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What if reality is a manifestation of the Self?

Possible. A full glass shouldn't be that bitter with only 20mg.

It's certainly a less mind heavy psychedelic than those two. There's some empathogen properties and lots of visuals. No body load, uncharacteristically so for the class. Though it's certainly possible to go deep with it. One of my most major awakenings was with 2C-B, though on 120mg. You'll want to do something like 15-20 first time and see how's that. Pills/presses are fine, but they could be underdosed (most are said to be 20mg I believe), and contain potentially harmful adulterants. If possible, always get powder. You can put it in a capsule and swallow. The pure taste is awful.

I wonder how effective most of those would actually be in aerosol form... some vaporize well, but that's not quite the same. Should the ethics not be so much of a concern, there already exist fitting substances: https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/EA-3167 https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/3-Quinuclidinyl_benzilate EA-3167, the anticholinergic deliriant, effective at 200μg and lasting up to 10 days, and a less potent but more researched and versatile BZ/QNB. I'm sure you wanted to explore a more compassionate way for warfare, but who said devilry isn't fun. With such dirty souls, even the 'good' psychedelics are bound to mostly produce bad trips, especially if administered suddenly. There's also the age-old idea to use psychedelics in capital punishment, to not actually send people to prison for 20 years, but make it be perceived as such. Though it's quite fantastical, the most reliable class for time distortion is the salvinorins, and even that is nothing close to consistent.

Sounds awesome, that's what it's all about! Interesting how it happened sober, I've had similarly crazy and unexpected experiences lately, I believe some neuroplasticity is involved there.

Ah, halt thy stride and flee me not, O fair Moon!

No, although granted it's always better to use water where possible. The real issue is alot of DMSO on the market is not up to spec and can therefore be dangerous.

Happy to help! I myself was quite resistant to the volumetric dosing before, but now after powering through the initial confusion it's simplified stuff for me a lot, so I totally get you. Especially for stuff like long term storage, I now prepare a vial and that's at least 10 doses right there, plug and play, before I'd do a procedure like in Leo's video every time I wanted to dose, so inconvenient looking back. Not to mention when the significance of imprecision is in micrograms, not milligrams, there's really no other choice Good luck with your tripping

I believe 5-MeO-DMT isn't active orally, so no. But you could plug it. Either way you'd want to use a syringe for delivery, squishing inside your mouth or rectum The math is really hard to get wrong, say you want a 10mg/ml concentration, and store in a 10ml vial. You'd dissolve 100mg of substance in 10ml of water or whatever, stir, and done. Can be stored in the fridge for better preservation. When plugging, if you need 5mg, take 0.5ml with your 1ml syringe. The entire 1ml for 10mg dose, and so on. If you want to go the insufflation route just be extra careful with measurements, achieving accurate 5mg lines is damn near impossible

I don't have experience with the natural vasodilators, but it makes sense they work, akin to ginger powder before a mushroom/truffle trip to help with the nausea. There's a pharmaceutical vasodilator called Clonidine, and others, that can do the same job. I hear it also helps to reduce the anxiety, though the primary function is eliminating physical discomfort. Personally I don't really notice the vasoconstriction that much during the actual trip, too busy with insights and all that other crap. It's the comedown that becomes annoying. LSD, DOx, 2C-E are all pretty heavy bodyloads. My method is to kill the trip at that point with benzos, the muscle tension relief is pleasurable on its own. Though that might not work so well if you need to function after the trip.

Yes you can do that, for a first time allergy test. I expect 10mg to be rather mild, but who knows. As for powders, there's really nothing scary about them, they're cheaper and more versatile, plus you can properly test them if you wanted. I often use microscoops to dose my powders, it's not wholly accurate, but close enough, especially given I don't care that much about ± a few mg with my low sensitivity. You can prep multiple capsules from a baggie of powder in 15 minutes of work that'll last you months. Or if you really want accuracy, volumetric dosing. Bit more tedious, but it's rather simple actually. Weigh out a decent amount of powder that'll reflect accurately on a scale, 100mg+, then dissolve in a set amount of solvent, with good stirring you'll achieve a precise concentration of X mg/ml, then use a syringe to measure whatever you need and consume orally or boof. Oftentimes water is fine, for most tryptamines HCL it is, except the base ones. Otherwise DMSO, it's suitable for both oral and rectal, or if you're willing to expand to vaping PG/VG, acetone, and so on. I do the volumetric dosage for the super potent ones that are impossible for the scoops or scales, MK-801, or 5-MeO-DMT in your case. Personally I hate insufflation, even if in such tiny amounts it won't harm your nasal passages it still burns and drips.

But you can cause a buffer overflow by sending a payload of psychedelics

Said the Sufi Mansur Al-Hallaj and was promptly executed for heresy. How lucky we are to live in the the modern times, even if it's still the dark ages in many ways Thankfully Truth is a much larger notion, containing all of those and then some, so you "only" need to break your perception insofar as to seize separating everything in your mind, just leave a tiny space for survival Basically how ego death works, you contract to zero which expands you to infinity

Quite well so far. Guess I'm like that monk Leo mentioned

There's subtle differences between the 4-sub tryptamines. Even 4-AcO-DMT, which's said to metabolize into 4-HO-DMT (psilocin) isn't quite the same as doing shrooms. I've used a lot of 4-HO-MET, it is fit for spiritual work, but you'll need to take more than an average dose. My range is 80-100mg, but that's too far for someone with standard sensitivity. 30-35mg or thereabouts should be good for a solid trip. If dosed high enough, the headspace will absolutely be there. It is pretty visual, and since few people tend to go beyond 25mg, that's about all they'll get from it. 4-HO-MiPT is very similar, but it is more potent, so I prefer it now. 4-AcO-DMT is good as well if you can score that. Combining a tryptamine with a dissociative is almost always good synergy, my favorite combo used to be 4-HO-MET with DMXE, with Ket it'll also work, though imo some dissos are cleaner than others. Pellets may or may not be underdosed, it's always best to get powder, but work with what you have.

Heh, nope, no such thing for me, though I'm very glad it's working out for you, sounds lovely. I generate the love required within myself, skipping the middleman so to speak. There's tradeoffs either way

I agree, also sometimes keeping the truth hidden is the most loving course, but on the other hand getting it out of the way once, even if painful, is more freeing. I see, thanks for sharing. For me I believe discovering solipsism has been the final nail on the coffin of romantic relationships. I'd really like to discover an actual reason for those kinds of innate biases, or why for instance wasn't I born an animal or alien. In other words, see the process which infinite intelligence used to determined all that. Of course trouble is once you're in the appropriate state, such trivial questions seize to hold any meaning nor enter your mind. No need for that, it ain't unlucky, they're exactly how I imagined them

In all honesty, your plan was poorly made to begin with. It should have been apparent since high school that you do not have an aptitude for mathematics and such, so why go to Physics? A dream job sure sounds nice, but it's an idea in your head, the reality may differ significantly. For a brief period my dream job was to become an accountant, then first semester of college after a few classes I realized how immensely boring it actually is, nothing like the picture I envisioned. The fact that you're now going to remain a loser after failing the degree is also something your mind has constructed. Are you a prophet? The future is fluid, and can change a lot in unexpected ways. Maybe when (IF) you're 35 and working at McDonald's barely able to afford rent in some shithole, revisit the suicide route. But right now your situation is not a dead end at all, in fact it's likely going to feel liberating once the initial depression wave passes. Hold tight and try ro recontextualize it into a positive. Few other things, there's no need to beat yourself up for repeating the same mistakes, in fact that's the best way to deeply learn a lesson for many people, you step into the same pile of shit over and over, and finally decide enough is enough, that determination will be so strong it'll hold for life. Also, practically speaking, an average sociologist has better employability prospects than an average physicist. You'd have to really excel to achieve the prestige you wanted, so simply passing a class wouldn't have made a difference in the end.

Have you perchance explored the reasons for that? I ask cause for me it's the exact opposite, holds zero value. My inquiries as to the cause have been unfruitful thus far. Could just say it's my bias/I'm born different, but I'd like to be more rigorous than that. Said the same to my parents, and that I'd also choose it over my life. Weren't fine with that, still love them though

Precisely, I've been in a playful mood to consciously explore the aperspectival madness since the PM video. We basically agree on everything, I just chose that style for my responses haha You hoarded them all If I interpreted it correctly, yep. As my intellectual understanding deepens, the emotional rift grows further. I no longer experience the world from those states, they're more like concepts at the back of my mind. That's the burden of higher awareness, it's on you to bridge the gap. Which's why I can outwardly seamlessly interact with all sorts of people (basically channeling/translating whatever is required in context), but internally it doesn't feel authentic (I'd be in the looney bin otherwise. Or on this forum), so it can be energetically taxing. It's like the difference between a chameleon that can camouflage really well, but its essence remains, and Teotl, that can completely shift into any other mode of being. In human mode the chameleon is about as good as you can realistically hope to be. Paradoxically though my empathy and compassion are at all time highs, probably because whatever challenges I'm facing, the other states have it harder, without even knowing why. But anyhoo I rambled on long enough. Absolutely

Probably true, to me it seems like 70/30 to Harris rn, Trump has fallen off massively, ironically he's now the low-energy Biden. Not even fun to watch his antics anymore, only bs remains.

You can, I meant in a more abstact sense, given the concept of ownership (incl. over one's body) is made up, we're everything, yet nothing. The "you're already enlightened" sort of perspective, which granted doesn't help so much with the work nor survival, but fun to think about. True enough, though there's no such thing as a lower stage attitude when you yourself are at such a stage, you aren't construct aware. Still a pain in the ass, but in a different way. I sometimes wonder about 'ignorance is bliss', it's been so long I forgot how it's like to live from that perspective, can only observe it in others. Sweet, so when can we expect to quit Leo's cult and join yours? coralized.org has a nice ring to it. Have not, but I will soon.

Maybe so, but it's effective

Or frame it like that, one of the base requisites for being a psychonaut is to die. What is losing really? Can you actually lose anything, or gain? Why's it matter to transform the world? (yes I'm kinda abusing postmodernism for fun, but it's something to contemplate in spare time) Ironically my summer break has been full of human bs and business, the real vacation will begin next week in some whacky hellish realm. Looking forward to more of your writeups. True, Leo's videos are an Awakening cheat code. Though once in a while it's very beneficial to forget it all and stray off to some untrodden path.

Speaking of, there's a promising new tryptamine, 5-EtO-DMT, currently at R&D. Said to be longer lasting than 5-MeO-DMT and active orally, same dosages. As nothing 5-MeO- seems to have an effect on me, hopefully this one will, so I can finally see what all the fuss is about.