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That holds for all experience across the board, the only difference is some experiences are more accessible than others. What does it mean to win the lottery? In the unlikely event I manage to replicate the victory itself, emotionally and practically it could still mean something entirely different to me than it did to you. Maybe people say this because they're arrogant and confused, but cannot admit it to others, much less themselves, so they play a rhetorical trick. But maybe it actually is impossible to communicate, and/or they genuinely want you to experience it for yourself, not adopt their beliefs or deny them to validate your own. We're right back at interpretation.

Any and all conditions are rendered by consciousness using intelligence, so it's only natural that it should survive them. Humongous degree of intelligence goes into creating the appearance of lack of intelligence. Being totally wrong on every single issue all the time especially requires infinite intelligence, just in the opposite direction. Absolute self-deception, as it were. Complete absence of intelligence is achieved through being totally wrong about presence of intelligence. Being is intelligence. You already implicitly recognize this. If consciousness is existence/being, and can't be separated from intelligence, what does this say about intelligence? Even the most delusional beliefs are undeniable, precisely because they exist. "- It would be an accursed monster — a being that should have never been born in the first place. - But if he is already in this world, no one has the right to deny him his instincts." The entire spiritual endeavor is a merger of epistemology with ontology so thorough that knowing and being become fully identical, which includes the realization that they always have been.

Not necessarily. Oftentimes people that are not particularly intelligent in a traditional sense are better at intuitively knowing that you "shouldn't", for instance, harm others, despite having no logical ground nor a capacity to clearly articulate why. They can simply act selflessly on autopilot. Of course it's equally as common if not more so for them to be selfish as shit. Can be framed in the exact opposite way, deep sleep is basically being unconscious. Existence existing by definition is a logical tautology, but equating consciousness to existence is a leap in reasoning that may or may not be true. Understanding logic and its validity requires intelligence, however its limitations are grasped through consciousness. Yes, although someone conscious of that may not be conscious that they're employing intelligence. Further, they can use intelligence to dismiss the role of intelligence/logic and construct a paradigm where consciousness is more fundamental; a commonplace fallacy within spirituality. What's the difference between being and doing? 'Just being empty' is the only way it has or ever will be, and it takes infinite intelligence (and love/selflessness) to structure reality that way, which is a doing of a sort. You might say Consciousness governs Sameness, Unity, Love; it is implicit. Intelligence governs Difference, Multiplicity, Truth, and is explicit. But that's merely a quick sloppy metaphor. The identity of Consciousness with Intelligence is the same as the identity of Love with Truth. Infinite Love is Unity through Multiplicity; in other words, Equality/Solipsism, which is True, Logical, and Perfect. In the end, all this can be explicated ad infinitum, but requires direct experience to actually grasp, as words are in the business of definition, and reality is Undefined. Nonetheless, definition is fundamental.

Consciousness is conscious that there is no difference, Intelligence is so intelligent it creates the difference out of nothing.

It's time we had a dedicated topic on this matter. Sources are irrelevant (personal experience, videos, books, research papers, movie scenes... any resource will do). Scams, cons, heists, etc. also welcome, but the subtler the better. The best theft not only goes wholly unnoticed, but has you thinking you gain something in return (e.g. clickbait). In the end, it all boils down to corruption. If a crocodile is the perfect animal to symbolize traps, for corruption it is the octopus. It can camouflage, release ink to literally muddy the waters, squeeze through any hole no matter how small; yet when its tentacles grab you, they won't let go. And there's 8 of them, so while you're busy fighting one or two or even 7, there's always another to nab you from behind. Plus it's slimy. This is exactly how self-deception operates. And what is theft if not (self-)deception? Except Maya has infinitely many tentacles, is so well-camouflaged it's indistinguishable from your perception, and is completely intangible. https://www.actualized.org/forum/topic/110777-octopus-awakening Here's a visual I generated for this thread, heavily 'inspired' by an image taken from the Europol website and fed into an AI trained on stolen data, with a slightly different color scheme, a background overlay of the world map, and a correct placement of different industries the octopus has its tentacles wrapped around. Drugs/pharma between USA & Mexico, financial schemes in the Caribbean tax havens, law in the western EU (The Hague, Euroclear, Geneva), oil in the GCC, and construction (or more broadly, manufacturing) in China/India/Bangladesh. It's rather interesting that they all align pretty closely in a straight line just above the Equator. As though the places above or below are of little importance, serving only as sources of extraction of value. But enough foreplay. I'll get us started with a personal story, at the risk of tarnishing my reputation or catching a ban. This one takes place within the microcosm of digital piracy, yet contains layers upon layers of theft, lies, self-deception, gaslighting, and exploitation. Got plenty more just like it, crazier and broader in fact. Even though the examples we'll hopefully assemble here are useful, truly understanding the depth of this matter requires massive and intimate real-life exposure to it, and even then most of it you'll never know due to factors beyond your control. Example 1: So just this little anecdote from a fairly niche domain illustrates the degree of prevalence and entanglement of the issue. The same pattern is present not only all over this planet, but across the infinite dimensions of reality. Unless you're unflinchingly prudent, it will get you. Especially when your guard is down. However, there exists a certain precipice where you see through all the deception with complete clarity and fall in love with it head over heels. But we'll leave that for the spirituality subforum. Some Actualized.org videos directly pertinent to the matter at hand: - How To Avoid Getting Scammed, Cheated, Exploited, Conned, and Screwed In Life - How Corruption Works - The Social Matrix - How Society Is A Mass Hallucination (fun fact: this one is somehow shadowbanned even on the direct channel page search; by keywords 'social' and 'matrix', 'hallucination' works) I'd also throw over a dozen others onto the list, but as already stated that won't be anywhere near enough. Now, let's get the ball rolling. Of particular interest is the theft you've personally committed or are committing. Sharing that publicly will do wonders for your shadow integration work. Who's up for that? Though first consider that this could all be an elaborate honeypot disguised as philosophy designed to trick people into openly confessing to their crimes.

That is exactly what they are. You conveniently skipped over this section of the reply from a previous page: "Bottomless delusion is the point, that's the whole structure of reality. Truth is the mechanism of delusion (short ver.: Truth is delusion). Truth being too sacred to deconstruct is a projection, if it's true it will withstand all deconstruction. And it will, because there's nothing there to deconstruct. See if you can deconstruct that." It's not a hierarchy of significance or superiority, if there is any hierarchy it's that of awareness. The grandma is also God experiencing itself, she just doesn't know it and that's okay. She is our ontological equal, therefore I take this comparison as flattering. And I'm telling you this won't work. Many are blind to it, no doubt. But some may not be blind at all, they're simply too deep into their delusion and narcissism, by conscious choice. Truth is exactly what you want. Leo's statement "Truth doesn't care about what you want" only directly contradicts this to those who are dissociated from Truth. If you could persuade someone in possession of truth of the falsity of their view, that would automatically make it false. Think about that. Truth is entirely self-evident, this whole discussion is just a game of projection of Q.E.D.'s between two mirrors, exactly as per spec. I'm sure I sound incoherent in places. Well, that's because I can effortlessly switch between speaking as a human and as God. Or maybe I actually am incoherent and psychotic. That's up for interpretation. To be discovered, something first needs to be generated, that is plainly obvious. Same here, cheers.

Nobody treats their projects as a mere preference, whether it's Hitler, Leo, or a kid at a science fair. Bias is so profound it's a matter of life and death & beyond, some biases you couldn't drop even with a gun to your head. But what do you care how he treats it? Take what's of value, filter the rest. It's not like I can't or don't openly criticize Leo. For example: https://www.actualized.org/insights/actualized-quotes-381 — pure smug, blindly self-indulgent post, while having a conversation on a science podcast pending to release any day. #382 is also repetitive waste, that time would be better spent on completing the Deconstructing Rationality series. As you said, we're all just humans with faults. Or this whole reply I gave in another thread: https://www.actualized.org/forum/topic/112839-leo-cant-fix-you-because-you-are-neurodivergent/?do=findComment&comment=1731704 I see him clear enough, and I also see that the criticism and really any activity on this forum is distraction/entertainment. But I like it, so here I am. Maybe another day something will change and I won't be. Call it cope if you like. There is such a thing as Cope as an absolute, so you're not even wrong about that. By the way, you're sneaking in subtle language such as 'mere' or 'benevolent'. I didn't say that.

Not really. Only when his job requires it. Just like a math teacher insists on the importance of learning math, or your parents on getting a good career or whatever. If they instead said that it's all a meaningless hobby and being an uneducated homeless drug addict is no better or worse, you can see how most people would choose to behave. But he explicitly stated that's it all a bias on several occasions.

Yes, and I 'realized' that they don't come into existence at all, they already exist, as does everything else. Anything 'new' (insight, life, action...) is an imagined distinction. There's no need for me to deny the chains — some I see, others I don't. #2: You make it sound as though the second option is somehow inferior because it implicitly strips you of agency or is illusory. A meaningless distinction. I (Consciousness) was always there, imagined forgetting what I am, plus the entire chain of events leading to an eventual rediscovery of the source. The two options seamlessly blend into a strange loop. Naive solipsistic idealism that doesn't incorporate Will and other important factors would indeed fail at eluding your mechanism, but this very mechanism is an indispensable part of the engine of reality; it works regardless of whether you're aware of or accept it or not, and it works with perfect precision and beauty. Try escaping it if you like, to a certain degree that's healthy skepticism, but ideally that would culminate in realizing that escaping it is impossible nor is there a need to, as you are the mechanism that has designed itself and all escape attempts. Thus, #3 becomes a moot point, since the difference between 'discovered' and 'generated' was itself generated (imagined), which doesn't bother me in the slightest. At any given moment I know and don't know as much as I need to, neither more nor less. All that's ever happening is light bouncing around at different angles within the fractal mirror of Mind ('happening', 'light', 'bouncing', 'different', 'angles', etc. are of course imaginary both as terms/concepts and the 'actual' things those words are pointing at). Under the definition I previously gave and considering what's said above in this post, yes. You see, all of my wrongness, hypocrisy, and egotism are totally consistent with the trajectory Consciousness has set for me, and they'll be corrected (or not) when the time comes. Don't take this as avoidance of responsibility, I'm doing the best I can, as is everyone. Unlike you, I rewatched the video in full. Maybe what's actually arrogant is going through 8% of the runtime and assuming the rest will just be the same since the introduction is already familiar to you. Imagine dropping a university class or some online course you bought because the instructor dedicated the first few lectures to reviewing and solidifying the priors/fundamentals. Without even going through 1/10th of the material, you presume to know it all. No wonder there are blind spots even in this simple framework you presented in this thread, let alone understanding of reality as a whole. Doesn't matter how potent your observation ability is, it's not enough; you still need talking heads, books, other perspectives, and much more, which can then be filtered and synthesized. Perhaps if you bothered to watch the full 3 hours you'd find many of your objections addressed. Consider that you should. But also consider the nuances of that as to not dig yourself into a deeper hole.

Simply because it's universally accommodating, without exclusions/exceptions. Essentially SD stage Green values of inclusivity and diversity raised to absolutes. Perhaps the notion of consistency under the following definition can be of help: "agreement or harmony of parts or features to one another or a whole specifically: ability to be asserted together without contradiction" That's a fundamental property of Infinity, from there it's not too difficult to also make the logical connection to Beauty, Integrity, and so on, but past a certain point explicitly communicating such things doesn't work properly and even does harm. I could go on a whole spiel here using a parent-child analogy that incorporates love, bias, sovereignty, and this and that, but in the end you'd (not unwarrantably) call that a frame and frame it as a Q.E.D. for your original point. That is fine, everyone has some aspect/facet of reality they struggle with. For me Love and 40+ others are crystal clear by now, but Miracle is still elusive; though it's obviously there, experientially I only see Certainty save for rare occasions. Can only speak for myself, but I didn't start this journey looking for love, not consciously anyway. The word wasn't even in my vocabulary really. When Leo presented the idea it didn't exactly resonate emotionally or logically, all I did was remain open to it. Long story short, after enough inquiry it became undeniable, if nothing else then simply from a consistency standpoint. I had a love for understanding, but didn't understand what love or understanding is; then it turned out that Truth and Love are identical. So it's not like I wanted love to be true, I wanted the truth, whatever it may be, and got love as a bonus. Pretty sure that's how it goes for a lot of autistic guys, love is not a matter of wishful thinking for us, and can even cause some repulsion initially. Notice that you frame the definition of spirituality in your OP from a traditionally feminine perspective ("Ask this community what spirituality is for and they'll say equanimity, peace, love, presence"). Your deconstruction as presented here is a frame too, you know. 'Outside' implies duality and therefore wrong, you need to realize that you are the frame and always have been, always will be. But it's tricky since 'you' is too vague, language as a whole is. Nothing anyone says or does can induce this realization; at best it can serve as some food for thought, and more often than not lead to further deception and distraction. When a deconstruction is not thorough enough, it will result in more construction. Making the relative into an absolute while sitting in the relative domain is a big oversight. Nobody's disputing that at the end of the day all the truth-seeking and awakening is a preference/bias/hobby, this fits perfectly well into the larger point. Bottomless delusion is the point, that's the whole structure of reality. Truth is the mechanism of delusion (short ver.: Truth is delusion). Truth being too sacred to deconstruct is a projection, if it's true it will withstand all deconstruction. And it will, because there's nothing there to deconstruct. See if you can deconstruct that. But tread lightly. Maybe give How Your Mind Interprets Reality another watch, it is often overlooked. P.S.: your posts read much better without AI.

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Key word and a summary of the entire thread right there. "To the man with a hammer, everything looks like a nail" is a similar proverb. Forget Love and all that fluff for now, that can come later. Just like everyone else, regardless of the level of consciousness or any which arbitrary metric, you have the final say on the beliefs and values you hold, whether you call those truth or opinions or something else, and how you react to and relate to 'frames' presented by others (assuming you believe others exist in the first place). That's simply authority. It can be externalized, such as accepting/rejecting someone's authority on a particular matter, or trying to project yours onto others (the so-called 'spiritual authority game', which can just as well be political, scientific, etc.); but it's really an internal, inalienable faculty. Colloquially, the ultimate authority in reality is known as God. Take it at face value with all the cultural baggage, reject it altogether, or reinterpret it into something in-between based on your personal experiences — any choice requires employing your authority. Authority is used as unconsciously as consciousness, one is not more fundamental than the other. You exist, right? On whose authority? Existence, Consciousness, Authority, Reality, Truth, etc. are identical. Since "Seek, and ye shall find" is so universal, consider that it could also mean that there's nothing that cannot be found (everything exists, a.k.a. Infinity), and that whatever anyone finds could be the same thing appearing as different forms. And after all, isn't a reality where everyone finds exactly what they want the most loving and perfect way a reality could be?

Just the one: Reality is naught but a mindfuck. In other words, God's Mind making Love to itself, for all eternity. All phenomena without exception are mindfucks, originating from God imagining it exists. Chemical reactions, collisions of celestial bodies, propagation of sound waves, and any other physical processes are all mindfucks. Self-deception, assumptions, confusion, conformity, bias, erroneous beliefs... mindfucks all the same. Every emotion, including, necessarily, surprise, is a mindfuck. Understanding or lack thereof is a mindfuck, so is having insights. Grasping how Everything is Nothing or that Unity is Multiplicity is a mindfuck, and grasping how you are grasping this creates a layered mindfuck. Spirituality is just a quest for ever greater mindfucks, whether you realize and/or admit it or not. Why is doing any activity with awareness so exhausting? Precisely because in this limited state you've mindfucked yourself into, the depth & density of the recursion, interconnection, and self-reference is too much to handle, but there's always an apparently simpler mindfuck in the form of distraction to come to the rescue. I'm not saying anything particularly new here, merely wording it explicitly; if this text were a zip bomb, parsing it could lead to a headache, dismissal, agreement, a desire to argue, perhaps even a complete understanding of reality — any number of potential outcomes, all of which would of course be mindfucks. Don't think too hard about it. Enjoy the Process.

Nothing I said implies you have to make perfect use of your mind all the time (that's actually impossible) nor that suffering is bad in any way. On the contrary, it's the best self-correcting mechanism there is. Whether you're sure about this point or not is up to you to contemplate, I could of course just be talking out of my ass.

A little personal anecdote regarding life purpose and a few related matters: Yesterday I had a call with my lawyers (currently getting sued for alleged property damages during a terrace remodeling, details don't really matter), we were discussing options, the most viable of which is to countersue the company that did the construction work, but for that we must first try to reach a pretrial agreement notified via a certified letter. After the talk, while waiting for amendments agreed upon in the meeting, I re-read the initial draft they sent me, and decided to look up the law they cite. Turns out it's the wrong one, about animal wellbeing and whatnot, so I emailed them that correction + some extra thoughts. What's funny is that towards the end of the call we got into a minor argument regarding which documents to submit to court, and the lawyer started getting visibly offended saying "I'm not going to look like a fool in front of the judge, my professional reputation is also at stake here", so I had to diplomatically de-escalate to not hurt anyone's ego while still holding my ground; and then such a rudimentary mistake happens, talk about professionalism. These are by far and away the best lawyers I've found by the way, after seeing over a dozen, the others are complete buffoons. Later in the day after getting in touch with a prospective employer that happens to match my skillset and work style quite well I'm thinking of various things I can use to demonstrate my competence, and that email to the lawyers comes to mind (shows proficiency in Spanish incl. specialized legalese, attention to detail, polite communication, coming up with more efficient alternatives — all in one package). Satisfied, I go shower, but am still ruminating on that mistake — just what could animal wellbeing and pretrial agreements have in common?! Then it hits me: the acronym for the latter is MASC (Medios Adecuados de Solución de Controversias), and mascotas is 'pets'. They 100% used AI to draft the letter, it stupidly hallucinated the wrong law due to this random coincidence, and they didn't double-check. Moral of the story? First, the kind of wild insights that can happen through holistic thinking, connecting two seemingly entirely unrelated things. Second, they charge me 200€ for that one-page AI-generated letter, meanwhile I'm wasting my time over here generating fake billing addresses in North Carolina or the UAE to save a few euros on VAT in my online subscriptions. A ridiculous imbalance which ought to be corrected not even for egoic reasons (although it is smart to leverage the ego's moral outrage at this perceived injustice as fuel for motivation), but more fundamentally to recalibrate the scales of value. It's not limited to this particular domain or an individual's mind either. Couple of days ago I was doing a deal to sell some of my psychedelics to a friend, one of the items was an MDMA pill for which we agreed on 5€ — that's about the going market rate, so if I overshoot he'll go elsewhere, plus I obviously don't want to rip off a friend. But truly, the way things currently stand, a single effective session with M could save years and thousands in therapy bills, so the pill can easily be valued at 500€. What's 5€? Nothing, not even half of a decent takeout meal. In the future, if I'm financially successful, one of my main charitable endeavors will be making psychedelics cheaply & easily accessible, available, and acceptable for as many people as possible. Everyone's lost their minds when it comes to value of time and money, among other things. So start taking serious action, not only to avoid getting screwed over by the world yourself, but to counterbalance the degradation of collective consciousness, if only a little. The network effect will take care of the rest. There's gold waiting to be mined, and if no more gold remains, use your mind as a Philosopher's Stone to transmute scrap metals into gold. It's well within your abilities as God; trouble is, since you're also the ultimate authority, you may thoroughly convince yourself that you do not possess such an ability. For me, this whole experience eternally cemented the principle that all suffering whatsoever stems from an improper use of the mind. Bold claim, but give it some thought. Who's to say which uses are proper and which aren't? Well, one example of an improper use is relativizing everything while sitting in the relative domain. Only God has the privilege of holding Relativity as an absolute, that's what makes it Nothing/Everything/Undefined/Formless, and all the other properties we know and love. No such luxury for you, as you've dissociated from God, so it's no wonder we live in hell. What about children in Africa born into slavery, or some genetic disorder you have because a corrupt company has been polluting your city? Here comes separation again. Are Africa, DNA, oppressive ideologies, DuPont, air, and history not part of Mind? Therein lies the issue, a multi-thousand year history of misuses of mind, sowing divisions of all sorts. A proper use of an individual's mind will not automatically solve suffering, not even for them, much less the entire world, but what it can do is inspire love, connection, and beauty. Tip: drop the distinction between 'directly' and 'indirectly'; God only works directly. That's enough yapping for today I suppose, peace out.

Right-o. "If you begin to regret, you'll dull your future decisions and let others make your choices for you. All that's left for you then is to die. Nobody can foretell the outcome. Each decision you make holds meaning only by affecting your next decision." – Erwin Smith I recently came to the same conclusion. But man, this very requirement can ironically be the greatest challenge for some. Wrote this to a friend a couple weeks ago: Working out the details is an ongoing process, but I'm definitely on the right track now as I've finally embraced the arduous meta-challenge of generating challenges and enjoying it.

He also said that he's done with making promises, but since then made at least 2 promises I can remember that weren't delivered either. A funny meta dynamic. But yes, relatable indeed, I'm guilty of that too. Not at all, in fact forget about Leo altogether, he's just a talking head as far as you're concerned, no different than a news anchor. What I am talking about is the danger of listening to this content for dozens, maybe hundreds of hours, thinking you're developing yourself, but then being unable to apply it in practice. 'We' not as in the ND community, but the Actualized.org community. There are NDs as well as NTs here and everything in-between. Structurally, and even oftentimes content-wise this forum is more similar to Reddit/X than it is different. Can't be helped, Aaron Swartz also had a very different vision for Reddit than how it turned out. Perhaps in the future some major restructuring could take place. The larger issue of society relating to ND I'm not prepared to discuss at present. It can, but doesn't have to. It can also stem from standards you consciously set for yourself, one of which is a healthy balance between self-acceptance/self-forgiveness and ruthless self-improvement through radical responsibility. Careful with holding acceptance as an absolute virtue &or placing the blame on societal discrimination, without nuance it'll turn toxic in the blink of an eye. Had I just blindly accepted myself (the severe ADHD) I'd be rotting in bed catatonically doomscrolling while doing drugs right now (which is how I spent several months of the last year) instead of taking actionable steps to navigate life to the best of my ability. There's neurotic perfectionism, and there's sloppiness; you want neither extreme. The golden mean is an earnest striving for excellence. This old obscure video might be helpful: I did and it makes some good points, but it doesn't apply to my particular case, although I cannot fully deny a minor degree of overlap.

It's taking place right now. Metaphorically, it is to die, but also to live. I had to surrender being a victim to a perceptual malaise that makes me see everything as boring, unless the intensity of experience is literally at warzone meat-grinder levels (looking back, that's pretty much the main reason I got into hardcore spirituality in the first place, as nothing on this Earth was enough to make me feel alive). After a bunch of profound awakenings, despite their immense significance and beauty, it actually worsened my condition for a long time, as I now had a new reference frame for how crazy things could get, but was simply unable to see the same divinity in the mundane. It's still a major struggle, but I've resolved to work with what I got and make the most out of it instead of resigning myself to the impossibility of change and therefore a slow descent into addiction, depression, and unfulfillment, just waiting to serve out my term here (I also know with certainty that I'll live to 72, don't ask how). This entailed killing the self-deception that I don't need or want anything and don't care about wasting away my potential. The fear was twofold there: first the death of my old apathetic identity, as no matter how ugly it is it's still me, and it was at least capable of one final act of selflessness and courage — dying to make room for the greater good; and next is the sickening realization of just how much work lies ahead, which I already semi-consciously knew and desperately wanted to avoid, keeping me in paralysis for so long. But I'll do it nonetheless, if not for myself then for the world. Currently I'm in the process of methodically engineering a new identity based on powerful principles drawn from a variety of sources that will be able to go all the way, or at least till the next milestone. The deadline is set for end of this week, Feb. 1, with the weekend reserved for installing this new kernel into the innermost depths of my consciousness. So, in a sense, this is goodbye, I'll see you all on the other side.

Post it if you like, we all have the guilty pleasure of watching public meltdowns/freakouts. But in the end you'll have to decide what is your highest priority — having fun or getting the message across; there are tricky & delicate ways to do both, but the secondary must necessarily be sacrificed and compromised in service of the primary. And no, I don't think it's justified even if what you say in the next paragraph is the reality of the situation, because I hold myself to certain standards of emotional maturity, which includes maintaining self-control even in (or rather, especially) the face of offense. More fundamentally, your interpretation could simply be wrong. The content of his comment is irrelevant, whether it's factually true or not is not the issue. Consider that people feel justified trolling your posts because they're presented in a way conducive to that. What you perceive as a serious, albeit dishonest argument, in reality is nothing more than a snarky offhand comment (there's also the possibility that what each of you defines as a 'hobby' differs drastically, but there's not enough time in the world to explicate such nuance). Leo has made multiple asinine and vulgar comments on this forum over the years, but what of it? Think of the entirety of Actualized.org as a building — the rooftop is the channel videos and course(s) where you breathe pristine air of philosophy, middle & ground floors are the blog/booklist, and the forum is the basement — a testing ground for new ideas and a platform to connect to like-minded people on the best of days, but usually just a cesspool of spiritual ego clashes, repetitive & trivial platitudes, shitposting, whining and venting about politics or dating or whatever. Even if you start a serious discussion presented in a proper manner, it likely still won't get any significant engagement, while the garbage has dozens of pages, but the quality of posts in such threads will itself be garbage. The truth is that we're not as different from other communities as we like to believe. Didn't Leo say time and time again that humans do not care about truth, that not caring about truth is corruption, and that he's still not above corruption? Connect the dots, there's your answer. I say this while having my own disagreements with the guy, particularly regarding the imprecise and inefficient ways of administering psychedelics he continues to promote (sometimes even using toxic masculine rhetoric) without realizing they really only work so well due to his uniquely sensitive genetics but yield mediocre results for the average person, or his repeated failures to deliver on courses promised (alien awakening, subconscious reprogramming). He doesn't even reply to my posts anymore, which I briefly used to take personally, but it obviously isn't, and even if it were, I don't care; in fact it was a healthy and necessary experience to unburden myself from dependency on approval and attention of someone I look up to. What's the solution? In the former case, I say my piece, lay out the arguments, and move on; whether it's taken under advisement is neither my concern nor responsibility, as I'm not the one wasting my trips/substances, sharing my knowledge is contribution enough. In the latter, I take it upon myself to develop and implement these techniques from scratch, and if the courses finally end up materializing, I'll still take them and find positive synergies that'll create something greater than the sum of its parts. Sovereignty of mind, interpretation, recontextualization, content vs. structure, self-awareness, truthful perception, holistic & strategic thinking — all these core teachings are at play here. Instead of focusing on Leo's inadequacies, which is a distraction, treat it as an opportunity to test how much you actually understand and are able to effectively utilize these principles. Speaking from experience, chances are you're in for a rude awakening, which is why that's the last thing anyone wants to do. Your responsibility is to hold yourself accountable, not him. That's the real work. The standards of integrity and truthfulness you're demanding are so high that this ironically makes them untruthful. And here's the test of your love — are you willing to sacrifice the need to maintain your current incoherent communication style, as a start, in order to practically impart your insights on ND? If not, well, that's just the current extent of it. But it gets worse. This year I'll create the most extensive guide to psychedelics to date, which will require at least 100 hours of work and performing several potentially life-threatening experiments on myself, all the while being fully aware it's quite likely to fall into obscurity or get straight up disallowed because it's "too dangerous" or something. That's how truth and love interrelate in the relative domain — you must clearly see that the vast majority simply won't care no matter what you do, not judging them for it, and yet have faith that just a few will get the message and spread the love in whichever ways they're capable. Which is what Leo has been doing all along, so appreciate and get inspired by it. Well, I suppose you are inspired, but the execution needs a whole lot of adjustment, and that starts with taking a step back and reflecting, not doubling down.

Hallucinations are great. Got a recent-ish excerpt from my notes on that matter below. Also my whole life I've had dreams that show the future, at a rate of maybe 5 a year or so. They're always some insignificant scenes, like a conversation, walking down the street, or browsing a website, but when it happens there's an intense and totally unequivocal sense of deja-vu as I clearly recall already having this exact experience in a dream months or even years ago. It was in fact these dreams that got me thinking that there is more to reality than everyone around seems to believe. Long before ever hearing of spirituality or smoking weed the first time, simply from listening to Datura horror stories as a schoolboy I seriously considered "what if drugs show true reality?". And here we are. Just a tiny example of the paradox of Will; it goes infinitely deeper but people 'willfully' 'avoid' it. On a related tangent, deliriants have big untapped potential for our purposes, the only issue is how physically harmful they are.

And the above meltdown of 5 posts in the span of 3 minutes will help that how? Literally digging your own grave here. People are not going to listen to someone who's clearly not in control of themself, rightfully so. The line between passion and mania is paper-thin. Either change your style significantly or carry on as-is, but then don't be surprised when your ideas are considered trolling at best, or delusional ramblings at worst. Can't have your cake and eat it. It is only possible to deliver a serious truth in an unserious manner to someone who already knows it; contemplate why that is the case. Genuinely wishing you luck.

To clarify my point, I didn't mean anything intentionally malicious like that, the clip was just a meme that came to mind on the spot. An example would be using ADHD as an excuse for failing your classes because "it's simply impossible for me to sit down and focus on studying the exam material like everyone else, you wouldn't understand" — that's one I've used for many years and only recently put a stop to by taking responsibility. Or an addiction-prone person (also something I'm familiar with, runs in the family. I'd call that ND too.) demanding endless second chances and tolerance of their destructive behaviors while refusing to take any degree of accountability and continuing to hurt their loved ones by lying, stealing, or what have you. In both cases, the internal victim-abuser dynamic is intricately intertwined, and none of it is done consciously. From what I hear, Bojack Horseman is a show that depicts this sort of thing very well. I don't disagree whatsoever that rejection and fear are common reactions, it's only natural to want to fit in and whatnot. Just saying that it's a double-edged sword, neither of the two extremes (being completely ignorant of the label &or rejecting it vs. embracing it so fully it's what defines and limits you) are healthy. Balance, as always, is key. It would certainly be a major setback, I'd be left in a state of confusion for a time and then have to develop my understanding from scratch. On the other hand, sometimes wiping the slate clean can be a good thing. Whether it would be so in this case, I don't know. It's a nuanced matter. Yes, I can appreciate that. And the desire to help is admirable. However, looking at some of the responses here and in other threads, a change of delivery style, tone, structure, formatting, etc. would get the message across clearer and therefore serve people better. What the post above mine said. In a world where we communicate through language, even the deepest truths don't count for much without proper articulation.

Be more accurate to say it is important to learn about and can fill in crucial gaps for you that are rarely discussed/explained properly, but 'all problems' is an overstatement (well, gotta clickbait somehow 😉). I'm one of the most neurodivergent motherfuckers out there. Some mix of ADHD, asexuality, psychopathy, autism, and perhaps a touch of schizophrenia in varying proportions. Plus a couple rare genetic mutations having to do with metabolism and the like. Why is accepting ND an issue? It's neither a point of pride nor something to be ashamed of, and whether your 'symptoms' are empowering or debilitating (almost always it's a tradeoff of both), just work with that. Though this isn't the spirituality section, one personal counterexample to your claim is love. Before my first few mystical experiences I had no clue what that thing is. People grieving after terrorist attacks, getting into romantic relationships, friendships, patriotism, protecting the environment, etc., it didn't compute. And no amount of studying autism/psychopathy or whatever ND trait responsible would enable me to feel love. Only an awakening to absolute, existential Love did that, which I now understand deeper than almost any human on the planet. But it's all twistedly interconnected, the reason I could have that awakening in the first place is because I was extremely open to psychedelics due to high risk tolerance and low fear response (from ND), which made even terrifying aspects of Love a cakewalk. However, I wasn't aware of that back then and only recognized in retrospect. Now, my baseline emotional sensitivity is still bottom of the barrel, nothing to be done about that, but at least I've developed high emotional intelligence derived from an understanding of bias, attachment, limitation, fear, anger, and finitude as aspects of existential Love. No other method for such a case. Now, a counterexample to my own counterexample that supports your point is that you can't, for instance, meditate or awaken your way out of ADHD/Schizophrenia. There, medication is required, and the sooner you accept that the better. And yet it's still hairy, as the diagnosis has to be airtight, free of any self-deception, otherwise trouble ensues. I don't have anything against labels as long as they aren't used to play the victim or justify some selfish behaviors. Then it becomes a tool of the devil instead of a way of self-knowing.

True enough, it's very loosely thrown around. I just didn't want to start a separate thread to post my protocol in. Apologies for getting a bit defensive. Dank je wel, same to you. A few minor observations is that Creatine is rather stubborn at dissolving in water, so I'll switch it to tea instead. Glycine water on the other hand is very pleasant to drink. EVOO is also nice, plus here in Spain it's HQ and dirt cheap. I've noticed that almost immediately after downing all my morning supplements I feel a bit odd, like a mix of nausea and anxiety, which passes after 3-5 min tops. It's likely due to the new addition of MSM, should go away soon enough once body adapts. What else, think I fall asleep a good deal quicker on the nights I take Vit C instead of EGCG, guess a dose like that makes one sleepy, but cannot be taking it every day. I can already see improvements in my immune system, in the past when going out in weather like we have now I'd be lucky not to catch a cold, but lately it's been just fine. Get a pill organizer like this if you don't have one already, it's pretty much perfect. Didn't find it particularly effective tbh, perhaps my ADHD is just too bad. What works though is tunes associated to a specific positive experience, like the one played in a TV scene that gave me an idea that started the chain of events leading to buying my apartment. Different ones for each activity of course — one for ingenious planning, another for chill methodical work, the third for working out or getting hyped up before a big event.