picked a relatively quiet neighborhood, but with close proximity to metro, buses, and lots of infrastructure nearby (gyms, supermarkets, pharmacies). I get the benefits of living in a large city without much of the negatives, except perhaps air quality. When I'm older a separate house somewhere up north or in another country altogether would be ideal, but that comes with its own set of challenges and a lot of what I'd want in it would also change. Good luck with your planning, just don't get lost in fantasyland too much and actually make the moneys for that dream place

That's awesome, just the right kind of trippy, thanks for brightening my evening! Somehow I made the cut Guess you used alien intelligence if you really learned to edit like that in a few hours. I accessed that shit once, and holy fuck was it easy to learn human stuff in minutes though hyper-holistic understanding, but I was too busy being amazed and didn't actually retain anything lol Love how everyone got a fitting role, i.e. DocWatts as the teacher

At this point I've had several deep awakenings to solipsism and its mechanisms, but perhaps at the cost of ever having a romantic/intimate relationship. It just feels so strange now. As to why this type of relationship specifically and not others, I can think of a couple reasons - one is simply force of habit, prior to the awakenings I've had lots of experience with family, friendship, and regular social interactions, but never anything beyond short-lived school crushes. Two is I never particularly craved that type of relationship to begin with, I'm 23 and never had a girlfriend, which doesn't bother me at all. Three is the unique intimacy these entail. I'm also highly introverted, but have no trouble interacting with people after doing lots of development work. I find it's generally simpler to talk to men, but women are just fine too in normal contexts. Whereas with 'game', after watching Leo's 3-part series and some other pickup advice out of curiosity, I've found no way to make it authentic for myself. Put together, these factors now make romantic relationships seem very alien (speaking from the dualistic human perspective here). I'm open to the possibility this is all a bias/limiting belief in my head, though I'm completely certain I have no hidden insecurities about my looks or social skills, so it's not that kind of problem. In my latest trip I pretty much accepted that it's a sacrifice I had to make to experience God's Love, one I'd gladly give a million times over as nothing 'earthly' can compare. Not looking for a solution per se, but I am interested how others with similar spiritual experiences handle this aspect of their lives, might give me a missing hint, as I wouldn't want to miss out on something potentially nice due to ignorance. Thanks for reading.

The world is names and signs, in truth it's He Whose being is its sole reality. This world, the world to come, and all besides, Are Him; know this, that nothing else abides. There is one essence, but diffused, deflected, There is one word, but variously inflected; A man must know the King, and recognize Him, Although a hundred different clothes disguise Him; It's not an error, in this way to see Him, Since He is all, and everything must be Him — The error's when a man presumes to state That what he sees and God are separate. Men fear You, but I fear my Self; this devil Replaces all the good You give with evil! - Attar. Could basically paste the entire prologue to The Conference of the Birds here, it's all amazing. Beloved, I sought you here and there, asked for news of you from all I met; then saw you through myself and found we were identical. Now I blush to think I ever searched for signs of you. - Fakhr al-Din Iraqi

True, had the same experience through an NDE with excruciating physical pain, then bliss followed. I think of it more like a one-off rite of passage, not necessary to go through it every time, these days I can surrender (deeply) almost on command and in daily life I'm far more peaceful too, but to a more limited degree as to not harm survival, which I'm still interested in for now.

Stuff like muscle tension, tingling, and similar tactile sensations. It's far less pronounced than stuff like 2C-E or DOB, but moreso compared to shrooms. I cannot speak to the effectiveness of the combo while microdosing, as I only did that with standalone LSD 20ug without clear effects, so I stopped it. There's no harm in trying, could also work well for you. I meant in actual trips, it doesn't make much sense to mix, 200-300ug of good acid will overpower anything below 5g of dried shrooms.

It's really difficult to get it right, I also assumed it didn't work but kept pushing nonetheless till getting somewhere. Particularly off a simple meth pipe it's challenging to get proper effects unless you're a frequent user of that ROA, which I'm not. A guy on Reddit suggested a promising method he documeted, though it involves Salvinorin A extraction and the need for owning an emesh setup. https://www.reddit.com/r/Salvia/comments/1dslfqq/salvinorin_emesh_vape_drops/ Should lead to more accurate dosing, reliably getting effects, and get rid of that awful taste. I'll use it for my Salvinorin B ethoxymethyl ether and see how that goes.

LSD lasts much longer, has a more noticeable body load (there's such a thing as LSD shits, the next day expect to be on the toilet a fair bit), while mushrooms is mostly all mind. I feel like LSD is more versatile and tend to use it when I want to reach some truth, contemplate, or create. It's can also act as a powerful entactogen and has surprised me on one occasion with a release of hidden trauma. The longer duration helps with that, though past, say, 6-7 hours you'll reach a plateau/slow comedown which will mostly just be annoying, so I kill it with benzos after getting what I need from the trip. Mushrooms are not as direct, as if they jump all over the place without really giving you time to fully grasp a given insight. I use them for lighther, more 'recreational' trips of experiencing unity and stuff like that. Still very powerful though. As for taking them together, I wouldn't recommend. It's not harmful or anything, but LSD will most probably simply overpower the shrooms, not create a meaningful synergy.

Seems you already got this down, but essentially go into it with an explorer mindset, treating it a bit like an excursion. Wherever you end up, it's all par for the course. I find this helps with unpredictable ones like salvia. Also be aware that the vapor is absolutely disgusting, but you'll have to bear with it and hold in as long as possible for best effect. If the onset is not too immediate, you might have time to at least eat a piece of fruit or something to offset the aftertaste.

Just had this bizzare experience of accidentally inducing deliriant effects through meditation, completely sober. I don't meditate often nor use a particular technique, this time it was a simple combination of relaxation, breathing and awareness to the best of my ability. Prior state of mind wasn't any different than usual and I didn't set any intentions, but perhaps it manifested subconsciously as I have an interest in experiencing such states. This first taste was really spooky though, totally different from your regular hallucinations, paranoia, and even psychosis, which I have a decent amount of experience of through psychedelics and other substances. It's too realistic, the only vague indication I got that it was going in that direction was an intense ear ringing at the beginning, similar to high doses of dissociatives, but soon after there was no telling what's real or not. Saw things on the ceiling (like a snake crawling through a vent above me, yet I have no vent anywhere near), heard all manner of noises, talked to family members (I'm alone), even appeared in a different room, one I used to live in years ago, which didn't even seem strange, but the door was off the hinges and when I went to open it, there was someone behind with a malicious vibe, which startled me, I fell back and snapped out of it. At this point I'm very comfortable with nightmares, being killed in them and whatnot, thanks to the aforementioned psychedelic experiences. It's not so nice in the moment, but later always recontextualized into an interesting event, with something to learn from. This will too, but it's still a totally different beast from all the prior ones, I was totally taken aback by how utterly the mind's capacity to tell reality from fantasy fell apart. Not in a "I experienced unity with everything and it was the most real thing ever" kind of way, nor like dissos deconstruct all your cognitive filters. Even when you're having a bad trip, as long as you remember you took something that eases things a lot. But if you don't, that's when trouble can happen. In this case I took nothing, so the reaction was a surprise. There were horror elements to it, curious how you basically never hear of positive delirium experiences, like visiting rainbowland with fun talking animals or something. I guess because having an accurate perception of reality (by human standards) is foundational to survival, so at the first sign of that destabilizing the mind spirals into fear, negativity, and such. Anyhoo, just wanted to document this before I forget the details. Peace out.

https://ottawacitizen.com/news/local-news/uottawa-launches-worlds-first-masters-degree-in-psychedelics-and-consciousness-studies That's pretty cool, nice to see these things going more mainstream

Do most American voters even know who the VP is at any time? Publicity wise it's such a disproportionately obscure role, at least that's the impression I get as an outsider. In the 4 years of the admin I've heard her mentioned on international news only a couple times, mostly Ukraine related. I also check USA news sources occasionally, can't recall much about her there either. Same with Pence during Trump. Doesn't help both are totally uncharismatic. As such, the Dems will have to really work hard if they want to push Kamala through. No stalling, endless back and forth, arguments over trivial things, etc. as they like to do. Whether they're able to unite like that in time, who knows. Whatever happens, interesting times ahead. Republicans should start playing this clip as much as they can. They've an undeniable advantage with that stage Red boldness, resorting to smear campaigns and blatant misinformation definitely helps lure in the average uninformed voter. Dems have a bit more integrity which plays against them.

I've understood at the big picture level what I am and what's reality, therefore fulfilling my meta life purpose, one I've been inexplicably drawn to since I was little. That's what I'd call implicit omniscience, having an understanding of the structure and root principles. The explicit omniscience of all the content (every single event, mechanism, manifestation of consciousness) doesn't interest me much, but that doesn't mean I'll stop learning. The exploration of consciousness and refinement of my understanding of it will continue for as long as I live, but now I can allow myself to be biased in that and choose what is it I want to do next. Can be exploring a dimension, having an experience, learning a scientific field, acquiring a new skill, doesn't matter. But that's not enough, I also need to find an earthly life purpose, as without one after my awakening I kinda lost the drive to do most things, except simply enjoying the beauty of existence, but can only do that so much, need to balance it with action. As to why not dissolve back into the undifferentiated goo of Infinity, that option is available at any time, will happen eventually anyway, maybe even tomorrow. I can easily die in peace right now, but staying some more in this domain of duality to continue exploring and experiencing it ain't so bad either. I plan to cut back on spirituality for a time, focus on creating and taking actionable steps towards fulfilling a new life purpose, achieving complete financial independence, and engaging with hobbies. Visiting this forum has been one of the many ways to pass the time during this rut I've been in for a while, let's be honest here, maybe like 5% of posts are of any decent quality and provide value, the rest are arguing semantics, speculating, asking stupid questions... last 2 or so weeks I've been visiting much less frequently as well as cutting out other unconscious activities bit by bit, which I'll be doing even more ruthlessly as my schedule begins filling up with better things. So why am I spending time on this reply? Mainly to gather my thoughts and put them into writing, for future reference and accountability.

MDMA is neurotoxic, no wonder it leaves people with bad comedowns. As such it can (/should) only be used rarely, despite being quite effective for this purpose. You might want to try LSD. Almost nothing that little shit can't do. It's actually also a powerful entactogen, that's rarely mentioned, but I was reminded of this fact just a couple days ago when testing the new sheet I bought. At low-ish doses (100 micrograms or so for a regular person), you won't have many visuals getting in the way, and plenty of time to introspect or whatever else you need. Intention, or at least a correct situation are necessary. I wasn't planning on it, but during the trip I had to talk on the phone to my parents, and each conversation led to a powerful trauma release, I cried intensely twice with joy and bitterness, left me feeling much better afterwards. And that was with trauma I didn't even know I had, if you set a concrete intention and laser in on it, I imagine you'll get good results. 4-AcO-DMT is something you can basically only get from Canada or China as it's illegal in the Netherlands which's the RC capital of Europe. It's a powerful psychedelic, but IME it doesn't quite hit the notes you're looking for.

I always get a little jealous reading that people able to trip on such low doses 😔 20mg should still be fine for you, it's much more of a linear increase compared to, say, some 2C-x And it'll certainly have cross tolerance, just as any tryptamine does with any lysergamide

One of my favorites since a long time. I also like this meme version

It's out now. I'll grab the audiobook to start off

Alone in my own apartment, no relationships. Don't see this ever changing, it's amazingly peaceful

Travel lots, dedicate most of my time to spiritual work, learning in various fields, contemplation. Do some charity work, take good care of my health. Being serious or even half-serious about these would fill up my entire schedule.