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Yes! My experiences are as follows • body is dead asleep, the body cannot move, cannot respond, consciousness is fully awake but unbounded by the body. • I experience paranormal phenomenon, seeing entities, projections of fear of the unknown, seeing behind my head, feeling a presence of an other. I describe it as the underworld of your psyche where all the creepy crawlers dwell. •fear of death and a clinging to certainty. Great resistance. •there is a book by osho on Leo's booklist with some meditative practices and there is a specific technique used by Ramana maharshi which resulted in him experiencing ego death as a young boy, he had a paralysis but he decided to just let the body die, remain alert and just look without panicking. He noticed the body became stiff and it resulted in his enlightenment. Powerful shit if you can remain conscious throughout a paralysis,

Tying in Leo's recent episode on exploring the nature of conformity, and looking at conformity through my own direct experience I realize that most of how people treat and experience Thanksgiving is pure conformity! Thanksgiving in of itself has a core to it that we can say is the essence of why Thanksgiving was created, the kernel of Thanksgiving. Thanksgiving is relative to any given culture, many subcultures celebrate it differently, different foods, different ways of celebrating it, but outside the tradition and norms within a family household, the point of Thanksgiving is to experience Love. Not just absolute Love, the Love of God, but to share ones personal love with another, albeit an ethnocentric form or maybe even a stage green form of love that extends beyond familiar people onto strangers or giving back to those not well off, sharing and giving are the main themes. Thanks-Giving! People take!!! It's for Absolute Love to bust through the ego and petty human survival at least once a year someone out of the billions on this planet, might let actual Truth and Love to shine through. It's not about the food, it's about Being Love. Being grateful of existence and sharing that love with another even if they can't see that, this is Thanksgiving. At least for me lol. Being in love, seeing through the social conformity machine and still washing dishes, serving food, sharing moments and giving to those that are moving in the machine is my state of consciousness at the moment. No superiority, no moral judgment, no guilt for not eating to make others feel comfortable, no looking down on those that are operating from conformity. Free from the craving and bad food heaviness after endulging. No craving for the foods I once splurged on. No Internal resistance. Sitting at the table with family is what is meaningful while paradoxically seeing it has no meaning is a beautiful thing, like an impossible shape. Knowing their are those that don't have a family, food. I give and extend my love to them and even further to the animals and further into all beings in the universe and finally further to God as my self. Self love.

Conformity really starts when we are children because that equals our survival and is necessary. But at a certain point in our own development and maturity you have to integrate and transcend conformity to sovereignty. The educational system is a conformity machine and we are taught to conform! Don't think for yourself, other authority figures are right and your own thinking is wrong, memorize test etc we're not taught to question everything, to trust our own experience, not just to study and admire great thinkers and figures of history but to self-actualize our own potential as unique sovereign individuals A very great quote by Terence McKenna "my goal is not to connect with the inner child, but to transcend culturally induced forms of neoteny".

Have him watch some of Leo's older episodes on the implications of spiral Dynamics and his episode stage orange of spiral dynamics

Holy fuck Leo, I've spent 3 hours rewinding and rewatching the first hour of the episode. Because a lot of this stuff slips in one ear and out the other and I'm very careful to not overlook every sentence you're saying. I'm not taking it on as dogma and just parroting you, I'm really listening. There's just so much and I appreciate you breaking down David Chapman's website and clarifying those four key distinctions

The intro quote; my first name is also Robert, cool. Also David's website is " in the cells of an eggplant"?

I've only taken LSD and psilocybin. And here are the levels of the experiences that I have had. 1• Body sensation, dreamy but not sleepy. 2•Very deep thoughts, reflect on past, parents and forgiveness of those that hurt me, even forgiving mom and dad for anything I cried about as they raised me. Seeing how I never truly loved them, only manipulated them to get something to serve me. Kind of like how you never truly love or care about someone until they're dead and you're watching them in the casket, except that I was able to have this realization while they were alive. 3• Preparing for departure. Getting ready to surrender all expectations and to be humble and open to what is about to happen. 4• Acceptance of death, suffering and pain. Putting the light of consciousness on the dark side of reality. Embracing all of existence, especially the parts that do not serve my ego or survival. 5• Panic, despair and total break from reality and sense of self. Some people scream at this point, I usually tell someone and hold onto their arm for dear life. 6• Then reality sucks you in like a whirlpool or black hole. I become infinite, God. I'm drowning in an ocean of hallucinations, I become cosmic and universal. My entire sense of existence is cracked and then completely shattered. 7 Complete surrender and utter embrace of reality, you see that your existence was the ultimate trip. You know you are God dreaming up all this and lost in its own infinity and creation. I've even seen God as myself, like a little God and a Big God. The little God is me having these insights and realizations and the big God, completely stoned on the floor, crying, laughing and not in control of the self that I thought I was in control of. Completely outside the survival game. Death is only the flip side of life. There is also a rebirth, a complete transformation. Your egoic patterns still come back but you can never be asleep to them again, even if you do get lost and distracted in the dream. You can never be fully asleep now.

I totally see what you're saying. I never liked the smell of cannabis either, I acquired a taste for it just through pure conformity of seeing the people close to me praising the smell, using slang words that reflect their love of it but it was only because they were influence by hip hop, people around them smoking etc. If I'm completely honest with myself I don't mind the smell because I got used to it but at the same time it is very unpleasant. Knowing about the THC isolate being more powerful and potent I can use that sparringly instead of rolling up a joint like a copycat, although there's nothing wrong with smoking a joint in and of itself

All I drink is water from plastic bottles, what do you recommend? There's so much social media bullshit and nonsense that floods the information ecosystem that it's hard to know what changes to make.

People can smoke cannabis flowers habitually, I like to do it sometimes during the night, what do you mean don't use THC chronically? Why? Compared to smoking a joint chronically

Why do I get high? To socialize? To party? To talk shit with friends? No!!! When I get high, I see through the social delusions. I look at my phoniness and masks, I see through people's masks and personality. I see people hiding their pain and calling it joy, I see distractions everywhere. I want to be with myself, reality and face hard truths that scare my ego, sometimes a little distraction is okay, but ultimately this is a lifelong journey

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I have conformed to smoking cannabis flowers! I am very very sensitive to psychedelics and cannabis, and I am very happy to have found you because you reflect and call out my conformist delusion. ironically I'm conforming to you, but at the same time I'm self reflecting on my conformity and I really am trying to crawl and climb out of this conformist well.

I've been transitioning to a whole foods nutrition that I tested and experimented with over a period of a few years. I've always been lean, athletic, blessed with good genes, I weigh between 135,140 lbs. I train more than most people, I've been athletic since I was a baby, no medical issues, so this list of things I eat may not be suitable for everyone but I think it's not a bad list. No more caffeine for me at all anymore!!! I would compensate my fatigue and lack of nutrition for energy drinks, coffee, pre-workout ect but now I feel more energetic, more alive, more vital, and super clean compared to before because I would push through and survive through workouts. Also I've reached athletic peak and flow not just because a whole foods nutrition, I've released a lot of negative emotions, judgements and resentment due to trauma bonds and reacting to be gaslit, and emotionally reactive to other people's seemingly personal attacks on me. I've studied narcissism a lot to the point of letting go of my resentment and grievance, having compassion for people that live miserably and have dysfunctional psychological development. I have no need to feed the cycle of defending, explaining and trying to solve other people's problems, and setting firm boundaries out of self love. That freed up a bunch of energy. Also I love to do deep diaphragmatic breathing, breath work, shamanic breathing, that clears your system and oxygenates your brain and body. Here's what's I eat. •Early morning, 7:00am: Ginger shot 2 oz. Organic lemon, tumeric powder, dash of black pepper, an Inch of ginger. Then I take 5 grams of micronized creatine monohydrate. •8:30am: 2000 mg of cordyceps mushroom capsules, 2 squares of 100% pure dark chocolate, brand Alter Eco blended with water, 2 dates, frozen banana, frozen blueberries, 1 tsp beet powder, 1 tsp of maca powder, 1 tablespoon of chia seeds, 1 tablespoon of ground flax seeds and 1 tablespoon of raw almond butter blended all together. Delicious. •9:30am: Train/run/sparring/high intensity workouts. •12:00pm: Main Meal. Baked Japanese sweet potatoes, sauteed zucchini, 3 organic pasture raised eggs, the yolk is beautiful, sliced organic jalapenos, one avocado, broccoli florets and arugula and spinach all tossed together, I don't eat in one sit, I split it throughout the day because it's full filing and satisfying and not like eating just to eat, but for performance. •5pm: 1 organic lady Alice apples sliced with pink Himalayan sea salt and lemon juice, 1 organic green Granny Smith apples sliced as well. •7pm: raw sliced almonds and raw cashews eaten by a handful. •Oh yeah and plenty of water at least 2 liters.

Conformity is your survival at its root. Mechanical survival. It seems to just be how reality is for you. It's difficult to see how your a conformist zombie because your response wether for or against the idea of you being a conformist is picked up, fabricated by your minds bias's. You may think you don't conform, that you have independent thoughts, you don't. Your thoughts, emotions, reactions, choice of words, all conformity. Even when you self reflect on your vocabulary in mundane moments such as talking with someone, when you bring mindfulness into how your speaking as a regurgitating monkey, you'll try to steer of and consciously select words, your still operating in a conformity box with your outside thinking only along the edges of your conformity. Your conforming to the social matrix because the social matrix is what you are, not actually, but conceptually, survivally. Busting through your conformity is like seeing the light of the sun as you raise your head out of a dark cave

Love listening to your playlist recommendations. I listen when I'm skateboarding and driving. I detoxed a lot of the garbage music I would listen to, especially rap and hip hop. There are still some great songs but ultimately a lot of that shit is garbage and toxic. Have you played the game Spartan total warrior? There's a great soundtrack on there titled "don't mess with Leo". Check it out

Ok. How would you recommend smoking my freebase? the thca isolate puzzle is solved, now curious as to how you would blast in with 5meo freebase

@LambdaDelta How can I get this??????

Tremendous! Does this work for freebase 5meo as well? Thank you very very much Leo.

@Leo Gura The RDA+Squonk+flavorless vape juice is all I need to make a vape pen? Then I add the isolate and boom I'm good to go?

🫡✈️ I'm heading to mars

How many mgs? That shit is powerful. I cannot stand being stoned around stoned people.

Right! Even your earlier self-help videos would attract what the ego is searching for and your titles have gnarly hooks that are appeasing to sleepwalkers and once they got deep in the video, you basically disarm the ego, like the cleverness of the fox when it pretends to be playful to the cat only to snap its neck metaphorically. You jump up and down and smile to attract ego and once it's in there you spook the shit out of it into seeing it's absurdity and lack of consciousness helping to jolt one out it's dream of hell. What I love the most about you is you give super advanced wisdom and you also remind us to not depend on you and to transcend the training wheels and take risks of self actualizing.

This may be subjective, but all I have is my experience so I understand the paradox of speaking generally. I realized that what Leo is doing within the content of his episodes, even the beginning of actualized.org, all your old videos up till your new videos, you play the role as the shocker. I call you the shocker, like when someone is asleep and you jolt them awake. I'm not saying you're forcing people to wake up, but people are asleep. And the reason why I'm attracted to you is because I have awoken, and naturally I tend to look to see who's awake, even though I'm still fairly asleep even after I woken up. When you're talking to us, you're being filtered through the egoic mind, and I recognize that your wisdom is being distorted by ego, and the point of meditation and mindfulness in this work is to shed light on our asleepness. I got a hit on this last night, because I was listening to your episode on why truth is the highest value, and the first 12 minutes scared my ego and I wanted to fall asleep to avoid hearing it. It's like I'm a spiritual masochist and sometimes truth can be overwhelming to the ego. That's all I wanted to say. That you Leo are a shocker and I'm sure many people have felt hurt not by your words but because they have so many defenses and your wisdom can sometimes leak in or bust through those defense doors and when Consciousness shines through a dark cave, the bats and the ghosts and vampires do not like it.

People are sleep walking through life. thinking they are awake, the eyes are open but the mind is blind. Awakening is realizing that you are dreaming. You awaken from one dream into another, awakening is infinitely self awakening.