LambdaDelta

Curiosity killed the cat, but satisfaction brought it back

Yes, crush with mortar & pestle or some such for more even distribution and better solubility. Also get a scale, way more accurate than the scoops (at 20mg+). I only use scoops when eyeballing stuff without caring for precise dosage, otherwise scale or volumetric solution for tiny amounts. 0.4ml @ 5% is like 20mg, for 10mg 5MD theoretically you need around 3mg acetic acid, let's say 7-10 in practice, so half of current. No big issue with excess, but really just extra burn. Can use a calculator for reference: https://github.com/orchidist/nexus-calculators/blob/support-hydration/html-calculators/salt-converter.html Rather than longer contact you want more stirring, smaller xtals, and very gentle heat. But ideally get a salt for rectal, which can also be injected, and stick to vaping for freebase. 3cm is around the optimal spot. I use a ziptie between the 0.4-0.5ml marks of a 1ml syringe, quicker and stabler than wrapping rubbers. These doggystyle and other weird Kamasutra poses are entirely unnecessary, best is simply standing; stay relaxed and use some lube, nothing flows out and absorbs perfectly. I use the whole 1ml even if substance can be dissolved in less. Boofing used to be a shit ROA for me until i switched to this method. This applies to any substance, not just opis: https://www.reddit.com/user/WeirdOneTwoThree/comments/98o55b/guide_to_per_rectal_administration_of_opiates/ IME cleansing isn't necessary, just take a shit and fast for a bit.

Wait till you start feeling like an outsider here too 🤣

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That is fine, the awakening peaks simply supplanted the old ones; imagination kicked up an order of magnitude, so did the baseline. A bitshift like 1 << 1. Either way any awakenings you have out here are kids' stuff next to the 'final' merger into Infinity, so comps lose their sense of scale when zoomed out/in far enough. It's an ongoing finetuning, only lately starting to approach optimal. No reason others couldn't do the same, at least to some extent. Helps thinking about this mathematically.

Hmm, it's more like a phase IME, provided integration is done correctly. Had that for 1.5-2 years on and off, to the point of recklessness and suicidality (those are potentially still lurking in the future for you 😊); now it's pretty simple to handle such states, though who knows what curveball comes along. Some peaks indeed permanently lose their appeal, which just reveals they were false in the first place (for you personally), others though get enriched like you wouldn't believe; e.g. let's say with birth of a child you could enter some crazy not-knowing state marveling at how God's mind subdivides itself in 'real time' to create a sovereign consciousness — much better than any normie POV whether religious or evolutionary, since yours includes and transcends all that. Then again a similar thing could be accomplished with buying a microscope and observing cell division, if one's conscious enough to realize there's no difference between their child and bacteria; the more direct the connection to God the fewer mediums required, 'tis a tricky balance to strike between unity and beauty of form. Autistic illustration with sine waves: Orange = sin(x) → perfect harmony of God White = random function → regular human experience Cyan = Taylor series for sine → mystical life, get to pick own n, which fully converges with sin(x) when n = ∞ Awakening, after all, is shattering of illusion, and what you're left with is creating cooler ones and recontextualizing existing. Also can't go forgetting multiplicity/distinction. Human fun vs. God-consciousness is a category error, instead comp that concert to other concerts you went & will go to, then everything will be peachy.

Preach. GABA and glutamate basically run the whole show, next to them 5-HT & DA aren't really all that, which is reflected in potency of psychoactives, and yet they're badly overlooked in regards to psychonautics. Guess people just don't manage to stay lucid enough (or be openminded to seriously try in the first place) to retain any useful insight before knocking themselves out or turning into drooling retards, but it is very much possible. I've had deeper trips on Zolpidem (Ambien) than most vanilla psychedelics, after trying 80+ substances there's still nothing quite like it. All those additional factors/practices help in yielding the best results. At a glance the oxybates are just different salts of GHB though, which to me was not much stronger than a beer (still a rape & lethal OD drug sometimes, so that can vary), too blunt of an instrument. Z is much more selective and cleaner, hardly any tolerance too. α₁ is the best target IME, but honestly most gabaergics could do the job on a basic level. Thanks for sharing.

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It's time we had a dedicated topic on this matter. Sources are irrelevant (personal experience, videos, books, research papers, movie scenes... any resource will do). Scams, cons, heists, etc. also welcome, but the subtler the better. The best theft not only goes wholly unnoticed, but has you thinking you gain something in return (e.g. clickbait). In the end, it all boils down to corruption. If a crocodile is the perfect animal to symbolize traps, for corruption it is the octopus. It can camouflage, release ink to literally muddy the waters, squeeze through any hole no matter how small; yet when its tentacles grab you, they won't let go. And there's 8 of them, so while you're busy fighting one or two or even 7, there's always another to nab you from behind. Plus it's slimy. This is exactly how self-deception operates. And what is theft if not (self-)deception? Except Maya has infinitely many tentacles, is so well-camouflaged it's indistinguishable from your perception, and is completely intangible. https://www.actualized.org/forum/topic/110777-octopus-awakening Here's a visual I generated for this thread, heavily 'inspired' by an image taken from the Europol website and fed into an AI trained on stolen data, with a slightly different color scheme, a background overlay of the world map, and a correct placement of different industries the octopus has its tentacles wrapped around. Drugs/pharma between USA & Mexico, financial schemes in the Caribbean tax havens, law in the western EU (The Hague, Euroclear, Geneva), oil in the GCC, and construction (or more broadly, manufacturing) in China/India/Bangladesh. It's rather interesting that they all align pretty closely in a straight line just above the Equator. As though the places above or below are of little importance, serving only as sources of extraction of value. But enough foreplay. I'll get us started with a personal story, at the risk of tarnishing my reputation or catching a ban. This one takes place within the microcosm of digital piracy, yet contains layers upon layers of theft, lies, self-deception, gaslighting, and exploitation. Got plenty more just like it, crazier and broader in fact. Even though the examples we'll hopefully assemble here are useful, truly understanding the depth of this matter requires massive and intimate real-life exposure to it, and even then most of it you'll never know due to factors beyond your control. Example 1: So just this little anecdote from a fairly niche domain illustrates the degree of prevalence and entanglement of the issue. The same pattern is present not only all over this planet, but across the infinite dimensions of reality. Unless you're unflinchingly prudent, it will get you. Especially when your guard is down. However, there exists a certain precipice where you see through all the deception with complete clarity and fall in love with it head over heels. But we'll leave that for the spirituality subforum. Some Actualized.org videos directly pertinent to the matter at hand: - How To Avoid Getting Scammed, Cheated, Exploited, Conned, and Screwed In Life - How Corruption Works - The Social Matrix - How Society Is A Mass Hallucination (fun fact: this one is somehow shadowbanned even on the direct channel page search; by keywords 'social' and 'matrix', 'hallucination' works) I'd also throw over a dozen others onto the list, but as already stated that won't be anywhere near enough. Now, let's get the ball rolling. Of particular interest is the theft you've personally committed or are committing. Sharing that publicly will do wonders for your shadow integration work. Who's up for that? Though first consider that this could all be an elaborate honeypot disguised as philosophy designed to trick people into openly confessing to their crimes.

Not a dig at u, 'he' as in that Chayse channel. I'm fascinated by the time dilation aspect of Consciousness, like those horror stories about a blink lasting for years, which i hoped to experience on Sal B EME. Ran the numbers before taking it (obviously just simplistic linear scaling for laughs): 45s = 8 years from some Salvia report, which is 252288000s; conservatively extrapolated to 1hr with EME = 640 years / hr of trip. So like 8-9 avg lifetimes, tracks with the 10x potency figure

The report on EME is fake. idk whether anyone tried MEM but it looks like pointless midway between Sal A and B EME anyway. Ones in the original research study are real, even if not so romantically psychedelic. First video confuses MEM & EME, 'Symmetry' and '10x Salvia' is the latter but he says MEM despite linking to another badly researched vid about EME.

Might as well share a playlist of my fave episodes, ime quite a few of them are underrated, or at least don't come up very often in discussions of 'the best' https://youtube.com/playlist?list=PLIEFsHjIryOf9z_23y3UTKXtMmvaP5pmW

Had to look up what a budgie is 🙃 We're no different indeed, except it gets even more fun when you are that self-aware, to which there's endless layers. The meta goes up.

That sure sounds like 5MD on all fronts. There's several different batches of it going around in the EU atm, from literal chocolate brown, to waxy yellow, to pure crystalline white, and the in-between you got. Just like N,N-DMT it can take on a whole gamut of colors. Similar analogues exist, but they're not something you'd find in clearnet RC shops. Change of route can make a very significant difference, yes. 5MD is 100% somatic for me intramuscularly, and vaporized is a weird but not unpleasant mix of consciousness increase and intracranial pressure. Batch, set, setting, your baseline, God's will, etc. all play a role as well. No need to lab test it yourself, just switch to a vendor that provides actual 3rd party analytical results intead of printing the supposed purity % on the baggie label. But if you do want to lab test substances in the future, best EU resource is Kykeon. They also have a pool of crowdsourced results from various vendors, including DNM. https://www.kykeonanalytics.com/en 5MD freebase will quickly turn into an oil above 70°C, so that's one way to test at home, albeit not the most reliable.

Fascinating how I guessed the "diamond ring" line of the lyrics without ever having heard the original lullaby. It's got a nice intuitive flow about it.

God found a new mouthpiece to preach from 🫡

Well well, looks like the current Pope ain't named Leo for nothing

Not even 2 min. into the Clavicular video, meth and pregabalin have been mentioned

It would be interesting to collect the statistics on this somehow. Every now and then people pop up on the forum either after years of absence or just entirely new users with ontology figured out, at least the solid foundations of Absolute Infinity. How many people like that are quietly doing the work in the background, unlike us deadbeats gathered here shitposting every day? But all such metrics are largely speculative at the end of the day.

The trick is that the collapse does not imply erasure of form and 'reality' unlike it may seem. Inside the singularity of God-consciousness everything remains as-is — singularity is what you see before you here and now, except the part is now aware that it is the whole. It can access a bunch of crazy partitions within itself and maybe change some content here and there, but fundamentally the infinitely awakened self and the unconscious human self are both sub-infinities within the Absolute Infinity, the structure of which not even God can alter, as that would go against its own Will, Logic, and Love. The infinities may be of different cardinality or whatever terminology you want to use, but those distinctions are themselves imaginary. That's what Equality is. So the idiots saying "you're already awake" and such are technically correct, yet nonetheless that's highly irresponsible teaching. Someone you've never heard of could be having an absolute awakening as we speak, which doesn't impact your current reality at all, but when you go have your own awakening you'll realize that all awakenings anyone has ever had were your own. The selves of God are like sandboxed processes running in their own sovereign environments, but then as part of a larger holarchy we have the collectively constructed reality which makes it possible to talk to each other, have sex, abuse and infringe on the sovereignty of others, and all that good stuff. Which ultimately is still God playing pretend with itself. Selflessness is being the hypervisor that maintains all this, but it's far from some dry, sterile thing — it's an engine of endless fun & mystery in the VMs.

I eat some meat, mostly poultry/beef and typically at restaurants, don't really use it in home cooking more than once or twice a month. But I consume a good amount of seafood, plus derivatives like eggs & dairy. I've seen docus like Lucent, Seaspiracy, Dominion, etc.; they get rather uncomfortable to look at on psychedelics. But watching these is a part of my epistemic and spiritual process no different from any other, the horrors contained within don't alter my dietary preferences — they are what they are and evolve on their own for different reasons. In the future when I have more disposable income I'll contribute to initiatives for cleaner, sustainable, and less painful farming, but that's about the extent of my concern for this issue; people who are truly passionate will take care of the rest while I focus on what I'm good at. Just throwing money at it is obviously nowhere near a complete solution, but my position is that even if the money I donate is misappropriated, wasted, or the campaigns don't have an impact because people are too selfish and truth-avoidant, that's on them. I've tried and failed to micromanage and spoonfeed others many times over in the past; doesn't work, nor is it aligned with the highest Good. In summary, "The only ones who should kill are those prepared to be killed." Content Warning

First trip report is up, effects described seem like a cross-breed of 4-HO-MET & MDMA. Dose is still puny; remains to be seen how it behaves at higher, but it's got potential. https://www.reddit.com/r/researchchemicals/comments/1ruec4o/5fmet_7mg_experience/

For the newbies out there. Too simple to fully understand.

Fun as that would be, I restrain my most unhinged ideas, especially when it comes to others. It's a meme I found somewhere, maybe even on this forum.

I wrote a giant wall of text but then the trashy browser or forum software wiped it all while I was away. No big deal, I'll recreate it from memory later on, just don't feel like typing so much again atm. Threw together a playlist with some more visual representations and other stuff on Autism Awakening. https://youtube.com/playlist?list=PLIEFsHjIryOfn8u2jBQcxwqb0sOMgXbDa Throw non-manipulative primary psychopathy and functioning DPDR into the mix and you get something like me. On multipotentiality, there were a few amazing members here, stark examples of it and ND in general, that unfortunately don't visit much anymore or disappeared entirely. Some more case studies for you. https://www.actualized.org/forum/profile/32427-keryo-koffa/content/ https://www.actualized.org/forum/topic/103447-nuwu-appreciation-thread-appreciation-is-spirituality-so-it-counts/